Dale

so...i realize that the last post was mean....and if you read that story, none of it is true...(about fudge packers...anyway). i'm giving this journal over to Dale. goodbye

man you wanna hear a funny fucked up story? go to http://boysrstinki.diaryland.com haha BUTT FUCKER.

i hav moved my journal cuz i really don't like livejournal all that much. i've switched over to diaryland. now it is http://momentsleft.diaryland.com just incase you wanted to kno... bye.

so i don't care anymore. i'm gunna do it. ive come to the realization that it's gunna hapn and i can't take it back no matter what so SCREW IT.

i wish it was raining, cuz i hate every beautiful day.

i wonder how many days i can post in a row. this is the fourth i believe. yes yes.

when did ur iz begin to look fake? i hope ur as happy as ur pretending...

lately ive been just laying in my bed...staring at the wall...thinking about how life has come to be so dull. and maybe having a few conversations with myself, here or there.

EnternetSandman: i am batman and you are robin. ba hahaha

the truth is you could slit my throat, and with my one last gasping breath...i'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt...

call me...wishful thinker/hopeless dreamer/hidden screamer

"If the people we love are stolen from us, the way to have them live on is to never stop loving them. Buildings burn, people die, but real love is forever."
-The Crow

And nevr look at the other place
Stay with whats pristine that touches u
Where the peril accentuates
Something that culd mean so much to u
Try save a seat n the golden cage
The media mass has still yet to say
To simply pass or rise from the grave
Now Iv got the key to Gramercy Park
Out of my way and Im safe not afraid of the dark
Iv got the key to Gramercy Park
But I might might miss breaking in thru the bars


it makes me feel better to kno that soon this will all be over...

it's funny...not the haha funny, just the makes you think funny. it's amazing how i always trust my friends and don't think twice about it only to find out they've been lying all along.

for into darkness fell his star in mordor where shadows are

"You're so last summer"
she said
"don't don't let it go to your head
boys like you are a dime a dozen,
boys like you are a dime a dozen"
she said
"you're a touch overrated,
you're a lush and i hate it
but these grass stains on my knees
they won't mean a thing"

and all i (all i)
need to kno (need to kno)
is that i'm something you'll be missing
(is that i'm something you'll be missing)
(maybe i should hate you for this)
maybe i should hate you for this
never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe i should hate you for this)
maybe i should hate you for this
never really did ever quite get that...

i'd never lie to you
unless i had to
i'll do what i got to
unless i had to
i'll do what i got to, the truth
is you could slit my throat
and with my one last gasping breath
i'd apologize for bleeding on you shirt

and all i (all i)
need to kno (need to kno)
is that i'm something you'll be missing
(is that i'm something that you're missing)
(maybe i should hate you for this)
maybe i should hate you for this
never really did ever quite get that far
(maybe i should hate you for this)
maybe i should hate you for this
never really did ever quite get that...

cuz i'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
this'll be the last chance you get to drop my name
cuz i'm a wishful thinker with the worst intentions
this'll be the last chance you get to drop my name

if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar
if im just bad news, then you're a liar





(unsent letter) hey. why do you always hav to pop up in my head? how am i ever going to be able to forget you if i can't stop thinking about you. it's horrible. and it drives me crazy. i want to get you out of my head. but i've tried so many things, none that seem to work. everything reminds me of you and i just can't help it. the one way that in time will surely stop it i just can't do. and that sucks as well. goodnight for now. i'll probly dream about you too...since i always do.

"Guess mine is not the first heart broken, my eyes are not the first to cry
i'm not the first to kno, there's just no gettin' over you
hello, i'm just a fool who's willing to sit around and wait for you
but baby can't you see there's nothin' else for me to do
i'm hopelessly devoted to you
but now there's nowhere to hide since you pushed my love aside
i'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you
hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you
my head is saying "fool forget him" my heart is saying "don't let go"
hold on to the end, that's what i inted to do
i'm hopelessly devoted to you
but now there's nowhere to hide since you pushed my love aside
i'm not in my head, hopelessly devoted to you
hopelessly devoted to you, hopelessly devoted to you"

"you were right, those things don't just hapn, they hapn to teach you things and i kno now that i will never love anyone as much as i love you. i kno we're gunna be together forever, but you still need to realize that."-Cory Matthews

you'll be accepting my apology for taking things too seriously
sometimes i'm old enough to keep routines
sometimes i'm child enough to scream for
everything i broke in two
you're barely missing me, i'm missing you and everything you do
i really do
my once photographic memory for recollections sake is failing me
i cant remember for the life of me
sometimes i can think to recite words that i read and rewrite
my pens paint people that ive proven wrong
but we move on
get a job where i can tell all of my accounts of someone else
i'm quick enough to judge that they were wrong and that we knew it all along
sing a long long-winded song i would be content to hum along
if i state that my fingers kno where to show what everyone should hav known
i'll let it go
hopefully you'll forget the words that i put in print
my luck, you'll change and hav strength enough to walk away

"nothing beats the pain of knowing that you're right for each other, just not right now."

i kno you tried your best to make this hurt a little less, but it didn't work. and for that, i'm sorry.

sometimes i think about stuff that has hapnd and i want to kill you. i kno that's a little blunt and mean but it's how i feel and you always said i was the honest one. and then other times i just want to hug you for the joy you've brought into my life. so thanks for being my best friend through thick and thin. i kno you'll read this, but you don't hav to talk it over with me, becuz i'm not too big into talking things out anymore, but you wouldn't kno that.

ppl change and you don't even kno, and that's a pity.

when ur away from someone for a long time...a lot of things begin to change. and some things that you think will be the last to change, are the first. it doesn't seem fair. you think it'll always be there, but then when you see that person again, it's just gone. with no explanation.

this may sound mean, but i'm going to take the risk, becuz you think everything i say is mean anyway. i'm sorry if i made you feel bad, bringing up the past. but i didn't mean to. but it's the truth, you did. and you were. and i don't think it's fair that you can say that about me now, but i couldn't say it about you then. you were the one that started it all. so if you want to be the one to finish it, then be my guest. we should hav ended this a long time ago. becuz it would hav been easier then. the times were better, the feelings weren't so strong, or bitter. and we would hav had a lot more comfort if you could hav just ended it then. but you couldn't. you just had to keep me hanging on. like you're doing now. only this time i'm not sure that i can. and to you i am sorry. but that's the way it is. you're not the only one that has to destroy things. and you are the first person that i must destroy out of my life.

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it's been a while since i could say that i've tried for something. it's been a while since i could say that i deserve this. it's been a while since i've felt this way...


what's mean is when you want someone to always love you so you can come crawling back to them when you don't hav someone. what's mean is when you tell someone you love them but you don't and then they think you always will but you won't. what's mean is when you lead someone on so other people will think that you're special. what's mean is when you keep someone around becuz you're too afraid to be alone. what's mean is when you can't say how you feel so you don't say anything at all.

My hopes are so high that your kiss might kill me.
So won't you kill me, so I die happy.
My heart is yours to fill or burst or break or bury or wear as jewelery,
which ever you prefer.

The street was wet and the gate was locked
so I jumped it and let you in and you stood at the door
with your hands on my waist and you kissed me,
but you meant it and I knew that you meant it,
that you meant it, that you meant it,
and I knew, that you meant it, that you meant it.






i remember when we first met
i knew right away that you were for me
you're exactly what my life missed
my hearts been locked up way too long
and you hold the key
put your arms around me, never let go