Dr. Clement Varker (
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I'm mad
Who: Dr. Clement Varker and unfortunate you!
What: Varker's having a minor(major?) break down and finds himself incapable of controlling this rolling rage that a certain Vash the Stampede has set off.
When: August 5th
Where: The Speakeasy and random empty rooms around the Barge.
Warnings: Strong possibilities of heavy language, mentions of suicide, alcoholism and a very angry man breaking shit. will mark individual CWs as they come
He'd hung up but there was something that seemed to break loose during his conversation with Vash. As if the handle on the faucet had come clean off, the anger is flowing so freely that it scares him little, throwing his communicator at the wall with a scream. It's so loud that it startles Lullabee awake, and that was it.
He can't be in here right now, not with her delicate ears, not after she'd just gotten over Audrey's screeching during the first few days of his toll. When he leaves he doesn't even attempt to shut the door softly, the slam of the heavy mahogany door echoing in the corridor.
And across from him is that room that he often uses for the bathroom instead of going to the inmate bathrooms, his steps heavy as he crosses into it. When he leaves an hour later the room is completely torn apart, nothing is in functional order, what can be broken is, and if he's bleeding because he'd cut himself in the process of shattering the sink, or the toilet or the mirror? He doesn't seem to care much, the blood flowing heavily from the cut and leaving a trail before the wound slowly closes.
By the time he's made it down to the Speakeasy the blood has dried on his arm, stained his shirt and pants with no trace of the wound left aside from the staining.
Making a beeline for the bar, he finds something irresponsible to consume straight, there is no care for taste as he tips the bottle back and parks himself in front of the Warden ledger.
Half an hour later that bottle is empty, but he's not quite done. He wants sloppy like the night he arrived, and reaching that point is difficult when his body is processing his drink as it continues to heal itself.
What: Varker's having a minor(major?) break down and finds himself incapable of controlling this rolling rage that a certain Vash the Stampede has set off.
When: August 5th
Where: The Speakeasy and random empty rooms around the Barge.
Warnings: Strong possibilities of heavy language, mentions of suicide, alcoholism and a very angry man breaking shit. will mark individual CWs as they come
He'd hung up but there was something that seemed to break loose during his conversation with Vash. As if the handle on the faucet had come clean off, the anger is flowing so freely that it scares him little, throwing his communicator at the wall with a scream. It's so loud that it startles Lullabee awake, and that was it.
He can't be in here right now, not with her delicate ears, not after she'd just gotten over Audrey's screeching during the first few days of his toll. When he leaves he doesn't even attempt to shut the door softly, the slam of the heavy mahogany door echoing in the corridor.
And across from him is that room that he often uses for the bathroom instead of going to the inmate bathrooms, his steps heavy as he crosses into it. When he leaves an hour later the room is completely torn apart, nothing is in functional order, what can be broken is, and if he's bleeding because he'd cut himself in the process of shattering the sink, or the toilet or the mirror? He doesn't seem to care much, the blood flowing heavily from the cut and leaving a trail before the wound slowly closes.
By the time he's made it down to the Speakeasy the blood has dried on his arm, stained his shirt and pants with no trace of the wound left aside from the staining.
Making a beeline for the bar, he finds something irresponsible to consume straight, there is no care for taste as he tips the bottle back and parks himself in front of the Warden ledger.
Half an hour later that bottle is empty, but he's not quite done. He wants sloppy like the night he arrived, and reaching that point is difficult when his body is processing his drink as it continues to heal itself.

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She's worried, not looking to catch a fist to her face.
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He knows how far away she is, is rather sure it won't go so far as to hit her, or trust his aim to be so accurate, but as it lands only a few feet in front of her with a crunching of plastic and coated glass, he can't say it wasn't a little too close for comfort.
The guilt doesn't help in the slightest, "what do you want?"
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"To check in on you? Your, um, physical recovery is going well, I see."
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He thinks nothing of waste, when this room gets filled his tantrum will disappear. It doesn't need to be fixed, not like he is going to ask to fix the only convenient bathroom near his cabin anyways.
"Yes, well. I'm cherishing life, as im sure you can clearly see. It's a fucking gift, and how dare I not live it to the fullest."
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speakeasy
All thoughts of practicing being normal vanish when he gets a good look at that forehead situation. He's never tried that! Sure, he's put mouths where they didn't go, but he can't remember ever pulling off this particular reorganization. And his humans always die when he does something that extreme. Where'd the brain wind up? He wants to touch. He has exactly enough self awareness to guess that won't go over well.
