[Insert something very inspiring]

My Suki is sick...
I've had her since I was 6... and she's 19 years old now. But the poor girl is fighting on.
Her kidneys are failing her, and she has Bladder Cancer to top it all off.
I'm so sad.
I don't want to say goodbye to my little kitten, but I don't want her to be in any pain.
I just want her home over the weekend so that I can say goodbye and make her happy.

But there's nothing I can really do, so I write in here instead. :(

1) I'm leaving for Europe tomorrow! How time flies.... Anyway, I'm going for 17 days with Robin... Landing in London and then heading to see all my family. (and Stonehenge!). After touring London, we're going to meet up with Daniel and his brother in Paris and travel with them through the alps. Then they're heading to Italy and Robin and I are off to Amsterdam. We may stop in Brussels on the way back to London before coming back home. (Whew! 17 days in 5 sentences or less.)

2) I'm so over-prepared for this trip that I'm actually making myself mental.

3) PLUS I've actually gotten caught up at work. I think I've finally found someone who could replace me. I'm frickin' excited.

4) I want to collect something from every destination I stop at on my trip, but I don't want to do something too cliched... I'm trying to think of something that would be interesting to look at when I'm 60. Maybe stamps? Any suggestions?

5) Oh my god, I'm finally going to Europe!!!

As awful as it was to think of my dad having a heart attack, at least he gets a second chance to fix all the stuff he was doing wrong (such as smoking cigs like a chimney).... Some people just have a heart attack and die. He had a heart attack and quit smoking. 

I actually think this was a good weekend. 

Thanks everyone.

I was just on here last night thinking that I have nothing that I would even want to talk about on here anymore.

Then I woke up this morning to find out that my dad had a heart attack in the middle of the night and I can suddenly think of a million things... Fuck ...

It's not easy to see your super strong father lying in a hospital bed with tubes coming out of him. Thank god he's alright.  What a shitty day.

"Saying goodbye doesn't mean anything. It's the time we spent together that matters, not how we left it. "

Trey Parker and Matt Stone, South Park, Tweek Vs. Craig, 1999

I'm just posting this to let everyone know that I'm turning my journal Friends Only, just because it's easier that way. And I feel more secure.

Anyway, I think I already have everyone who would want to be on my friends list, so carry on... I just thought I'd let you know.

Merry Christmas!

But hangin' on is easy.
When you've got a friend to call.
When nothing's making sense at all. 
You're not the only one,
Who's afraid of change.


Wish You Were Here.... live. Nothing will ever beat that. :)

I hate my boss, and I hope she perishes. You're not good enough for the name Robin. Bitch face.

"Do you want me to tell you something really subversive? Love is everything it's cracked up to be. That's why people are so cynical about it. It really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for. And the trouble is, if you don't risk anything, you risk even more. "