Writer's Block: The one that got away
Do you believe in the concept of a soulmate? Do you think you've met him or her? Do you ever worry that "the one" got away?
THE ONE GOT AWAY
THE ONE GOT AWAY
Blah...
Im sitting at home thinking of a bueatiful person an i cry i want so much more from my life i hurt so bad like i never have this is worse by far than i have ever been through im not depressed im just realy lost and i feel fuckin helpless everything im my life couldnt be better but yet i dont whats wrong anymore this is even more confusing to try to write and explain eh i dont kno anymore...
money
so yhea i gotmy tax return back i got $2785.05 back gettingit nex day i $2485.05
its been great so yhea working does pay off....
its been great so yhea working does pay off....
cheap talk from a cheap bitch that doesnt even give good head..or so ive heard
READ THIS STUPID SHIT SUM DUMB FAT BITCH SENT ME.....
Mar 3, 2006 9:31 PM
Subject: Alright, whatever.
Body: Robin,
First off. you need to just fuck off.
learn to keep your stories straight.
honestly, do you think that people wouldnt tell me you were talking shit?
and to start off....WE didnt resolve ANY issues....AND YOU dont need to be telling any of MY friends not to trust me. who the fuck do you think you are?
and another thing, via from marcus....you need to delete yourself from his boyfriends friends list...
oh...and dont message marcus or his boyfriend anymore....they dont wanna hear from you. they dont even like you.
and for your information, marcus's boyfriend isnt cheating on him, the whole "baby carrot" thing was from word of mouth from people, from your ex.
so just get the fuck over it.
dont bother callin amanda anymore either,she finds you annoying..
anywho...so what was this that i hurt you? in fact mr.cyrus...lets get something straight...after you and mike broke up I WAS CALLING YOU TO SEE IF YOU WERE OK. and you call me and you were being a bitch. so thats how you treat a friend. well fine...fuck you then...
so dont go around and talk shit...your the one yourself who said you wouldnt. and obviously your word doesnt even mean shit.
OH and before i forget, whats this that you are going to go up to my mom and tell her all the shit ive been doing? oh really....what shit have i been doing....i havent even been talkin shit about you. but i guess the gloves are off then since your the one starting all this shit.
oh yeah....when you called....that was me yelling faggot in the backround in jessys phone :)
and remember...when i call someone a faggot...its usually cuz the are being a little bitch.
ok..well have a great day....cuz i am...i keep forgetting you exist. :) BYE NOW!
Mar 3, 2006 9:31 PM
Subject: Alright, whatever.
Body: Robin,
First off. you need to just fuck off.
learn to keep your stories straight.
honestly, do you think that people wouldnt tell me you were talking shit?
and to start off....WE didnt resolve ANY issues....AND YOU dont need to be telling any of MY friends not to trust me. who the fuck do you think you are?
and another thing, via from marcus....you need to delete yourself from his boyfriends friends list...
oh...and dont message marcus or his boyfriend anymore....they dont wanna hear from you. they dont even like you.
and for your information, marcus's boyfriend isnt cheating on him, the whole "baby carrot" thing was from word of mouth from people, from your ex.
so just get the fuck over it.
dont bother callin amanda anymore either,she finds you annoying..
anywho...so what was this that i hurt you? in fact mr.cyrus...lets get something straight...after you and mike broke up I WAS CALLING YOU TO SEE IF YOU WERE OK. and you call me and you were being a bitch. so thats how you treat a friend. well fine...fuck you then...
so dont go around and talk shit...your the one yourself who said you wouldnt. and obviously your word doesnt even mean shit.
OH and before i forget, whats this that you are going to go up to my mom and tell her all the shit ive been doing? oh really....what shit have i been doing....i havent even been talkin shit about you. but i guess the gloves are off then since your the one starting all this shit.
oh yeah....when you called....that was me yelling faggot in the backround in jessys phone :)
and remember...when i call someone a faggot...its usually cuz the are being a little bitch.
ok..well have a great day....cuz i am...i keep forgetting you exist. :) BYE NOW!
