14thcommander: (&erwin)
hellscape she-beast ([personal profile] 14thcommander) wrote in [community profile] lastvoyageslogs2021-02-22 05:35 pm
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Who: Hange, Bill, and... you??????? If you only want one of em please specify in your subject line!
What: Hange and Bill start their localized emotion-sharing flood; who wants to interact with two huge weirdos? (They'll be together a lot)
When: Throughout the third week of February
Where: All over ye got damnn ship
Warnings: Nothin yet

For Bill:

The connection between them flexes open as if some invisible hand turned a spigot to let material flow. Bill might feel it more than Hange, at first. These days her emotions often have a faded, overused quality, like a spring overextended so hard it never snapped back to its original tension, but they're still present. Ubiquitous, really.

A weave of feelings touches Bill. Anticipation, affection, in Hange they braid together and make interest. Curiosity. Two of her strongest drivers. They're good feelings for her, when they rise it's like the long, sweet note of a flute blown behind her ear. More than twenty years in the past, a younger Hange turned over a flat stone to study the worms and pillbugs underneath with calm fascination. Let's do it again. Turn over the stone. What's hiding here this time?

Open to all:

Hange makes sure she's together with Bill a lot this week.

The band (the gang!) is back together again; Bill, Hange and Betelgeuse can be found in the art room's music annex regularly, bickering over lyrics, trying out new songs, singing, practicing, playing. Hange's emotions while doing this rise and fall quickly, moving like a stream: happiness, humor, irritation that is not lasting or serious. Also, since she's one of the wardens keeping the place open, Hange spends a significant amount of time in the art room even when not at band practice, keeping an eye on the inmates who come and go, making sure no dangerous materials walk out the door wholesale, encouraging all comers to clean up after themselves, mostly letting them do as they wish otherwise. For her own projects she has her hands in clay almost constantly: spinning out cups, bowls, and vases on a wheel, free sculpting a mask of one of her comrade's faces, mixing and smushing spent clay back into fluid readiness. In the depths of this work, watching as new things find shape, Hange sinks into a feeling of deep, calm contentment.

Physical training is also a constant of her days. Scouts train all the time! As the disciplined commander Hange has to keep up her own regimen and honestly has little problem motivating herself to do it. She can be found on the halls going to or from the Enclosure, one of the only times another barge resident might ever see her wearing the tactical gear (to the untrained eye, it's a mess of strapping, cables, swords and weird boxlike scabbards full of yet more hiltless blades).

"You can mess with the Titans if you wanna," is an offer made to Bill but pretty much just Bill alone. They're dangerous beings that she isn't inclined to let most humans near unattended - especially inmates.

Other days, she's on her way to the Enclosure just looking for a good time. When the environment is safe she props the door. Other inmates and wardens are welcome to come in and make the most of the scenery. One of her favored places is a series of rocky seaside cliffs, good for climbing, good for jumping. At maximum, there's probably an eighty foot drop to the water.

Hange wears a black one piece and twits Bill at the cliff's edge. "I think you can fly, so it's automatically cheating! You should just let yourself fall."

Anticipation bubbles like champagne. It would be easy to feel afraid in these kinds of scenarios but Hange jumped off very tall objects for a living. The physiological reactions of fear can be drawn into excitement if you practice the twist enough. Hange nurses this joy like a weak fire she wants to shelter against a strong wind.

Bill drags them both to the spa, where he, as usual, spends a long time looking at treatments for people who have things like Skin and Fingernails and bouncing rapidly between mild jealousy and acidic disdain for the variety of options - then hogging the hot tub.

You can also find them both in the library, where he's excitedly trying to get Hange into increasingly arcane forms of math and physics.

"SEE, THIS IS WHERE IT GETS FUN. IF YOU OBSERVE THE ELECTRONS, THEY STOP DOING IT. IF YOU DETECT WHICH SLIT THEY'RE GOING THROUGH, IT JUST DOESN'T DO IT ANY MORE. NOW, THIS IS STUPID, BUT IT MAKES PEOPLE MAD, WHICH IS THE BEST KIND OF STUPID THING."

This is so funny. Nothing beats this shit. What better time to share the joy of how little sense the universe makes at the truly granular level?
tetractys: (ZMW VEVIBYLWB XORMTRMT)

closed to hange: localized flood start!

