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I'm abandoning this account, and possibly tumblr as a whole.

Honestly, I've been considering a fresh new start for a while now. I didn't have a good reason too though, until now.

In the light of recent events involving my main fandom, I've come to feel increasingly unsafe in the conditions here. I made the mistake of letting my guard down, but really it was unwise to assume that ANY fandom would be sane and respectful for long. People here failed to realize that all parties involved in the recent events were MINORS. I'm seeing 20+ year olds dogpiling these people, calling them "sickening" at best. These are 16 year olds, you can't expect them to think like adults. If we as adults in a fandom cannot treat drama between teens with grace then I want no part in it. Therefore, I'm leaving.

However, this isn't the only reason I'm going out. Over the past few months my experience with this website has increasingly affected my mental health negatively, practically setting me back years worth of medicinal therapy. It's affected my abilities in college and I've been starting to exhibit behavioral problems. I've made more enemies on here than friends, which is not a big number but I'd rather not let it grow any further.

Will I return? I can't really say right now because I'm to distressed to think about it for the long run. If yes, it will most likely be on a new account (and maybe even a different website/app), and my sona and subject matter for art will very likely be different. I may still doodle pizza tower stuff from time to time on it ;3

Will I delete this account? Nah. I'll keep it around for the good memories I made here. I may even return to it but... unlikely. I just need a change of scenery, and a better environment for myself before things get worse for me and others. Hopefully I will be able to do more without the distraction of this website.

An enormous thank you to all who have treated me with love and respect here, I will never forget you ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜✨

#important#thank you again#you all are incredible
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In regards to my most recent/pinned post, I do have an art trade with someone here I haven't finished,

to that person I will finish it and send it to you via dm! Thank you for the epic art again :3

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"Oh no!! People are harassing this poor defenseless minor!! Let's help them by harassing the other defenseless minor, that's a great idea. I'm so smart :)"

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Fun fact: There are no bigger hypocrites than famous people in fandoms with a massive cult following who air their thoughts on how a fandom should be in the most tasteless possible way, not even caring who gets affected by their ideology (minors, mentally disabled people? ah fuck em/sarcastic) while their rabid fans agree and maim anyone who goes against their lord and savior *insert famous fan artist/writer/whatever the fuck they do*.

Fun fact:

Famous people in fandoms are just people too they have flaws and can be wrong and to insanely bad harm to others wether they mean to or not. This is why using your words wisely and pushing personal feelings aside during criticism is important at times.

Fun fact:

Your personal disgust towards something inherently harmless is not a good basis for morality testing.

Fun fact:

You could just shut up.

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IMPORTANT: My Situation and GoFundMe

Hola y hello, to those who don't know who I am. I'm Itzel aka Kawaiipony Productions. I'm a 17 y/o (mostly Mlp) YouTuber. I'm non-binary asexual biromantic (he/she/they) and I'm also an AuDHDer. And well, I need help. I live in an emotionally abusive household and my own “father” is my abuser. And while my mom isn’t as bad and my relationship with her has gotten better in recent years, she has still caused harm even by letting a lot of this slide.

Around February 18th, 2022, my parents snooped on my phone and found out I was trans. They had taken my phone, tablet, and Nintendo Switch. Which I wouldn’t mind too much if I didn’t purchase majority of these. I bought my tablet myself sometime around 2018 to 2019 with my own money. And I split half and half with one of my sisters to buy our Switch. That is hundreds not only stolen, but also destroyed as they’ve broken my tablet (which was around $300-350 when I bought it) previous instances it’s been taken from me. And I have not received any of these devices since.

Not only that, but my abuser in the past few years of me dealing with this abusive relationship has threatened multiple things on me such as kicking me out of the house, sending me to the military without my consent, and sending me to my family in México to “straighten me out.” Not to mention his constant ableism towards me. From being anti-vax (a very ableist rhetoric towards autistics), forcing me to mask (in the neurodivergent way, not literally, he’s ironically anti-max (which is also horrible btw)), etc.

