oh yeahhh...
It worked out <3
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Beat Line.
Don't Don't Don't Give Up!
Don't Don't Don't Give Up!
Don't Don't Don't Give Up!
Lets! Everybody Right Now!
Don't Don't Don't Give Up!
Don't Don't Don't Give Up!
Lets! Everybody Right Now!
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She's perfectly aware of how "lucky" she is already, but that's not the point.
She doesn't want to appreciate being lucky.
She doesn't want to hear stories of people in worse positions than her.
She doesn't want to be guilted out of feeling that her pain is significant.
She doesn't want to appreciate being lucky.
She doesn't want to hear stories of people in worse positions than her.
She doesn't want to be guilted out of feeling that her pain is significant.
Say what? Say what? Cheese jerky.
Okay, sorry self. Short LJ break. And then essay...and studying...
It's weird how much my thoughts have changed since before college. Now I'm okay with not studying abroad even though before I was so set on it. I mean I still want to go but I don't have such an urgent feeling of it anymore. I guess it's just funny to see how much you can change your mind as time progresses.
And FINALLY the school year ends in a mere 2 days. MAN I have waited for this moment since a year minus two weeks ago. LOL. I'm also so excited to go to Hong Kong this summer just because FOOD and well...I just don't go anywhere anymore while I'm here. Well okay Santa Monica...but anyway I don't know. I'm just excited. I also want to go to the beach. And play some pool. Billiards I mean. And for once I don't have a crazy summer-to-do list :O I mean I kind of still have one but it's sparse. Amazing. I hope I can be productive this summer though. I've had enough of school stuff. And boarding! WOO! BAKING YEAH. And oh man I miss Mr. Richards like heck! I also need to transfer all my stuff from my old hard drive and I'm going to rewatch some old anime and jdrama and transfer some maybe to my iPad WHAO FOR THE TRIP TO HK HEY I COULD WATCH IT NICE. LOL. Anywho...
There's also something that I'm super looking forward to but that's a secret. I just hope that works out.
I need to start updating LJ again for the summer. Actually I need to upload all the sticky notes etc of jotted notes I have of certain days LOL. That's kinda piling up there.
Anyway...back to work. No big though. I couldn't feel more chill about an essay seriously [and the 10 minute final tomorrow.] My mind's already at home. Now to bring my physical self there and I'll be happy. :]
Ciao~
[Haha. Funny sometimes how I just put the first phrase that pops into my head as the subject line. Nonsensical much?]
It's weird how much my thoughts have changed since before college. Now I'm okay with not studying abroad even though before I was so set on it. I mean I still want to go but I don't have such an urgent feeling of it anymore. I guess it's just funny to see how much you can change your mind as time progresses.
And FINALLY the school year ends in a mere 2 days. MAN I have waited for this moment since a year minus two weeks ago. LOL. I'm also so excited to go to Hong Kong this summer just because FOOD and well...I just don't go anywhere anymore while I'm here. Well okay Santa Monica...but anyway I don't know. I'm just excited. I also want to go to the beach. And play some pool. Billiards I mean. And for once I don't have a crazy summer-to-do list :O I mean I kind of still have one but it's sparse. Amazing. I hope I can be productive this summer though. I've had enough of school stuff. And boarding! WOO! BAKING YEAH. And oh man I miss Mr. Richards like heck! I also need to transfer all my stuff from my old hard drive and I'm going to rewatch some old anime and jdrama and transfer some maybe to my iPad WHAO FOR THE TRIP TO HK HEY I COULD WATCH IT NICE. LOL. Anywho...
There's also something that I'm super looking forward to but that's a secret. I just hope that works out.
I need to start updating LJ again for the summer. Actually I need to upload all the sticky notes etc of jotted notes I have of certain days LOL. That's kinda piling up there.
Anyway...back to work. No big though. I couldn't feel more chill about an essay seriously [and the 10 minute final tomorrow.] My mind's already at home. Now to bring my physical self there and I'll be happy. :]
Ciao~
[Haha. Funny sometimes how I just put the first phrase that pops into my head as the subject line. Nonsensical much?]
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End of Week 5...and counting.
Hmm I was really sleepy earlier but after my super power nap which I didn't even really fall asleep for, I feel significantly better. Anyway, sigh. Petrina is gone!! D: 5 more weeks without my bestie D: I hope these 5 weeks go really fast...Have fun at home in the meantime!!!
In other news, I need to start working on Petrina's and Danny's birthday gifts... @.@ I have an idea but well, hopefully I can start working on it after 6th week. If I wait until I get home first I won't be able to finish so I need to start it while I'm still here...I CAN DO THIS. And for my architecture midterm and DESMA 11A essay....I HOPE I CAN ALSO DO THOSE.
