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Jan. 30th, 2025 10:11 am
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Ama Adusei has been in a one day long time loop for Unknown Uncountable Thousands-to-Millions of Years. No One Knows!

Physically, she appears 14, and she does have a teenage Vibe to some of her decision making. However, her little brother Ike, instead of talking like a 5-year-old, fully moves through the world as an adult academic as a result of his time learning and 'compounding' intelligence and life experience during the Loops. I tend to ascribe her Teen Tendencies not to any limit of Frozen Brain Development, which is clearly not how the Loop Works, but a more social stagnation. Everyone in her town is in the Loop together, so there's weird social dynamics - even though they're all Forever, the older generation is always the older generation.

Given the complicated nature of her age, I am personally uncomfortable doing any shipping with her, so I promise that will never be an issue. (She also low-key comes off a bit ace in canon anyway.)

Additionally, Ama's backstory involves spousal abuse (her dad against her mom), suicide (her mom) and, like. So much torture and cannabalism (Ama against her old school bully. For Forever.) The first two, at least, are depicted in a pretty difficult/grounded/realistic way...until you get into Ama and her dad killing each other a lot about it. Also, Ama is trying to forgive her dad and build a relationship with him, even though he is sometimes still violent with her when he's upset. This should not come up very often but I'm aware that it's a particularly difficult version of an already difficult topic.

Please let me know if 1) due to discomfort with age weirdness you would like Ama not to tag you at ALL, or 2) if any of the above are topics you want to be sure never to interact with.

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Sep. 6th, 2022 09:20 pm
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Character Name: Ama Grace Adusei
Series: "Through the Flash", from Friday Black
Age: Unknown thousands (hundreds of thousands????) of years stuck in a one-day time loop (with the rest of her neighborhood, who also are aware of the loop, so she's had....dubious but extent social development in that time). She appears to be 14 but it's canon that people continue to change and mature as people in the Loop; her "six" year old brother Ike talks like an adult, and explicitly struggles with having an adult intellect in a child's body.
From When?: After the events of "Through the Flash"

Warden Justification: Ama knows what it is to sink to the absolute worst of yourself, and like it, and one day still choose to change. She knows what it is to struggle to be forgiving of someone who's hurt you, and that change is a continuous process. She knows what it feels like to be so blissfully powerful, and so, so trapped.

Ama also considers herself "the worst person in the world," and not without reason. She's done absolutely terrible things, for very little reason. There's basically nothing any inmate could have in their file that will make her flinch or judge. The person she's hurt worst in the world, and who has done his best to hurt her most, is someone for whom she now feels remorse and compassion - but she also doesn't let that remorse drag her into despondency. Instead, she has moved past the nihilism of her situation to dedicating herself to small acts of kindness: making her neighbor, Mrs. Nagles, her favorite tea, trying to mend bridges with her father, and so on.

Ama will believe that no matter what they've done, and no matter the situation, her inmate can choose and build a new path. Ama is also just a few steps down from ego death; although the barge's lack of a Time Loop will, ironically throw her for a loop, the death toll is similar enough that she will still consider everyone aboard "supreme and infinite", as she says. Each person has infinite potential, infinite value, and doing bad things doesn't erase or limit that - infinity is infinity.

Ama doesn't know a lot about guiding other people (at least not into being better), but she would encourage her inmate to explore their own infinite possibility, and she'd be there for them with deep patience and encouragement.

Item: Ike's mini notebook.

Abilities/Powers: Ama has spent thousands of years in a time loop, honing her body for strength, speed, and sheer lethality. Due to "accumulation", she's capable of feats no living human is - for example, despite being a twiggy tweenager, she knocks down a full tree with about two punches and one kick. She can punch hard enough to go through walls. She's got "time to reflect" when her father reaches to stab her, and it's unclear how much this is actually bullet time reflexes and how much it's just her subjective experience of fast reflexes; either way, she's not capable of entering full bullet time for long periods, or lifting cars or buildings. Exactly how much faster or stronger isn't specified, but TL;DR this girl could definitely kill batman with her bare hands, but superman would have no trouble with her.

She's got some level of superhuman resilience as well - although she can definitely be wounded badly, she's able to take several hits from another member of the Loop with similar physical accumulation as her, and keep fighting. She also has some level of enhanced senses, although this will be less pronounced outside the confines of the loop where she knows every nuance.

