Those With Wings

Now, this was a first. In my four years at my school, this was the first time anyone actually bothered enough to organise an Athletics Day. All in all, it went pretty well (i.e. a lot better than I expected). Games ranged from normal ones like soccer and badminton to weird ones like pentanque and golf chipping (and chess, of course). Being as legendarily unathletic as I am, I didn't put my name down for any sports, and instead attempted to take the role of the Official Result Collectormibobs. Alas, my plans were futile, and my house leader put me in Chess.

However depressing it was to have to be forced to participate in Chess, the day actually turned out to be a huge success. I ended up winning all my chess games (4 in total), because I was fortunate enough to have pretty unskilled opponents ^^. Hehe. The House Spirit were high; the school was filled with a mountain of colours. Red, Yellow, Blue and Green. People walked proudly, face painted, arms covered with illegible messes of words of encouragement. It was really festive.

In the afternoon, Relays and Tug Of War took place, and we shouted ourselves hoarse, supporting the Red House (Totara). And the day ended on a high note for me, as the Relays and Tug of War games put us in Third Place, beating Titoki by ten or so points. (We weren't last...Thank the Gods.) Even better was the fact that Rimu did not snatch the winner's place like per usual, but actually lost to Kowhai by one point. ^^ This, and some frequent sightings of HC and SS made my day complete.

Lunch time one ordinary, beautiful afternoon at poor and horrid Edgewater College:

A(crazy, idiotic, downright insane) pair of girls made their way to the ruggard, crowded money sucker that is otherwise known as the School tuckshop. One bought a hotdog and a frozen yoghurt, which of course, has no relevance to this story. As they stood, without much of a purpose in front of the tuckshop, their eyes wandered toward the hoard of people coming out of the gym (students of the Rimu house, who will without doubt be beaten to pulp by Totara this year) their eyes caught on a bright red THING otherwise known as a jacket/hoodie/thing that the guy they're obsessed with is wearing on that particular day.

If you havent already guessed (and mind you, u'd have to have an IQ lower than a rock's to not have guessed) the two insane girl's are my good friend Krssy (also known as Kuru-chan) and I (Ru-chan)This "glamorus" hoodie belonged to the one and only HC, one of the two Japanese boys that we have been stalking interested in. HC, known to the rest of the sane population as Yuuki, is a tall, kakkoi Japanese guy in Year 13 with a niiiice sense of style. His friend (who is also full of Japaneseness) is nicknamed SS (for reasons that you'll never guess, because not even you, who is admittedly reading this, will be dysfunctional enough to think like I do) is a short-ish Yr 13 named Yuuto. No, they're not brothers.

Back to the point, this Yuuki and Yuuto (who, from henceforth, shall be refered to as HC and SS) made their way around to C-block, and we dutifully followed, trying to look as incospicuous as possible. Naturally, this was hard to achieve, due to the fact that we're not very averse to being spies. Nevertheless, in the next ten minutes or so, we managed to find a group of friends, stay with them, and have HC and SS walk pass us three times. After being fairly freaked out by our dumb luck, we made our way to the library, (which was the way they'd disappeared off to), assuming that they'd left the school. However, five minutes later, we find that they walk out of the hall, opposite the library where we were at. Again, we look like obvious idiots. >< Especially when Krssy exclaims "Shit!" loudly at the sight of them.

And that...was how our great attempt at Stalking ended (somewhat). There's a tad more, but I'd need to start drawing stick figures to explain it...And i'm tired of typing this. Meh.

James and I broke up. School's started, and for some strange reason, I woke up ultra early today. It's Tuesday, isn't it? I have Peer Support. Need to buy uniform. And if I'm gutsy enough, get a House Leader Nomination form. >< I also need to help interact with the...thing. >.> Blah. Balloons. Our school, I'm afraid, is full of hooligans who think balloons are a romantic Valentine's Day present. Or rather, they think it's a cheap one which, admittedly, is true.

