Writing and Camp Nanowrimo

This is a public entry.

I continue to f-lock stuff about my life, but to talk publicly about my writing, so suffice to say I'm doing okay and my online class is nearly done, now let's talk camp nanowrimo!

If you haven't even heard about it, or don't know details, it's basically nanowrimo (write 50k of a novel in a single month) in the summertime. They've launched a new site for it, which isn't totally set up and therefore July is sort of a beta-version and August is supposed to be the full version. My intention was to write during BOTH months.

These past two months, I've been doing 750words.com. After a really busy semester when I transferred to UMCP, I did virtually no writing during the school year. I wrote a couple short things, and some drabbles, and a comparatively small amount of fanfiction, but that was it. 750words got me writing daily again. In June I was dedicated to maintaining my streak, which meant doing SOMETHING every day, even if I didn't feel like it. As a result, I wrote about 53k words in June. Some of it are short, unrelated things, but some of it has continuity. I was doing this 25 Days of Writing exercise that essentially helps you build a new character (I only did the first 11 days and intend to finish out the prompts sooner or later), wrote about 10k of this silly thing that's technically fanfic, and wrote about 18k now about these two characters I really like, in second person.

Overall, it was just REALLY good for my writing, and I'm really happy with myself for basically reaching a goal I have set for myself eight times in eight years without ANY planning, when it's something I try to do every November and fail as often as I succeed. I know this isn't a 53k word novel, it's bits and pieces, but it's still really cool!

Anyway, long story short, I broke my streak at the start of July because I was fretting about camp nano and just forgot to write, and since then, I haven't been writing every day like I had been for I believe 37 days. I haven't really written anything since the first, although I have been RPing. I'm basically scrambling to finish things for my class and to write a 8-10 page paper, so I have a good excuse. But I'm a little disappointed in myself for stopping when I had a good thing going.

And re: camp nanowrimo. I wanted to do it in July, but I had about five different ideas, and couldn't settle on one. Even worse, some I'd technically started, and that always feels like cheating for nano. I wanted to do it right. So I told myself I was committing to this idea I have that involves two psychics who are best friends and depend on each other an awful lot, where the main plot would pertain to my one main character's grandfather. I'm not doing that now. I know I'm not gonna start writing until the 10th or 11th because of this paper, and I know if I try and do a novel in 20 days, instead of a month, I'll drive myself insane. PLUS I will then tell myself to start ANOTHER new novel in August, which is just moronic. There's no way I'll be done with this, putting it aside if it's going well will be damaging to it, and yet I'll feel really bad "cheating" especially when Lydia might do camp nano with me in August, and I want to do it "right" if we're doing it together.

So, I'm going to chill out about it until my class is done. And I'm going to work on the story idea I already have 18k words for. I'm feeling these characters a lot. Even though, at first, I just added a scene every couple days when I felt like writing assholes and violence, it's starting to have continuity. It's really experimental (second person much?) and even though it sort of has the overarching plot of "these two drug-cookers are trying to legitimize themselves in the world of underground crime" it's mostly just me playing with their interpersonal dynamic. They're horrible to each other, and the stuff I've already written is really gratuitous. I hesitate to even call it a "novel," but I'm okay with it being a "story." Now that I'm sort of committing to it, when before it was a casual thing I wrote if writing it would be good for my daily words, I'm thinking about plot and story structure and rising and falling action. I'm realizing that if I'm writing about criminals, I probably need to figure out who the "good guys" are and they need to start causing trouble for my narrators.

I'm excited about writing these guys still, I feel good about doing it a little more "seriously," but even though I'm sort of telling myself I'm writing a novel in a month, I don't want to make it a "big thing." I'm really good at doing that, and generally speaking, it's bad for my writing. The past two years, these past two months as much as anything, have proven that a certain amount of structure is good for me (keep track of your writing every month; write every day) but beyond that, just let things happen organically. If I don't pressure myself too much, I feel really good about myself.

So, yeah, we're doing this thing. Drug-cookers in July, and then since I intended to back-burner them anyway, in August I'll be writing about the psychic besties no matter how July goes. Hopefully I'll take a day out to plan a little before then, and I'll be able to feel good about that, too.

GYWO Finagling

This post makes me want to hate myself.

I haven't done word count finagling since February. So this will be counts for March, April, and May. I know I did very little writing in March and April because of class, so I'm just kind of OH GOD UGH because this is also the time when I format drabbles to count them and I've just FORGOTTEN some of the things I've done and the way I organize my folders makes it very easy to find something IF I KNOW WHAT I'M LOOKING FOR but if I just want to find EVERYTHING FROM A FEW MONTHS it's a bitch. So here we go.

