Tight Pants: A Nelena Story
Chapter 2- Jump A Jonas
Chapter Two- Full Circle
Tried to run but I keep on coming back full circle/And I can’t jump the track
"Wooohooo! Road trip, baby!" Tommy Mack said. I laughed at my uncles’ best friend’s glee. "I always knew you would get a chance with Joe Jonas, darling. I told you that at that fabulous wedding your mother and Larry had a few years ago. And sweetheart, Joe is gorgeous! Hmmmm-hmmmm!" If you couldn’t tell by now, Tommy is gay. Actually, both of my uncles’ best friends are gay, but my uncles aren’t. Weird, huh?
"Tommy, you crack me up, but I gotta go, Joe’s coming back."
"Call when you do the deed!"
"Will do!" I hung up and slipped my phone back in my pocket before turning to face Joe. "Hey, rock star, ready to roll?"
"Yep." Joe opened the passenger door on my cherry-red, vintage Mustang convertible, a present from my biological dad. "Have I mentioned that you have the sweetest ride?" he asked as he buckled his seatbelt and popped a piece of Orbit gum into his mouth. "Want some?" He held the pack out to me. I wrinkled my nose.
"I hate cinnamon gum; it’s too strong."
"Well!" Joe huffed, acting offended. "Be that way!" I rolled my eyes and turned the radio on.
"What’s Los Angeles’ local rock/pop/rap station?" I asked, fiddling with the scanner. Joe told me and two seconds later, the chorus to If You Seek Amy by Britney Spears came on. "Ohmigod! I love this song!" I cranked the volume up and started singing.
When the song ended, I glanced over at Joe. We still hadn’t left the parking lot of his house, where I had driven to two days ago so he could get packed and we could drive down to Alabama. It had taken a lot of convincing to make his parents agree to letting him stay with me for three months. But in the end, they relented. They must trust Joe a hell of a lot more than I do. As I looked at Joe, his eyes slowly locked onto mine, an expression on his face that mixed shock with lust. Now we’re getting somewhere, I thought. I cranked the car and pulled out of his driveway. Once we were on the road, I casually let my right hand rest on his left upper thigh. Joe shifted in his seat and I smiled. He gently removed my hand and scooted closer to the passenger side door, a blush heating his face. We were silent for the next few minutes until we got caught in a traffic jam on the highway.
"So, are you excited?" I drummed my fingers on the steering wheel and silently cursed the traffic.
"Yes. It’s going to be a wonderful change to go someplace where no one knows me."
"Yeah, about that," I said as the traffic finally started moving. "They know you, but they don’t give two shits about you." Joe looked at me shocked again. "Sorry, I’m going to warn you, I cuss sometimes."
"Oh, um, it’s, um, okay, I just………" he stammered. "I’m an idiot," he finished. I laughed and playfully punched his shoulder.
"I agree with you."
"Hey!" Joe said, pretending to be offended. "I resent that!"
"You know I’m just messing with you."
"Humph."
"Anyway, about them not caring about you. I’m to blame for that. See, I’m, well now, was, since I met you, obsessed with you and your brothers. So, since everybody hated me, ya’ll all became uncool. So, yeah, sorry about that."
"It’s cool. But why did they hate you?" I gritted my teeth at Joe’s question and immediately had a flashback.
"I don’t want to talk about it." I slammed the brakes on as the light in front of us turned red and cursed under my breath. My phone started beeping, signaling that the battery was dying. Slowly, I took a deep breath and reached over Joe’s lap to the glove compartment and pulled out my cell phone charger. After hooking it up to the cigarette lighter and plugging my phone in, I turned to Joe. "I used to be ugly," I told him as the light turned green. "I moved from Georgia when I was eight and I was the outsider. I stayed at Jameson until the middle of eighth grade when I transferred to Hayes Middle School because the teasing got so bad. I used to have braces and ugly hair and I was fat. And smart. I got skipped one grade ahead when I moved to Alabama so I was younger then everybody in my glass. They hated me." I blinked away tears and shook my hair over the side of my face so Joe couldn’t see me.
