Every night we're gone, and to karaoke songs

Sometimes there is just nothing you can do.

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I should post here more often. I'm never going to delete this thing...so I should probably make use of it. Eh?
I think I'll start....tomorrow.

i feel really useless.

i'm the worst.

I'd like to say "fuck this day" but that hardly expresses how I truly feel about today.

How about - "day, I hope you get eaten alive by crazy insects who crawl into you system via your nostrils and eat you from the inside out, you worthless bag of shit."




Feels a little better.

in 5 days I will know whether or not I will be living in the cutest house on the planet. Ahhh this is driving me insane. There are also a million other things I need to do and I can't concentrate on any of them. Not to mention, I made a promise to myself and I broke it quickly after. I need to stick to my self promises. Starting right this damn minute.

things are about to really change.

my next few posts (if i post much at all) will be terribly depressing. i guess i'm allowed to blog about my job now....since it's not my job anymore. i lost it today. i pretty much can't stop crying. i've never lost a job before. i know it's been happening all around me, all over the world. i'm just so ill prepared.
i'm just a girl with a chronic disease and no health insurance. a girl who is moving in 3 weeks and can no longer come up with 3 months rent to move in. a girl with no degree, thus no real shot at a decent job again. i am terrified.
the worst part of all of this....it is completely and utterly my fault.

i haven't a clue what to do.

mj died today. i guess i'm typing this here, because despite not knowing him personally...it still feels like a life event. and that's what i write about here.

i feel like i'm dreaming.

i was already sad about farrah fawcett. i had watched her special about her cancer fight, so i felt like at the very least i knew more about her...and i related to the situation in certain ways.

everything is just so surreal today. and whats worse is i'm completely stressed over my own life. i predict no sleep tonight.

Dudes in floral..... yay or nay?









and I'm not talking hawaiian shirts. I'm talking Laura Ashley type print all over his place!