Many countries have already declassified the documents which confirm existence of aliens. There are proofs that bases of aliens exist on the Moon. And even United Nations is going to appoint special person responsible for future contacts with aliens. Planet Nibiru is flying to the Earth, we are expecting the poles shift. What else the planet Earth and the humankind should survive? What outer space events we are expecting on 2011-2012?
So, haven't been on here in forever. I'm Andrea, 20 year old single mother. I've been drawn to paganism since I was fourteen, I've just never gotten into it. I always chalked it up to feeling akward, or being lazy, or not wanting to do it because I didn't have anyone to learn with.
My boyfriend said he really wanted a partner he could connect with spiritually and it got me thinking. The reason I've never gotten into this is I'm not sure what I want. Well, in a way I am. All throughout my childhood I've had this vision of being in the woods, at one with the earth, at peace and not in any physical pain. Somehow I've wanted to integrate this into whatever profession I chose. But, I've always been ambivalent about becoming really involved with magick because I feel inadequate, and I'm afraid of going crazy. My mother suffers from paranoid schizophrenia and we've never been able to get her to seek treatment- I fear if I don't constantly tell myself how crazy I am, I'll become crazy. At the same time I know my spiritual experiences aren't insanity- so I put on this facade of non-belief and spiritual apathy to everyone.
While energy work is fun and there have been times when I've done really awesome stuff, it's not my bliss. My problem with spiritual progression is I live very much in the here and now. I like learning about herbal healing because it makes me sick less often. I like yoga because it reduces the pain in my joints and from the two bulging discs in my spine. I want to learn reiki because my friend did a short reiki session on my daughter and turned her from a screaming three year old into a much calmer, soon sleeping three year old. My interest in spirituality has always been "how can I make life more bearable here and now?" because my life is kinda crappy.
I refused to learn my times tables in school, and hated math, because my teachers couldn't explain to me how exactly it would help me later on- or they couldn't give me a satisfactory example. Other things that I loved just came to me easily. I find it very hard to do something, to put my extremely valuable and hard to find time into something that is hard work and doesn't produce any immediate results. Doesn't have to be big- just has to be noticeable.
And yet it seems like whoever is watching over me is trying to yank my arm and say HEY, LEARN THIS. I just... idk. Energy work is awesome and all, I can see why it's so popular among my friends, it just isn't my passion. I can do it pretty well for someone who doesn't know what they're doing, but it's work. It takes faith.
That's something else. In the movie Constantine, the main character knows God is real, but doesn't believe. I've been striving to know God is real, and I do. I know it in my bones. But I also know the earth revolves around the sun and we're all made up of atoms. I don't believe, and I don't know how to start. I don't even believe in myself, sometimes, and I'm kinda scared to.
input? Please it's taken me a long time to get this far.
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Hi. New person. Not technically pagan, I just don't know what else to call myself, and most of my beliefs do actually hail from Celtic-based paganism.
I'm just looking for a like-minded friend that I can talk to about religion, without having to do it as a friendly debate. Those are fun and all, but it's very lonely being the only one, out of all my friends and family, who believes what I believe.
So I guess... Hi again. ^^; If I haven't already chased you away, you can call me Kurai, or K-chan. Nice to meet you?
Hello all, I haven't posted here in a while but I have a question. I want to smudge or bless my house. I have never done so alone and I need to know a few prayers that are good to use for this purpose. When I had it done the last time a friend said a few prayers and were no longer friends so I need some help. What it the best way to go about smudging the house? What are your experiences with preforming this act? Thank you and I hope you girls can give me some guidance on this. - kody
Hi there everyone!
This looks like such a great community - just saying hello and I am glad to find you!
I am a 32 year old married pagan woman. Very excited to find such a like-minded group! YAY!
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Hello everyone! I'm a 32 year old lesbian from TX with a wonderful girl friend. I was raised southern baptist and am a Christian. But I prefer to not mingle my Christianity with any form of man made religion. I simply believe in God, not religion.
That being said....my girl friend is a practicing Shaman and on Saturday night I went with her to attend my first full moon ritual celebration. I had such a good time and the people were so lovely and open minded.
I will try and describe the ritual....
There were six of us and we sat in a circle. Each of us had an instrument of some sort. I had a small drum and my girl friend has bongos. It began with the hostess taking a bunch of smoldering sage and wafting it around each of us, to cleanse us of negative energy.
Then she called the 4 directions to attend and invited the goddess Hawthore (not sure on spelling) to attend. She said she was the goddess of song and joy.
She lit a red candle for the directions, a silver candle for the goddess, some very nice incense, and there was a chunk of rose quartz on the table.
When she said the goddess was with us we began to play our instruments and we sounded really good together. I'm very partial to music so I liked it very much.
After we had played for an hour or so, she passed around a tray of raspberry beer and crackers, saying 'may we never thirst or hunger'. Then she respectfully thanked and dismissed the spirits and we were pretty much done.
I really enjoyed it and I want to learn more about it. But I honestly don't know where to begin. Can anyone please guide me in the right direction? Thank you for reading.
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