Here's my time table, which I shall recite from memory:

Monday Tuesday Wednesday Thursday Friday
Tutor Grp Tutor Grp Tutor Grp Tutor Grp Tutor Grp
English Math Bio Physics Chem
Math Bio Physics Chem English
Bio Physics Chem English Math
Physics Chem English Math Bio
Chem English Math Bio Physics

Added to that is Peer Suppor once a week, and a meeting with Mrs Sheahan on Monday intervals. At home, I have to do correspondance Japanese, which is pretty cool. But hopefully, not too difficult. >< I have a different teacher for Chem on Wednesdays. And a different teacher for English on Thursday and Fridays. So far, Chemistry is by far the best subject.

Blah. Parents...hate them. It's Chinese New Year today. Was supposed to play the role of the third wheel at iceskating and movies, which I don't particularly mind, as I like ice skating. However, as my fucked up luck would have it, SiSi and Lei were late and we couldnt go to ice skating. Went to watch Fun with Dick and Jane instead. Nice, pointless, Jim Carrey comedy. XD Sisi and Lei bought presents and are having dinner with us. They're still eating, and I got tired of my parents' endless rambling about what a careless, emotionless creature their daughter is.

This morning, I swindled 50 bucks out of my parents by getting to my knees and wishing them Happy New Year and shit. And then, because S & L bought presents, my dad felt it a necessity to pay them back by giving them red pockets. Well, actually, I don't have anything against that, 'cept that they both get $50...which admittedly, makes selfish me a little jealous. You know, coz they got the same as me and everything. But yeah, that's my bad. But what really got to me was that my dad comes to me and asks me for the money. Because he doesn't have enough cash. The bastard. I only had one $50 note, so guess what happened? I gave my red pocket to him so he could give to either Sisi or Lei. Suuure, he's gonna pay me back, but that's a really dumbass way of borrowing money from me. Fuck. Me's all bitter and all. Gahhhh.

Enough. That's all the senseless rambling I'm gonna do today. It's fun at times you know, just to write for shits and giggles. Heh. XD

P.S. In other news, I'm d/ling Bleach again. Up to Ep 57. I've watched up to Ep 45-ish. Of course, I've read everything in the manga already, but it's still nice to watch. Kills time.

I understand that people, humans, are full of emotions. In fact, most of them are like cauldrons filled with emotions brewing at the rims. If you turn up the flames, it goes over the edge and pour out in magnificent currents. I understand that for most of these cauldrons, a great deal of heat is needed before it boils over the edge. But, for Fuck's sake, why the heck is it necessary to yell absolute nonsense and stalk off in a storm (or rather, I believe my mother drove off). And this, all of this, the heat that made this boil over was business. Just. Fucking. Business.

I fail to understand the fucking importance of business. And how it can ever be important enough to shout and fight over. Heck, it's not even interesting enough. Of course, we must all take into consideration that I am merely a poor ickle child who would never be able to comprehend the significance of making money and keeping a sushi store that never really belonged to them in the first place.

Laa lala. La la la la. >< Bored. Ultra bored. Mr. Deeds is on. So's Enemy of the State. Can't be bothered watching either. Mainly because Krssy was on the phone with me for ages and ages. *glares at Krssy, where ever she is* Er...yeah. Daisie's in HK, and being happy. The lucky git saw "Nana". T.T AND they have Tenipuri on BUSES there. When I went back to China last year, all we had was Tom and Jerry. =.= James has been emailing too. He's finally moved into his new house. He asked if I wanted to come over when we got our results to go over the papers or something, but I'm not too sure. I think it'd be better to take it slow or something equally stupid like that. I dunno. It'd feel intimidating to go to his house. And of course, knowing me, I probably won't even be able to find it...>.> I'm not sure why, but a relationship sounds intimidating to me right now. I don't wanna think about it. I have studies. I have a busy year. I have other stuff, many, many other things to talk about. There's no NEED for this right now. I thought I was ready last year, but somehow during the holidays, with Japan and everything, my cowardice has grown, because I no longer feel ready. Romance is so...blah...yeah...><. Too heavy a burden. After all, the mere fact that you're basically letting someone else control you and your feelings seems to me, a scary and somewhat stupid move. And I really am just rambling on about nothing, so you can basically ignore the last...nine lines or so. Yeah...