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-23 06:02 am (UTC)(link)
Bill agreed to this, but that doesn't mean he likes it much. He's trying to keep it to himself, legs crossed and eye shut waiting for the Admiral's power to kick in, but the way he's bouncing his foot and twirling his cane belies a lot of nervous energy.

Bill is a cheery bright triangle in a top hat with a lot of jokes and a lot of yelling. Bill is also a mean little fuck who has virtually never felt a strong emotion that wasn't fear or anger and spends most of his days letting his intellect click along unimpeded by any kind of feelings whatsoever. Bill is, in some ways, a discouraging person to like, because much like a bug under a rock, Bill literally can't like people back the same way they like him.

The nervousness is a sharp metal spring that releases its tension immediately when Bill detects something that doesn't belong to him and gouges a wellspring of something bitter: a shallow, childish, jealous fear, the kind that there's nothing you can do about, the kind that happens when you're too weak to have control over your life.

He lets Hange's interest distract him, turns away from the fear and lets it atrophy further without his attention. He just has to bluff through this one interaction at a time. He's not afraid of the interest, or of Hange. He's pretty sure he can outplay her here. Being human didn't kill him, why should this?

"HI THERE!"
tetractys: (OVZIMRMT)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-23 06:28 am (UTC)(link)
Bill's outside emotions do not match his inside reaction!

Hange comes over: SUSPICIOUS! Bill's eye doesn't change from his usual neutral-perky. Hug? Okay, sure.

"I DON'T KNOW WHAT I FEEL LIKE TO YOU."

Maybe cool, or good? The feeling of having not cleaned up well enough for a house guest is about where he is. Relieved? Not yet. Shut up down there, he's focusing.

Bill lets himself be scooped up and grows his legs to do the other half of the dance, so they at least touch the ground where they should, and inside he is - click. Interest, affection, why dance? - click. Hange sees Bill as a bit of a fun specimen. - click. That's fine, he can use it. - click. It's hard to know where to draw boundaries with her, exactly, if he lets her go too far he'll probably end up set on her bed with the penguin plush, abandoned for the next interesting creature. click if she figures out all there is to him - if. - click. It's fine, but he has to be careful.
tetractys: (ZMW VEVIBYLWB XORMTRMT)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-23 07:02 am (UTC)(link)
"YOU SEEM WORRIED."

Just, helpfully, in case she does not know. Bill's light shifts on the inside and cheery swing music at the right tempo starts piping out of him. He talks right over it, and the chattering is letting steam out of the nervous emotion: Bill likes to talk, likes to express things on his own terms.

"I LIKE TO KEEP MY INSIDE STUFF ON THE INSIDE. THIS PLACE DOESN'T RESPECT THAT A LITTLE PRIVACY CAN BE NICE, EVEN IF YOU'RE A SOCIAL GUY! IT'S ALWAYS SHOWING PEOPLE MY DEAD PARENTS, OR MY PROM PHOTO, STUFF LIKE THAT -"

Bill did not go to Prom, that wasn't a thing.

"SPEAKING OF PROM, WHY ARE WE DANCING?"

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salmonsnacks: (:D)

Library

[personal profile] salmonsnacks 2021-02-23 09:20 am (UTC)(link)
Rita is here to re-up on her supply of garbage romance novels, but it takes her via physics because she's not one to take a straightforward route to anything.

"Hi Bill! Hi Hange!"

Very Cheerful.
tetractys: (KHUH LW JRHV)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-23 09:43 pm (UTC)(link)
Last time they talked, Rita shot him. Bill isn't sure how to feel about her. Big emotional question mark, and then the feeling of forgetting to do something. Oh yeah! He was going to go on a rampage, wasn't he? Yeah, he could still do that. He could go for a rampage. Let's be a menace.

"HIIII~"

Bill opens his eyeball wide like a haunted doll.
salmonsnacks: (Default)

[personal profile] salmonsnacks 2021-02-23 10:03 pm (UTC)(link)

"I'm great! I'm real good."

She reviews Bill's expression warily for a moment, but it's not like 'haunted doll' is so distant from his regular aesthetic.

"How are you guys? Just hangin' out, or...?"

Inmate-warden team research project? Maybe?

tetractys: (ZMW LU GSV XLMEVIHZGRLM)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-24 10:16 pm (UTC)(link)
"YES. WE ARE DOING SOMETHING NORMAL. NO ONE NEEDS TO WORRY ABOUT ANY OF IT!"

