Far-Out Daughter of a Lung and the Ramblings of a Madwoman

Simiran (Simmy) got sick in St. Louis. She threw up ALOT. But she did not seem distress but we still took her to the emergency vet clinic at 3 in the morning she was really dehydrated. We still swung by the parade for Hank and she really wanted to get out so we walked around. She loved it! We do so much for those pups. Seriously in 13 months and 3 puppies later I feel I have had real babies. We are so lucky to have such good dogs. We've dealts with socialization/agression, seperation anxiety, and muscle ache in the neck, and common ailments. Hank even went to traning camp for 5 weeks!

In fact he ran 5 miles with me today and I am exahausted. He is totally tuckered out and about to snore next to me. Of course they sleep next to us. They are like our kids. He is going to get me in shape for the half marathon. Its coming up quick. April 7th will be here soon. Time for rest.

This weekend is Marissa's 13th birthday. I know its hard to believe she is growing up so fast. We are going to St. Louis for the Pet Parade tomorrow. It is exciting for us because we love our dogs so much. Other news I am preparing for the Abe Half Marathon in April!

Wow, I've been married for over 2 years now. I haven't posted hardly at all here, but I have been thinking about blogging more nowadays. I have so many tales to tell of my new life. First, my husband is Larry. My daughter is Marissa. I also have 2 small dogs who are so adorable they are like little puppies. They are Simiran and Hank. I have so much to share and so many adventures to tell about. There have been many cool things going on in my life but I miss being online so much. A big "HI" to all my friends and readers!!! :)

So, I didn't get a chance until now, more than 2 years later, to reveal what my last post was about. I've been so busy falling in love with an amazing man. Of course we've had our ups and downs, more ups defn, and many trials, but I know I can't live without this guy. He makes me so happy and is always there for me. There have been other changes too. I am now a mother. No, I did not have a baby but this is still very huge. My husband has a daughter who lost her mother at young age so I have a very big role in her life. She is very special to me and she is a great girl. She is 12 years old. I feel blessed and very lucky to have reached the place I am in my life now. Hopefully I will be able to get back on more often and discuss issues and the fun and chaos that comes with married life and being a mom.

What can I say, my life is a rollercoaster.  It has very little stability but thank goodness I am intelligent enough to not get into much trouble.  That's the last thing I need.  There is always a price to pay for a good lesson.  Seems like I always learn the hard way but I'm not holding any animosity about it.  With each experience I learn something more and am stronger for the next one.  I like that part of the realization.  

While learning and carelessly losing what was so important, I made a very good friend, Krystyna.  That's the way she likes to spell it.  We are different but so alike.  She's like a sister and I am so grateful that she has been here to help me through strife and contention.  It's amazing what a sisterly bond like this gives me.  Security which is something that I use to yearn for so much not too many years ago.  The last couple of years have been complete blessings from my optimistic perspective.  Yes, many ill fated actions were taken but something never made me loose my firm planting on ground. 

I am very excited about moving out as an independent adult.  I've always wanted to do it but was never ready.  I am ready now and my parents support me.  I know they will never understand my stance in life but how many Indian American kids have parents like these who are this understanding considering how honest I am about everything in my life.  I think that is the one thing that even though I have made mistake after mistake I have never been afraid to tell my parents the truth and that's why they love me so much.  Reminds me of Baha'u'llah' quote "Truthfulness is the foundation of all human virtues".  

I am done with the undergrad. It feels very good. I fixed other things along the way. It was very difficult in the spring but I think as I already mentioned, along the way I built up an amazing support system. And made many good friends here in central IL and beyond (worldwide) who have had a worldly experiences and mindsets.

Even as a Baha'i (and I did resign my membership after precisely 4 years to figure out my identity and dilemma) I have known and now finally emotionally realize that not all people who are nice are open minded. There are so many people who say they are nice and open minded and yet they behave in a sheltered fashion. There's this one line from Depeche Mode's song Condemnation lyric line 'your kindness substitutes blindness' that is what I am meaning.

I am finished producing a DVD for the American Lung Association Asthma Camp. That camp was a lot of fun to go to just west of the West suburbs of Chicago. I completed so many other projects that I could not finish in April.  Now, I am a grad student but I can't help it and have fun and have the time of my life.  I am also moving out again to a more happening place.  Not a metro area like Chicago and I was in the outskirts of downtown it was very busy.  But to the capitol which is ideal for my public administration studies.  I'm working at the Department of Revenue but I gotta have my fun too.  I'm working in cosmetics as well.  :D

So, most of my best readers who are mainly lurkers and non LJ people already know the best stuff that has occurred. I am finally accepting that life is a process and things can not change overnight. I knew that but to feel that even though rationalization is there is immense.

One of my good friends from the Depeche Mode message board is one of my best friends ever and she is in Mexico. Her name is Lenina and she is an incredible artist. I have posted her stuff here before. (the Martyr calligraphy and Sister of Night ) Here is one of her latest a Spanish tribute to Recoil, which is record label of ex member Alan Wilder. He is the man who created the infamous 'depeche' sound of the albums Violator and Songs of Faith and Devotion. Of course I will meet my soulsister next year when our beloved band is on tour.

I finally realize that those guys who are charmers I need to be very wary of and not get my hopes up. All my girls tell me this. I had to learn this lesson over and over again in person and online. I can't help it I'm not easy or blind to guys who are looking for the one thing but its a game and I can't help but be friendly to all people. Anyways, I've been listening to so many other bands this week. No Depeche Mode funnily. Thank god. I was getting a bit sick of my favorite band but it mostly had to do with a silly dude. :D

Now things are good and although I have much to do before the last day of the summer semester, I think I will be able to do it. Despite the odds, but wait those are the incredible blessings I have been given and luckily I recognize them and now am very strong about who I am.

I can't believe it, I am finally graduating and then starting my master's in August. The most important part about it is that I am cool with my parents and don't have to leave in a such a rush or take on so much. Those high expectations are gone from my mind and most importantly from theirs. They just want me to be happy and I feel so lucky for all the ups and downs. Learning experiences can be painful but on the deeper side it is so great.

In other news, in case you did not hear, Radon = Lung Cancer.

Sun please please come out today.

There is this yoga meditative salute to the sun in Hinduism called 'Surya Namaskar'. It hits nearly every major muscle group in stretching fashion, so it is a must nearly everyday. It is hard to come by in the busyness of the Western world. But heyyyy there is good energy and places where it is occurring. :)

Ok, so I found the awesome looking bangels, now I just need to track down that blue jean jacket.

Bad news on the ring front...that awesome chrome silver looking mood type ring fell while I was studying at the Library's new Cafe and it shattered into 3 pieces...like an accident waiting to happen. Wonder where I will find this new ring. :(