"Is that an amount of blood you want to have on you?" His study of inmate snark has partially succeeded, in that that is something that someone trying to be a sarcastic piece of shit on the network would say, but he says it with his usual childish sincerity.
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"Why do you even care?" Valid question he thinks, staring at the weird young man and tipping his bottle back, coughing through it as he swallows. Harsh isnt his favorite, but it serves a purpose and he doesn't want to feel anything at the moment. It isn't working.
"If it bothers you don't look at it."
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He doesn't even wave her away when that tongue inches out curiously, "existing is uncomfortable, now did you want something, or just here to point out the obvious?"
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Cw: mentions of cannibalism
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He's delighted to see Varker working on what seems to be a very long comment in the Warden Ledger; he'll look forward to reading it, whoever it's about. Hopefully it doesn't contain too much drunken rambling.
"It is quite convenient for getting things off one's chest, no?" he comments from a few stools over. Neither the extra mouth nor the blood seems to give him pause.
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"This is the closest thing to an HR department we have. A public shaming book." He finishes off the last star, but when he gets up he has to catch himself. He has no idea what he was drinking, the label isnt in any language he can recognize, but it's done its job. "Stupidity should hurt."
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"Quite. It is a shame this is all that can be done about it.
May I ask which one has acted the fool?"
His smile very much suggests he wants the gossip.
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He gives Sebastian a look, drunken appraisal for how much he might should say, but he wants to talk, enjoys complaining and if he will listen, well. Petty gossip isnt beneath him.
"To say he was acting is far too generous, but it was Vash, tall fellow, with the dark hair?"
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The giant velociraptor sniffs around and shrieks when he smells blood. He's got a scent! Smells like prey!
He takes off, large talons thudding, off on the trail towards an unwitting Varker.
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So when he looks over his shoulder and see's a god damn dinosaur, he almost trips over himself to break into a run to that lift and press the fucking button as fast as he can, trying to gauge the distance of the thing running at him and whether it would be better to take the stairs and hold the door closed.
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"Uh—hey—What happened?" He's already awkwardly taking his space stun gun out of his pocket, aiming it at nothing in particular but presumably planning to fire it at whatever's hurt Varker—he's looking around in every direction. "Did something happen in here?"
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He might be a bottle deep and then some as his smile slowly spreads across his face at Walter's hurry to pull his gun out. "I got a little carried away earlier, porcelain cuts so easy," he lifts his scaled arm, showing off where the initial cut in the fabric was, heavily stained, but through the tears it looks like his skin is perfectly fine aside from the dried blood.
"I think its helping, the blood loss I mean. That doesn't replenish as fast, fucking sloppy work if you ask me."
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"Sloppy work by whom?" he asks, trying not to make assumptions as after all Varker can be so cagey about his attachment. "I take it you didn't request enhancements from the Big Guy or anyone else here?"
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It's not said with any particular judgment, though they're taking a quick look over his disheveled, bloody appearance and his lack of apparent wounds and putting that away for later. Interesting. Unlikely to be someone else's blood, given the positioning.
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"If I wanted to be up there, I would be. Besides, I feel I dressed for the occasion," you know, might have killed someone couture. Not exactly the look you bring to go drinking in the warden's lounge.
"Or are you going to ask me whose blood this is too?"
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That's more biased by the fact they absolutely want to get up close and personal with his skull than anything, but details, details. They know how tricky it can be to restructure any given part of the body into a fully-functional maw! It's a fun little parlor trick to do it with their entire torso. So it's only natural they'd want to know how he works.
"The wardens could always use a little fashionable shakeup." She rolls her eyes. "No need to bite my head off about it. I don't ask every obvious question in the book, just most of them."
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He can't get into the speakeasy itself, but he can go into the inmate bathrooms and knock on the wall next to the entrance and call out shrilly.]
Time to come out, sweetheart! I know you're in there. I used to run the speakeasy, you know. And I'm not above bribing an inmate to go in there to fetch you.
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What becomes immediately apparent is that at some point his left shirt sleeve got soaked with blood, rolled up to his elbow, unraveled and rolled a few times again. Aside from being a bit pale he seems mostly fine, if a lot more wasted than he normally gets.]
If I'd settled to marry a woman, I picture her just like you.
[Poking Norton in the chest with his finger while trying to stand still and not wobble.] A terrible nag.
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[He slips to Varker's side and slides his arm around Varker's torso to steady him.]
There you go, Clem, one foot in front of the other.
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