Koyonai

Sorry I disappeared there. ^^;


A number of things came up and I've been a bit busy lately. After the meeting with Sean, which was an interesting evening, Jira suddenly declared that we were going to take a little trip to a small neighbouring town to meet his uncle. ^^ I remembered him mentioning that his uncle lived nearby before we moved but I didn't think we'd go see him so soon. lol. He called though and told Jira to come spend a few days at his place. I was kind of surprised that we went on such short notice...didn't think his work would let him off like that but they had no problem with it. o_O When we arrived at his uncle's place, I have to admit I was a bit shocked. The guy has HORSES! rofl. XD Needless to say I was hanging out at the stable a good portion of the time we were there. XD There was this really beautiful black mare there (her name is Califrin) and she's so gentle and smart. =3 Miss her already. Ah, I loved the horses. ^-^ But anyways, Jira's uncle is a really funny old guy. XD I swear, that guy is going to die with a big smile on his face.....he just doesn't stop smiling! ROFL! Kind of a horrible thing to say but it's so true. lol. Nice guy. ^^ Also got to meet Jira's cousin Miranda. She's a pretty quiet girl and it took awhile before she finally said more than a sentance to me. haha. XD; She takes care of the horses after school and is planning to become a vet. =D I think she'd be really good at it so I hope she gets accepted. Overall it was a good trip and I look forward to going again sometime soon. ^^


There's nothing else worth mentioning I suppose...but I can't really think too well right now. I'm too tired. ^^ Perhaps I'll remember if there's something else I had wanted to write about tomorrow. Night!

Went to sleep soon after I made the post over at canada_jrock but when I woke up I could feel that little pulsing that let me know I was going to have a pretty massive headache sometime today. >< I also had a really bad nightmare too. I could actually remember feeling my heartbeat just racing in the dream. Felt horrible. The two nights previous I also had a not so good dream....they were both about similar things too. Didn't bother mentioning them on here because I forgot about them soon afterwards but after I woke up from the nightmare today I recalled the others I'd been having. I know they're all related to the major anxieties I currently have...each of them about a different aspect. One of those anxieties was resolved today so there's little to worry about. I really hope I don't have another nightmare tonight.


Jira had actually woken me up from today's nightmare because I was breathing irregularly. Guess I kind of scared him. ^^; He took me out for lunch to calm my nerves a bit...was most refreshing and I'm glad he did. =) He was talking about work and his new project. For some reason I always like to hear about such things. XD; Then he said he had gotten a call from that guy Sean (mentioned in an earlier post) this morning. He asked if we would be busy friday night and if we'd like to go out for dinner and drinks with him so that they could catch up. So now we have plans for friday. ^-^ I'm going to feel like a 3rd wheel as I think they have a lot to talk about and such. But it doesn't bother me, I can always find some amusement wherever I go. XD


After lunch Jira went to work and I headed home. About halfway back I started to feel that familiar pressure in my head. >< Not a good time, at least it usually gives me a hint that it'll happen sooner or later so I was prepared in any case. By the time I got into the house I HAD to go lay down. After a little while it subsided and I turned on some soft music and read for awhile. Feeling much better now but fairly drained of energy and my eyes are kind of stinging. lol. XD; So I think I'll turn in for the night. Here's to hoping I have a good dream tonight! *cheers*


But first, a gracious Hello and welcome to my new LJ friends. =) Hopefully there'll be more to come in the future as well. ^-^


EDIT: I keep forgetting to mention this but I found it funny. The day before I was randomly surfing the net and happened to come by some horoscope stuff. I checked out my sign and it said as a prediction:
This week may see you indulge yourself with a major purchase for your home which will enhance its beauty. Its presence brings much joy to you on a daily manner.
You may find something interesting and unexpected in your email in box on Tuesday.
Haha!! It actually got the major purchase thing right! How creepy. lol! XD And yes, both my bed and the new couch in the living room have brought me much joy on a daily basis (I keep falling asleep on the couch. lmao). XDD
Now, it got the last thing completely wrong...I didn't receive anything unexpected in my email except for spam mail, which have become something to be expected and hardly interesting. hahah!

I said I was going to do my userinfo page yesterday but I only got around to designing the look of it and not putting in any of the actual info. XD; I got distracted by a phonecall from Nara! Yay! ♥♥ We chatted for a few hours and I told her about the doctor thing. She said that it was one of the things she had worried about when Jira announced that we were going to move. She joked that I was too "delicate" to handle moving to a new city and having to get used to another doctor. lmao! Jeez! I'm not that delicate. XD;;;; But I agreed with her that it was going to be hard trying to find a suitable doctor....I remember how hard it was to find Cerise (my old doctor). -_- But I think I'll manage. It's not like I'm going to just up and die from not seeing one for awhile. lol.