"Hey," he said softly. "I think you’re gorgeous and I don’t lie. Those people were idiots. You’re the coolest person I’ve ever met.
"You’ve only known me for two days," I reminded him.
"I don’t care. I can tell you’re a good person."
"Wow, you really are perfect," I said sarcastically with a harsh laugh. I sighed then and bit my lip. "I’m sorry, I just don’t have a good tolerance for talking about my past."
"Okay, then," Joe said. "Let’s talk about something else. What are your views on poodles?"
"They’re stupid, frilly, manicured, hair-balls. I hate them."
"What about labs?"
"You mean Elvis? He’s adorable. And I love his name."
"What are your views on me?" I was shocked at his question. How did he go from talking about dogs to asking me how I felt about him? I didn’t even know how I truly felt about him! All I knew was what I thought I felt about him.
"Ummmmmmm, I like your voice and your smile and your body and your hair. Your face, your eyes, and the way you can hold a crowd of ten thousand people captive just by walking onto a stage. I love how nice and funny you are. I love that you haven’t let fame go to your head. I love that you actually care about your family. I love that you stick to your beliefs. I love how you seem unsure of yourself and how you can’t see how amazing you are. I love the fact that you actually took the time to get to know me." I took a deep breath and cautiously looked at Joe. He had a thoughtful expression on his face. Finally, he cracked a smile.
"So, does that mean you love me?"
"In your dreams, Jonas." I rolled my eyes, but inside I was smiling. I still couldn’t believe that I was riding in a car with Joe Jonas and he actually liked me. Or at least thought of me as a friend. But even though we were hanging out, I still felt amazed by him. Everything he did made me star struck. He just had that affect on people. But at the same time, he was so sweet and down to earth. He was perfect. I didn’t know why I switched from using like to love. Did I love Joe? I had known him for three years, but hadn’t really known him until two days ago.
"Aren’t you dying to know what I think about you?" Joe asked with a smirk on his face.
"Shoot."
"I think you’re cool. I think you’re a flirt, but you don’t want to be. You can’t see how awesome you are. You’re sweet and funny and brave enough to ask Taylor about me."
"Yep, that’s me in a nutshell," I said sarcastically.
"What do you mean?"
"That’s not all who I am. But I’m sure you’ll find that out in the next few months."
"I’m holding you to that."
"Well, well, well, look who it is. The Jonas Freak."
"Go away." I ignored Cody and Josh, two of the most popular boys in the eighth-grade class and continued walking down the hall.
"Don’t be a bitch, slut. Or should I say Jonas Slut."
"Like they would ever fuck the likes of you," Josh sneered. He pushed me against the lockers and ripped my notebook from my hands, turning to the first page. "I would give anything to kiss Joe Jonas." Josh laughed and threw the notebook in the trashcan beside him. Then they left, still laughing.
Love me, hate me, but can’t you see what I see. All of the boys and all of the girls are begging to If You Seek Amy.
Lyrics by: Anne Preven, Miley Cyrus, and Scott Cutler
Author's Note: I'm sorry this chapter is so short, but I had to cut off right there. Hope you like it.
Jump A Jonas-Chapter 1
A new fic.
Title: Jump A Jonas
Pairing: Joe/OC
Rating: NC-17
Summary: "Pop a Jonas Brother and walk away with $10,000! That's right, people! You heard me! We're launching a contest to deflower the virginal Jonas Brothers. Well, Kevin and Joe. Nick, unfortunately, is under age. The first person who can prove they have had consensual sex with Kevin or Joe Jonas walks away with ten grand as part of the Jump A Jonas competition. You must have a video tape of the proceedings. But keep it legal, folks. Prove it and you can win. Have fun!"
One girl dared to do the impossible. Jump a Jonas.
Chapter 1- He Said, She Said
Girl walk in the spot, she stop traffic/She blowin’ your mind with her assets
"And that was the Jonas Brother's latest single Burnin' Up." The radio dj chuckled and then cleared his throat. "Speaking of the Jonas Brothers, Steve, I think we should announce our contest."
"Most definitely, Frank."