In anycase, today, being a typical Saturday, I went to work at Greenlane Foodtown. Not really work per say, I'm only required to help and assist Sisi, who rolls the sushi and does most of the work. I just cut it (and screw up at doing that too...me being me), package it, and label it. And put it out onto the little counter/fridge/thing. I also cut avacadoes, dry salmon, put salmon in containers, cook rice, help clean, etc. I got dropped off by my lazy mum at 11, and went home at 2.30. It was really short, but my feet still managed to be sore after it. -.-.

The main reason for Krssy's phone call today was that she ran over a bird. Told you there were dire consequences involved with driving. Anyhow, she's devastated, sad and feels sick. Poor girl. I try and offer comfort and support, but frankly, that's not really my forte at all. In fact, I usually have the amazing ability of making things seem worse than they were to begin with. (A skill which comes with being a cynicist and sadist, I suppose) Anyway, that's all. This is way too long for my liking. Hope no one ever have the displeasure of having to read it.

Woke up reeeeally early today, it's almost the earliest I've woken up in the last few weeks. Of course, it IS the holidays...I'm entitled to being as lazy as I want. Or something like that. Yeah, I'm going to City today, for Borders, ramen (maybe), and watching a movie which is hopefully not King Kong. I guess I really don't have a reason for not wanting to watch King Kong...apart from the fact that it's you know...a movie about a huge as ape. AND it's not a comedy.

I wanna watch Saiyuki. The manga was all nice and good, but I want the anime ><'''. Oh yes, and I also need to find that song..something Human. Only Human? Something like that. Sung by K. -nodnod- And d/l more of Bump's music. I think I'm gonna give up watching Paradise Kiss. XD Gonna check if Borders have anymore of the manga. Speaking of which, Krssy managed (somehow) to finish Hana Kimi. All 23 vols of it. Insane, that girl is. The fact that she's also my ride home today isn't very comforting at all...

Anyhow, gonna go now.

Yet another boring day. I'm staying at home because mum doesn't need me at the shop. Had Udon for breakfast/lunch and is watching some Korean movie...spin kick or something. It has Chinese subtitles, even then, watching it is a real pain. Actors are cute though, thank God. And like all Korean movies (not that, mind you, I've seen a lot. Or finished watching one even) there's loads of violence, thankfully. The fights are bloody and actually fun to watch. Gave up watching old, boring Chinese anime. Bridget Jone's Diary was good, that dude that played Mark Darcy is hot, albeit very old. -nodnod- You see, this is how boring it is here.

Two more books have arrived for me at the library. Am to lazy to walk there and walk back just for the books. I should be making progress on the books I got out yesterday. Have only finished half of the first book ("Remember When" by Nora Roberts, incidentally).

Anyhoo, that's all. Better get back to the weird and random Korean movie (which is about tae-kwon-doe ((or however you spell that))). These brackets are headache-causing. (Should really try and quit the bad habit of using too many brackets.)

It's the holidays...relaxing, long, ultimately boring. The trip to Japan was utterly amazing, more so than I ever could have hoped. The six families I stayed with (yes, I STILL can't get over the fact that I had to stay with so many of them...) were great, (most of them), and the food was wonderful, naturally.I made some great friends that I honestly wouldn't mind seeing again, as unlikely as that would be. But now I'm back home. And the trip just seems like a distant memory, something that was so surreal and far away it felt like it had happened to someone else. And I think I quite dislike that feeling, because this trip was one I wanted to savour and treasure for a long, long time. And to think that after being back home for a little more than a week, the novelty of it has already pretty much died down completely, really kills it. Ah well.

