everything
Sara and I have broken up, and then got back together. New friends. Sadie, Sammy, and Derek. Heather has been sent to the hospital twice. Been friends with Levi, then haven't. Sara and I have made eachother orgasm, april fool's day sucked...brought sara to where I'd been, but I'm not really there anymore. I stopped talking about real feelings for awhile. But last night I talked with derek. About both of us. And yeah, so now I'm thinking about stuff ike that. And it makes me sad...I hate how much power there is in feelings. Sara and I talked to Mr. Berry online, but it was mostly sara. and sara was the one who clicked with him. I don't think it really matters to me. Realizing hurts. I could cry. But it wouldn't make me feel better anymore. Because I'm always beyond crying in myself. Sara and I want "sunshine and snow", and I told derek about it ((STUPID ME)) and I just know he's going to tell. He says Passive by A Perfect Circle describes perfectly how he feels. Realizing hurts.
“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…
Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come one now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this; you’re better off this;
Maybe you’re better off!
Wake up (can't you) and face me (come on now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit
Realizing hurts. He's right. I can't turn and face him, and I'm better off this way. Because I can't be any other way.
JustaBrokenShell: -hugs-
Imperfect Dove: *hugs back*
JustaBrokenShell: =)
JustaBrokenShell: are you ok?
Imperfect Dove: derek's right
Imperfect Dove: yep
Imperfect Dove: but he's right
Imperfect Dove: about the song
JustaBrokenShell: yeah
JustaBrokenShell: I noticed
JustaBrokenShell: -keeps reading the lyrics-
JustaBrokenShell: -hugs-
Imperfect Dove: *hugs back*
JustaBrokenShell: -kisses her forehead-
JustaBrokenShell: I'm sorry.
Imperfect Dove: I'ts not your fault
JustaBrokenShell: I know
JustaBrokenShell: but you're upset
JustaBrokenShell: and mr. Berry...I have no idea how...but he made me realize that I have to be more careful with you
JustaBrokenShell: because I really do love you
JustaBrokenShell: I care a lot about you
Imperfect Dove: =(
Imperfect Dove: I'm sorry
JustaBrokenShell: why?
Imperfect Dove: Realizing hurts.
JustaBrokenShell: ^^;;
JustaBrokenShell: not always
JustaBrokenShell: it depends on what you're realizing
Imperfect Dove: no
Imperfect Dove: Realizing hurts.
JustaBrokenShell: please don't tell me how I felt
JustaBrokenShell: it really honestly didn't hurt
Imperfect Dove: ok
Imperfect Dove: I'm sorry.
JustaBrokenShell: s'okay
JustaBrokenShell: -hugs-
Imperfect Dove: *hugs back*
JustaBrokenShell: this song won't get out of my head
JustaBrokenShell: even if I try thinking of another song
JustaBrokenShell: it won't go away
JustaBrokenShell: it's like Derek is trying to prove to me
JustaBrokenShell: that if we do anything he won't be my best friend anymore
JustaBrokenShell: that he'll just walk away
JustaBrokenShell: and be disappointed in me
JustaBrokenShell: no matter what I say
JustaBrokenShell: but I won't be able to say anything
Imperfect Dove: but we're better off this way
JustaBrokenShell: because there won't be any excuse
Imperfect Dove: we're going to die
Imperfect Dove: you do realize that, right?
Imperfect Dove: we're dying right now
Imperfect Dove: the earth and sky; our cradle, rocking us from birth to death, ever closer to earth and sky; our tomb
JustaBrokenShell: but then it rocks back dear...
JustaBrokenShell: cradles rock both ways
JustaBrokenShell: I just figured out why I've been so angry at you lately.
JustaBrokenShell: for every little ting
JustaBrokenShell: thing*
Imperfect Dove: why?
JustaBrokenShell: because I just have been seeing you eye-to-eye
JustaBrokenShell: I haven't been thinking the same way as you
JustaBrokenShell: like before
JustaBrokenShell: last year I would do everything like you and think the same as you and we would do everything the same
JustaBrokenShell: now I just can't do that anymore
JustaBrokenShell: and it sucks
Imperfect Dove: it's because you want to be different, but I don't think it's possible
JustaBrokenShell: cuz I just don't agree with a lot of the stuff you say now or do or whatever
JustaBrokenShell: you don't?
