erm...I felt a little angsty...sorry

have a poem. Adam. to Kris

Rating: PG




Pretending is so tough for me
It goes against the grain
I want to stand on the tallest peak
To brave the snow and rain

I want to have the freedom
To hold your hand in mine
In front of friends, both God and man
Not trembling deep inside

I want to shout it out for all
The universe to know
That I love you with all my heart
And I’ll never let you go

But that can never be
Because love’s not returned
We are merely best of friends
And more may just be spurned

So in my silence I despair
I spend my nights in fear
You never notice anything
It’s not as if you care

There’s too much history with us
Too many memories
And that is why, despite my love
Good friends is all we’ll be

I wait with baited breath each time
We come together now
Hoping against all hope that you
Could love me too somehow

But every time you walk away
A wave, a smile, a grin
You leave me standing, torn apart
My heart shattered again

Find the courage, I tell myself
Tell him how you feel
But my heart will not let me
At least our friendship’s real

If I opened up to you
Told you what’s in my heart
That friendship would be quite destroyed
And we would have to part

So I’ll go on pretending
That all I want from you
Is friendship and not one thing more
But, of course that’s not quite true