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14thcommander) wrote in
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Who: Hange, Bill, and... you??????? If you only want one of em please specify in your subject line!
What: Hange and Bill start their localized emotion-sharing flood; who wants to interact with two huge weirdos? (They'll be together a lot)
When: Throughout the third week of February
Where: All over ye got damnn ship
Warnings: Nothin yet
For Bill:
The connection between them flexes open as if some invisible hand turned a spigot to let material flow. Bill might feel it more than Hange, at first. These days her emotions often have a faded, overused quality, like a spring overextended so hard it never snapped back to its original tension, but they're still present. Ubiquitous, really.
A weave of feelings touches Bill. Anticipation, affection, in Hange they braid together and make interest. Curiosity. Two of her strongest drivers. They're good feelings for her, when they rise it's like the long, sweet note of a flute blown behind her ear. More than twenty years in the past, a younger Hange turned over a flat stone to study the worms and pillbugs underneath with calm fascination. Let's do it again. Turn over the stone. What's hiding here this time?
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Hange makes sure she's together with Bill a lot this week.
The band (the gang!) is back together again; Bill, Hange and Betelgeuse can be found in the art room's music annex regularly, bickering over lyrics, trying out new songs, singing, practicing, playing. Hange's emotions while doing this rise and fall quickly, moving like a stream: happiness, humor, irritation that is not lasting or serious. Also, since she's one of the wardens keeping the place open, Hange spends a significant amount of time in the art room even when not at band practice, keeping an eye on the inmates who come and go, making sure no dangerous materials walk out the door wholesale, encouraging all comers to clean up after themselves, mostly letting them do as they wish otherwise. For her own projects she has her hands in clay almost constantly: spinning out cups, bowls, and vases on a wheel, free sculpting a mask of one of her comrade's faces, mixing and smushing spent clay back into fluid readiness. In the depths of this work, watching as new things find shape, Hange sinks into a feeling of deep, calm contentment.
Physical training is also a constant of her days. Scouts train all the time! As the disciplined commander Hange has to keep up her own regimen and honestly has little problem motivating herself to do it. She can be found on the halls going to or from the Enclosure, one of the only times another barge resident might ever see her wearing the tactical gear (to the untrained eye, it's a mess of strapping, cables, swords and weird boxlike scabbards full of yet more hiltless blades).
"You can mess with the Titans if you wanna," is an offer made to Bill but pretty much just Bill alone. They're dangerous beings that she isn't inclined to let most humans near unattended - especially inmates.
Other days, she's on her way to the Enclosure just looking for a good time. When the environment is safe she props the door. Other inmates and wardens are welcome to come in and make the most of the scenery. One of her favored places is a series of rocky seaside cliffs, good for climbing, good for jumping. At maximum, there's probably an eighty foot drop to the water.
Hange wears a black one piece and twits Bill at the cliff's edge. "I think you can fly, so it's automatically cheating! You should just let yourself fall."
Anticipation bubbles like champagne. It would be easy to feel afraid in these kinds of scenarios but Hange jumped off very tall objects for a living. The physiological reactions of fear can be drawn into excitement if you practice the twist enough. Hange nurses this joy like a weak fire she wants to shelter against a strong wind.
Bill drags them both to the spa, where he, as usual, spends a long time looking at treatments for people who have things like Skin and Fingernails and bouncing rapidly between mild jealousy and acidic disdain for the variety of options - then hogging the hot tub.
You can also find them both in the library, where he's excitedly trying to get Hange into increasingly arcane forms of math and physics.
"SEE, THIS IS WHERE IT GETS FUN. IF YOU OBSERVE THE ELECTRONS, THEY STOP DOING IT. IF YOU DETECT WHICH SLIT THEY'RE GOING THROUGH, IT JUST DOESN'T DO IT ANY MORE. NOW, THIS IS STUPID, BUT IT MAKES PEOPLE MAD, WHICH IS THE BEST KIND OF STUPID THING."
This is so funny. Nothing beats this shit. What better time to share the joy of how little sense the universe makes at the truly granular level?
What: Hange and Bill start their localized emotion-sharing flood; who wants to interact with two huge weirdos? (They'll be together a lot)
When: Throughout the third week of February
Where: All over ye got damnn ship
Warnings: Nothin yet
For Bill:
The connection between them flexes open as if some invisible hand turned a spigot to let material flow. Bill might feel it more than Hange, at first. These days her emotions often have a faded, overused quality, like a spring overextended so hard it never snapped back to its original tension, but they're still present. Ubiquitous, really.
A weave of feelings touches Bill. Anticipation, affection, in Hange they braid together and make interest. Curiosity. Two of her strongest drivers. They're good feelings for her, when they rise it's like the long, sweet note of a flute blown behind her ear. More than twenty years in the past, a younger Hange turned over a flat stone to study the worms and pillbugs underneath with calm fascination. Let's do it again. Turn over the stone. What's hiding here this time?
Open to all:
Hange makes sure she's together with Bill a lot this week.
