tearYOURwingsOFFatTHEspineANDtapeTHEMtoTHEbackOFmine..

i havent posted in months,im really into bebo now-because my gorgeous sissykins is on there!
i hacked my hair off in a courtneyloveintrapped/jennajameson-doo on thursday,
and i werk at burgerv fuel with the jew now,
the end.
oh,and if yew read this hayley lucinskey;
i love you anbd hope all is swell with you!-you are a precious,precious credit to this world!xxkisses

today i got a gorgeous new/old pair of catseye sunglasses and a much older and cewter sodastream complete with gas bottle and glass soda brewering bottle..

...i also got totally abused by multiple asshole males cause aparently i look like a whore since i was dressed so damn sluttily,you know,as i was literally covered in clothing from head to toe apart from my arms,neck and face,of course...oh my goth what was i thinking leaving my face uncovered?!!!-why wouldnt i get abused for looking oh-so slutty with my face showing?

but seriously,i wasnt wearing anything tight,my bambi tshert isnt even tight,its actually quite loose fitting,the only thing tight that i had on was my leopard print tights,my skert wasnt short and i had two "poof-all-out" petticoats on..and i wear skerts that poof out not just because they look pretty but also so that people wont look at my ass!
yea,so,if you ever wondered why i almost never wear pants,well thats why!

(off the subject off assholes,multiple ladies that i saw while i was in town fussed over me and told me taht i looked lovely..)

sometimes i forget why i hate this town so damn much,but then there are days like this that remind me why i left here.
its a total shithole full of stupid whores,random assholes who dont know you and shout abuse(because heaven forbid somebody wear whatever the fuck they want..) and highburian bitches who will beat the crap out of you.

its a city with a small town attitude as i have said a hundred thousand fucking times before and will continue to repeat again and again.

there are so many amazingly wonderfull people here tho..and the girls that are more like me that live here,handle crap like this so well.. which is probably because they're used to that sort of shit..
(does that sentence even make sense??...)

i really do wonder why i just cant handle this shit...i guess its just my timidity...and the fact that i havent done anything to deserve this treatment...except be myselff

i think all in all my anger and non-handle-able-ness is mainly because nobody really abuses you like that in wellington..or even petone for that matter...


im giving up on this post

bye

this may sound retardedly pompous but i am getting really good at singing in a marilyn sort of style...and,although the werds should explain themselves,by that,i mean that i am getting good at singing in her style-and not that think i sound like her..
....i want my marilyn band nowwww!!!
we will sing such classics as "aaafter,you get what you want you...dont..waaaant it " ," i wanna be loved by you"and "my heart belongs to daddy"
it will happen someday.
im posting auditions for band members right this very second:
"only goddesses need apply.."
(thats an in-joke fewr sewper courtney fans!)
though,i think to truelly be "the marilyn" i should play the ukelele instead of an electric guitar..

tewday i bought..
proudheart kitten carebear cousin
1x niagra-esque-marilyn-style bluey turquoise (skert)suit
mouse ears that tie on like a hat
spongebob libertypants (from b.k)
a little blue suitcase that matches my grandmAS
yellow skert that i cant describe
5x hard plastic beatle wigs..one i recognise as ringos hairr...
a dopey (as in the dwarf) nitelite
and a SEGA!-segasegaSEGAAAAA
ive wanted one since i was teeny weenie,such brilliantness! :)
but anyway,together all of that cost was a nice curvyy $4.70-or so...
no lies!!

i love bargain-er-ing

and you tube..



well,niteyniteyy


eat spinAch and you will be high-in-iron-ous be merry :)

mmmm..spinachh

my daydream is over...

gone



gone






GONNNNE

Could This BE EwE???....

Take a look at your Friends List, and list up to 10 things you want to say to 10 different LJ friends. Do not state who these people are. Do not confirm or deny any comment speculation.

