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Oh sweet death, how I wait for thee Escape from mortal pains Life Emotion Hunger for something more come take me in your velvety embrace and set me free
In October I put money in derikwithouta_c's expired parking meter (14 points). Last Monday I punched kickinit97320 in the arm (-10 points). In May I helped tuhraysea across the street (6 points). Last Saturday I signed my organ donor card (28 points). Last week I didn't flush (-1 points).
Overall, I've been nice (37 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon!
So I'm walking around on campus today, waiting for steven to get out of class... and this car drives up behind me and almost mows me down. Right in front of Hayden lawn too. I was like, WTF, and I looked and it's some old man with a temporary mall pass hanging from his rear view mirror. Seriously why would ASU allow him to drive on the malls around campus? It makes no sense to me, that's why there's all the golf cart things right... so people don't have big beasty cars on campus, they have golf carts instead? UGH!
I think today is the day we are breaking up. Maybe it's for the better. Maybe this is what needed to happen. I feel... not anger, more upset and disappointed in what happened than I feel angry. I'm hurt because I love being able to see you every day, I love how you make me feel, but I just can't forgive and forget. Maybe it's a good thing it happened now rather than later, because I already feel that all of the stuff I put up with wasn't worth it, I think about if this had happened in 3 months, how much more upset I would be. All the time and energy spent on trying to make something work. "Who can say if I've been changed for the better, but I know I'm who I am today, because I knew you"
At what point do we finally turn because it has become too much to handle? Everyone has their own breaking point, and once that point is reached the outcome is pretty much identical from person to person. I feel like I have finally reached mine. I can't stand it here, I am having an emotional breakdown and there is no one here that I really feel I can talk to and relate to. Everyone here seems to have the same ignorant, superficial fake personality. I can't stand it, people I thought I could trust have proven themselves to be untrustworthy, betrayel is everywhere, seeping in through all the unprotected seams. When is it not worth it to even try anymore? Is it when all hope is lost and home is somewhere you used to have?
I am realizing that I hate it here. little by little, day my day, my hatred of this place grows inside me. I don't even know why, I'm just not happy here. I have an amazing boyfriend, amazing friends and fraternity brothers, an awesome house, but even though I have all these things I don't want to be here anymore. I'm not happy, I feel like I'm starting to lose control of my life, and I think that part of it is this place, I'm heading for an emotional breakdown, because I don't know where my "home" is anymore.