the inexplicable feeling of wanting to be for someone else but holding onto who you know you belong with. everything about this film is so incredibly intense and realistic. after watching this i feel so refreshed and educated, but it has this lasting effect on me that makes me want more. i want to know how nora and her husband talk things out. i want to know what hae sung will do with his life. i want to know if…

can i just say… fuck.

damn ari aster and his cultivatingly horrendous filmmaking tendencies. i sooo wanted to watch this film for such a long time, but there was an age rating that i wanted to keep mind of. even now, i’m still recovering from all the imagery and kind of wish i’d waited a bit longer.

i do want to say that i did get a few emotional triggers from the first thirty minutes, and i want to be…