The Jealousy Has Begun

Oh man. If my boyfriend is half as jealous and protective as he claims to be he seriously needs to come up here and help me out. I don't know how many times I've told him about this guy, but he thinks as soon as I say, "go away" he'll just leave me alone forever. Ha.

Seriously, I honestly believe now more than ever that I am no more safe with a boyfreind than I am with out one. Which is awesome, because I shouldn't need anyone anyhow. But really, this is the truth. Boyfreinds are just as good as a lie. If saying you're commited to some one is a good way to get rid of some one you don't like, hell, I can do that on my own through some simple deception.

Furthermore, any instance where I would be with my boyfriend and an attacker came looking to hurt me he'd have a gun. I don't care how big you are a bullet or blade won't discriminate between muscle and flab. Most importantly, I see my boyfriend three days a week. The other 5 I'm on my own. And when I am with him we just sit in his house. There is nothing about this situation that makes me safer what so ever. Especially when on the few occasions that I say, "Hey come let this guy see I'm not lying and have a bf because he doesn't get it" he just says, "Tell him to fuck off."

Which is fair. It's not his responsibility at all. I have to take care of myself and only I can do that.

So why am I bitching?

Because a good deal of men, mine included, need to wake up from this little dream world and realize thier girlfriends may need them for many things, but protection isn't one of them. Its an old, out of date idea and it really bothers me when guys lie and say things like, "I beat up anyone who hit on you" ::rolls eyes:: or "If anyone hurt you I'd kill him" Oh please. Just be honest with me and yourself. If some one hurt me you might call the police, and I'm sure you'de comfort me but you can't and won't do anything else.

We don't live in the days of yore where white knights would valently ride in to save thier fair maidens, ughk gag me.

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Okay, there is this bitch I hate. She is an aweful, aweful, bitch and my arch enemy. Not only has she hit on my close friend, and totally been a bitch (have I said she's a bitch already?) to me, but now my friends are adding her to thier LJ friends list! What the hell?

I know this is random and cryptic , but I hate when some one- who is so aweful- becomes friends with all of your friends but you, and then your buddies act like they don't know this person is your arch enemy. And I do mean arch enemy. Like Moriarty and Holmes, or Mimi and Drew. That kind of enemy.

If this bitch gets anywhere near my groups outings or ::gasp::
dating pool some one gonna die. They are MY friends. MINE.

RRRRRrrrrrr.

I don't know if this is even active anymore, but what the hell. I'm trying to work on getting my jealousy under control. Fortunately for me I have a great boyfriend who doesn't do asshole things to make me jealous, but I'm still crazy about ridiculous shit anyway, so I may need to vent...

there may be venting...

Okay, well, if my friends know me well, they know, I am retardedly jealous.

But c'mon I have my reasons.
Firstly, I have been REPEATEDLY used and fucked over by guys with promises of love and relationships, only to get into my pants.
Then forget me.


So....fuck a bunch of that.
Any chick wanna flirt with my man, I'ma hit 'em over the head with a baseball bat.

Actually, what I usually do is sit there and brew, then when I'm alone get really mad and upset and usually punch things....which is why my hands look constantly fucked up.

Stupid....rage.
Yeah, I have an anger problems.
Very. Very. Big. Anger problems.
Trying to deal with it...

But every time some hussy wants to be all like "Hahaha I had a bet to sleep with [name insert here] by his 21st b-day, I should make the same with you HAHAH OMG IM A BITCH LA LA!"
Minus the "I'm a bitch la la" part. But still.
I know she was "joking."
I know they've been friends forever.
But think of it this way.
You like this guy. He denies access =P You have extreme motive, so somehow get him drunk enough to sleep with you (muauaahahaha >D) and then the drama starts.

He becomes your little bedtime friend, but you still manage to not cry in front of him when he says there's "no spark" after JUST having sex with him. >P
/RUDE
But, being persistent, somehow get him to show some sort of feelings toward you.
(Yay me).
But during date stupid crazy men who you'd (even though I hate to admit this) use to make bedtime guy jealous.
Yes, sometimes I'm actually one of those horrible females you hear about. RARELY. Most the time I'm a man inside a woman's body =P
ANYWAYS.
So you FINALLY get to the point you and bedtime friend date for several months and you are in love with each other.

NOW.
Some bitch comes along being all flirty and shit...what would YOU do?
I SAY FUCK THAT BITCH. I WORKED HARD FOR THAT ASS!

About a year and a half. =/
So yes, that's my jealousy reasoning.
And Micah don't give a fuck if you don't like it =D
Micah just needs a drink. =)

P.S. Micah likes to talk in 3rd person

Wooohooo ... sooo I HATE RACHAEL! There ... that is all I am going to say b/c honestly she is what makes me sooooo fucking Jealous ... the way he talks to her ... the way he LIES about talking to her ... the way he HIDES her ... I am scared to death she will just show up one day at his condo ... fuck that! I know he loves me and honestly I NEVER tell him this shit b/c I don't want him to see my fear so I figure I will say it here where he will never know! I hate her and to be blunt about it I kinda want to pin her with rusty nails to a tree like a fucking cold blooded green anole and then burn random parts of her body til she screams herself into a daze leaving her precious face and body grotesque and then I would pull her hair out strand by strand til her own tears start to drown her and then and only then will her name make me smile!

Alrighty then. Well, just to let everyone know, I started this purely as a joke. But hey, if people wanna post, that's great. I expect all of my chick friends to join, thank you.

Yeah, it's still in progress. I'm ripping off the code of my old journal, be patient.

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