Nom Nom, I Eat Your Brains
Tonight's rehearsal for the Queer Superhero's show was pretty good -- although I didn't want to go and wished I had remembered to deodorize. I am a little nervous about where this money for my costume is gonna come from, but walking home, I realized I would always put word out into my community and see what I can come up with. I am not going to worry about it. I mean, by hook or crook, it will happen for me!
The other day, in talking to Sister Bhakti Shockti, she talked about my need to maybe embrace my masculine. She knows what she is talking about and I trust her, so I am listening (which is also in line with my transits). She talked about her own struggles, being firmly grounded in the feminine and coming to a point in her life where she needed to embrace and get in contact with her masculine energy.
I do feel strong in my feminine energy. Those two months of Cancer and Leo were I felt my masculine self kinda emerge was kinda sweet, albeit uncomfortable. How long will this take? If Chris Crocker can embrace his masculine self... I can, too.
... although it does make me wanna cut my hair Tara from True Blood style.
This is a part of this conversation because during rehearsal, once we were running the number from the top, I decided to mix up my walk and did that B/black male walk from the early 80's where it looks like the guy is kinda limping? And it was SO funny to me... BECAUSE it is me. Masculinity as drag, honey! Only the drag kings woulda thunk it.
So, I am thinking to present REALLY masculine and then undress to some strange between. Genderfuckery has never been so delicious.
It will be interesting to see how this pans out. What is "feminine" to me is not really, it is how I am and what people SAY is feminine... I guess if I act in opposition to my natural inclinations then I will have it? We will see.
On both fronts.
But I am only nervous about one.
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The other day, in talking to Sister Bhakti Shockti, she talked about my need to maybe embrace my masculine. She knows what she is talking about and I trust her, so I am listening (which is also in line with my transits). She talked about her own struggles, being firmly grounded in the feminine and coming to a point in her life where she needed to embrace and get in contact with her masculine energy.
I do feel strong in my feminine energy. Those two months of Cancer and Leo were I felt my masculine self kinda emerge was kinda sweet, albeit uncomfortable. How long will this take? If Chris Crocker can embrace his masculine self... I can, too.
... although it does make me wanna cut my hair Tara from True Blood style.
This is a part of this conversation because during rehearsal, once we were running the number from the top, I decided to mix up my walk and did that B/black male walk from the early 80's where it looks like the guy is kinda limping? And it was SO funny to me... BECAUSE it is me. Masculinity as drag, honey! Only the drag kings woulda thunk it.
So, I am thinking to present REALLY masculine and then undress to some strange between. Genderfuckery has never been so delicious.
It will be interesting to see how this pans out. What is "feminine" to me is not really, it is how I am and what people SAY is feminine... I guess if I act in opposition to my natural inclinations then I will have it? We will see.
On both fronts.
But I am only nervous about one.
This entry was originally posted at http://steampoof.dreamwidth.org/84…. Please comment there using OpenID.