"Pop a Jonas Brother and walk away with $10,000! That's right, people! You heard me! We're launching a contest to deflower the virginal Jonas Brothers. Well, Kevin and Joe. Nick, unfortunately, is under age. The first person who can prove they have had consensual sex with Kevin or Joe Jonas walks away with ten grand as part of the Jump A Jonas competition. You must have a video tape of the proceedings. But keep it legal, folks. Prove it and you can win. Have fun!"
"What the heck?" I stared at the radio as if it could give me an answer. Were they serious? Jump A Jonas? I shook my head and switched radio stations. I had been listening to the local pop/rock/rap station of Grand Rapids, Michigan, where I was going to college to get my degree in journalism. The djs had always been crazy, but this was taking it to a whole new level. Still, I couldn't help my mind wander to dirty thoughts of fucking Joe Jonas. He was H-O-T! And I really could use the money. My little niece had been diagnosed with leukemia and her parents needed money to pay for the bone marrow transplant. I could do it. I loved the Jonas Brothers, especially Joe. In fact, I was obsessed. I knew the words to every song, my walls were plastered with posters, I owned every magazine, every book, every cd, every DVD, every t-shirt, key ring, necklace, bag, etc...... Many times I had wondered what it would be like to have sex with Joe Jonas. Sure, I respected their beliefs, but who wouldn't want them? They were amazing. But how could I go about doing it? I wasn't exactly Hollywood royalty. I grew up in a tiny town in Alabama. I didn't know anybody famous. By that time, I had pulled into the parking lot of my apartment I shared with my older sister Abigail, who went to the same college I did. I unlocked the door and tossed my bag on the couch. "Abi?" I called, walking through the apartment until I came to her room. I opened her door. She was sitting on her bed, video-chatting with her best friend Taylor Swift. I completely forgot! I did know someone famous! I rushed over to the screen. "Hey, Taylor!"
"Hey, Brittly. What's up?"
"Don't take this the wrong way, but do you think you could introduce me to Joe Jonas?"
Taylor rolled her eyes. "Why?"
"You know how Brent's little girl has leukemia? Well, the local radio station is offering ten thousand dollars to whoever can jump a Jonas."
Taylor burst out laughing, her blonde curls swinging round her face. "Are you serious? Jump a Jonas?" She laughed harder.
"Tay, this is serious!" I explained the rules of the contest.
When I finished, Abigail, who had been quiet up until then, spoke up. "I think you should introduce her, Taylor. It would be a great way to get back at Joe. A sex tape would destroy him."
At this point, I think I should clarify something. Taylor and Abigail are two of the sweetest people you will ever meet. But if you break their hearts, they turn vicious. I'm sure you know the story about Joe breaking up with Taylor over a twenty-seven second phone call. Taylor does not take kindly to having her heart broken. And if Taylor's heart gets broken, Abigail's might as well have gotten broke, too. And vice-versa. Anyway, I had a feeling Taylor would agree.
"There's a benefit tomorrow night in New York City for hunger-relief. The Jonas Brothers will be there. I could take you with me."
"She has school," Abigail reminded us.
"It won't hurt me to miss one day. Besides, the day after tomorrow is summer break. We get three months off." Abigail and I had specifically signed up for a time schedule identical to the ones we had in high school. We had to complete an extra year of college, but summer break was totally worth it. "Abi, please," I said, collapsing on the bed next to her and making a puppy-dog face. "Pleaseeeeee."
"Fine."
"Yes!" I hopped off the bed and started doing my happy dance.
"Wait!" Taylor shouted, making me stop dead in my tracks. "This is Joe Jonas we're talking about. There is no way you'll legally or consensually be able to do him. He wears a purity ring. When we were going out, he wouldn't even kiss me for longer then seven seconds. There's no way he'll give in."
"I can at least try," I said, not getting discouraged. After all, Joe was a nineteen-year-old boy. He had hormones. It couldn't be that hard.
"Fine. Why don't you both come down to Nashville tonight and we'll fly to New York tomorrow morning. Like Brittly said, it's almost summer break. It'll be fun! And Abigail, maybe you could get ten grand, too. Kevin's part of the contest, too!"