After getting off the phone with Nara I started to play a bit of Kingdom Hearts. Got bored. Played Magna Carta. Got bored. Headache started. Popped pills. Miraculously fell asleep on the couch. hahahah!! Jira woke me up when he got home. The rest of the evening was dinner and watching him play KH. =)


And so today is Valentine's! Since neither of us had anyone special, Jira decided to take ME out to dinner. lmao. A "mock-date". He's not my type but it was fun anyways. XD He even bought me chocolates! *eating them now* <3 Oh! Nara, Lyssie, Mike, and Lance called to wish me a happy Valentine's too. lmao! Funfun. HAPPY VALENTINE'S!


Since I forgot to finish my userinfo page yesterday, I got around to working on it earlier and it's finally done! XD Like my layout, it turned out differently than what I had planned on but I really like it. ^^ Everything I do seems to come together as a complete fluke...with the result being quite pleasing. hahah. How I do it...I have no idea. v_v


Ok...I'm feeling kind of lonely writing to myself without any community interaction. Anyone wanna be friends? omg...how desperate is that? *laughs*

I'm dumping my doctor. >_<
The appointment didn't go well. I just don't get along with that guy at all. It's not that he's a bad doctor or anything it's just that our personalities cause some friction with each other. He doesn't have the kind of attitude/vibe that I would prefer in my doctor. I'll have to go doctor shopping to find someone more suitable. Damn, I wish I still had my old doctor but I don't want to move back just for that reason. At least Jira had previously made up a list of possible doctors just for this reason. I'll give the next person a try and hope that maybe this one will go well. ^^ Jira seemed a little disappointed...not in me though. He was just hoping he had picked a good one the first time around so as to avoid as much trouble as possible on my part. Normally I would have been the one to search for my new doc but Jira wanted to take care of it as it was "his choice to make us move", as he put it. But in the end, this is no real biggie. I mean, this stuff happens all the time regardless so at least it's a good thing I know what I'm pretty much looking for in my doctor instead of staying frustrated for a longer period of time. So I shall be taking over the search from now on. Ah life. ^^;


After my appointment Jira dropped me off at home and he went off to work. He won't be back until late tonight. So currently I'm just sitting here twiddling my thumbs. XD; Actually, I think I'll do my userinfo page now since I really have nothing else to do. =)

I can't seem to fall asleep so I figured I might as well make a post since I was too lazy to post on saturday/sunday. hahah.


On saturday Jira and I went shopping! Now that was a lot of fun. I woke up at around 11am with a headache though. >_< Not fun. But I popped a couple of pills and thankfully it went away while I was drying my hair. <3 pills! lol. But anyways...since neither of us had eaten yet we figured we'd go for lunch first before the shopping fun. I had myself a nice little salad~ =3 Like I had mentioned in my last post...Jira DID wake up incredibly sore from his sleep on the floor. hahaha! He complained about it all through lunch too. XD;


After lunch we started our search for new beds and couch. Needless to say...there was a lot of sitting, lying down, mock sleeping, and lounging around involved. XD We both really liked this one sofa (a soft pleather) but the price tag was like "O_O!!!" So that one was a no-go...but it was SO incredibly comfy! I would so make it double as my bed I'm not even kidding! X3
There is one thing I must say though...Jira's choice in furniture SUCKS! XD That guy has no taste seriously. hahahah! He'd point out one thing after another and eventually I didn't even have to look at what he's pointing at to say "NO". lmao. We finally came to a decision on the couch and it looks kinda like this: ( Collapse )


Although, ours is in black. =3 It's a nice couch...quite soft and I could definitely fall asleep on it as well. lol. I was lying all over it when we got home, btw. XD


After we settled on the couch...we went looking for some beds. I asked Jira during lunch what kind of bedding he was willing to get and surprisingly he said "anything I wanted". No one should EVER say that to me. LMAO! But no, I went fairly conservative and just picked out something simple and not too expensive. =D My bedframe looks like this: ( Collapse )


Clean and simple, I like it. The mattress I picked to go with it is really nice too. *sitting on my new bed* XD It's comfortable enough so it's something I can definitely live with for awhile. Jira picked out a different frame...couldn't find a similar picture though. =\ Again, I didn't particularly like his choice but whatever....it's his bed. hahah. XD Ooooh...I also got to buy some new sheets and a pillow. My old pillow was...well...old. lol! Nicenice new stuff. After our big purchases we went after all the small stuff we were lacking. Curtains (we had blankets covering the windows. lol! Our old curtain/blinds didn't fit some of the windows either. =\), shelving units, a few random kitchen stuff, pictures and stuff to put on the walls and just some other decorative things. All in all...I'm not even sure how much we ended up spending on this shopping spree (Jira wouldn't tell me) but it must've been a lot. ^^;;