Imperfect Dove: it's not right
JustaBrokenShell: do you still want me to be the same as you?
Imperfect Dove: you can't be different when evweryone's the same
Imperfect Dove: there are NO CHOICES
Imperfect Dove: I don't WANT you to be the same as me
Imperfect Dove: I'm just saying that's impossible for everyone's lives nt to follow the same pattern
I really think I'm right, too.
JustaBrokenShell: following the same pattern is completely different from being the same
JustaBrokenShell: xyxyxyxyxy
and
qrqrqrqrqr
JustaBrokenShell: are the same pattern
Imperfect Dove: I think it's the same
JustaBrokenShell: but very different
Imperfect Dove: life isn't letters
JustaBrokenShell: it's the same thing though
JustaBrokenShell: Siri
JustaBrokenShell: I just can't agree with you
Imperfect Dove: I CAN'T THINK THAT WAY
Imperfect Dove: ok
JustaBrokenShell: you're so pessimistic
Imperfect Dove: I can't agree with you either
JustaBrokenShell: you don't try
Imperfect Dove: nihilistic is closer
This isn't going well.
JustaBrokenShell: you have no idea how much this conv. is reminding me of the movie I (Heart) Huckabees
JustaBrokenShell: it's almost funny
JustaBrokenShell: cuz it's like neilism(sp?) vs. extissentialism(sp?)
Imperfect Dove: but I think it's sad that it's funny
Imperfect Dove: because humans can only laugh at sad things
JustaBrokenShell: exisstentialism
Imperfect Dove: nihilism
JustaBrokenShell: existentialism
JustaBrokenShell: aren't you getting that from SIASL?
Imperfect Dove: The book embodied exactly how I felt
Imperfect Dove: I could never say it perfectly
Imperfect Dove: but they did
JustaBrokenShell: why the fuck are you doing this?
JustaBrokenShell: I was trying to help
JustaBrokenShell: trying to be kind and sensitive and caring and careFUL
JustaBrokenShell: and you pull this BULLSHIT
Why the fuck am I doing this? I can't do anything right anyway.
Imperfect Dove: I'm sorry
JustaBrokenShell: don't you see how selfish you are?!
Imperfect Dove: I can't try anymore today
JustaBrokenShell: you told me you WANT to be oblivious..you don't care that I'm trying to help
Imperfect Dove: I don't want help right now
JustaBrokenShell: you don't want anything
JustaBrokenShell: you don't care
Imperfect Dove: I just don't know what I want
Gothikpunk42064: whats going on?
Imperfect Dove: what?
Gothikpunk42064: you argueing with sara
Imperfect Dove: oh
Imperfect Dove: I'm arguing with sara
Imperfect Dove: but I don't want to be
Gothikpunk42064: ooo
Imperfect Dove: I can't stop, butshe can't see that
JustaBrokenShell: you don't try
JustaBrokenShell: you never try
JustaBrokenShell: you pretend
But I can't do anything else!!! and neither can anyone else!!!
Imperfect Dove: hi
Imperfect Dove: =(
SkittlesSL: hi
Imperfect Dove: T_T
Imperfect Dove: I'm sad today
SkittlesSL: whats wrong?
Imperfect Dove: I don't know
SkittlesSL: okay
Gothikpunk42064: im going to put you oth in a chat room
Imperfect Dove: I don't want to
Gothikpunk42064: come on im goign to end this fucking arguing cuz i have had to much bull shit today
You have just entered room "chat35408601580722022547."
Imperfect Dove: this isn't going to make anything better
JustaBrokenShell: -sigh-
Gothikpunk42064: well stop fighting ok
JustaBrokenShell: -falls over laughing-
Gothikpunk42064: FUCKING STOP BOTH OF YOU NOW
Gothikpunk42064: im fucking tired of all my friends fighti
JustaBrokenShell: TELL HER THAT!!!!