-Orange Soda - 2,201 words
-Nickels and Dimes - 581 words
-Candid Footage - 3,113 words
-A Lapse in the Quiet - 1,228 words
-Antiquities - 1,467 words
-164 Haiku - 2,270 words
-Second Person Romance - 387 words
-Looking Back - 318 words
-Chill Rigor - 298 words
-Scrawled Anthems - 372 words
-Spun as the Sun - 345 words
-No Pretty Bauble - 278 words
-A Bitter Meal - 509
-750Words for May - 25,991 words

TOTAL THUS FAR: 39,358 words

I'm not going to lie, this really disappoints me. Last year, this is the sort of writing I would do in one month, not three. I hated having so little time to write during the semester, and I hate looking back now and acknowledging it. I'm five months into the year, and I've written roughly equal to what I should be doing in two months for GYWO. I know word count isn't everything, but I'm also not immensely thrilled with the content. Most of what I've done in this tally is my daily pages, and some of my daily pages are really good stuff. But some of it is just weird and dumb and I basically feel like I didn't finish anything. I'm hoping to write more this summer, and actually have a PROJECT. I miss that.

On that front... I have some notes in my paper notebook that I need to type up and count for words. I got some ideas from my 19th Century Lit class, and one of them is for a novel-length story technically in the same world as Lyrica, but completely separate in terms of characters and location. I still want to write Lyrica, but basically I psyched it up so much in my head that I just can't write any of those characters any more. And I have character sheets for all fourteen of them, and I actually wrote A LOT of drabbles about these guys, but when it gets down to story form with continuity I just fuck myself.

And for my daily pages, most of it is technically one-shot stories. It's all original characters, no fandom stuff. A lot of it is really violent and also really gay. And I am gathering I just really want to write characters with a dynamic of "best friends who primarily interact/communicate with physical violence, who may or may not be painfully in love with each other." So I have some ideas in the works for a novel, rather than the second person, no-names approach I've been doing on 750words.

This is basically it. Two novel ideas, and 750words will probably be my saving grace for doing GYWO this year. I don't know how long I'll keep it up, since I only did about half the days in May, but I'm doing June's month challenge and I'm already over 8k words and I've only written five days. If I keep this up... I'll probably write ~42k this month. This makes me feel really good, since at least half of it will be things that I like.

Anyway.

TOTAL THROUGH MAY: 54,618

Help_Japan

I'll make this as brief as possible.

People on LJ probably know about help_japan and auctioning off writing for charitable things to help. People who know me, know that I write. Pretty much all I'd feel confident offering is original stories and HiNaBN fanfic, so I'm not sure if this is worthwhile. I don't know if anyone would bid on an offering from me.

Fanfic, I will write any pairing and any rating and can be pretty inclusive as to what kinks or odd things I'd feel comfortable doing. For this, I'd be willing to write the pairings I generally say I dislike or even hate. I'd just want to warn that if it's something I don't generally like, someone should be leery about asking for it.

Original stories, I write urban/modern, futuristic, AU, utopian/dystopian fantasy mostly, some sci-fi, romance. Any rating. I've never done something like this so I wouldn't even know quite how to advertise my skills, and I don't have many public examples of my original writing. I have two nice things on DA, some stuff on fictionpress that's less nice, and maybe some stuff in here or some flash fiction I could post here just to showcase.

I'd probably do 1k word minimum, something like 5k word maximum, and I imagine I could offer two pieces to two highest bidders.

You guys, is this something worthwhile?

GYWO 2011 and Word Count Finagling Through February

I have about a million papers to write and I keep finding excuses to do other things (at least one of the other things has been doing various readings that are ALSO for class, but it still feels like procrastination), so here I am. Hopefully this won't take too much time.

Last year, I pledged 250k and wrote over 350k. So for this year, I pledged 300k. That is starting to look like a goal FAR loftier than I will be able to reach. It's not even March, and I'm already constantly thinking "well maybe I'll be able to catch up in the summer." The semester has left me so that even when I have free time, I feel too emotionally drained to write. Writing ends up looking like a chore, and not something I do for fun. Or if not that, I end up with this apathetic feeling that any words I put down would be shit, so I just won't put down words.

I should have 50k written by tomorrow. Hell fucking no am I anywhere near that goal. I also completely skipped doing this in January, so I'll be scraping together anything from that month into this tally as well.