This has led to me secretly doing my job as a part-time YouTuber for the past 2 years now, especially since I was forced to delete the previous Kawaiipony Productions channel cause of him. I have a GFM to help fund me for being able to get proper equipment again for doing my work. Not only that, but also possibly for things I plan to get once I turn 18 such as starting to get therapy, medication for my ADHD, etc. And now that I started dating my girlfriend, Vikki, I want to start saving some of this money to possibly meet her irl sometime next year.

I am taking a few small paid jobs for work right now, but it’s still not enough for my situation. So, you may ask, how can I help? Well, if you have the money, donate to my GFM. My GFM goal is $2,000 and I still need around $1,200 for reaching my goal. I also have adoptables for sale right now for $25 each. If you can’t financially help, then you can share not only my GFM, but my work. From my artwork, my videos on YouTube, and projects I’ve been a part of as a voice actor, animator, and/or artist. Any of this helps support me through everything going on in my life. I could really use it right now. So any and all support helps me out. Thank you all for reading this thread, I appreciate any and all support I need!!!

-Itzel C.D. aka Kawaiipony Productions

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Ways to support me!!!

My YouTube channel:

Kawaiipony Productions
Hola y hello, I'm Itzel. I'm a 17 year old non-binary voice actor, artist, animator, singer, and musician who makes content on fictional med
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My GoFundMe:

Donate to Money for Laptop and Equipment Replacement, organized by Itzel CD
Hola y hello, I am Itzel, but most know me online as Kawaiipony Productions. I'm a… Itzel CD needs your support for Money for Laptop and Equ
gofundme.com

Current Adoptables for Sale:

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✨🩵The Best Gift for a Scarred Soul (Part 1)🩵✨
"Hey mio caro, I'm going to give-a Gus a little visit! I'll try to be home as soon as possible for-a dinner, capiche?"
"Yeah no problem love! Please say hi to Gus for me! Haven't seen him in a while now!"
"Fatto! See you soon tesoro! Good luck with the cookies! Ti amo!"
🎶🎵*Humming "That's Amore"*🎶🎵
"What a peaceful night~..."
"The bright colors around are so cool and comforting..."
*Whine...*
"Ghuh- ... Huh? What is..."
"*Gasp!* Oh, mio dio! An abandoned puppy... And it's-a shaking!"
"Hi puppy! Oh dio..."
"Gnawww... Who would've done this to you, Piccola cosa... You must-a be hungry and cold, huh?"
"I'm not-a going to hurt you, okay?
"Mio Diohoho! You're certainly pocket sized-a! Look at you ... You're adorable!"
"But... You seem..."
"... Rather familiar..."
"Too familiar to be-a completely honest...
"Aaand... This is Manchita! She's was my childhood comfort plushie!"
"I've kept it since it was given to me at a very young age!"
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✨🩵The Best Gift for a Scarred Soul (Part II)🩵✨
"She's one of the only things I conserve from my father, along with my cardigan ..."
"I used to sleep hugging her every single night ..."
"And every time... Every time she came unstitched, I went to my father so he could sew a new patch on her..."
"And even so, one day he sew the green heart shaped one when I was asleep!"
"One day I accidentally lost her at the park, and my father found her in some bushes ... I promised to never lost her... ever..."
"... Oh santo cielo... Even the heart on your head is just-a like... Her plushie..."
"Oh Bambina, she's going to adore you!"
"... Maybe Gustavo can help me..."
"So you found her in a box, abandoned and ... You're planning on gifting her to Trix?"
"She's exactly like one of the most-a precious gifts she recieved! The spots, the colors... Well, almost, I'm not-a sure if you would be able to find a dog with rainbow spots-a, isn't it?"
"Heheh, you're right... But I think I get what you're saying. You think this gift would be like... Bringing her childhood's plushie... To life, right?"
"Yes, exactly!"
"But I want it to be a little more special, you know? I just don't want to pull her out of my hoodie and say "Hey mio caro, look what I found!"
"Yeah, I know... Maybe if you put her in a ... Gift box? I have a box I conserved from some food I bought the other day, maybe you can use it, along with a ribbon!"
"Ooooh... You know what? Let's-a do it!"
"And these holes so she can breath perfectly! Oh dio, I'm just-a imagining Trix's reaction, she will love her!"
"That's a nice idea! So she doesn't feel overwhelmed inside the box! Oh look, Brick brought one of her ribbons! You're such a smart ratto!"
"Squeak! :3"
"Oh, thanks amica! Uh... How do you tie a gift ribbon?... Wait a second, I forgot something! This little ragazzina needs a bath!"
"Oh, right! Hey, in the bathroom i have a Pet Friendly Shampoo that Brick uses, you can use it to soap her up!"
"Oh Gustavo, thank you so much for-a all of this, really!"
"Aw, No need to thank me, Pino!"
"Squeak! :( (my shampoo!)"