Gothikpunk42064: jesus fucking christ
yam fetus: so, whats REALLY wrong?
yam fetus: ..
yam fetus: be honest
Imperfect Dove: I
Imperfect Dove: can't
Imperfect Dove: take
Imperfect Dove: it
Gothikpunk42064: just whats going on
JustaBrokenShell: I was fucking trying to help her feel better because she was upset and she just started arguing with me
JustaBrokenShell: and now she's not going to talk
Imperfect Dove: I'm thinking
yam fetus: take what
yam fetus: why r u in a chat w/ levi?
Imperfect Dove: because I can't do anything right, okay?!
Why am I digging myself a deeper hole? I'm never getting out of life alive.
JustaBrokenShell: I'm crying
JustaBrokenShell: wow
Gothikpunk42064: can we just fucking stop please
JustaBrokenShell: I haven't cried in a while
JustaBrokenShell: nvm I already stopped
Imperfect Dove: YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!?!?!
Imperfect Dove: I"VE BEEN CRYING EVERY DAY
"JustaBrokenShell has just signed off" well, this will only be the beginning.
Gothikpunk42064: welcome to my world siri
JustaBrokenShell has left the room.
Gothikpunk42064 has left the room.
yam fetus: im confused and have a good feeling that u are yelling at me o.O
yam fetus: are u?
Imperfect Dove: I can't
Imperfect Dove: I'm not mad at you
yam fetus: just tell me whats wrong cuz im not going to tell anyone and theres and 95/5 chance that i'll understand
Imperfect Dove: I don't understand
Imperfect Dove: just wait, ok?
Gothikpunk42064: siri
Gothikpunk42064: im sorry
Imperfect Dove: don't bother
Imperfect Dove: it can't matter
If it keeps on raining.....I'll start crying harder...
Gothikpunk42064: yea i have been crying everyday too
Gothikpunk42064: my friend killed himself today
Imperfect Dove: I'm happy for him.
Derek's right. I'm better off this way. At least I can be numb.
Gothikpunk42064: omg siri
yam fetus: okay....
yam fetus: O.o wow im so confused
yam fetus: sara told me she was going to go watch passive and signed off
Imperfect Dove: it'a a song, so she probably watching the video online
Imperfect Dove: she'll probably end up cutting.
yam fetus: i know.
yam fetus: bjkleflkjbjklgbjkbl
yam fetus: argggggggggg
Imperfect Dove: everyone does anyway
yam fetus: why r u guys fighting
yam fetus: :-(
Imperfect Dove: because we can't be happy
Imperfect Dove: or something
Imperfect Dove: look, I know I'm not supposed to be, but I envy him
Imperfect Dove: but I'm still happy for him.
yam fetus: the only time i feel uncomfortable around u guys is when ur fighting cuz i feel like its my fault
Imperfect Dove: it's not your fault at all
Imperfect Dove: it's all my fault for not being
Imperfect Dove: right
Imperfect Dove: wrong
Imperfect Dove: smart
Imperfect Dove: perfect
yam fetus: its not your fault
Imperfect Dove: IT IS THOUGH
yam fetus: she seems to be always mad at you
yam fetus: and that makes me feel bed
yam fetus: cuz soemtimes u dont even do anything
does it seem to you that tonya is the only reasonable person in myworld? It's still raining...harder...even the keyboard's wet now..
yam fetus: and it just seems like she has the right to be mad constantly but when ur mad its the end of the world then she gets mad
yam fetus: at you for being mad
Imperfect Dove: you're probably right
Imperfect Dove: but I'm screwed anyway
Imperfect Dove: because I can't do anything about it
How did you come to trade the fiddle for the drum? You say we have turned like the enemies you've earned, but we can remember all the good things you are. And so we ask you please, can we help you find the peace in the star? Oh my friend, we have all come to fear the beating of your drum.
yam fetus: id talk to her about it but its not really my place and then evberyone would be mad at me
yam fetus: the next time she gets pissed at you for being mad just be honest with her and say that you have just as much a right to be angry as her
Imperfect Dove: I'm going to post something in my lj for the first time in...months
I really don't see any qway out anymore. I'd almost like this to be a final entry, but not quite. Besides, who has the right to leave?
yam fetus: which one?
yam fetus: ..?
Imperfect Dove: Imperfect Dove
Then my mum came out of her room and I copied and pasted into word, soI could keep typing. I don't know why. Why bother? Maybe tonya's right, or maybe it's just supposed to seem that way to me. Who can tell? Who knows that they matter? Who's right?
