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coolest thing an 8 year old has said to me lately

one of the girls at my work was talking about dreams today in our group.

She said: I'll miss you, but we'll still play together in my dreams.
I asked: Do I appear in your dreams a lot?
She said: Oh yes! I always dream we go to Catalina island together! And we hike and we swim and ride horses and go on adventures.


<3 I'm going to miss all my kids at work
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Thanksgiving 2009

Here's my annual list!

1. My partner, my true love, my best friend, Brad<3
2. My parents who love me, care for me, and support me always.
3. My sister who drives me nuts but... we have our moments.
4. My perfect chow chow pups Joey and Bear
5. My 5 kitties who are faithful and adorable.
6. My job that has provided me with lots of insight, appreciation, and experience, and all the beautiful children I work with.
7. My warm, comfortable home.
8. My best friends, 2 Ambers, 1 Tessah, 1 Erika, 1 James, 1 Nathan, 1 Carly, 1 Jessica, 1 Lisa, 1 Andy, and everyone else worth a spot in my life.
9. This year starting perfectly, being full of amazing challanges, but also Brad at my side to help me through them, and ultimately help us grow together and realize that we are going to be fine as adults.
10. Billy O's and the Benchwarmer, who keep me comfortably at poverty level.
11. Ryan Romo, and all the cinematic joy he brings my life.
12. Dexter, the Office, Mad Men, Always sunny and all my other shows that keep on entertaining me.
13. My car who hasn't crashed or given up on me yet.
14. All the adventure on our horizon in 2010<3
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moving in together

we've been dating since the dawn of young adulthood. weve been through hell and been through heaven and now we are standing on the edge of grown up land.

any tips? advice?
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reccomend to brothers sisters cousins, nieces, nephews, grandkids, your kids etc

Salvation Army Ventura TLC: Summer Camp (Calabasas, Ca)


If you live in Ventura County and want to send your children ages 13-16 to summer camp but don't know of one or cannot afford it, we've got a great grant set up for our Salvation Army Summer Camp located on Dorothy Drive in Calabasas.

Wilderness Camp: Last Call!

We recently had some spaces open up for our Summer Wilderness Camp Session:

3 spaces for Wilderness (Ages: 13-16) Week #6, July 29th-August 3rd

Don’t miss out, first come, first served, 5 nights, 6 days, swimming, biking, hiking, all meals etc for ONLY $20.

Call Berkeley Deitch at Salvation Army Ventura TLC at (805)648-4977 M-F, 3pm-7.30pm to sign up or get more information.

Campers must have immunization records which you can get from your child's school.
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x posted to facebook/sooo good

Excerpt from “IT” by Stephen King, page 411

He wanted to tell them that those dead boys who had lurched and shambled their way
down the spiral staircase had done something worse than frighten him: they had offended him.

Offended, yes. It was the only word he could think of, and if he used it they would
laugh – they liked him, he knew that, and they had accepted him as one of them, but they would still laugh. All the same, there were things that were not supposed to be. They offended any sane person’s sense of order, they offended the central idea that God had given the earth a final tilt on its axis so that twilight would only last about twelve minutes at the equator and linger for an hour or more up where the Eskimos build their ice-cube houses, that He had done that and He had said: in effect: “Okay, if you can figure out the tilt, you can figure out any damn thing you choose. Because even light has weight, and when the note of a train whistle suddenly drops it’s the Doppler effect and when an airplane breaks the sound barrier that bang isn’t the applause of the angels or the flatulence of demons but only air collapsing back into place. I gave you the tilt and then I sat back about half way up the auditorium to watch the show. I got nothing else to say, except that two and two makes four, the lights in the sky are stars, if there’s blood grownups can see it as well as kids, and dead boys stay dead.”