1 ) yew are me and yet different!-we somehow do the same things in same-yet-different-styles...even dati8ng back tew our teeens.. WITHOUT EVEN KNOWING WE WERE DOING IT!!
i wish yew lived with me.
or streets away from me.
you are my favourite non-related girl and you are rarer thann MLP flutterponies in mint condition with wings still attached,much lovelier than vintage dresses with built-in tulle underskirts that poof-out all 50's square-like all by their lalves and much,MUCH swellerr than any hollywood gal cause yewr just plain yew just like im just plain me!-gosh!-only yew and i will ever understand thisssss

2 ) i really dont understand you!-you ALWAYS seem to look at me like im scum and not talk to me cause yewr just "ooooooooooooh sooooo toooooooo coooool for meeee.."
and thenh so very rarily , we will hang out and have a total blast, it will be wonderfull...but thenh,again...the next time i seee yew its back tewww...."ooooooooooooh im sooooo toooooooo coooool for youuuuuu.." - make up yewr freaking mind.
as i quoted the virgin suicides yesterday : "you dont have to talki to me"


3 ) i feel like maybe we could heal each others saddle-sadliness that we get at times if only we were a few more suburbs tewgether!-i luff yew,i adore yew and i am sew happy that i met yew!yew are precious,special and i wish tew see yew more!
-if ever yew need a new home i would gladly share my "50's-meets-the-80's-shoe-box-marilyn-ponyland!-i cant imagine my life without yew now that i know yew and i hop[e that i know yew fewrever!
oh!-and yewr new hair looks totally hot!(what a giveaway!!!)

4 ) yew are pretty in a goofy way which is a gorgeouss,which is not a bad thing.
i sometimes question whether or not you hate me...make that always!
i dont get people nowadays!-you act different around difdferent people?-why cant yew act the same around allll yewr friends of different kinds??
...
OOOPs!-that wasnt a personbal attack,that was adrunken trail of thouighttttttt

5 ) i often-NO_ALWAYS wonder if you are son oblivious to the pain that you cause me.
i love you,you've been my friend fewr...22...21...20...91...81... hats 5 or...more/whatever years,haha!check the typos! i donyt hate you in anyway,and i love you but sometimes you hert me and let me down and im sure you dont mean to- goodness!this could go forever.....

6 )yewr a shitstirrrer ansd thats all i can sayt...except BLLLLLAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH YYYYYEWWWWWWWW SSSSSSUUUUUCVCCCKKKK MONKEY BALLLLLLSSSSSDSSSSS

7 ) i love yew with all my heart which yew break on a regular basis,as i seem to break yours...you ARE my life,my love,my heart,my,soul,my insanity,my anger,my hate,my lust,my dream...maybe even my soulmate?..i love you with every inch of me that i ever had or wantedD to give..even though you drive me crazyy...i love you unconditionally.
in some way...i used to even think you were me!

8 )yew are cewt and bubblelicious!!
i love yewr sweetness and i hope it never fades.



9 )i have never met you and probably will not ever meet you(though,i would like tew) but you seem totally awesome though i do wish that i could read what most of yewr entries that yew write kittykat!!...i wasnt much of a high schoooler....and never rrreally learnt languages!!

10 ) i have properly met you once,hang out with yew informerly twice,casuallly waved tew yew maybe three-four times..and i would really like tew know yew more as the person i met on the first night i met yew....as yew seem wonderfewll....

tagged by xxhazelxx on JUNE THE FIFTH,dear goth im sllllackkk..

Tagged-By Rules: Once you've been tagged, you have to write an entry stating 6 weird facts or habits about yourself. State who tagged you and then tag 6 new people to continue the game.


♥1♥ I'm totally in love with edward furlong,once,i had a dream that he was in love with me,and me being me analysed and analysed it over and over again until i werked out that my dream was me remembering what i had seen of "hurricane streets"(i havent seen the end,but i have had it spoiled for me by lil miss krisi!) crrrazyy,but i merrily in my mind must have changed the leading man(brendon sexton the third)to a pecker-esque mister furlong...its a nice change dont you think??-but anyway,when i woke up i felt guilty like,oh my goth i dream cheated...hehehhh thats sew married with children! note to me..i need to see if i am actually me in dreams by looking in mirrors and sew on,.blah,what a rambler...on to fact/habit twooo

♥2♥ i actually quite enjoy watching "the girls of the playboy mansion" on E! - i think that hugh hefner's number one girlfriend,Holly Madison,is an absolute dollykins,she really reminds me of miss lizzie quite abit..but yea..she seems like a total sweetheart and the show is grand,if yew want me tew explain just ask.
and i dont think that anyone,apart from lani,who reads this journal even knows who lizzie is!
and shes wonderfewll.