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general bullshit
im free im not with the dictator i was dating
MARRY ME..... (HE SAID)
I MET A WONDERFUL FRIEND.
AND THEN LOST MY BEST(GUY)FRIEND.
WAS TRICKED BY ANOTHER VERY SNEAKY FRIEND.
WHAT INNOCENCE PLAYS UPON THESE PORCELIN FACES MY "FRIENDS" HAVE.
I HAVE NO ROOM TO TALK BUT I NEVER WANTED TO LOSE OR HURT ANYONE OF MY GROUP.
TO BE SO BLATTENLY TRICKED I HAD ALRAEDY FIGURED IT OUT YOUR ARE A SMART GIRL A VERY SMART ONE,A GOOD BRIAN ON YOUR SHOULDERS EVEN A BETTER ONE TO REMAIN SO CLEAR OF THIS PROBLEM.
FINDING LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES?
NOT ME NEVER.
I AM SORRY THIS GOES ON NO LONGER, I'M OUT OF HERE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
TO MUCH PAIN TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON OR JUST MOVE FOR THAT MATTER.
PRINCESS "I" DO "LOVE YOU" AND TREY IM SORRY THIS WAS NEVER TO BE THIS WAY...
A RING ON OUR FINGERS A PROMISE IN OUR HANDS, ONE IN MY HEART I GIVE AWAY AND RECIEVE JUST THE SAME.
PLEASE DONT REPLY TO THIS JUST READ IT....
AND THEN LOST MY BEST(GUY)FRIEND.
WAS TRICKED BY ANOTHER VERY SNEAKY FRIEND.
WHAT INNOCENCE PLAYS UPON THESE PORCELIN FACES MY "FRIENDS" HAVE.
I HAVE NO ROOM TO TALK BUT I NEVER WANTED TO LOSE OR HURT ANYONE OF MY GROUP.
TO BE SO BLATTENLY TRICKED I HAD ALRAEDY FIGURED IT OUT YOUR ARE A SMART GIRL A VERY SMART ONE,A GOOD BRIAN ON YOUR SHOULDERS EVEN A BETTER ONE TO REMAIN SO CLEAR OF THIS PROBLEM.
FINDING LOVE IN ALL THE WRONG PLACES?
NOT ME NEVER.
I AM SORRY THIS GOES ON NO LONGER, I'M OUT OF HERE AS SOON AS POSSIBLE.
TO MUCH PAIN TIME FOR ME TO MOVE ON OR JUST MOVE FOR THAT MATTER.
PRINCESS "I" DO "LOVE YOU" AND TREY IM SORRY THIS WAS NEVER TO BE THIS WAY...
A RING ON OUR FINGERS A PROMISE IN OUR HANDS, ONE IN MY HEART I GIVE AWAY AND RECIEVE JUST THE SAME.
PLEASE DONT REPLY TO THIS JUST READ IT....
something you wont read....
so what the fuck is up my friends and foes?
i jus wanted to sa hello and that i ahve met a new guy he sweet and he is someone that is great and would surprise alot of people.
well much love to all you s.o.b's
i have have ane job now i work at wendy's bitchez better come and see me!
well guess what? its boring so im out
i jus wanted to sa hello and that i ahve met a new guy he sweet and he is someone that is great and would surprise alot of people.
well much love to all you s.o.b's
i have have ane job now i work at wendy's bitchez better come and see me!
well guess what? its boring so im out
a single heart broken
when you look at eyes what do yo usee? life heart emotion pain hurt?
what i see every time i look in the mirrior is heart ache hurt disfunction a guiable heart soul and mind .
mikey and i broke up i started it cause i cant stand to see him go im hurting i have cried myself to sleep befor i hav ewen to bed if i wasnt fucked up i miss him and hate his fucking gutz and want him to be happy but i want him to be happy with me but it will never happen it will never be...
when walking down a road you come to a fork in the road which way to go?
one way happiness but for you alone is that road
the other road is better for your love but will hurt you
you pick the road for love cuase you would give up your happiness and peace of mind for your soul ,mate.
so i am to my whole i go now life is dismal dark and full of life how much longer befor i lose grip?
not much longer now i will fade not into darkness but myself i will spiral into the abyssis of my self.
smiles....?
