Boredom
IT is a good thing that we got the DVD player, and are not reluctant to be in the library pretty frequently checking out videos, or we'd be climbing the walls. Working/employment right now is an issue, and even things like housework are fraught with insane issues. Sometimes talking to people on the outside is like pressing a trigger to complete confusion and emotional noise, like stepping out of the eye of the storm. As always we're staying in the shelter of home, not going anywhere or socializing, avoiding therapy mostly--like at it's most frequent we'll go twice a month.
Which idealy we know is wrong. We're just going through trying to remember specific memories, but in the mean time getting bigger and more complete views of the big picture. We are told there is or are lies getting in the way of progress, but usually the lies we encounter are not so much twisting the truth or inventing anything, but saying, "nope that odd look that person gave you and the other odd things that happened when you were around them, didn't mean a thing--nothing happened here!"
In other words denial.
The big problem is when someone in-system is doing something rotten, trying to cover up for it. Like that people have been apparently stealing all kinds of stuff that doesn't exist on the outside. Or thjat they hide money on the outsided--for their own personal use later? WE don't know. I'm a bit scared that someone got careless and let it fall in the wastebasket. Though mostly I think it's just individuals hiding it from others. I do not know the motive, whether it is basically safety-not spending the stuff frivolously, or saving it FOR something others would not approve of.
IT's good to finally know I'm multiple.
Lol.
Which idealy we know is wrong. We're just going through trying to remember specific memories, but in the mean time getting bigger and more complete views of the big picture. We are told there is or are lies getting in the way of progress, but usually the lies we encounter are not so much twisting the truth or inventing anything, but saying, "nope that odd look that person gave you and the other odd things that happened when you were around them, didn't mean a thing--nothing happened here!"
In other words denial.
The big problem is when someone in-system is doing something rotten, trying to cover up for it. Like that people have been apparently stealing all kinds of stuff that doesn't exist on the outside. Or thjat they hide money on the outsided--for their own personal use later? WE don't know. I'm a bit scared that someone got careless and let it fall in the wastebasket. Though mostly I think it's just individuals hiding it from others. I do not know the motive, whether it is basically safety-not spending the stuff frivolously, or saving it FOR something others would not approve of.
IT's good to finally know I'm multiple.
Lol.