♥3♥ my most favouritest band on the planet is "bangs",and while veruca salt changed my life at 12?(or was it 11?-sara,when was dog tv in existance?..)and hole saved me from a totally unflattering form of female empowerment at 14 (the spice girls,come on!-who wasnt a fan?...i even regret selling my albums as of abowt a week and a half ago...i hope i can find them for like $1 a piece-and where the hell did that tacky shert from whereever that erm "jason-twat-head" went go t o?-do you know sara?..) but anyway,bangs TOTALLY changed my life,it was a wednesday,i believe,and me and nicky spall were in me and *anas form room fingerpainting during the lunch-hour(if i remember correctly)when ana burst in and said "jeni bangs are playing in the old gym!" and i said "oh yea!" -as i retraced my memory to a week-or-so earlier when a band flier blew in-between my ankles and i picked it up and read it and said thinkerfully "im going to go to this gig..." and blahhh but this isnt important!!when we went into the old gym,we heard bangs play like 3/4 of one song and literally ran back tew our lockers and got our wallets!-we both bought cds(and big pink band stickers as well,mine of which i still have!cause i totally love it!!)and once theyd finished this gal who was doing the sales on their nz tour said "hey,why dont you get them tew sign them?" and sew,we got them SIGNED,IN PERSON!!! hehee,i will never,EVERRR get over our ridiculous "cool-conversation-making-while-the-awesome-band-members-signed-our-awesome-new-cds" -since the lead singer, sarah utter,had blonde hair with hot pink underneath ana said as she signed our cds "she (being me) used to have pink hair" haha.
that night they also played an all ages gig at the stomach and when we got there the band popped their heads out of their tour van and yelled "hey!!" - they were totally happy tew see us!
-hows that for totally awesome fan appreciative band members...even if your fans have only been into you for like 6 hours.
haha.
but yeah,bangs changed my life.

*my6th form to...whenever she hooked up with rebecca-erm-forhgot-her-name,0h wait!-its murphy,rebecca murphy,yea she was my partner in crime and obscene teewnage songwriting partner till that girlie stole herrr buit anyway..

♥4♥ I have a crazy "oh-so-many degrees" of separation thing with kurdt cobain,which some people think is cool.
and by some people i dont just mean me,some people have gone:"woaaaahhhhhh!-thats cewlll"

here it is:

1.ME,Jennifer McBride,(ha!-screw yew dad!!!)at school on a wednesday..
2.i saw bangs twice on the day i discovered them and they changfed my life!i met the members of which,included miss maggie vail and,maggie vail is the bassist for bangs and......
3....also,the younger sister of TOBI VAIL the evil riot girl feminist bitch drummer for bikini kill who broke kurdt cobains heart and inspired many songs,though kurdt only ever admitted writing "lounge act" about her...but any way...
4.then three is kurdt---tada!! hehee.

HEY!!-if letterman can do it with kevin bacon then i can do it with kurdt!-HAH!!

so thats 3 degrees of wait no,hold on ill just edit...
4 degrees od sewparation from me tew kurdt cobain...and 5 to courtney love if yew think abowt it...6 tew kat bjelland...and sew on......


♥5♥ whenever i am in any shop...of ANY kind,i try as hard as i can tew fit into any lil girls dress tjhat i can and if its anywhere near close tew fitting,i will werk out how i can fix it tew fit me BEFORE buying it!...the odd thing is,that this isnt a total courtney love,kat bjelland rip-off kinderwhore thing!-i have actually ALWAYS done this,no shit,even my friend from primary school haley lucinsky(formerly known as haley hardy)can tell yew about me trying to wear my pretty 5year-old dresses at 8 and sew on...i will never give up!-they looked good at five and GODDAMMIT THEY"LLL LOOK GOOD NOW_AT 22 OKAY????
-but yeah.
i love wearing childrens clothes!
you wouldnt believe the one that im wearing now..and if i remember tewmorrow ill get pics and post!...it must have been for a 4 or 5 year old but now it fits me and its mine FEWR_EVERRR!heheee

♥6♥i really have tew tinkle after all this cask wine and typing and patiently waiting fewr number six!
im sorry and if you hate this one please ask me tew think of a new one!!!
the enddd.


im offf to gooooooooooooooooooooooo

♥in the ferst post i forgot tew tag!
♥i tag lani♥♥ and if theres sixxxx more people who wanna dew this then fucking well do it if yew feeel the need!