Abigail blushed and threw a pillow at the screen. "Fine. I still have some frequent flyer miles. We'll see you soon." They logged off and then Abigail turned towards me. "Are you seriously going to do this? It's not just about Grace's leukemia, is it?"
"Partly," I said. "But you know I love challenges. And Joe Jonas."
Abigail shook her head. "Poor boy, he doesn't know what's coming."
"Are you nervous?"
I turned towards Taylor and shrugged. "Kind of. I mean, I've had a crush on Joe since, like, forever." I pulled my compact out of my purse and inspected my face. "What if he doesn't like me?"
"Trust me, Britt," Abigail said. "He won't know what hit him." She smiled and squeezed my hand.
"I don't know," I said doubtfully. "I feel naked." Taylor's stylists had dressed me in a short, cleavage-bearing metallic silver dress. They had also dusted my eyelids with silver eye shadow and put pink gloss on my lips. That, along with the three-inch silver heels, made me feel like a glittery hooker. It was so not me. But maybe it would work. I sighed and looked out the tinted windows of the limo at the passing skyscrapers. "Are we there yet?" I asked.
"Britt, chill." Taylor grabbed my shoulder and shook me gently. "You'll be fine. Just imagine what it's going to feel like when you have sex with him."
Abigail and I looked at Taylor in shock.
"Hey, I dated him for a long time. Enough to know that he's a total sex-pot, even if he doesn't want to show it." A smile stretched across Taylor's face then and I could practically see the light bulb going off in her head. "I have some ideas for you to seduce him," she said excitedly and crossed her legs at the knee.
"Okay?" I said, exchanging a look with Abigail before looking at Taylor. "Shoot."
"Joe's hotspots are behind his right earlobe, at the bottom of his throat, his collarbone, and well, duh......" Taylor made a graphic motion with her hands. "Use this advice to your advantage. Also, keep in mind that he tells his brothers everything. So you're either going to have to get him swear to silence or get him alone with you for a vacation. He has a three-month-long break starting tomorrow, just like you. Get him to go back to Alabama with you."
(Before you get confused, Abigail and I lived in Alabama until her freshman year of high school when we moved to Tennessee. Almost all of my relatives live there.)
"It could work," Abigail said. "And Grandma and Pop are on vacation in Washington for three months. You know how much you love their house. It would be the perfect place."
"Yeah, but how am I gonna convince his parents to let him stay three months with me all the way across the country, alone, with no supervision?"
"I'll take care of that," Taylor said.
"How?"
"I have my ways." Then the limo pulled to a stop. "Showtime," Taylor announced and prepared to get out. Her bodyguard went first and then the three of us followed. We were automatically hit with flashbulbs going off.
"Taylor, Taylor, over here!"
"Taylor, give us a smile!"
"Taylor, will it be awkward to have Joe Jonas here tonight?"
"Good Lord," I whispered as we darted through the front doors into the front lobby. "That was crazy."
"You get used to it," Taylor said. She led us into the main room where the party was being held. I gasped when I saw the number of people standing in front of me. A sick feeling came over me. Abigail put her arm round my shoulder and hugged me.
"You'll be fine," she whispered.
"Oh, look, there he is," Taylor said, pointing to the corner where the three brothers were conversing with each other.
"What do I say?" I hissed as Taylor grabbed me and started marching towards them, Abigail following behind.
"Just be cool."
Butterflies formed in my stomach as we approached them. My eyes centered in on Joe. He looked amazing. He was wearing a black dress shirt, skinny jeans, and shoes. My gaze strayed towards his crotch, where the outline of 'little Jonas' could be seen. I licked my lips and let my gaze travel towards his face. His eyes sparkled, his mouth was smiling, his hair curling out under his ears. He was so beautiful it almost hurt to look at him. Kevin nudged Joe in the side and whispered something to him and Joe looked up. He spotted Taylor, but his face remained blank.
"Hey Nick, Kevin, Joeseph," Taylor said pointedly. "These are my friends Abigail and Brittly Whitam."