On to other news, walked to the library today. The walk was longer and more boring than I remembered, but at least i got 3 J.D Robb books which I'm rather a huge fan of at the moment. It's a good thing that she, under the names of J.D Robb and Nora Roberts have written more than a hundred novels, because I'd hate for this obsession to be shortlived. My last obsession of this size was on Agatha Christie's work, and I think that was in Yr9, maybe early Yr10. I've finished all but 3 or 4 of her books, but she only had 70 or so. Still, it's quite an achievement. Just goes to show how boring I am and how far I let my obsessions take me. And of course, these books serve to help me procrastinate which is probably my only goal in life. Or something equally as pathetic.

Bridget Jone's Diary will be on tonight. It's a relatively old movie, and I'm sure I've seen it before, but it's amusing, and better than nothing.

My Paradise Kiss obsession have died down some, mainly due to the fact that SiSi told me how it was going to end. The entire series has a little too much drama for my taste...and too much...seriousness...or something. I like ultra light-hearted stuff with action and laughs, and people being sadistic for shits and giggles. Nevertheless, Paradiss Kiss is one of the first shoujo anime I've been really obsessed with, so I guess it's something to remember.

It's 2006...I spent New Years in Japan, so the feeling of 2006 hasn't really sunk in so well yet. But whatever, Happy New Years World. Hope this year will be as fully packed as last year, except with less of the angsty shit. Of course, even I know that they can't be avoided...nevertheless, I think I cried a little too much last year over trivia things for my liking. And I think I'd like to see my friends be a little less depressed. Honestly, if I wanted to write a book on the dramas of a cynical, pretentious, nerdy teenager's life, it'd be thicker than the six Harry Potter books put together.

Anyhoo, I did a New Year Resolution Generator thing, and my resolution for the year 2006 is to be anti-social. This is strangely quite appropriate seeing as it's probably something I'd like to try. Apart from my closest insane, and sad, sad excuses of friends, i really dont wanna be close to anyone else. They're more than enough for me. And my school honestly doesn't have anymore interesting people. (see, how that anti-social attitude is already developing?)

Apart from that, I believe my New Year Resolutions this year will be something along the lines of:
a. Be the best student in my year
b. Actually be bothered enough to try hard at becoming a House Leader
c. Um...oh yeah, something about studying and revising and doing homework frequently, and not at the very last minute
d. Get my love issues sorted, or just forget about the whole section.
e. I will not cry about a guy, or be distressed about relationships.
f. I will learn to like myself a tad more, you know, just to amuse Satan and whatnot.
g. I will learn to stop being weird...and write journal entries like this one. (pretty sure this is the one resolution i'll never achieve)
...and I really can't think of anymore.

That's all now, I'm kinda tired of typing so much...yeah.

Last night, we had our Annual Prize-Giving Ceremony. Needless to say, it was pretty boring, as we already had a "practise" run-through, so we knew what we got. This year, I only got Prizes for Japanese and Physical Science, and a Certificate for Maths. I'm a little disappointed, I guess, seeing as I felt I'd done pretty well in English. But whatever, it doesnt matter much, especially since I love the two books I got. My parents however, were a much more different story. Their..."sensitivity" toward the fact that I'm "emotionally scarred for life due to the disappointment of not being the best for once" (note: SARCASM.) is...irritating. to say the least.

On a happier note, our Head Girl (Also DUX and...our Deputy Head Girl was Runner Up DUX heh) and our Head Boy's speeches were really, really, really inspiring. And just...awesome in general. As I sat there, on the third row, between two of my classmates, I think, for the first time in three years, I actually felt proud to be a part of my school. Proud that I was a part of this friendly (*shudder*), supportive, and happy, albeit annoying, school. I wanted to be up there, where our Head Girl was now in two years time, doing the same speech, and inspiring just as many people, and showing them why they should be proud to be a part of our school. So, now I guess I have a dream too, a dream that I probably wont achieve, as I really, really dislike talking in front of a group of idiots students.