I have realized that the haiku I frequently pen do count as writing, and that I'm pretty sure GYWO allows poetry as well as prose. They'll be minuscule word counts, since they're maybe 15-20 words a pop, but even that is something.

-Beneficence - 213 words
-Composed - 303 words
-Bubblegum Dreams - 223 words
-Down A Peg - 284 words
-Coveted Privilege - 275 words
-The Trial - 275 words
-City in Monochrome - 278 words
-The Rules - 355 words
-Midnight Snack - 336 words
-Chivalry Paralyzed - 289 words
-The Time of Yearning - 304 words
-A Disguise Most Enjoyable - 309 words
-A Thing or Two About Running - 364 words
-A Dream That Would Never Be - 451 words
-Neat and Measured - 248 words
-Truth Etched, Stare Painted - 339 words
-Cruising By In the Night - 297 words
-008 - A Last Dessert - 425 words
-009 - Warmth Not Artificial - 526 words
-010 - Bliss - 614 words
-009 - Flick of the Wrist - 3,448 words
-Crawl Inside - 2,305 words
-Cubicle Minefield - 1,007 words
-Scheduled Accidents - 998 words
-Bonding Fic Scene One - 794 words

TOTAL THUS FAR: 15,260 words

The majority of these were bits of flash fiction written for neopets writing contests I've held. A couple are little pieces of fanfiction. Crawl Inside was written for a prompt ganked off of a livejournal community that I'm not actually a member of. And Cubicle Minefield and Scheduled Accidents were both written for the character challenge on GYWO. I have two more things I intend to write for that challenge, I guess sometime in March if I have a little more free time.

The haiku I write are scattered between the five notebooks I take to my five different classes, the notebook I'm filling with odds and ends as a present to Ven, and the little notebook I keep in my purse at pretty much all times. I think there are also a couple in the notepad on my phone. I'll probably type them all into a document at some point in March and include them for that tally. The word count will be small, but I think it's worth doing, just like tallying my flash fiction is worth doing.

I think this year I might actually count my RP posts. I didn't last year, because I didn't need them to make my total. But if my counts are still waaaay behind by like... June I guess, I'll go through my RP documents and see how that looks. It's within the GYWO rules, and they ARE narrative-style writing. So there it is.

I wish I could write now, but it's off to papers and that reading for class tomorrow. Sigh. It's lame, because for once I feel like whatever I put down might be worthwhile, and I really can't afford to spare the time.

Final Word Count Finagling

So Tasha's here, and I haven't been making time to write, and I probably won't make any time until the new year. Get Your Words Out is ending, and I think I was supposed to already have in my final total for the year. I was over my pledge amount in OCTOBER, so even if I did fuck this up, the spreadsheet will already register me as having "won" my pledge or whatever the terminology is. I kind of completely forgot to tally in November. So here is... Everything.

-004 Alastair Character Sheet - 2,118 words
-005 Jayson Character Sheet - 1,398 words
-006 Darren Character Sheet - 1,470 words
-Applied Hallucinations (Nano 2010) - 23,673 words
-The Madhouse - 3,511 words
-Someone New - 1,028 words
-Something Nasty - 1,865 words
-Incidents in Isolation (Part Alpha: Most Demented of Artists) - 1,672 words
-Paved With Paper - 226 words
-That Liquid Veil - 165 words
-Global Enterprises Calling - 355 words
-Maintain the Pose - 246 words
-Diplomacy and Tact - 234 words
-Best of Intentions - 186 words

TOTAL: 38,147

This total is kind of sad, since it's actually for two months, one of which was nano. I've actually written a bit more of my story for theme 009, and a bit of part beta of my sentence-fic, which is what Incidents in Isolation is. And I have part of my outline for nano and my outline for The Madhouse written, but only by hand, not on my computer. But nevertheless...

PREVIOUS YEAR TOTAL: 324,829 words
YEAR TOTAL OVERALL: 362,976 words

I'm still happy to have written an amount greater than the highest level of pledge, especially when I expected to write so much less than this. This doesn't include the first scene I wrote for my World Enough and Time rewrite, either. I want to work on that -- sort of. When I sit down with the documents in front of me, the story comes. But when I think about what I feel like writing, so many other things have so much more appeal. More likely, I'll write some more of The Madhouse, and work on the outlines for my Lyrica project. I want to decide which book I want to work on first (there are going to be like... seven, it's weird having a series in the work after being so against that for so long) and then get things more together. And I want to work on Claribel's story, because that was supposed to be novella-length and easy to write, and I just... Wandered away. I have fanfic to write. And I want to get back to A Chess Game Romance, since Maggie is giving me her winner's code for nano, and I could have that done by June while I don't know if I could have Applied Hallucinations done.