In other other news, after visiting the Clark library for 11A man, that really inspired me more in terms of my paper workings. I wonder if I could pursue book arts as a career option...hm. :] That would be awesome if I could have my own line of awesome books. Nice. For now, I need to add to my summer list: make paper from scratch and use it to make my children's book. Maybe I can go to Blick next weekend and check out their supplies, see if they have any books on making paper. HEY. Maybe I should go to Nijiya while I'm at it. :D Well...we'll see. Also for the summer list, go boarding. A LOT. I'll totally board to everyone's house :D And then also, buy new shoes to parkour in. I want to get toned this summer. I MUST.
That's all for now...back to typography and studying...D: My goal for tonight...hm. Finish type at the least. I need to start studying for my midterm... @.@ Must also remember to call Mommy tomorrow because Mother's Day. Sorry I can't make you anything this time :[ I'll try to do something awesome for your birthday!
In other news, I need to start working on Petrina's and Danny's birthday gifts... @.@ I have an idea but well, hopefully I can start working on it after 6th week. If I wait until I get home first I won't be able to finish so I need to start it while I'm still here...I CAN DO THIS. And for my architecture midterm and DESMA 11A essay....I HOPE I CAN ALSO DO THOSE.
In other other news, after visiting the Clark library for 11A man, that really inspired me more in terms of my paper workings. I wonder if I could pursue book arts as a career option...hm. :] That would be awesome if I could have my own line of awesome books. Nice. For now, I need to add to my summer list: make paper from scratch and use it to make my children's book. Maybe I can go to Blick next weekend and check out their supplies, see if they have any books on making paper. HEY. Maybe I should go to Nijiya while I'm at it. :D Well...we'll see. Also for the summer list, go boarding. A LOT. I'll totally board to everyone's house :D And then also, buy new shoes to parkour in. I want to get toned this summer. I MUST.
That's all for now...back to typography and studying...D: My goal for tonight...hm. Finish type at the least. I need to start studying for my midterm... @.@ Must also remember to call Mommy tomorrow because Mother's Day. Sorry I can't make you anything this time :[ I'll try to do something awesome for your birthday!
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I'm so scared of myself...so scared.
Please just let it be summer already.
Please just let it be summer already.
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Sigh.
Even when it's free time, or I'm at least just fed up with working and I MAKE it my free time, I can't even do anything. I'm so writer's blocked for all the writing projects I'm working on, and then for everything else it would be starting a new project and I don't want to start them yet because it'll take longer to start it and with the time I have right now that's not all that possible.
I want...to take up kickboxing or something so I can box it all out when I'm angry/frustrated. So, I'm just gonna go play PSP in bed. At least I can do that...
Can it please be summer? I want to get out of here already!
I want...to take up kickboxing or something so I can box it all out when I'm angry/frustrated. So, I'm just gonna go play PSP in bed. At least I can do that...
Can it please be summer? I want to get out of here already!
you know...
I should really post more posts. Well, more like I should post more happy posts. I think it's cause all the happy things I tend to blog in my sticky notes or something all jumbly and don't ever really edit them to be readable by the public. LOL. So I guess for now, enjoy some funny TV quotes.
But first, thanks Andrew for...I don't know, just asking how I was. That really meant a lot to me. Especially since I mark most of my more recent entries as private because I feel like they're just too "dark." I hesitated about posting the last one but I just did anyway because I didn't care at the moment. Thanks again :]
So this is just a little bit from my TV quote list, something which is very good to look at when I'm in a bad mood. I always get such a good laugh from these. :D
From How I Met Your Mother:
Lily: We should come up with a whole new last name.
Marshall: Oh, that's easy; Lily and Marshall Skywalker.
Lily: Lily and Marshall Hasselhoff.
Marshall: Oh, got it. Lily and Marshall Awesome. Hey have you met the Awesomes? Lily, Marshall, their son Totally, and their daughter Freaking?
[Lily confronts Ted and Marshall at the hospital over their sword fight]
Lily: On Monday I'm gonna have to tell my kindergarten class, who I teach not to run with scissors, that my fiance ran me through with a freakin' broadsword!
Marshall: Well, just to be fair, it didn't go all the way through.
Lily: I'm sorry, is this a discussion about the degree to which you stabbed me?
Ted: Why'd you have to paint Marshall nude anyway?
Lily: Because he ate my bowl of fruit!
*Marshall's cellphone rings*
Marshall: Hello? Hey, happy Saint Patty's day, how are you? Yeah I haven't talked to you in forever!
Lily: Who is it?
Marshall: It's Ted's butt.
*Lily and Marshall look at Ted, Ted takes out his cell from back pocket*
Ted: Augh! Damn it! My phone keeps pocket dialing. That's like the 8th time today!
Marshall: In fairness I did call Ted's butt at like two this afternoon.
Lily: It took long enough to call you back!