Wardening Strategies and Philosophies: After an uncountable, unknown eternity in her time loop, Ama has arrived at a kind of deliberate, radical gratitude. She acknowledges how crushing it is to wake up to the exact same blue sky every morning for unknown thousands of years - but isn't it so good that it's a blue sky and not a shitty drizzly grey one? And then when the nuclear-fallout-adjacent Hot Rain starts in the afternoon, isn't that a great reminder of how nice it was to be dry?

On the barge, Ama will be simultaneously ecstatic to have new and different things, people, and places to encounter, and a little bit thrown off by the disappearance of the Loop's constants. It's going to take her months, maybe years to stop flinching at the time the ear-splitting warning Horn is supposed to sound every day.

Ama has near-infinite patience, and as mentioned above, she doesn't judge. There's not very much she's going to take personally. And she's also not afraid to use her skills. While she would probably choose to let her inmate murder her rather than indulge in her own Old Ways, she would have no compunction about severely injuring them to prevent them from attacking others, as when she paralyzes Carl to protect her father and brother, then sits with him for most of the rest of the day, listening to his grievances, and offering what comfort she can.

As a result of being immortal but also constrained by the short time loop, Ama is very keenly aware of what's possible and actionable, and what little things make life better. She reflects on her neighbor, Mrs. Nagels, who has the flu every day forever, and who starts every day with her tissue box fallen on the floor; if that tissue box was back on the table, in reach, that would make her eternity so much easier - but it's always back on the floor after the Flash and reset. Ama is going to find the whole lifestyle of linear time intoxicatingly free. You can choose to make changes, not just to yourself, but to your world, and they stay. Ama would really encourage and challenge her inmate to be intentional about what those changes are and what they want their life to be.

But she's also a big believer in the power of internal change in the face of things that can't be altered. She can't change the nature of the Loop, nor can she undo her own past reign of terror. But she can choose to be a different, kinder, less violent person, to mend her relationships and be positive. This does not change the deep existential horror of the loop, or her father's resentment, or her mother's absence, or Carl's monstrousness. But it's better than succumbing to any of those things.

Ama overall has a lot of patience and wisdom - but she's also very much operating on her own coping mechanisms, trained for an extremely specific situation inside the Loop; whoever she's paired with will no doubt have just as much to teach her about life as she has to teach them.

Deal: A way out of the Time Loop (and hopefully out of the nuclear apocalypse as well) for her grid, and possibly all the grids. Maybe not everybody at once though. She's open to workshopping details.

History: Ama Grace Adusei lived some unspecified time in the future. She makes a joke about "World War VI" at one point, so presumably World Wars III and IV have happened, and World War V is the one that nukes her town every day just before the Loop resets. Despite this - despite the existence of a government branch called "Soldier-Police," all of whom are fortunately deployed elsewhere, despite the existence of drone birds that hover in place and make alerts and announcements - she was a fairly ordinary teenage girl. She lived in a suburb; she played sports at school. She rides a bike. She remembers her father playing games with her, laughing and tickling. She also remembers that he was not good to her mother, who committed suicide two months before the beginning of the Time Loop, a fact that haunts Ama forever.

Then, one morning, the drone birds all opened their mouths, and made an agonizing, ear-splitting noise to indicate that the defenses had been breached. Later that day, the Hot Rain falls, the first sign of not-too-far-off fallout. And then, near evening, comes The Flash.

And everyone wakes up again on that morning. Different people "woke up" to the fact of the Time Loop first, gradually beginning to "keep" "Through the Flash". One day that is the only day, she realizes that her six-year-old brother Ike is talking like an adult instead of a kid; from Ama's perspective, the strangeness of that prompts her to begin keeping Through The Flash, but who knows how many times she noticed and forgot from Ike's perspective. Ama joined the ranks of the Supreme and Infinite, her immortal neighbors with all the time in the world, and very little of the world to fill it with.

For a little while, they marked time by each other: every time someone new "woke up" and started keeping through the flash, they had a party to celebrate someone else re-joining the flow of their immortal community. Eventually, though, everyone woke up. And the days were the same, and the same, and the same, and the same.

Carl Samuels is a once-ordinary boy at her school, a bully with "some kind of aqua nazi" for an abusive father of his own, who bullied Ama in the wake of, and about, her mother's suicide. He is the first person she kills. She hunts him down over and over and over, tortures him (and his mother) in every conceivable way. Eventually, the anger and hatred and sadism she visited on Carl leaches out into the way she feels about everything.