*YOU ARE ALL goddamn guilty of this on some level,
alot of you do this to me,
dont try and deny it;
you strike up a conversation with me when you couldnt care less,
you talk to me when its convenient and doesnt mess with your image,
you instantly stop talking or drop a topic whilst talking to me whether in text or in person as if its your little silent hint..yeah,erm,silence...such a grrrreat hint!!!,
you notice that i started talking first but talk over me anyway(if i do this accidentally im actually considerate enough to say "im sorry,what were you about to say.." and in a nice way too!-im not just saying it,i actually want to hear it)..or just plain talk over the top of me when i go to say something to you as if to say "my shits more important",

theres more and moree,

its really just wasting too much of my bidding-war time..

im just like the amazing candy coloured invisible girll of mount cook!

"-Oooh!i could erm fight crime or something!!-invisible crime that is.." -blah,sarcasmm.


i dont get it,seriously,do you think that i am totally blind to all this shit?
or just tooo freakin moronic to realise?

honestly if you actually do consider me your friend or "friendly aquaintance" just cut out the phoney careingness and be real to me or you can fuck off,
i dont need that shit it just aggitates me.grr

Ohhhh and heres another thing people dont seem to get,
when someone is sad or just plain miserable,
they dont actually like just moping around feeling miserable they actually like to be cheered up in some kind of way..i used to think that was common knowledge,but the past 1.5 years or so have shown me that i was wrong,and that not many people actually realise that at all.

i had to mention that because i am actually aware that everybody seems to think that i am a completely miserable nut-case,
which i am not.
i would...no i will but at a later date list reasons why im not a totally miserable semi-psychotic drama-queen but i just really cant be bothered right this minute which has turned into a long hour-ive just given up on what i was actually going to finishh that sentnce with im just tooo bored with typing and this was meant to be a shorty-ishh post!


im going to quote the second oldest lisbon daughter here to endD this post;

"you dont HAVE to talk to me"




(*the "YOU" in "YOU ARE ALL goddamn guilty.." being persons in nz with whom have semi-regular contact..)

dear sara;
one of the JEM videos that you bought me got stuck inside grandma and grandads video player!-pleeeeeease try to remove it without murdering it!
it actually can be done,josh managed to retrieve beetlejuice when it was stuck in my video player without killing it,so i know its true.
please try :).
its waiting patiently to be released!
love from mee.xoxo



dear everyone else;
pity mee.
im getting up at 5.17 to catch the train to wellington at 6!
yaaaaaaaaawwnieess...
ive gotta wander off noww and try to nap!
niteyniteyy

be excellant tew each other..

"merry birthday tew meee,
im a year off 23,
i have lots of jemmmmmm,
and i smell like britneyyyyyy..."

mmm..britney...britney "fantasy",that is.
"in control" smells like ironing..
and "curious" is just plain poo-ey.

22 tewday?...sew odd..i dont like even numberrrs.

my lovely-ouss sister bought me three jem videos and one of them has this most hilariously different theme song!- i would type it out but i havent memorised it yet.
its something like:
"..me and my friends are jem girls!-come on and be a jem girrrrrl...JEM!!"
its sewwwwww freaking wierd.

in other news i heARD from my dad fewr the ferst time in about 5 years-or-so in the form of a rather emotionless email..its sew oddd...i should be merry tew know that hes still aware that i exist,but im still just pissed at him for ignoring me for so damnn long and,for not making any effort to say goodbye to me when he left for his "south island tour".
and sew on..
hes quite a twat,really...


i really cant think of anything else tew say noww...

.sew im going tew leave the computer..

...and watch saved..



.the endD?