🧼30 Minutes later🧼

"... A-are you-"
"No questions will-a be answered."
"... *Snort* alright then!"
"per l'amor di Dio..."
"Aaaand... You go... here! Perfecto! Are you comfy inside there, bambina?"
"She looks quite confused, heh!"
"Don't-a worry little one, It'll be a quick trip to home and you'll meet your new mother 💜
#🍕#other's art#trix tag!!!#PART TWO THE SQUEAKUEL ALREADY?? heck yesss#these cozy scenes are absolutely healing my soul#brick and manchita playing is so EEEEEESHSHDHJF💕✨💕
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✨🩵The Best Gift for a Scarred Soul (Part 1)🩵✨
"Hey mio caro, I'm going to give-a Gus a little visit! I'll try to be home as soon as possible for-a dinner, capiche?"
"Yeah no problem love! Please say hi to Gus for me! Haven't seen him in a while now!"
"Fatto! See you soon tesoro! Good luck with the cookies! Ti amo!"
🎶🎵*Humming "That's Amore"*🎶🎵
"What a peaceful night~..."
"The bright colors around are so cool and comforting..."
*Whine...*
"Ghuh- ... Huh? What is..."
"*Gasp!* Oh, mio dio! An abandoned puppy... And it's-a shaking!"
"Hi puppy! Oh dio..."
"Gnawww... Who would've done this to you, Piccola cosa... You must-a be hungry and cold, huh?"
"I'm not-a going to hurt you, okay?
"Mio Diohoho! You're certainly pocket sized-a! Look at you ... You're adorable!"
"But... You seem..."
"... Rather familiar..."
"Too familiar to be-a completely honest...
"Aaand... This is Manchita! She's was my childhood comfort plushie!"
"I've kept it since it was given to me at a very young age!"
#🍕#other's art#trix tag!!!#look at the teeny baby doggie yeeeeaaaa little pupper!!!#man this turned out freaking gorgeous❤️🧡💛💚💙💜✨#the perfect way to tell little manchita's story <3#also i hope you're feeling better now qwq
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I feel like I've been drawing emotionless Peppino a lot.

so this time the theme is

🌼happiness look of Peppino.🌼

OWAH WHO ARE YOU

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Peppino's true form, the form that many are unable to handle. You're lucky to be alive, most pass out or die from the radioactive intensity of this man's happiness beams. Me on the other hand, live on these happiness beams. /hj

#🍕#other's art#on a more serious note thank you for letting this man experience happiness and whimsy#every time someone draws peppino genuinely having a good time 50 angels get their wings
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autistic anger issues are So Much. i have my temper more under control now in that i rly dont yell/lash out anymore but i do regularly boil inside with incandescent uncontainable rage over something inconsequential and then it evaporates in the span of ten minutes. incomparable

Autism:

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#can't stop laughing#that gif embodies the experience perfectly#his face looks so squishy it makes me wheeze every time#and the little microscopic creechur is me btw
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I had never watched Inside Out 2 before. I truly wasn't expecting to hear the word delulu in that movie. I'm enraged that it's being said just like any other word in a movie for kids. It's incredibly insulting for all those who truly experience delusions, and other symptoms of mental health issues.

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My honest reaction as someone who recovered from psychotic depression that gave me delusions that nearly killed me + the sibling of someone who also suffers from delusions that affect their daily life.

#big mouse corporation: we care for our minority/disabled communities!!! see how much we care? look at us care!!!#also big mouse corporation:#nice fucking going teaching our children to be ableists and capitalizing on it#mega corpos disgust me beyond comprehension