A Heart of Steel

It's hard to just sit around and not be able to do anything.

Without nii-san, I feel. I dunno.

Helpless.

All of this talk about no crying is stupid.

Nii-san, at least you have the chance to cry now. It won't hurt for you to do it every now and then.

You CAN cry.

Some of us aren't even able to...

....

If nii-san is unable to fix me, will that 'superglue' stuff be able to?

,°w°,

Please be okay nii-san... I want to get back to normal again soon...

I love kitties.

So soft. And fuzzy. And cute. And sweet...

^w^

I already know what you're going to say nii-san. *mock nii-san voice* "There's no place to keep a cat! Put that back! You know you can't take care of it!"

uwu;

*mews*

°w°;

*covers up a cough* Eh. Not that you've gotta worry about me picking up cats again....

*mews again* ^w^;;; Eh...

[] I have to go away again this weekend. To my dad's. x.o So yeah. Hopefully I won't be gone REALLY long like last time. *was gone a whole week last time she got dragged away* I also think we MAY be taking the laptop, so if we are, I might see if I can't get on and update and stuffs.

Anyways. Gotta go run and pack up. See ya'll soon! ^w^[]

I'm not a paperweight.. 'w' Although just about everyone seems to think I would make a good one.

That's all. *kicks lightly at the ground*

You seem to hate him well enough for the both of us though nii-san...

I know that from time to time I can be a bit... annoying. I can be whiny too. I sneak cats around in me when you aren't looking. You don't like it when people think that I'M Fullmetal. I'm not nearly as good as you are at alchemy, even though you try to tell me otherwise. You ARE the state alchemist after all, not me.

But despite all of that, and despite knowing that you don't like when I whine, complain, or try to stop you from doing what you want, I could never just turn my back on you. No matter how many glares you give me, I won't stop trying to give you my best advice (though you'll likely just turn a deaf ear uwu). I'll always be at your cheering for you though, no matter what crazy thing you've decided to do. It's the least I should do, considering all that you've done for me.

Sometimes I really wonder Nii-san...

What would you do without me?

I'm not sure you could make it without me. Even when we were little, you always tried to get out of work, so I would do your work for you so that you wouldn't get in trouble with mom. Then sometimes you would just force me to do it. Not that I really minded that much.

While I don't do as work for you now nii-san, I still have to look out for you. Make sure that you don't get into too much trouble. And... I'm really afraid that you would wind up getting hurt if I wasn't around.

But we don't have to worry about that too much. As long as I'm around, I'll try to keep you out of trouble no matter what. I'll help out any way that I can, that's a promise...

I know that brother tends to get really upset with people from time to time, whether it be them teasing him about his height, or worse- people misusing alchemy.

When we were little, we believed that everyone who practiced alchemy did it for the good of the people. What's that they say? "Be thou for the people"

Yet almost everywhere we have been, we've run into someone who's decided to use alchemy for their own gain. But even so, we've done the same ourselves. Trying to bring mom back... and even now...

But I wouldn't dare say anything about that in front of him. He doesn't really like being compared to those people-the ones that were selfish enough to sacrifice their loved ones to get what they want. Probably because he still blames himself for what's happened, even though I know it wasn't his fault.