Countenance
I would say
This world
Is not crushing me
Yet
Except—
Every muscle
In my face
Is knots,
Like I live
In a wince
From the searing
Light
Of scrutiny.
And the pain
And the pull
Is wrecking
The sweetness
Of my voice.
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I would say
This world
Is not crushing me
Yet
Except—
Every muscle
In my face
Is knots,
Like I live
In a wince
From the searing
Light
Of scrutiny.
And the pain
And the pull
Is wrecking
The sweetness
Of my voice.
Dramatis Personae:
Celyn, who is perhaps unfortunately in his element (chaos and fairy nonsense)
Robin, who wants to go home
with Greymalkin, who wants his wings back
Izgil, who wants to know things
Viepuck, who was falling back on faking it and improv
When we left the party we were deciding what to do after demolishing a redcap fortress.
( There were a lot of trophies in the trophy room, many of them grisly. )
Celyn, who is perhaps unfortunately in his element (chaos and fairy nonsense)
Robin, who wants to go home
with Greymalkin, who wants his wings back
Izgil, who wants to know things
Viepuck, who was falling back on faking it and improv
When we left the party we were deciding what to do after demolishing a redcap fortress.
( There were a lot of trophies in the trophy room, many of them grisly. )
Meme reference for the title.
Dramatis Personae:
Izgil, doing bomber runs
Viepuck, more of a sniper really
Celyn, combat medic
Robin, heavy cavalry
When we left off we were travelling to the fortress of the person who took, among other things of less importance to the party, Greymalkin's wings as a trophy.
( And so we headed off with our half a goat. )
Combat sessions continue pretty fast to summarize.
Dramatis Personae:
Izgil, doing bomber runs
Viepuck, more of a sniper really
Celyn, combat medic
Robin, heavy cavalry
When we left off we were travelling to the fortress of the person who took, among other things of less importance to the party, Greymalkin's wings as a trophy.
( And so we headed off with our half a goat. )
Combat sessions continue pretty fast to summarize.
I think this is a sign that my ADHD meds are also antidepressants?
none of us are built
to be this brave
the epics told the truth:
the inhuman weight
of necessary courage
makes monsters
of its warriors
(of its victims)
because
only monsters
can survive
valor
and not
lie beneath
Earth
none of us are built
to be this brave
the epics told the truth:
the inhuman weight
of necessary courage
makes monsters
of its warriors
(of its victims)
because
only monsters
can survive
valor
and not
lie beneath
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PSA
Did you know
Mental health is worse
In the population
We're trying to kill?
It's why
They can't be allowed
To be
Like that.
It's for their own good,
You see.
These laws
Are protection.
Left to their own devices
They make bad choices,
Which lead to
Negative outcomes,
Like living.
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Rat
The poem says
Hope is a sewer rat
Adapted
For survival
Despite the plague
And the filth
And the hate
And I
Got the t-shirt
The one with the rats
That says
"You will not
Exterminate
Us"
That they
Resurrected
For rats
Like me
But I am
Sick
Of gnawing
A way
Out
And so tired
Of the stench.
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Watcher
They say angels
Are genderless
But he refused to come
Unarmed:
He tore an eye
From his feathered wing
And opened its color
To paint his lids
He had not been shaped
To have
A blade
So he made one.
His hands opened
With gifts:
These are your weapons,
Use them.
Become strong
And beautiful.
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Toys
Gender is like Lego
It hurts
When you step on it.
Some like kits
And assemble
Piece by piece
Just like they're supposed to
Many— most?
Might build theirs and
Then
Adapt
Rayguns on the pirate ship
Skeletons in the princess castle—
It needs a dungeon.
Gather your pieces while ye may.
Become.
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Dramatis Personae:
Viepuck, the eldritch tween (with his familiar the flying purple octopus Es*tiaslos)
Izgil, the respectable older gent who brings moon to the moonless
Celyn, whose sense of etiquette was more useful than his stabbing honestly
Robin, who is unspeakably exhausted about fairy bullshit
(and getting his own line)
Greymalkin, wingless gryphon with PTSD and an entirely reasonable resulti9ng attitude
When we left off we had just been asked to go close a portal to the Feywild in a way that meant it would not reopen.
( So we planned to go through the portal into the realm of the evil fey. )
Viepuck, the eldritch tween (with his familiar the flying purple octopus Es*tiaslos)
Izgil, the respectable older gent who brings moon to the moonless
Celyn, whose sense of etiquette was more useful than his stabbing honestly
Robin, who is unspeakably exhausted about fairy bullshit
(and getting his own line)
Greymalkin, wingless gryphon with PTSD and an entirely reasonable resulti9ng attitude
When we left off we had just been asked to go close a portal to the Feywild in a way that meant it would not reopen.
( So we planned to go through the portal into the realm of the evil fey. )
Set
Miscellanea:
The polar stars
With fixed purpose;
Thunderbolt iron
To open the power
(Great of strength)
to speak;
Confusion;
Discord;
Overcoming that which would
Annihilate;
The sinister and redheaded;
The foreign.
And
Problematic
Men—
Angry drunks,
Queer,
And the ball-less.
Collected.
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Regalia
It used to be
People
Put on names
And a suit of clothes,
And were known.