"Nice to meet you," Nick said, shaking my hand and then Abigail's. Kevin did the same and I noticed a smile light up his face as he shook Abi's hand. Then Joe grabbed my hand. Electricity shot through my hand, up my arm, and through the rest of my body, before settling in my core.
"Oh my god." I didn't speak aloud, but I felt like it. I watched Joe's face. An expression of shot flicked across his face and he bit his lip. We hadn't shook yet, just held each other's hand. It felt like we stood there forever, just looking at each other and holding hands. But then Kevin cleared his throat and Joe dropped my hand like it had burned him. He quickly looked away from me, so I turned to Taylor and silently asked her what to do.
"Flirt," she mouthed.
"So, Joe, are ya'll playing tonight?" My Southern accent came out strong, a sure sign that I was nervous. Joe smiled politely and nodded before turning his attention back to his brothers. But they were both immersed in conversation with Abigail and Taylor. Joe scowled and looked back at me, his eyes running down my body. I felt even more naked under his gaze and I crossed my arms over my chest. Joe's eyes were smoldering at me with something I couldn't identify. I gulped but I couldn't look away. Time seemed to slow down to a stop. I was lost inside those deep brown pools. I didn’t know what was wrong with me. It was like I had lost my touch. He was messing me up. Get it together, Brittly, I told myself. He’s just a normal boy. I took a deep breath and then smiled at Joe, stepping closer to him and resting my hand on his arm. "Is it hard?" I asked him, looking him straight in the eye as I stepped even closer. Joe’s eyes grew wide and he stumbled back against the wall.
"What?"
"Is it hard to get up there and perform in front of so many people?"
"No," Joe said, regaining his cool. "It’s awesome, I love it." His voice was sincere and happy. Why did he have to be so perfect? "So, what’s your story?" Once again, he caught me off guard.
"What do you mean?"
"What’s your story?" he repeated. "Your life. Tell me."
"Well, I’m seventeen. I’m a freshman at University of Michigan. I live in Grand Rapids, Michigan with my older sister Abigail. I lived in Alabama until I was twelve when we moved to Tennessee. I’m majoring in journalism. I love animals and Britney Spears songs. I hate carrots and Aaron Carter." Joe laughed and my heart melted. Stupid idiot, I thought. Don’t let him affect you. Suddenly, Taylor grabbed my arm and yanked me away from Joe. "What?" I hissed. "I was doing good."
"I have a plan," she said excitedly. "I’m going to let the paparazzi get a picture of me and Joe in a compromising position and then you can convince his parents to let him escape to a place where there is no paparazzi!"
"What do you mean "a compromising picture’?" I felt sick at the thought of Taylor touching Joe. I felt possessive of him.
"Just trust me."
"Okay." I walked towards the restrooms. Half-way there I turned around and saw Taylor talking to Joe. Jealously shot through me. What if he decided to get back together with Taylor? I mean, she was gorgeous. She had a great voice. She was famous. And I was just……..me. I blinked away tears and continued on the restroom. Once there, I stood in front of the mirror and examined myself. I really did look like a hooker. Well, a hooker wearing a five-thousand dollar Gucci dress. My reddish-brown hair was curled and pinned in a half-up, half-down fashion. I sighed and took it down, letting it fall around my shoulders. Then, I wiped my make-up off and slicked on some clear gloss from my purse. I knew Taylor would probably kill me, but I didn’t care. I had already lost Joe anyway. I left the bathroom and scanned the room for Abigail, but I couldn’t see anything through the crowd of people. When I finally made my way over to where we had been standing, nobody was there. "Crap," I muttered.
"Hey, gorgeous," a British voice said behind me. I turned around and came face to face with Ed Westwick.
"Hey, how ya doing’?" I said and started to walk off, but he grabbed my arm. I sighed impatiently and tried to yank my arm out of his grasp. I fully expected to be able to escape him, but I couldn’t. He stepped closer to me and I could smell the alcohol on his breath. Any other time, I would have been ecstatic to meet him, but now all I wanted to do was find Abi and go home. "Let go," I said and tried to jerk away again.
