I've not felt worthy to write in here.
I have not accomplished a damn thing in the last few weeks.
I've been trying so hard to find a job so I can help my mom out with bills. That is my main focus.
Must. Find. Job. SOON.
I've only put in like TWENTY applications. I guess that is not enough & I will try harder.
Spring is coming. I can feel it. It makes me feel better. I have my window open.
A holistic ritual is necessary right now.
Ericka, I don't want us to fall apart.
Dear Theaface,
You've been a very bad girl. I had to talk you out of smokin it up with your bad, bad boy. >=( There are benefits to everything, but you can't decide to do something without looking at the BAD side effects. Why not grow vegetables in some goat shit, stuff maggots in your wounds, let your babies run around without diapers, and let your leg hairs grow wild. LOL. When there are bad side effects, such as your baby shitting in the kitchen or looking like a damned hippy, you have to decide if they're going to HELP or HURT you and the goals you're currently set on. Right now you're trying to stay fertile and healthy, lose some weight, and be chemical free. So you want to risk all of that to ease cramps when you KNOW you can get rid of them a natural way? LADY. Shame on you.
Keena.
P.S. Sam Rutebat
I'm doing so good with my No Cig pledge!!
I think I've only had one in the last 8 days! Second hand smoke is starting to bother me & I find myself getting pissed off when Michael smells like it. Gross.
I'll be running out of stickers soon. hehee
No Poo:
I got my hair trimmed last week. My hairdresser shampooed and conditioned, but my hair was fine & looked no different than using baking soda. Actually, that's a small lie. It was slightly oily on the top, but not bad at all.
I want to find more organic shampoo recipes rather than just baking soda & ACV. I want a good smell in my hair, it's been smelling rather bland. It's almost getting old. =(
Keena sent me a package, I got it a couple weeks back! I'm going to take pictures & post so that we'll always remember.
The pixie sticks she sent has been the most sugar I've had in awhile!
Yoga & Pilates is going real good!! My belly has been sore from the ab workouts, but I can feel it's a bit tighter than usual. =D My sister, Gabrielle, has been doing it with me so that's nice! More motivation!
My diet is going great as well! I've been eating lots of grapes, nanners, apples, fat free yogurt, carrots, celery & water all day long for snacks.
I feel better & it's only the 4th week of January!! 2009 is going good.
I'm on my Day 2 of Yoga practice! It's so addicting! I thought I'd be lazy about it but it's too relaxing not to want to do it everyday! =P
Gabrielle's doing it with me.
I'm having a little trouble holding a few of the harder poses whereas it's a piece of cake for Gabrielle. I need to lose the damn gut so it'll be easier for me.
I feel relaxed & my back doesn't hurt as much as usual. My posture, I can already tell, is better!
I walked to the middle of our village today to where the pretty snow-covered pond is. It was lovely.
Exercise is going alright... I'll get better with the routine.
KEENA WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU? I MISS YOU
=(
My mouth is so sore from my Dentist appointment earlier today. It's been over a year since my last check-up.
I can't believe I had 4 effing cavities! My face was numb & swollen all of today.
I can't eat anything hard. I'm starving for real food.. =((
Boooohoo
At least I got that out of the way!
amused
