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[It's the middle of the night. Or... early in the morning. Very early. He isn't bothered by random hallucinations, but he is bothered by other things. The backdrop of his cabin is cluttered, worn, but peculiarly homey. R himself has managed to set the video up so he doesn't fumble it before he even starts to speak.

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What do you do... when you can't sleep?

[That stammer is definitely easing off too, though his voice still sounds a bit breathy.]

I don't... sleep well. Um. I-it reminds me too much of... being dead. [Shrug...] I, um. I guess... n-not many people will get that.

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I don't, no. [ He can admit that immediately. ] And I suppose that getting drunk will not help you in this case?

[ Look, alcohol cures many ills even if it causes other ills. It's not bad in moderation, in his estimation. ]

But in those times when I did not have access to such a thing, I would often read or draw.

I'd, um. Rather not.

[His more recent memories of being drunk are largely bad and he doesn't really enjoy being more uncoordinated than he already is.]

Reading is... not something I'm good at.

Then I suppose I would ask 'what are you good at' or 'what do you enjoy doing'?

[Awkward...

R is not, in fact, good at much of anything.]

I like listening t-to music. But... that's not helping.

Probably because it is very passive. You're listening but you're not really doing anything. Is there anything else?

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I write. Or take walks. Or go to the gym and run on a treadmill until I can't anymore.

[He doesn't think two of those things will really work for him, but--]

I try walking around... sometimes. Or just watching the stars.

Watching the stars helps, sometimes. Other times it makes my mind wander.

Mm... [Understanding noises.]

The Dead spend a lot of... time just... watching. Nothing, sometimes. I used to think. A lot.

I suppose the dead have the time for it.

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Well, I was prescribed sleeping pills, but they don't seen to work. Sleepwalking's the problem I've got, pills only make that one worse, it turns out...

Can you not sleep because you find it frightening, or because your body doesn't want to?

Mmn. I was Dead for... about ten years.

[Sigh.]

The Dead don't sleep. But when I try now... my body doesn't like it.

Dead? In- in a different way than inmates are all dead, you mean?

... Mm.

[He's had this conversation a few times.]

Don't like the word, but... y-you probably know what 'zombies' are. [We do not use the z-word in this house but--]

I got better.

I. Yeah...

Oh, no. I'm very glad you did, that sounds awful to be trapped inside of. It sounds like there's ongoing side effects? Do normal sleep aids work on your biology?

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I go see my brother, and I stay with him. Or I go over to my boyfriend's place.

It helps to have the company. We don't have to do anything but...it's nice. Having someone nearby.

... Yeah.

[Softly.]

I miss my girlfriend.

Yeah...I get that.

So much.

I didn't really sleep... even with her. But. You know.

[Having someone there.]

It's still nice.

Does your body need to sleep? Or just rest?

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[B goes with video too, since R did. He's in the kennel couch with a ferret draped across his shoulders.]

For a while, sleeping reminded me of cryofreeze. So I can see that.

I didn't dream in cryo, though, and I do dream when I sleep. Does that help any, dreaming?

[If not, he has other suggestions, but it's a baseline to start from.]

I don't, really. Or... I don't remember.

[He's sure he must dream if he's sleeping? That's how brains work as far as he knows and Julie has told him about dreams she has sometimes, but if he does have them he rarely remembers what they are.]

I, uh. I've done something like... dreaming. But I don't think it was.

Mm. I don't always remember, either, which, y'know, not helpful when you're trying to differentiate.

If I can't sleep, I usually go play piano up in the gazebo, or somewhere else if that's taken. There things you like doing that don't require other people?

Mhm, a few things. Just. That's not helping r-right now.

Okay.

[New track, then.]

How about something that does require other people? I could meet you somewhere, walk with you a bit, let you play with a dog or play you some on my own piano. Maybe make you somethin' in the Enclosure if there's a place you wanna see.

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