“Dead as dead can be,” my doctor tells me
But I just can’t believe him, ever the optimistic one
I’m sure of your ability to become my perfect enemy
Wake up and face me, don’t play dead cause maybe
Someday I will walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Leaning over you here, cold and catatonic
I catch a brief reflection of what you could and might have been
It's your right and your ability
To become…my perfect enemy…
Wake up (we'll catch you) and face me (come one now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You disappoint me,”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
Maybe you’re better off this way
You’re better of this; you’re better off this;
Maybe you’re better off!
Wake up (can't you) and face me (come on now),
Don’t play dead (don't play dead)
Cause maybe (because maybe)
Someday I’ll (someday I'll) walk away and say, “You fucking disappoint me!”
Maybe you’re better off this way
Go ahead and play dead
I know that you can hear this
Go ahead and play dead
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
Why can't you turn and face me?
You fucking disappoint me!
Passive aggressive bullshit
Realizing hurts. He's right. I can't turn and face him, and I'm better off this way. Because I can't be any other way.
JustaBrokenShell: -hugs-
Imperfect Dove: *hugs back*
JustaBrokenShell: =)
JustaBrokenShell: are you ok?
Imperfect Dove: derek's right
Imperfect Dove: yep
Imperfect Dove: but he's right
Imperfect Dove: about the song
JustaBrokenShell: yeah
JustaBrokenShell: I noticed
JustaBrokenShell: -keeps reading the lyrics-
JustaBrokenShell: -hugs-
Imperfect Dove: *hugs back*
JustaBrokenShell: -kisses her forehead-
JustaBrokenShell: I'm sorry.
Imperfect Dove: I'ts not your fault
JustaBrokenShell: I know
JustaBrokenShell: but you're upset
JustaBrokenShell: and mr. Berry...I have no idea how...but he made me realize that I have to be more careful with you
JustaBrokenShell: because I really do love you
JustaBrokenShell: I care a lot about you
Imperfect Dove: =(
Imperfect Dove: I'm sorry
JustaBrokenShell: why?
Imperfect Dove: Realizing hurts.
JustaBrokenShell: ^^;;
JustaBrokenShell: not always
JustaBrokenShell: it depends on what you're realizing
Imperfect Dove: no
Imperfect Dove: Realizing hurts.
JustaBrokenShell: please don't tell me how I felt
JustaBrokenShell: it really honestly didn't hurt
Imperfect Dove: ok
Imperfect Dove: I'm sorry.
JustaBrokenShell: s'okay
JustaBrokenShell: -hugs-
Imperfect Dove: *hugs back*
JustaBrokenShell: this song won't get out of my head
JustaBrokenShell: even if I try thinking of another song
JustaBrokenShell: it won't go away
JustaBrokenShell: it's like Derek is trying to prove to me
JustaBrokenShell: that if we do anything he won't be my best friend anymore
JustaBrokenShell: that he'll just walk away
JustaBrokenShell: and be disappointed in me
JustaBrokenShell: no matter what I say
JustaBrokenShell: but I won't be able to say anything
Imperfect Dove: but we're better off this way
JustaBrokenShell: because there won't be any excuse
Imperfect Dove: we're going to die
Imperfect Dove: you do realize that, right?
Imperfect Dove: we're dying right now
Imperfect Dove: the earth and sky; our cradle, rocking us from birth to death, ever closer to earth and sky; our tomb
JustaBrokenShell: but then it rocks back dear...
JustaBrokenShell: cradles rock both ways
JustaBrokenShell: I just figured out why I've been so angry at you lately.
JustaBrokenShell: for every little ting
JustaBrokenShell: thing*
Imperfect Dove: why?
JustaBrokenShell: because I just have been seeing you eye-to-eye
JustaBrokenShell: I haven't been thinking the same way as you
JustaBrokenShell: like before
JustaBrokenShell: last year I would do everything like you and think the same as you and we would do everything the same
JustaBrokenShell: now I just can't do that anymore
JustaBrokenShell: and it sucks
Imperfect Dove: it's because you want to be different, but I don't think it's possible
JustaBrokenShell: cuz I just don't agree with a lot of the stuff you say now or do or whatever
JustaBrokenShell: you don't?