Hange come on be creepy with him. Hange. Hange. Come on. Hange.

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onlyeverdoubted: (Default)

For Bill

[personal profile] onlyeverdoubted 2021-02-25 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
They haven't talked since what Bodhi doesn't remember as a particularly notable incident. The time they threw trash over the side of the ship competitively sticks out more in his mind. He is not always particularly good at this, in other words. He hasn't really noticed the absence particularly, either. He's never sought Bill out. Just drifted in and out of his orbit.

He's drifting today, in the hallway approaching the lounge. A casual nod in Bill's direction is all he offers. There may or may not be anything to talk about. It's been quiet. He doesn't mind.
tetractys: (R DRHS R XLFOW HVV BLF)

let me know if you need me to edit this with a stronger hook but this is where hes at

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-25 06:51 am (UTC)(link)
Bill's expression drops. He looks tired, resentful.

Bill will usually initiate conversations between them. He... doesn't. He just doesn't. He doubles back instead, back into the lounge. Don't want to.
onlyeverdoubted: (Default)

[personal profile] onlyeverdoubted 2021-02-25 02:16 pm (UTC)(link)
Well. Okay. Bodhi may not excel at reading people who are the same species and order of being as himself, but that was pretty blatant. Actually, Bill is probably easier to grok than he generally finds humans, in terms of emotional expression. A single giant eyeball gets the idea right across.

He was going to the lounge anyway, but his step does slow for a moment. He's motivated by concern here, but also the fact that he doesn't like to drink at home now that he shares it. He lets himself in and isn't subtle about looking for Bill before he even heads to the counter.
tetractys: (SVOOL WVHGIFXGLI)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-26 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
Bill is behind the counter, just taking shit. He's not on shift, he just wants this, and this, and he doesn't want to wait for his coworker to finish up.

"LOOK, DO WE HAVE TO?"
onlyeverdoubted: (eyebrows)

[personal profile] onlyeverdoubted 2021-02-26 03:14 am (UTC)(link)
He would never interfere with Bill taking shit. That is pretty funny, actually. He'd join in if not for the whole atmosphere that's happening right now. "I... don't know what's happening, so that's hard to answer."

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neverjoinyou: (slight smile)

Band Practice

[personal profile] neverjoinyou 2021-02-25 09:49 pm (UTC)(link)
Luke leans against the open door, watching them play. He'd heard the clamor from down the hallway, and, curious, stopped by.

It's not jealousy, exactly, but a certain sort of wistfulness with which he watches Bill and Hange. He hopes he did right by his charge; wishes he could have done better. But that's how we grow, he's learned. He just hopes Bill can find what he needs.

In the meantime, he struggles to figure out what they're trying to accomplish in the moment, a faint smile on his lips.
tetractys: (OVZIMRMT)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-02-26 02:22 am (UTC)(link)
Bill fucks up a chord when he sees Luke. Oh, shit. He's self conscious. He cares if Luke sees him doof up this progression! That'd be embarrassing. He sprouts a third arm to wave. Hi, Luke!

"WE'RE CALLED 'REJECTED FROM THE POLYCULE.'"

No, they've changed their name like three times since then, but it's fine.
neverjoinyou: (cute smile)

[personal profile] neverjoinyou 2021-02-26 05:41 pm (UTC)(link)
Luke grins.

"I'm not much of an artist," he confesses. "Just heard you guys from down the way and wanted to embarrass you. Luckily, I also know nothing about music."

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tetractys: (GLGZOOB XLLO UILN MLD LM)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-05-02 09:37 pm (UTC)(link)
[Bill is floating in front of the barge-default door where Ford's cabin used to be.

There are new neighbors on either side, but this cabin is still unoccupied.

Bill feels Hange wake up - ah shit - but doesn't bother moving. Fine. Come see and make fun of him, who cares. He'll shore up sandbags and be fine in the morning and not have to even spare a moment for Ford.]
tetractys: (R DRHS R XLFOW HVV BLF)

[personal profile] tetractys 2021-05-02 10:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I HAD A FUTURE PLANNED WITH HIM. [Bill says. Bitterness clouds up under the emotion, mud churning up clear water.] I KNEW WHAT I WANTED TO WITH MY LIFE AGAIN.

BUT I ALSO SHOULD HAVE KNOWN HE'D PICK HIS FAMILY OVER ME, EVERY TIME. I SHOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN ATTATCHED.

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