Haven't been here at my parents for awhile so no internet :(
O'well hasn't been all bad every time I'm on here I just get more depressed, its easy to be comsued with work when your poor and trying to pay rent. Been party alot too, which is really usual for me, to many drugs, helps me to forget more though, but I just can't keep ignoreing the little girl crying in the back of my head.
Our test has determined that you possess 24% Hellbentness, 34% Sanguinity, and 48% Creeps! Well done!
You are Siouxsie Sioux, lead singer of Siouxsie and the Banshees!
Siouxsie and the Banshees were a British gothic rock band that encompassed the punk and new wave genres. She and the Banshees were not directly involved in the early goth scene as such, but had a massive influence on it in terms of both music and image. Siouxsie Sioux courted much controversy in the band's early days with her dress, often wearing 'bondage' clothes and fetish wear. Their music had been called "gothic" as far back as 1979, and their music formed the template for a lot of female-fronted goth bands in much the same way that Siouxsie's sense of style provided a fashion plate for many female goths. Between the two bands, Siouxsie & the Banshees and Bauhaus pretty much rocked early gothic style into being.
You scored as Severus Snape, Well you're a tricky one aren't you? Nobody quite has you figured out and you'd probably prefer it stayed that way. That said you are a formidable force by anyone's reckoning, but there is certainly more to you than a frosty exterior and a bitter temper.
Ever since I was to old to get toys for my birthday, they have blown ass! Usualy some one will die or I work or something gets broken like friendships, families, and cars.
Well I ain't letting this birthday suck balls!!
I'm gonna do stuff, cool shit! Like hangout with my friends hell will go out to eat! Fuck might even watch the pirate movie! I'm only running on 4 hours of sleep and I've been up since 7:40am and I'm doing laundry now, should be in bed by 5ish after taking a shower, then its fun fun fun!! I'm gonna wake up at 9 too, time don't wait for me so I won't wait for it! I gonna have fun this birthday even if it kills, even though its against the laws of the universe, I WILL ENJOY THIS DAY ON EARTH!!
I so tired of the same old shit! I quit my second job cause I made no money there, almost quit my main job which would have been bad!!
Feels like I'm stuck in a hole, though this one seems more physical than emotional ( and I'm not referring to the whole trans issue).
I hate my job, my apartment, my car, my lifes headed no where and I want that to change Today!!
Been working to jobs for far too long, the way my crappy work schedule is set up, I work seven days aweek and its gettin old real quick!
Thinking about quitting my day job, cause I hate it!!
I'm tired of dealing with the same stupid customers asking the same dump questions everyday, every week, month its just all the same I hate it! Don't feel very appreciated there either. I'm always left upfront by myself and it feels like no one wants help me and just let me do most of the work. But I do love the people I work with and the extra $cash$. But its really not that much extra cash.
I just need more time for me, so I can focus on the rest of my nonworking life. I'll eventually need more money for my transition, but thats not an immediate need.
I hope this time off will give me more time to think about my life and get things in motion!
Yeah, I'm way to shy. I hope when I come out, I won't feel like I have to hide myself anymore!
You Should Rule Saturn
Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.
You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.
You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.
You're steady, organizes, and determined to achieve your dreams. You tend to play it conservative, going by the rules (at least the practical ones). You'll likely reach the top. And when you do, you'll be honorable and responsible. Focus on happiness. Don't let your goals distract you from fun! Don't be too set in your ways, and you'll be more of a success than you ever dreamed of.
Work'in so much, ain't got much time for nothing else.
It sucks but at least of got plenty of cash, well sorta. My second job only pays 5.50 an hour but its easy and I like and know the people I work with. They'll work around my main job as well its hard to get fired from there. Their very tolerant of things like being late and needing days off. Plus as long as I give a heads up before I quite they keep me on the pay role, so I could go back any time.
I'm getting more hours now so it'll give me another 100 bucks a week YaY! Cable and internet here I come! Which gives me some difficulty? Once my friends are done rigging up this computer for me. I'll have a computer at my apartment, once I get internet I want to start another myspace so I can chat with my work friends and other friends.
Funny? I really only use the net for game codes, anime, or Lj trans issues. But I really want to "connect" with more people. I'm just feeling lonely and out of touch with everyone else. But there's that fear if I connect over the net with my friends that don't know I'm trans they might find my other myspace or even my lj, eek! Even though I'll use a new e-mail!
I don't like feeling two faced but I need more of life, more of release from stress. This is my plan anyway, even though I'm scared.
By the way I just finished "Burst Angel"!! A really good Anime, I liked it alot!
indescribable
discontent
drained
bouncy
complacent