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Just as recently as May, this woman told me she loves me, and misses me. But we haven’t seen each other since January. And even then, it wasn’t the same as it was last summer.

She basically ghosted our relationship. Today, I loaded Facebook to see this. We never said goodbye. I always realized there had to be someone, and sure enough, it was her ex.

I hope she is able to start a family now - she’s 40 - while I’m not quite ready yet. So, I wish her that. She’s an amazing woman and would be an incredible mother.

Goodbye, Anna. Thank you for the love you shared with me.

Going through it STILL, a year after graduation, 14 months after my breakup.

Talking to my ex again, and she asked me if I have a partner.

Crushing on my friend of 5 years and wanting to ask her out.

Finally “breaking up” with that long distance girl who I’m still holding a flame for. We still barely talk.

Really lost and stuck with how to progress in my career, but I think the key right now is just to keep hitting people up and talking with them. There’s another opportunity for me at Blizzard, which could be really good. I’m going to look into it very soon.

Reading “Rising Strong” by Brené Brown and its absolutely amazing. Read it. I’m rumbling send reckoning with my story right now.

Journaling a lot.

How do I ask out a friend I’ve known for five years?! She’s going through so much shit right now, but it also feels like the right time and place. But also I get signs that it’s not a good time. And my feelings for SF lady are still there, bubbling beneath the surface.

This is why I need to focus on pursuing MY love and life and dreams. I really want to take a good step forward in my career right now.

Life is ups and downs. Way more ups than downs.

Progress on college. Summer school and two more semesters to go, then to try and find a good job.

#mylivejournal #lj18 #happybirthday

I should most definitely be studying. Durbin-Watson tests... fun.

What should I talk about in this here livejournal? I don't even know anymore. I feel like this was my place to come when life had gone to hell.

Moving Monday. So excited. So scared! Omg.

Life is wonderful.

I'm so fucking excited.