The unknown god
Takes up his staff,
Puts on his beard,
His signs of power,
And when so garbed can say,
"And now you know me."
What raiment is mine,
What tools,
What adornments,
That will make me known?
I know not.
Footnotes on this one are: conversations about names on bsky, the lecture I went to tonight on queer/trans experience in the American colonies, a passage quoted in Daily Life of the Egyptian Gods, and
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graydon's comments about how gender is the means of signaling what sort of improv one is doing....
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Not my best way to start a year, honestly, this state of mind.
ETA ... okay random shuffle is being perfect in a lolsob way.
Time is like a bullet from behind
I run for cover just like you
Time is like a liquid in my hands
I swim for dry land just like you
Time is like a blanket on my face
I try to be here just like you
Time is just a fiction of our minds
I will survive and so will you
We are the only ones right now that are celebrating
And we are joining hands right now
We are the only ones right now that are suffocating
We are the dying ones right now
As the water grinds the stone
We rise and fall
As our ashes turn to dust
We shine like stars
Here's the whole thing, and welp.
Official video.
ETA ... okay random shuffle is being perfect in a lolsob way.
Time is like a bullet from behind
I run for cover just like you
Time is like a liquid in my hands
I swim for dry land just like you
Time is like a blanket on my face
I try to be here just like you
Time is just a fiction of our minds
I will survive and so will you
We are the only ones right now that are celebrating
And we are joining hands right now
We are the only ones right now that are suffocating
We are the dying ones right now
As the water grinds the stone
We rise and fall
As our ashes turn to dust
We shine like stars
Here's the whole thing, and welp.
Official video.
Dramatis Personae, from the POV of the major NPCs:
Sir Robin, Lord of Asineau Village, with Greymalkin the wingless gryphon
Celyn Bettws, Lord's Consort in Asineau
Viepuck, squire and herald to Sir Robin, with Es*tiaslos the purple eldritch flying octopus
and
Izgil, the dwarf scholar who hangs out in Asineau
When we left off we had just killed a dragon.
( So we packed up our nonsense and returned to Asineau. )
Sir Robin, Lord of Asineau Village, with Greymalkin the wingless gryphon
Celyn Bettws, Lord's Consort in Asineau
Viepuck, squire and herald to Sir Robin, with Es*tiaslos the purple eldritch flying octopus
and
Izgil, the dwarf scholar who hangs out in Asineau
When we left off we had just killed a dragon.
( So we packed up our nonsense and returned to Asineau. )
Dramatis Personae
Viepuck, quiet due to player absence
Izgil, unfortunately the only one who can see in the dark
Celyn, who did a lot of rogueing
Robin, prepared to do a great deal of dragon-thumping
When we concluded last session, we were about to be attacked by a dragon.
( So we set up for that. )
(Combat sessions are easy to summarize.)
Viepuck, quiet due to player absence
Izgil, unfortunately the only one who can see in the dark
Celyn, who did a lot of rogueing
Robin, prepared to do a great deal of dragon-thumping
When we concluded last session, we were about to be attacked by a dragon.
( So we set up for that. )
(Combat sessions are easy to summarize.)
Summarizing some emailed events and today's session.
Dramatis Personae
Izgil, who did not do much because his player was out this session
Celyn, who has complicated class issues
Viepuck, who is very busy causing chaos as usual
Robin, who is doing a lot of engineering lately
When we concluded last session, the party was having something of a vacation in Robin's new demesne of the village of Asineau.
( Things have been pretty chill for a bit! Warmer now. )
Dramatis Personae
Izgil, who did not do much because his player was out this session
Celyn, who has complicated class issues
Viepuck, who is very busy causing chaos as usual
Robin, who is doing a lot of engineering lately
When we concluded last session, the party was having something of a vacation in Robin's new demesne of the village of Asineau.
( Things have been pretty chill for a bit! Warmer now. )
Mama
There was in me
A trailing reluctance
To let go
Of what nurtured you—
Even though
It now fed
Neither you
Nor me.
But—
When you tucked your head
Against my chest
To cling again,
I don't think
You even
Noticed
It was gone.
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Dramatis Personae
Izgil, who is profoundly offended by the irrationality of these accusations
Viepuck, who manages PR rather a lot for a twelve-year-old
Celyn, who has a little box of white-hot rage that he opens up, for a treat
Robin, who as always really wants to protect everyone
When we left off we were about to be tried on a trumped-up necromancy accusation put together by a person we were pretty sure was an actual necromancer.
( So we settle in for an uneasy sort of night in the courtyard to the baronial keep. )
Izgil, who is profoundly offended by the irrationality of these accusations
Viepuck, who manages PR rather a lot for a twelve-year-old
Celyn, who has a little box of white-hot rage that he opens up, for a treat
Robin, who as always really wants to protect everyone
When we left off we were about to be tried on a trumped-up necromancy accusation put together by a person we were pretty sure was an actual necromancer.
( So we settle in for an uneasy sort of night in the courtyard to the baronial keep. )
Seahorse
I carried you
Even though
I—
I am no woman;
(I will love all things that grow
And are,
And am,
Not barren)
You taught my roots to drink
My trunk to span realms
My branches to embrace the stars:
We were the world,
Together.
You were never as heavy
As how
The world
Saw me.
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