CHOW 4 now.....
what i see every time i look in the mirrior is heart ache hurt disfunction a guiable heart soul and mind .
mikey and i broke up i started it cause i cant stand to see him go im hurting i have cried myself to sleep befor i hav ewen to bed if i wasnt fucked up i miss him and hate his fucking gutz and want him to be happy but i want him to be happy with me but it will never happen it will never be...
when walking down a road you come to a fork in the road which way to go?
one way happiness but for you alone is that road
the other road is better for your love but will hurt you
you pick the road for love cuase you would give up your happiness and peace of mind for your soul ,mate.
so i am to my whole i go now life is dismal dark and full of life how much longer befor i lose grip?
not much longer now i will fade not into darkness but myself i will spiral into the abyssis of my self.
smiles....?
CHOW 4 now.....
missing in Love, missing in Action
Lets go down into the darkness of our thoughts thats where we are.
I miss my mikey i hope he comes home soon just a few more days thats all i cant wait.
yes i didnt think i would this much of the so little i would and do see of him.
just a little longer and i will see him his phone is off and very much still in texas.
i went out to a club and didnt enjoy myself cause i was thinking of him.
and there was a lot of hot guys there one wanted to dance and more but i was the good little boy....
well to the point i love him miss him and cat wait to my baby gets home.
CHOW for now all keep clear minds and open hearts remember we are all grown up and exsisting only because we care about something or someone somewhere.
I miss my mikey i hope he comes home soon just a few more days thats all i cant wait.
yes i didnt think i would this much of the so little i would and do see of him.
just a little longer and i will see him his phone is off and very much still in texas.
i went out to a club and didnt enjoy myself cause i was thinking of him.
and there was a lot of hot guys there one wanted to dance and more but i was the good little boy....
well to the point i love him miss him and cat wait to my baby gets home.
CHOW for now all keep clear minds and open hearts remember we are all grown up and exsisting only because we care about something or someone somewhere.
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missing him
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PENIS problem!
Predator makes unusual request
An Inverness sexual predator on probation wants a judge's permission to go to Ocala to have his penile implant repaired.
By ABBIE VANSICKLE
Published September 21, 2005
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INVERNESS - David Spangler, a registered sexual predator, stood before a judge Tuesday morning with an unusual request.
Spangler, 44, sought permission to go to Ocala to have repairs done on his penile implant. He said his current implant makes urination difficult and painful. A condition of Spangler's probation requires him to get a judge's permission to leave the county.
By the end of the hearing, Circuit Judge Ric Howard decided he didn't have enough information to grant or deny Spangler's request. The judge asked for a doctor's note explaining the need for the treatment.
Howard said he needed to be sure the treatment was needed to correct a urinary problem.
"If it's solely for the issue of dealing with impotence, no," Howard said.
The judge then compared Spangler's request with recent stories about the state paying for Viagra for sex offenders. In May, state officials announced they would stop coverage of Viagra and other such drugs for 2-million Medicaid recipients. The decision was made after officials disclosed that more than 200 sex offenders got the drugs through Medicaid.
Spangler, who lives in Inverness, is one of 10 sexual predators currently registered in Citrus County. He said he expects Medicaid to pay for treatment for the implant.
In 1998, he was accused of using a knife and broom to force a 15-year-old girl to have sex with him. He was charged with sexual battery with a deadly weapon, but the charge was reduced to sexual battery as part of a plea bargain that called for him to serve 5 years and 5 months in prison followed by 91/2 years of sex predator probation, according to court records.