"Don’t be like that, darling," Ed whispered and wrapped his free arm around my waist. I struggled and then opened my mouth to scream, but then I was pulled away from Ed into someone else’s arms.
"Leave her alone. She’s with me." I smiled at the sound of Joe’s voice. His arms were still wrapped around me and it felt incredible. He said I was with him! My mind repeated that fact over and over and over. Did he mean it or was he just saving me?
"Well, looks like little virgin boy finally got him some ass," Ed sneered and I made a mental note to delete all of the Gossip Girl episodes off of Tivo. Joe didn’t say anything, but instead, guided me to the coatroom.
"Are you okay? He didn’t hurt you, did he?" Joe’s voice was anxious and my heart rate sped up. He actually cared! Joe tucked a stray lock of hair behind my left ear and I shivered at his touch.
"I’m fine," I said and tugged the bottom of my dress down.
"Are you sure?"
"Yeah." I cleared my throat and put my hands behind my back. "You should probably get back to the party. You know, since you’re performing and all."
"I kinda can’t. I’m in hiding. The paparazzi got a picture of me and Taylor. She ambushed me and well,………..yeah," he finished lamely before looking down at the ground. "So I’m going to have to be MIA for a while until this calms down." Joe’s face grew angry. "Why can’t they just leave me alone? I mean, I knew there was a price to pay when we started out, but, it’s just…….they never leave us alone!" Joe sighed and then looked at me apologetically. "I’m sorry for dumping this on you. And it’s going to sound really strange, but I feel like I can trust you. It’s crazy. I just met you and it just feels like………" There, he cut himself off and just looked at me.
"What if I told you that there was a place where there are absolutely no paparazzi? Where you can live in peace for three months?"
"I would say that you’re an angel and you rock." Joe smiled. "So what is this place?"
"It’s a tiny town in southern Alabama called Hayes. Population, 6,054." I grinned and wrapped my arms around his neck. "Are you up for it?"
Well, there you have it folks. Chapter one. A little bad-boy Ed Westwick action, but plenty of interaction between Brittly and Joe. What do you think will happen next? Read and review, please!
Can't Have You: Part I
Here's my new Jonas Brothers fic! Read and review, please!
Title: Can't Have You
Pairing: Joe/You
Rating: R
Summary: Your bestfriend is getting married and you're hopelessly in love with him. Is one night of passion enough to make him choose you?
The loud, but somehow distant noise of cars backed up on 5th Avenue keep you from sleeping. That and the fact that in less then twelve hours, your best friend will be getting married. On New Year's. Right now your best friend is in Times Square, performing with his two brothers. You see him moving on the television screen and your heart aches with a pain that has lingered in you for the past fifteen years. You can't stand it. It is torture to watch him and the almost funny thing is, he's not even with you or near you. He's twenty blocks away and you're watching him on a twenty-inch screen. You were invited to go with him. He wanted you there to experience the new year with him. But she was going to be there and you can't stand being near her. Even thinking about her makes tears run down your face. You pick up the pillow Joe had used to take a nap on a few hours before and hug it to your chest, breathing in his scent. You continue watching the tv because you can't look away, no matter how much it hurts. The sound is on mute because you can't bear to hear his voice. But you know every single word he's singing. His voice echoes in your head, teasing you, taunting you, making you remember again and again how he can never be yours. The words are imprinted in you, you hear them everywhere you go.