Imperfect Dove: it's not right
JustaBrokenShell: do you still want me to be the same as you?
Imperfect Dove: you can't be different when evweryone's the same
Imperfect Dove: there are NO CHOICES
Imperfect Dove: I don't WANT you to be the same as me
Imperfect Dove: I'm just saying that's impossible for everyone's lives nt to follow the same pattern
I really think I'm right, too.
JustaBrokenShell: following the same pattern is completely different from being the same
JustaBrokenShell: xyxyxyxyxy
and
qrqrqrqrqr
JustaBrokenShell: are the same pattern
Imperfect Dove: I think it's the same
JustaBrokenShell: but very different
Imperfect Dove: life isn't letters
JustaBrokenShell: it's the same thing though
JustaBrokenShell: Siri
JustaBrokenShell: I just can't agree with you
Imperfect Dove: I CAN'T THINK THAT WAY
Imperfect Dove: ok
JustaBrokenShell: you're so pessimistic
Imperfect Dove: I can't agree with you either
JustaBrokenShell: you don't try
Imperfect Dove: nihilistic is closer
This isn't going well.
JustaBrokenShell: you have no idea how much this conv. is reminding me of the movie I (Heart) Huckabees
JustaBrokenShell: it's almost funny
JustaBrokenShell: cuz it's like neilism(sp?) vs. extissentialism(sp?)
Imperfect Dove: but I think it's sad that it's funny
Imperfect Dove: because humans can only laugh at sad things
JustaBrokenShell: exisstentialism
Imperfect Dove: nihilism
JustaBrokenShell: existentialism
JustaBrokenShell: aren't you getting that from SIASL?
Imperfect Dove: The book embodied exactly how I felt
Imperfect Dove: I could never say it perfectly
Imperfect Dove: but they did
JustaBrokenShell: why the fuck are you doing this?
JustaBrokenShell: I was trying to help
JustaBrokenShell: trying to be kind and sensitive and caring and careFUL
JustaBrokenShell: and you pull this BULLSHIT
Why the fuck am I doing this? I can't do anything right anyway.
Imperfect Dove: I'm sorry
JustaBrokenShell: don't you see how selfish you are?!
Imperfect Dove: I can't try anymore today
JustaBrokenShell: you told me you WANT to be oblivious..you don't care that I'm trying to help
Imperfect Dove: I don't want help right now
JustaBrokenShell: you don't want anything
JustaBrokenShell: you don't care
Imperfect Dove: I just don't know what I want
Gothikpunk42064: whats going on?
Imperfect Dove: what?
Gothikpunk42064: you argueing with sara
Imperfect Dove: oh
Imperfect Dove: I'm arguing with sara
Imperfect Dove: but I don't want to be
Gothikpunk42064: ooo
Imperfect Dove: I can't stop, butshe can't see that
JustaBrokenShell: you don't try
JustaBrokenShell: you never try
JustaBrokenShell: you pretend
But I can't do anything else!!! and neither can anyone else!!!
Imperfect Dove: hi
Imperfect Dove: =(
SkittlesSL: hi
Imperfect Dove: T_T
Imperfect Dove: I'm sad today
SkittlesSL: whats wrong?
Imperfect Dove: I don't know
SkittlesSL: okay
Gothikpunk42064: im going to put you oth in a chat room
Imperfect Dove: I don't want to
Gothikpunk42064: come on im goign to end this fucking arguing cuz i have had to much bull shit today
You have just entered room "chat35408601580722022547."
Imperfect Dove: this isn't going to make anything better
JustaBrokenShell: -sigh-
Gothikpunk42064: well stop fighting ok
JustaBrokenShell: -falls over laughing-
Gothikpunk42064: FUCKING STOP BOTH OF YOU NOW
Gothikpunk42064: im fucking tired of all my friends fighti
JustaBrokenShell: TELL HER THAT!!!!
Gothikpunk42064: jesus fucking christ
yam fetus: so, whats REALLY wrong?
yam fetus: ..
yam fetus: be honest
Imperfect Dove: I
Imperfect Dove: can't
Imperfect Dove: take
Imperfect Dove: it
Gothikpunk42064: just whats going on
JustaBrokenShell: I was fucking trying to help her feel better because she was upset and she just started arguing with me
JustaBrokenShell: and now she's not going to talk
Imperfect Dove: I'm thinking
yam fetus: take what
yam fetus: why r u in a chat w/ levi?