You can live with fear, I think, Stan would have said if he could. Maybe not forever, but
for a long, long time. It’s offense you maybe can't live with, because it opens up a crack inside your thinking, and if you look down into it you see there are living things down there, and they have little yellow eyes that don’t blink, and there’s a stink down in that dark, and after a while you think maybe there’s a whole other universe down there, a universe where a square moon rises in the sky, and the stars laugh in cold voices, and some of the triangles have four sides, and some have five, and some of them have five raised to the fifth power of sides. In this universe there might grow roses which sing. Everything leads to everything, he would have told them if he could. Go to your church and listen to your stories about Jesus walking on the water, but if I saw a guy doing that I’d scream and scream and scream.
Because it wouldn’t look like a miracle to me. It would look like an offense.



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Answer to an age old question

A man has only driven a 4 door sedan his entire driving career, and then he gets a truck, does this change the man?

The answer is yes. Yes it does. He said it feels like a second beard.
He also now experiences a sort of kinship with all other truck owners. We laughed a lot about the level of stoked he was. I have never liked trucks, or thought that the men who drive them were cool... but Brad having one is definately giving the idea a postive spin for me :)

haha. Brad got a black ranger that we christened with a drive to Ojai yesterday for my best friend of 19 years's graduation party. It was lots of fun and mellow. It was perfect weather and great food. Plus lots of free beer and wine, though I never got to the wine.

We stopped at her roommates grad party on the way out of Ojai around 9pm. It was dying down but it was impressive with its Fat Tire keg and its Chocolate Fountain... Then after that we had a really nice night in, finishing a movie we had rented and going to sleep full and happy :)

All ive been doing lately is working a lot and then lots of night life to counter act the work stress leaving me pretty tired most of the time ha. Summer seems to be here, and for the first time since I was 17, I dont hate it.
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uh

I kinda throw up like way too often. its mostly as a result of bodily punishment for drinking. there was a stint of time when it wasnt because of that, but now its back to just being that. probably like one day of signifigant up chucking a week... sometimes 2. And its the terrible, acidic, pale yellow bile kind that just burns and makes you hurt to get out.


other than the throwing up though, life is fantastic.
Brad and I have spent the last 6 months treating eachother well and having fun, growing and learning for sure, and it has felt so nice to be with my best friend and to feel safe and secure and loved.

work has been going pretty good. a month and a half to two months left of camp anxiety and then its behind me until next april. sharing my office with 3 other people is hard, but we've been doing ok at taking shifts. all of the children i started with, and all the ones i got in the middle have moved on with their parents, but i have a new batch and I like them quite a bit. the younger ones are a little out of control but the kids in my age group and kind, funny, well mannered, show self control, and are pretty great.
Brad came in to help me with my group last wednesday and to meet the kids in my group and had such a good time that he's coming back tonight :)

the kids have been asking about him all week and they are excited to have him again. they think he's very funny. oh and Brad and I went to a costume party in isla fucking vista last friday. we wont be going back there, and the fact that the party was there was a suprise, but it was my childhood best friend Carly's birthday so we had to go and we were determained to have a good time, and we did. it was quite an adventure.

ok thats enough. cant believe i actually updated. thats what i get for being hung over and up since 6:45am. Brads still sleeping and im puttering around the house.
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I dont mind waiting in line.

I DO mind being stuck in line at the post office at 4:40pm on a Tuesday afternoon just in front of 2 entitled bitches who loudly complain about how horrific it is that THEY have to wait in line.

Guess what Ladies! It's 20 minutes till close at the United States POST OFFICE. EVERYONE USES THIS service. And all the people you are waiting behind so huffily were smart enough to GET HERE EARLIER THAN YOU. so shut up.

I don't need to be standing there with my internal dialog going, waiting my turn patiently only to hear you arrive with a "Oh For Heavens Sake!"

and I don't need to hear about how you are going to be late for a party in santa barbara.

and I certainly don't need to hear you find a nasally voiced common thinker who only feeds your belief that you have good reason to whine loudly.

The little girl whose been waiting at one of the desks at her mom's side the whole time we've been here is being more patient.

/rant.
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