I don't wanna fall asleep
Cause I don't know if I'll get up
And I don't wanna cause a scene
But I'm dying without your love
Begging to hear your voice
Tell me you love me, too
Cause I'd rather just be alone
If I know that I can't have you
And then suddenly the song is over and she's on the stage, kissing him, their hands touching, and he's smiling. You scream, louder and harder then you ever have before and throw the first thing your hand closes around against the tv. The object happens to be a book. It hits the tv screen with a loud thud and the glass cracks, breaking their faces up in pieces. You curl up in a ball and pull the covers over your head, sobbing, praying that your life will just end now because you can't take the pain. Loud cheering, horns blaring, and music blasting fills your ears. It is midnight. 2009. January 1st. The day you will always remember as the worst day of your life. You stay in the bed, not feeling like celebrating. Because, really, what was there to celebrate? The start of a year where you won't be the only girl in Joe's life anymore? The start of a day where the last shred of hope you have will be torn to pieces? The end of sharing beds with Joe, wrapping your arms around him, holding him, kissing his shoulder, and whispering things to make him laugh? The end of you and Joe? The end of your world. Was that anything to celebrate? You drag yourself out of bed at two a.m. and start packing. You've made your decision. You're not going to stay for the wedding, you're going to leave and go back to Hollywood, pack all your stuff and move back home to New Jersey. You're almost done packing when the door opens. Joe walks in, tired, but excited and happy. You almost fall to your knees at the sight of him, so gorgeous and perfect.
"Hey," he says when he sees you, a smile lighting up his face. A smile so beautiful your heart breaks even more. "What are you doing?" His smile falters.
"I'm packing," you reply, tearing your eyes away from him and resuming packing.
"Why?" He is confused and hurt and you can't stand to see him like this, but you have to do it. "The wedding is tommorow," he says as if you need reminding. "You're the maid of honor."
You just shake your head, tears forming again and you hate yourself for being so weak, caring so much. "Hey, what's the matter?" Joe croons and he walks towards you, his arms reaching for you and for the first time in your life, you push him away. Pain flits across his face. "Did I do something wrong?" he asks, his voice so sad, so much like a child's and you're thinking, I can't do this to him. And then you break and throw yourself into his arms, crying and gasping, and you can't breathe but at the same time you have too much air and he is holding you and he's so warm and familiar and so Joe and all you can think is, This is right. This is how it's supposed to be. You want to tell him, but you're afraid. So afraid that he'll reject you, that he'll laugh and........ But what if he doesn't? You pull away from him slightly, just enough to see his face, still keeping your arms around him. You take a deep breath.
"Joe," you whisper. And then again, in a stronger voice. "Joe." He looks at you and you look back and suddenly you know he knows. All your secrets, all your fears, all your hopes, are reflected in those deep brown eyes. You can feel his breath on your lips and your eyes flutter close. This is it. Then suddenly, his mouth connects with yours. For just a second and then he pulls away and you can't help the whimper that falls from your lips. And he's back, kissing you with a ferocity neither of you knew he had. This is more than just kissing, this is bonding, this is letting go, this is flying, soaring, falling, loving, touching. Your hands roam over his body before tangling in his soft black hair. His tongue parts your lips and as you taste each other for the first time, your heart rate speeds up, your blood boils, and once again you're left breathless. He makes you crazy. Everyday you wonder how he has this effect on you. He's just a boy, but he can make you feel incredible. More than incredible. Undescribable. Part of you is so sure that this is a dream, that he isn't kissing you, touching you, groaning as your hands run down his back and you press yourself closer to him. But he doesn't disappear. He's real and this is real and it's perfect. For the moment, time stops. There's no wedding, no tomorrow, no today. Just the moment. You want him more than you ever have in your entire life. You need him. You pray that he won't stop, that he'll lead you onto the bed and continue what he's doing. He does. The warm weight of his body pressed against yours feels like heaven. His lips are sucking at your neck, teeth occasionaly nibbling on your skin. You moan and hold onto him, scared to let go. "Joe." You can't stop saying his name. His hand slids under the hem of your t-shirt and as his fingers dance across your skin, you thank God for this oppurtunity. You know that it's wrong, that you shouldn't be doing this---and neither should Joe---but you can't stop. You won't stop. You hurriedly help him undress you and then he undresses himself.
"Are you sure?" he breathes as he positions himself over you.
"Yes." And then he's in you and you ignore the pain because it feels so good. And he's moving and you're moving and this is the most incredible thing you've experienced in your life. Pressure crashes through your body, suffocating you, and then it happens and you scream his name as he groans. It's over. He rolls over on his side, bringing you with him and the sound of your heavy breathing mixes with his and then you both fall asleep.
Well, there it is. Hope you like it! Part two will be up soon!
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