Imperfect Dove: because I can't do anything right, okay?!
Why am I digging myself a deeper hole? I'm never getting out of life alive.
JustaBrokenShell: I'm crying
JustaBrokenShell: wow
Gothikpunk42064: can we just fucking stop please
JustaBrokenShell: I haven't cried in a while
JustaBrokenShell: nvm I already stopped
Imperfect Dove: YOU KNOW WHAT?!?!?!?!
Imperfect Dove: I"VE BEEN CRYING EVERY DAY
"JustaBrokenShell has just signed off" well, this will only be the beginning.
Gothikpunk42064: welcome to my world siri
JustaBrokenShell has left the room.
Gothikpunk42064 has left the room.
yam fetus: im confused and have a good feeling that u are yelling at me o.O
yam fetus: are u?
Imperfect Dove: I can't
Imperfect Dove: I'm not mad at you
yam fetus: just tell me whats wrong cuz im not going to tell anyone and theres and 95/5 chance that i'll understand
Imperfect Dove: I don't understand
Imperfect Dove: just wait, ok?
Gothikpunk42064: siri
Gothikpunk42064: im sorry
Imperfect Dove: don't bother
Imperfect Dove: it can't matter
If it keeps on raining.....I'll start crying harder...
Gothikpunk42064: yea i have been crying everyday too
Gothikpunk42064: my friend killed himself today
Imperfect Dove: I'm happy for him.
Derek's right. I'm better off this way. At least I can be numb.
Gothikpunk42064: omg siri
yam fetus: okay....
yam fetus: O.o wow im so confused
yam fetus: sara told me she was going to go watch passive and signed off
Imperfect Dove: it'a a song, so she probably watching the video online
Imperfect Dove: she'll probably end up cutting.
yam fetus: i know.
yam fetus: bjkleflkjbjklgbjkbl
yam fetus: argggggggggg
Imperfect Dove: everyone does anyway
yam fetus: why r u guys fighting
yam fetus: :-(
Imperfect Dove: because we can't be happy
Imperfect Dove: or something
Imperfect Dove: look, I know I'm not supposed to be, but I envy him
Imperfect Dove: but I'm still happy for him.
yam fetus: the only time i feel uncomfortable around u guys is when ur fighting cuz i feel like its my fault
Imperfect Dove: it's not your fault at all
Imperfect Dove: it's all my fault for not being
Imperfect Dove: right
Imperfect Dove: wrong
Imperfect Dove: smart
Imperfect Dove: perfect
yam fetus: its not your fault
Imperfect Dove: IT IS THOUGH
yam fetus: she seems to be always mad at you
yam fetus: and that makes me feel bed
yam fetus: cuz soemtimes u dont even do anything
does it seem to you that tonya is the only reasonable person in myworld? It's still raining...harder...even the keyboard's wet now..
yam fetus: and it just seems like she has the right to be mad constantly but when ur mad its the end of the world then she gets mad
yam fetus: at you for being mad
Imperfect Dove: you're probably right
Imperfect Dove: but I'm screwed anyway
Imperfect Dove: because I can't do anything about it
How did you come to trade the fiddle for the drum? You say we have turned like the enemies you've earned, but we can remember all the good things you are. And so we ask you please, can we help you find the peace in the star? Oh my friend, we have all come to fear the beating of your drum.
yam fetus: id talk to her about it but its not really my place and then evberyone would be mad at me
yam fetus: the next time she gets pissed at you for being mad just be honest with her and say that you have just as much a right to be angry as her
Imperfect Dove: I'm going to post something in my lj for the first time in...months
I really don't see any qway out anymore. I'd almost like this to be a final entry, but not quite. Besides, who has the right to leave?
yam fetus: which one?
yam fetus: ..?
Imperfect Dove: Imperfect Dove
Then my mum came out of her room and I copied and pasted into word, soI could keep typing. I don't know why. Why bother? Maybe tonya's right, or maybe it's just supposed to seem that way to me. Who can tell? Who knows that they matter? Who's right?