The band (the gang!) is back together again; Bill, Hange and Betelgeuse can be found in the art room's music annex regularly, bickering over lyrics, trying out new songs, singing, practicing, playing. Hange's emotions while doing this rise and fall quickly, moving like a stream: happiness, humor, irritation that is not lasting or serious. Also, since she's one of the wardens keeping the place open, Hange spends a significant amount of time in the art room even when not at band practice, keeping an eye on the inmates who come and go, making sure no dangerous materials walk out the door wholesale, encouraging all comers to clean up after themselves, mostly letting them do as they wish otherwise. For her own projects she has her hands in clay almost constantly: spinning out cups, bowls, and vases on a wheel, free sculpting a mask of one of her comrade's faces, mixing and smushing spent clay back into fluid readiness. In the depths of this work, watching as new things find shape, Hange sinks into a feeling of deep, calm contentment.
Physical training is also a constant of her days. Scouts train all the time! As the disciplined commander Hange has to keep up her own regimen and honestly has little problem motivating herself to do it. She can be found on the halls going to or from the Enclosure, one of the only times another barge resident might ever see her wearing the tactical gear (to the untrained eye, it's a mess of strapping, cables, swords and weird boxlike scabbards full of yet more hiltless blades).
"You can mess with the Titans if you wanna," is an offer made to Bill but pretty much just Bill alone. They're dangerous beings that she isn't inclined to let most humans near unattended - especially inmates.
Other days, she's on her way to the Enclosure just looking for a good time. When the environment is safe she props the door. Other inmates and wardens are welcome to come in and make the most of the scenery. One of her favored places is a series of rocky seaside cliffs, good for climbing, good for jumping. At maximum, there's probably an eighty foot drop to the water.
Hange wears a black one piece and twits Bill at the cliff's edge. "I think you can fly, so it's automatically cheating! You should just let yourself fall."
Anticipation bubbles like champagne. It would be easy to feel afraid in these kinds of scenarios but Hange jumped off very tall objects for a living. The physiological reactions of fear can be drawn into excitement if you practice the twist enough. Hange nurses this joy like a weak fire she wants to shelter against a strong wind.
Bill drags them both to the spa, where he, as usual, spends a long time looking at treatments for people who have things like Skin and Fingernails and bouncing rapidly between mild jealousy and acidic disdain for the variety of options - then hogging the hot tub.
You can also find them both in the library, where he's excitedly trying to get Hange into increasingly arcane forms of math and physics.
"SEE, THIS IS WHERE IT GETS FUN. IF YOU OBSERVE THE ELECTRONS, THEY STOP DOING IT. IF YOU DETECT WHICH SLIT THEY'RE GOING THROUGH, IT JUST DOESN'T DO IT ANY MORE. NOW, THIS IS STUPID, BUT IT MAKES PEOPLE MAD, WHICH IS THE BEST KIND OF STUPID THING."
This is so funny. Nothing beats this shit. What better time to share the joy of how little sense the universe makes at the truly granular level?

closed to hange: localized flood start!
Bill is a cheery bright triangle in a top hat with a lot of jokes and a lot of yelling. Bill is also a mean little fuck who has virtually never felt a strong emotion that wasn't fear or anger and spends most of his days letting his intellect click along unimpeded by any kind of feelings whatsoever. Bill is, in some ways, a discouraging person to like, because much like a bug under a rock, Bill literally can't like people back the same way they like him.
The nervousness is a sharp metal spring that releases its tension immediately when Bill detects something that doesn't belong to him and gouges a wellspring of something bitter: a shallow, childish, jealous fear, the kind that there's nothing you can do about, the kind that happens when you're too weak to have control over your life.
He lets Hange's interest distract him, turns away from the fear and lets it atrophy further without his attention. He just has to bluff through this one interaction at a time. He's not afraid of the interest, or of Hange. He's pretty sure he can outplay her here. Being human didn't kill him, why should this?
"HI THERE!"
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But she can't be surprised, and she knew he was doing bad. And ultimately this was a mission to find facts. Something wound-up tight and mean in there, well, it's the reality of what she's dealing with. It's a fact. Peel the scales away from your eyes, be patient, try to see. She also did this partly so she could try and wash him in feelings that were good.
"Hi!"
She's coming on over. She's gonna scoop him. If she gets him she's gonna briefly dance them around the room, stepping through one side of a waltz. Part of her duty was to go to fundraisers and fetes... she knows the steps.
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Hange comes over: SUSPICIOUS! Bill's eye doesn't change from his usual neutral-perky. Hug? Okay, sure.
"I DON'T KNOW WHAT I FEEL LIKE TO YOU."
Maybe cool, or good? The feeling of having not cleaned up well enough for a house guest is about where he is. Relieved? Not yet. Shut up down there, he's focusing.