After we got home and unloaded we went out again for some groceries. Surprisingly, we ran into an old friend of Jira's. o.O Jira was totally shocked. hahah. The guy's name was Sean...he seemed pretty nice and he gave me the funniest look ever. XD I've seen the look plenty of times before (from seeing my eyepatch) but on his face it somehow managed to look extra comical. XDDD I could've sworn I heard a "woah!!" too. lol. Besides that, I think I might've seen some sign of a blush when he looked at me. =3 Or maybe that's just my imagination. Oh come on now....he was fairly cute. XD; Anyways, they talked for about 5 minutes, exchanged numbers and we went on our merry ways. Sean said he'd drop by sometime during the week so they could catch up. Apparently they had a mutual friend in highschool and so hung out often enough together. He said he's currently studying architecture. That's really cool. I was semi-interested in that field....not so much now....but I haven't completely ruled it out either. I shall look forward to his dropping by the house. ^-^


The rest of saturday was spent decorating the house a bit, putting up the curtains, setting up the beds, and lazing around. =D Not much happened today...got a call from Nara though! We talked for about 3 hours. o_o Ah, I miss her a lot already. ^^; Her brother broke up with his girlfriend. >>;; We all saw this coming so it's no surprise. Those two just aren't a good match....she's fairly high-maintenance and speaks her mind openly while he's fairly short-tempered and a bit aloof. Don't get me wrong, the both of them are actually great kids but we were all puzzled as to how they got together in the first place. lol. One minute they're yelling at each other and the next they're being all lovey-dovey. lmao. Relationship-wise, I guess I really shouldn't be the one to criticize as a good majority of mine haven't been so great either. -_-;; But regardless, it's probably for the best that they broke it off.


I really should be trying to go to sleep since I have an appointment today. The more I think about it the more I think I'm just going to drop this doctor and look for a new one. I don't like him all that much. I'll talk to Jira about it before we go and see what I think again after the appointment. I might call my old doctor...I miss talking to her already too.


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Ok it's official. I HATE spaghetti! >_<
Back when I was younger I know I used to like it but now it's gotten less and less appetizing. I know I'm a really picky eater and generally it will really depend on the sauce that's used to decide whether or not I like spaghetti....but now I just don't like it period. Doesn't even matter if the sauce is good or not. I'm never eating spaghetti again if I can help it. XP


Wow...I slept the better part of today away. Good sleep I think and for once I didn't wake up with a raging headache. =) Jira's been really understanding when it comes to my headaches but I think it's wearing him down a bit. v~v I hate causing such a disturbance to everyone around me. He keeps saying he's fine with it and such but once in awhile I think I really get under his skin. ^^;; In the meantime I guess I'll just have to lay low to avoid him kicking me out. hahaha!! I don't think he'd actually do that, though he's come close on several occasions. XD; Not that I'd blame him considering what was going on at the time. I need to thank him profusely sometime in the future for putting up with me...I just have to SOMEHOW bring myself to actually DO it. That's the hard part.


Jira said he'll take me to my appointment on monday as he doesn't have much work to do. I'm not really looking forward to it. Everytime I leave the office I feel worse than I did when I arrived. I'm still not used to that guy yet and I don't know if I really want to either. I liked my other doctor...she was easier to talk to. Hm, I guess I really shouldn't worry about it because I can always go find someone else if I don't feel like things are going well. Currently, I don't want to switch so soon after getting here...maybe once everything's settled down around here I'll "shop" around for a more suitable doctor.


I was actually surprised when Jira said he was taking me along with him when he moved for his new job. The night he told me that he was going to have to move I was really shocked. The thought never crossed my mind that he would have to leave...and so soon too. Thinking back on it I wonder what I looked like when the information was processing in my mind. I must've looked alarmed or something since he quickly said that he was planning to bring me as well and was already searching for a temporary doctor for me in the area. He really does think of everything when making decisions that guy. ^^ I'm also relieved that he was thinking of me too...I'm not too sure what I would've done on my own. Ah! I feel ashamed. I feel like a little kid being dragged around on a leash sometimes. Oh I'm incredibly grateful, there's no doubt about that...I just wish I wasn't so useless all the time. tsk. Well now I have something to actually say on monday during my appointment. hah.


Why do I always manage to start drowning myself in self-hate everytime I talk about something? It's really starting to irk me. Let's try again shall we?