The victim's family agreed to the plea deal because they didn't want the girl to have to testify, according to the records.
Spangler told the judge he got the implant years before the incident with the girl to deal with erectile dysfunction. He is disabled, so the surgery was paid for by Medicaid, he said.
"Did the government pay for this penile implant?" Howard asked.
"Yes sir, they did," Spangler replied.
A few years later, he was charged with the sexual battery.
After serving his time in prison, Spangler returned to Inverness, where he is serving probation. A probation official told the judge Spangler is following the requirements of his probation.
Recently, he was one of three sexual offenders allowed to take a voice stress test instead of the standard polygraph that such offenders must take while on probation. Howard made the decision because of Spangler's medical problems, including heart trouble and diabetes. He passed the voice stress analysis, officials said.
Spangler told the judge he needs to go to Marion County for the repairs because that's the location of the closest doctor who can solve the problem. Under the conditions of his probation, he needs to get a judge's permission to leave the county.
If Spangler gets the doctor's note, he needs to show it to his probation officer before going to any appointment, Howard said.
Abbie VanSickle can be reached at 860-7312 or vansickle@sptimes.com Times researcher Caryn Baird contributed to this story.
[Last modified September 21, 2005, 00:23:13]
An Inverness sexual predator on probation wants a judge's permission to go to Ocala to have his penile implant repaired.
By ABBIE VANSICKLE
Published September 21, 2005
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INVERNESS - David Spangler, a registered sexual predator, stood before a judge Tuesday morning with an unusual request.
Spangler, 44, sought permission to go to Ocala to have repairs done on his penile implant. He said his current implant makes urination difficult and painful. A condition of Spangler's probation requires him to get a judge's permission to leave the county.
By the end of the hearing, Circuit Judge Ric Howard decided he didn't have enough information to grant or deny Spangler's request. The judge asked for a doctor's note explaining the need for the treatment.
Howard said he needed to be sure the treatment was needed to correct a urinary problem.
"If it's solely for the issue of dealing with impotence, no," Howard said.
The judge then compared Spangler's request with recent stories about the state paying for Viagra for sex offenders. In May, state officials announced they would stop coverage of Viagra and other such drugs for 2-million Medicaid recipients. The decision was made after officials disclosed that more than 200 sex offenders got the drugs through Medicaid.
Spangler, who lives in Inverness, is one of 10 sexual predators currently registered in Citrus County. He said he expects Medicaid to pay for treatment for the implant.
In 1998, he was accused of using a knife and broom to force a 15-year-old girl to have sex with him. He was charged with sexual battery with a deadly weapon, but the charge was reduced to sexual battery as part of a plea bargain that called for him to serve 5 years and 5 months in prison followed by 91/2 years of sex predator probation, according to court records.
The victim's family agreed to the plea deal because they didn't want the girl to have to testify, according to the records.
Spangler told the judge he got the implant years before the incident with the girl to deal with erectile dysfunction. He is disabled, so the surgery was paid for by Medicaid, he said.
"Did the government pay for this penile implant?" Howard asked.
"Yes sir, they did," Spangler replied.
A few years later, he was charged with the sexual battery.
After serving his time in prison, Spangler returned to Inverness, where he is serving probation. A probation official told the judge Spangler is following the requirements of his probation.
Recently, he was one of three sexual offenders allowed to take a voice stress test instead of the standard polygraph that such offenders must take while on probation. Howard made the decision because of Spangler's medical problems, including heart trouble and diabetes. He passed the voice stress analysis, officials said.
Spangler told the judge he needs to go to Marion County for the repairs because that's the location of the closest doctor who can solve the problem. Under the conditions of his probation, he needs to get a judge's permission to leave the county.
If Spangler gets the doctor's note, he needs to show it to his probation officer before going to any appointment, Howard said.
Abbie VanSickle can be reached at 860-7312 or vansickle@sptimes.com Times researcher Caryn Baird contributed to this story.
[Last modified September 21, 2005, 00:23:13]