Bill lets himself be scooped up and grows his legs to do the other half of the dance, so they at least touch the ground where they should, and inside he is - click. Interest, affection, why dance? - click. Hange sees Bill as a bit of a fun specimen. - click. That's fine, he can use it. - click. It's hard to know where to draw boundaries with her, exactly, if he lets her go too far he'll probably end up set on her bed with the penguin plush, abandoned for the next interesting creature. click if she figures out all there is to him - if. - click. It's fine, but he has to be careful.
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"You feel uneasy! You feel, uh, nervous. It's a simmer in there." Waltz waltz, there's an easy physical confidence to her that makes her a good dancer. She could do this in her sleep. "It's like light and shadow playing on the forest floor."
Don't be nervous! Saying it would mean absolutely nothing, so she... doesn't.
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Just, helpfully, in case she does not know. Bill's light shifts on the inside and cheery swing music at the right tempo starts piping out of him. He talks right over it, and the chattering is letting steam out of the nervous emotion: Bill likes to talk, likes to express things on his own terms.
"I LIKE TO KEEP MY INSIDE STUFF ON THE INSIDE. THIS PLACE DOESN'T RESPECT THAT A LITTLE PRIVACY CAN BE NICE, EVEN IF YOU'RE A SOCIAL GUY! IT'S ALWAYS SHOWING PEOPLE MY DEAD PARENTS, OR MY PROM PHOTO, STUFF LIKE THAT -"
Bill did not go to Prom, that wasn't a thing.
"SPEAKING OF PROM, WHY ARE WE DANCING?"
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Library
"Hi Bill! Hi Hange!"
Very Cheerful.
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"HIIII~"
Bill opens his eyeball wide like a haunted doll.
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"Rita! How are you?"
It's been a bit. :>
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"I'm great! I'm real good."
She reviews Bill's expression warily for a moment, but it's not like 'haunted doll' is so distant from his regular aesthetic.
"How are you guys? Just hangin' out, or...?"
Inmate-warden team research project? Maybe?
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Hange come on be creepy with him. Hange. Hange. Come on. Hange.
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(burning mention)
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burning/self harm ref
For Bill
He's drifting today, in the hallway approaching the lounge. A casual nod in Bill's direction is all he offers. There may or may not be anything to talk about. It's been quiet. He doesn't mind.
let me know if you need me to edit this with a stronger hook but this is where hes at
Bill will usually initiate conversations between them. He... doesn't. He just doesn't. He doubles back instead, back into the lounge. Don't want to.
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He was going to the lounge anyway, but his step does slow for a moment. He's motivated by concern here, but also the fact that he doesn't like to drink at home now that he shares it. He lets himself in and isn't subtle about looking for Bill before he even heads to the counter.
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"LOOK, DO WE HAVE TO?"
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Band Practice
It's not jealousy, exactly, but a certain sort of wistfulness with which he watches Bill and Hange. He hopes he did right by his charge; wishes he could have done better. But that's how we grow, he's learned. He just hopes Bill can find what he needs.
In the meantime, he struggles to figure out what they're trying to accomplish in the moment, a faint smile on his lips.
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"Hey there! You found us."
She hasn't seen Luke around the art room so much.
"Starting a project?"
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"WE'RE CALLED 'REJECTED FROM THE POLYCULE.'"
No, they've changed their name like three times since then, but it's fine.
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"I'm not much of an artist," he confesses. "Just heard you guys from down the way and wanted to embarrass you. Luckily, I also know nothing about music."
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They are... they are maybe the only band on the barge? So the best by default. Actually, between the three of them, they're pretty decent if a little overly-exciteable.
"And we can probably serenade you right now, if you wish."
They're missing their guitarist, so it'll be the soft piano remix of one of their creepy songs about being marooned in the woods. Hange sides over to Bill and elbows him, by which I mean she prods her elbow in the air around his side.
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cw insect mention that seems like it needs a cw
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some evening at an ungodly hour
This means she is conveniently awake when she feels something reverberate down her bond with Bill. Something deep, blue-black and greasy, something heavy. Unusually strong for him. Terrible. Sad.
She sets her drink aside, consults her warden item for his location. Then she sets off to find him.]
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There are new neighbors on either side, but this cabin is still unoccupied.
Bill feels Hange wake up - ah shit - but doesn't bother moving. Fine. Come see and make fun of him, who cares. He'll shore up sandbags and be fine in the morning and not have to even spare a moment for Ford.]
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The truth is, Hange has felt something similar so many times before. Not for a partner, but deep grief for beloved comrades who are gone. It causes an answering swell in her: a deep, stale, strong sorrow of her own. Musty, usually locked away - can't be grieving when there's a big job left to do - but it's answering Bill's sadness now.
She comes and puts a hand on his back plate.]
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BUT I ALSO SHOULD HAVE KNOWN HE'D PICK HIS FAMILY OVER ME, EVERY TIME. I SHOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN ATTATCHED.
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[Hange is closer to Bill than she was to Ford. Perhaps she can't be totally sure he was serious about Bill, but...]
He seemed serious about you, at least to me.
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