I thought that writing the story that has been in me for over five years, that I'm already so invested in the characters for, even if I hadn't given them concrete names and histories, would keep me motivated. But, of course, that wasn't the case. I got kind of mentally bogged down in feeling that I wasn't staying true to what the story COULD be, and just getting all tangled up in my head. I'm still going to write it. But clearly I don't want to just crap it out, like nano tends to do.

I still love writing, guys. I need to submit these numbers, and I need to re-pledge for next year, because I'm totally doing this again. It was an EXCELLENT experience, and it really kept me motivated to just be writing SOMETHING, anything, to just keep the words moving from me to the page.

Prompt Bingo, Take Two

After writing the previous entry and thinking about it with the catalyst of eldestmuse's comment, I decided to grab additional, separate tables for "angst" and "fluff." Which basically means in the next year or whatever, I'm going to churn out seventy-five separate fics for this thing. WTF SELF YOU ARE GOING TO WANT TO DIE.

I still need to write ninety chapters for the hundred themes, plus no less than twenty other fics I wrote up summaries for on my to-do list. I am a batshit. Anyway, tables.

Angst:

Assault Murder Shattered Hate Dubcon
Damaged Separated Cheating Illness Broken Bones
Blackout Unrequited Love Authors Choice Violence Isolation
Abuse Cruel Scars Rejection Secrets
Bitter Ache Loss Empty Goodbye


Fluff:

Infatuation Childhood Endearments Bubble Bath Domestic
Grateful Making Up Anniversary Kisses Memories
Vacation Soulmates Authors Choice Sleeping In Best Friends
Matchmaker Knight In Shining Armour Summer Children Certainty
Date Surprise Flowers Romantic Gestures First Date


Please, feel free to tell me how insane this is. At least I seem to have the foreseeable future, instead of a deadline.

Fandom Meme!

I haven't done one of these memes in ages. It'd probably be easier to fill all of the slots if I did it for more than one fandom, but I'm just going to see if I can do it for HiNaBN fandom. I'm not tagging anyone, but if you're a fandom friend this might be amusing to read (if you haven't heard this crap from me already in other contexts).

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Prompt Bingo

As a result of seeing an entry from eldestmuse, I went and looked into the promptbingo comm here on LJ. I remember back in the summer hearing about kink bingo on dreamwidth, but at the time I wasn't writing for any fandoms and the comm was strictly fandom, no original stuff, so I couldn't participate. Now there's a comm that allows original writing, plus I have a fandom I'm quite dedicated to. So I signed up for a card.

Sex in vehicles
Undressing Self-harm Betrayal Shower
Destruction Needles Phobia Silence Nightmares
Protectiveness Handjobs Foreplay Sexual Discovery "I need you."
Panic attack Celibacy BDSM Freedom Orgasm Denial
Heartbreak Touching Public Displays of Affection Submission Cross-dressing


I'm excited! My tags for this are "author: lira, fandom: Hanna is Not a Boy's Name, fandom: original." GUESS WE'LL SEE HOW IT GOES.

Although I was totes trying to get kink, angst, and fluff prompts all in one table, and was asked if I'd like three tables. I asked for just the one, for now. I'm kind of wishing I had asked for all three tables right away, since I probably need regular prompts more than I need kinky ones. Good job self.

TRANSFER ACCEPTANCE

GUESS WHO JUST GOT ACCEPTED FOR TRANSFER TO UNIVERSITY OF MARYLAND COLLEGE PARK?

That is right. Me.

I'm not going to attentionwhore enough to make any sparkly, attention-grabbing GIFs, but such delight, let me tell you. Or really, more than anything, relief. The most important part is done, I've had my tour of the campus, now to just get all the bits and pieces together and do this thing.

Derpy Pics of Derp

I'm gonna post this as a public post, just so I can link to it and shit. Even though I'm a bit embarrassed of all of these.

So, at about 4am on Sunday during the con Amy and I were in McDonalds and I was still dressed as Worth. My hair was peeking out from my wig a whole bunch and I was too tired to fix it, as well as my stubble being halfway worn off and pretty crazy-looking. I also apologize for the few glimpses of my undershirt in some of these pictures. We were just being total shits and I figure some people would like to see.

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And yes, these all totally needed to be spaced out with really bizarre Worth!dialogue I vomited forth while coding this. These pictures will probably stretch your screens, and I may be able to fix that. We are such weirdos.