She still hates him but she gets bored with hurting just him. She starts killing other people, starting with other bullies, and at some point including her father, who had been abusive to her mother Before The Flash. She made it a point to kill him right away, early in the day. But eventually she hunts everyone. She gets better and better and better at killing, and more dedicated to killing. She refines her routine; she notes that she could kill all 116 people on her cluster in 22 minutes, with a break in the middle to shower the blood off from the first half. (This excludes her little brother Ike, whom she never kills, even at the height of her reign of terror.) When she doesn't just wipe everyone out for the paltry luxury of a few hours alone, feeling powerful and exhilarated and quiet, she forces everyone to call her Knife Queen Ama, on pain of - well. On pain of pain. The Loop always resets, but Ama is still the same Ama, has still done that killing, even if everyone comes back to life every morning. Everyone else remembers, too.

Throughout, Carl (who is in a different cluster, "over on Kennedy," remains the target of her most persistent cruelties. Eventually, she notices, even before he does, that he is also starting to accumulate physical prowess. So she lets him become her friend instead. Ama explains "Here in the forever Loop, anything can happen. You can make a friend of the Devil." Because you've done everything, everything else. Why not this?

For another unknown age, they are War Gods together, immortal abused superpowered 14 year olds in the most toxic blood-soaked partnership of all time. They murder and mutilate and torture and violate everyone around them for uncountable endless forever days. They're also fuckin pretentious nerds with too much time to kill who invent a private War God conlang called Carama, just for the two of them, and actually use it to talk to each other.

Eventually, though, Carl gets a tiny tiny piece of his own back. One day that is the forever day that is another Loop, he catches her off-guard and knocks her out with a shovel. She wakes up chained to a tree with numerous broken bones, and Carl tortures her for the rest of the day, until the Flash comes and they both wake up again in their beds, for the next day that is the same day. It's been so long since anyone hurt Ama that this is a real shock to the system for her; pain is short in the infinite Loop but it always feels long when you're feeling it. Carl working her over makes her rethink some of what she's done - although her narration elides a little bit exactly how quick that rethinking might have been.

Eventually, though, she reforms herself into "New Ama." She doesn't kill anybody, not even her Daddy - even though she still could, even though he kills her, some days, saying her mother's name. Even though they've hurt each other over and over so much forever. She lets him kill her rather than kill him again; she tries to love him even when it's hard, and again when he's guilty and makes her pancakes.

And one forever day when she's working hard to be kind and supreme and infinite and positive and helpful and not Knife Queen Ama anymore, he kills her - and before she wakes up the way she always wakes up, she has a dream. A new dream, hazy and warm, of her mother holding her for a few minutes, Before. And anything different is interesting.

Ama and Ike go on a trip to Carl's neighborhood to try to talk to one of the scientists in their Grid (a former marine biologist) about whether the dream could be an anomaly that would hint at the Loop breaking down. Carl kills Ama (with high-powered guns that his father had stockpiled); Ama struggles but fails to mercy-kill Ike before Carl can capture him. She wakes up in her bed on the same day as every day, and after climbing out the window to have a talk with her neighbor Mrs. Nagles, goes downstairs to find Carl has come to visit them. Ike says Carl let him go. Carl says (in their Violence Conlang) "Carl the Great Destroyer spared the weakling". Carl also says he came to kill her and make her family watch.

They fight; Ama apologizes for what she did to him - which only infuriates him more - but still fights him, rather than let him have his way with her and her family. They destroy the kitchen. Ama wins, punching him in the neck to paralyze him rather than kill him. She carries him up to her bedroom and sits with him until he's too hoarse to scream at her anymore, then leaves him there. Perhaps kindness, perhaps something else entirely.

She and her father and brother go to the wall of their house to wait for The Flash, to pose against the wall so their blast shadows will be interesting, if anybody exists in the future to see them. Ama poses as a dancer despite broken ribs, grateful not to be alone.

Sample Network Entry: tdm post

Sample RP: prose

Special Notes: oh my god so much gore and abuse and cannibalism warnings for this short story, I will have opt outs. Also, I would be deeply uncomfortable doing anything ship-adjacent with Ama; even though her immortal forever-""six"" year old brother Ike is mentioned to have (presumably nonsexual) romantic partnerships, Ama genuinely gives me kind of an ace vibe, so for many many reasons I'm just not going there.

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