Anyways, we've now gotten everything moved from our old apartment into this house. We unpacked most of the stuff and now just have a bunch of boxes stacked in a corner of the living room. XD When we were living back in that apartment I thought we had so many things cluttering up the space but now I realize we have practically nothing. XD There's just so much empty space in here. I can't wait to fill it up! 8DD I know Jira won't let me amass anything too large though...would not be a good situation to have too many things if we have to move again. lol. Well really, there's not too many things I would want to get come to think of it. Jira said he wanted to buy a couch and something better to sleep on at least. We've got all the basics other than those....I think all I'd really want to do is buy small things to decorate the place with and make it seem more like OURS.


You know that's one thing I've never really done. In every place I've lived...I've never felt any attachment to it. It just didn't feel like "mine". I'd have a bed/mattress/futon/couch/cushions/blankets (any one of those), a deck of cards, a case of clothes, eyepatches, a camera, discman, cds, and a bag of other random junk. And all that stuff just sitting in a pile on the floor. Nothing on the walls, some kind of curtain on the window, and a light on the ceiling. I'm not really sure what it is I'd have to do to make a place feel like my own. I think I would like to make my room look like Nara's. When you walk in you can just feel/see/smell/hear Nara. Everything she had in that room was...HER. hahaha. I really like that. I wonder what kind of things will make a room feel like me? XD I think I'll ask Jira what he thinks. It would be interesting to hear his opinion on what kind of stuff signifies me. ^-^


I think we *might* go shopping for some needed things tomorrow or on sunday. Something to look forward to. Ok I'm hungry...I'm going to get an apple.


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Back with my apple and a knife. Jira fell asleep in the living room. hahah. Brought him his blanket and pillow. How he managed to fall asleep on the floor...I have no idea. He's never been the type to sleep on hard surfaces. Hm, he's going to be sore when he wakes up. XD I'd wake him up and make him go to his room to sleep instead....but the futon/mattress like thing we have right now isn't really much better than the floor anyways. rofl. XD I'm not sure what he plans to buy for us to sleep on. I really don't think he's going to go thru the trouble of buying both of us beds. Too expensive in my opinion. Guess I'll find out tomorrow.


This apple is really good. =3 Oh yeah! NOTE: Buy apple juice tomorrow!


I had some other things I wanted to mention earlier....but now I can't remember anything else. But that's ok since I feel like I'm already writing a novel here. Would anyone even read all this? It would be nice. ^^ I think I'll just end it here with a survey I did while waiting for my turn to shower. lol.


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Well damn! I FINALLY finished my layout. *shrivels up* I've been working on it off and on during the past 24 hours. lol. It turned out different than what I had originally planned but I think I'm satisfied with the result. There's only one minor thing that's going to annoy me though....I have to remember to NOT write tiny entries or else my comment links & graphic bar at the end of the entry are going to get shoved to the left side instead of staying centred like I would prefer it to. >_> Other than that everything's spiffy. 8D


And to point out, the "vectored" person in my layout is actually ME! harharhar. That's actually what kept me from finishing up my layout quicker. But hey, I'm quite pleased how I turned out. XD I was just going through some random pictures from my camera trying to get some inspiration for my new LJ's layout and came across one of my favourite photos of me. Obviously, it became the main object I decided to design around. And yes, I actually do wear an eyepatch. o_o Not for decoration though.....there's a reason why I wear it. o.< lol. But I won't bother going into it as the "how's" and "why's" are a bit of a touchy subject. -_-


As for the reason I went with shades of brown....well I don't really see many people using those colours for their journals. Which is odd because I find those colours quite soothing. ^^


Technically, I'm only finished with one facet of my LJ. -_-; I still gotta fill in my userinfo stuff as well. I'm totally gonna leave that for later though cause I'm dead tired now and I'm actually freezing. Bad idea to open the window in the middle of winter eh? XD; Never said I was a genius!


After all this I'm kind of left wondering why I bothered to make an LJ account in the first place. o_O
I've had journals before but every single time I just ended up becoming some fake...always wearing my mask and never actually saying what's really on my mind. I guess this time I just really want to start over again and just be myself. I don't care if I offend anyone anymore. I'm tired of not having the guts to simply state what I think. This time I'm going to write every damn thing I feel like writing and not regret a word of it. Hahah! Don't get me wrong...I'm not some evilevil person who'll bitch you out or anything. XD Really, I'm nice and friendly (regardless of the eyepatch). rofl. XD


Now I wonder if I'll ever get some friends on here. >_>;;; Suppose first thing to do is get my userinfo over with and join some communities.
I really need some sleep before I zombify. x_x