Land of Confusion

What are you ashamed of?

 

What a good question to finally start off my posting.  What am I ashamed of... I don't know where to start really.  There is so much that I am ashamed of and wish I could change.  Not just actions I have done but the things I continue to do.

Mostly I am ashamed that I have let other's opinions of me matter and shape me and how I feel about myself and the things I do.  I hate that I care so much and try to play it off that I don't.

I am ashamed of the fact I am scared to be alone and I put up with shit I don't need to.

I am ashamed that I am very overweight and I am not doing much to lose it after having surgery to try to lose it.

I am ashamed that I like vomitting up what I eat now.

I am ashamed that I can't seem to make my self happy. That I have the need to have other validate me.

Originally posted on killerdimples.vox.com