you can tell hes been down for a while

how is everyone?

i found my lil sis braclet today and i thought about how much i miss jackie


now im all emo abou my family

i want to go to school to make my mom happy but NOTHING makes her happy.....and i mean i just wish she would stop trying so hard and just let me get through all this myself instead of babying me all the time


i can do things myself


any way im sick of my parents fighting. it stresses me out like woah.... yeah....

i hate how she goes through all my shit too
like im not a person and i dont deserve privacy


god knows i love my mom but she thinks i do ALL these bad things that i DONT! i dont know, im over it.



:) <3 u all

everything i touch turns to shit







god i fucking love you

and you know it

and you love it

but not me



im never enough

Body:
i want the guy whose arms i run into and he twirls me around

i want the one who i fight with and then make up two seconds later with a makeout session

who likes to take me places and shows me off to his friends

who loves to take kissy myspace pictures with me

who has me all over his page so the ladies know to back off

he calls me for no reason. say two things. then hangs up.

kisses me in random places at random times

he fights over the remote with me

he thinks im cute evern when in pj's


if this is you please respond ASAP

i dont know if you are reading this but if you are i want you to know
i never stopped caring for you and i never could
i never got over you and i never will
i know this is silly after such a short period of time but
truth is i think about you all the time
and i miss you
and I want you back
but most importantly



im sorry

I love you Bryan Patrick

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my other phone is dead now

R.I.P.

my cell is 727*235*5941

last night was fucking WEIRD

we hung out @ kierstens for a bit then walked around the acers

we walked down to the boulvard but no one was there and just as we were leaving this car pulls up and its full of guys who ask us if we want a ride
SO were like okay whatever at least we dont have to walk
and they take us back to this house (they were clearly drunk but REALLY hott)with like 20 guys
and were the only girls (it was me steph and kiersten)and then we start just chillin and shit these guys are like around ninteen, i think the youngest one was seventeen so any ways
were hanging out and then a couple of them ask us if we want to fuck
and im like no...
and kierstens like i have a boyfriend
and steph is like no...


and then this REALY DRUNK UGLY FAT KID yells :dont fuck them they prolly have S.T.D.'s: and like we dont even know this kid
and then another one is like "hey dont fucking talk to them like that"
and then they start fighting and shit
and then like four of them jump in a start fighting eachother

so we left to go get a pack of ciggarettes and the one that stuck up for us left too i geuss
and he was PISSED
so we followed him and he was trying to lose us and the driver in our car was sooooo drunk we thought we were going to get into a wreck.
so then we stopped following him and then i started flippin cuz i was supposed to be home like 2 hours ago and i was staying at my grandmas so i was like having a ceizure and then they took us home and yeah

it was GREAT! LOL

my mom found my dads emails btwn. him and his girl friend

she got drunk
and flipped

dislocated his shoulder


gave me a black eye



got the cops over here


got in her car and left


good riddance