unsent letter 2

you know what. though i'll never get over you. i'll be fine. if i dont have you, i'll be fine. there's so many other great fish in the sea.

i dont know why you're the only one i ever felt so strongly for thus far in my life, and in the 4 years it's been since I met you.

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You give me a glimpse of hope. And then, you contradict yourself, contradict the very words that gave me hope. You were with some one else 2, 3 years. You can wait for me, too. I've loved you 4 years. Did you think of me when you were with her? You think of me now, but why? Because you know, with the little hints I give, that I still feel for you? Did you and do you feel anything like what I feel for you? Is it so deep, so intense, so real, so crazy, euphoric, ecstatic, elation? I want to know that.

But I'm not the girl I was back then. I was 110-115 lbs. So confident. I knew I made hearts stop. Now, I'm surprised when I do. And I have to be that girl again before I'll see you again.

And you dont know that, so you wonder why I drag this on, what I'm waiting for, why I make you wait, to see me, to talk to me again. Probably. If you even care, but I think you did/do, by what you said when I said (yes to those of you reading-- this was said on Facebook if you cant tell) "I dont know how to give up on this dream.." you said dont give up, dreams are what make life fun. Never having commented/"liked" or messaged me on Facebook in the few months we've been FB friends.

If I make you wait, will the feelings dwindle, dissipate? But there's no other option.
And they dont for me. Still intense as ever.

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Cleaned kitchen and bathroom today.
In addition to Tae Bo, dancing and yoga, I did 20 squats and 25 sit ups.

Planning to do more sit ups and some leg exercises as the night goes on.

Happy though I know I'm starting my period soon and am having the sadness that I do at this time of every month.

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Starting raw vegan, smoothies and juice mostly tomorrow. 
Meant to but felt like crap when I woke up this morning from having a couple cookies late last night, and a baked potato for dinner. Yuck. No more. Vegan hence forth. 

Lots and lots of reasons to lose weight in the next month and before September 20th. So here we go!! :D

Been doing yoga every day. A lot of dancing. Did Tae Bo, the basic, today for 30 min (the length of the entirety of the Basic) working up to the advanced. And working up to advanced yoga.

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Doing ok. Had very very little raw to eat. Hadnt went to the grocery in awhile. Just loaded back up and so excited. Got lots of rawness!! And I'm taking almost every opportunity to exercise.