*Marshall scoff-laughs*
Okay x] Enough HIMYM. Now to end this post with this lovely video that EVERYONE MUST WATCH. It's too heartwarming!!
But first, thanks Andrew for...I don't know, just asking how I was. That really meant a lot to me. Especially since I mark most of my more recent entries as private because I feel like they're just too "dark." I hesitated about posting the last one but I just did anyway because I didn't care at the moment. Thanks again :]
So this is just a little bit from my TV quote list, something which is very good to look at when I'm in a bad mood. I always get such a good laugh from these. :D
From How I Met Your Mother:
Lily: We should come up with a whole new last name.
Marshall: Oh, that's easy; Lily and Marshall Skywalker.
Lily: Lily and Marshall Hasselhoff.
Marshall: Oh, got it. Lily and Marshall Awesome. Hey have you met the Awesomes? Lily, Marshall, their son Totally, and their daughter Freaking?
[Lily confronts Ted and Marshall at the hospital over their sword fight]
Lily: On Monday I'm gonna have to tell my kindergarten class, who I teach not to run with scissors, that my fiance ran me through with a freakin' broadsword!
Marshall: Well, just to be fair, it didn't go all the way through.
Lily: I'm sorry, is this a discussion about the degree to which you stabbed me?
Ted: Why'd you have to paint Marshall nude anyway?
Lily: Because he ate my bowl of fruit!
*Marshall's cellphone rings*
Marshall: Hello? Hey, happy Saint Patty's day, how are you? Yeah I haven't talked to you in forever!
Lily: Who is it?
Marshall: It's Ted's butt.
*Lily and Marshall look at Ted, Ted takes out his cell from back pocket*
Ted: Augh! Damn it! My phone keeps pocket dialing. That's like the 8th time today!
Marshall: In fairness I did call Ted's butt at like two this afternoon.
Lily: It took long enough to call you back!
*Marshall scoff-laughs*
Okay x] Enough HIMYM. Now to end this post with this lovely video that EVERYONE MUST WATCH. It's too heartwarming!!
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n/a.
College angers me. It is a cold-hearted demon that wants nothing more than your money. It strives to separate you from the people that you love and endlessly forces on you sleeplessly worked nights. This is the conclusion I arrive at when it is 12 AM...
_on the second night I refuse to work.
_as I try oh so very hard not to harbour hostile feelings toward a certain person for her snarky comments on my essay.
_after a skype session with a person who I cannot begin to articulate how much I miss having in my life.
_as I sit in the dark for the xth night in a row working late.
_after the night I almost cry because of the seemingly inevitable degenerative state of my health.
_after the week I spent 18 hours awake writing papers that could have been done sooner but couldn't have.
_and I wonder for the 1000th time why I am so inadequate, why I can't do anything right.
_and I think for the 10,000th time what kind of life is this to live, of constant struggle to surface above the water but it just isn't possible.
_and I am simply at a loss, because I don't understand what I'm doing wrong, what people see in college, why I can't see what they see, can't be happy like they were.
_and I just want to be by your side, you who are sick and I just want to be there for you until you get better.
Is happiness THAT elusive?
_on the second night I refuse to work.
_as I try oh so very hard not to harbour hostile feelings toward a certain person for her snarky comments on my essay.
_after a skype session with a person who I cannot begin to articulate how much I miss having in my life.
_as I sit in the dark for the xth night in a row working late.
_after the night I almost cry because of the seemingly inevitable degenerative state of my health.
_after the week I spent 18 hours awake writing papers that could have been done sooner but couldn't have.
_and I wonder for the 1000th time why I am so inadequate, why I can't do anything right.
_and I think for the 10,000th time what kind of life is this to live, of constant struggle to surface above the water but it just isn't possible.
_and I am simply at a loss, because I don't understand what I'm doing wrong, what people see in college, why I can't see what they see, can't be happy like they were.
_and I just want to be by your side, you who are sick and I just want to be there for you until you get better.
Is happiness THAT elusive?
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Week 10
Aw man...total failure. LOL. What happened to my regular updating?! Eh, on Sticky Notes on my mac. Hahahahaha...that said, hopefully I can start updating normally again, I'm going to epic post the sticky notes'd posts on a private post...since they are quite illiterate sounding and choppy. Haha.
Saturday, December 4
Wake up, eat KRAFT MAC N CHEESE OMG I MISS IT. SO GOOD. AHH YUM. :9 And then rushrush, back to the bus stop aww :[ but I met with Andrew in Santa Monica. We FINALLY look at the Camera Obscura [ew spider on the table] and we took pictures of each other of our projections on the table when we were standing outside [?? doesn't make sense...it's a 'you had to be there' moment. LOL] And then we went to CCS [HAHA I almost typed CSS. It's all your fault Danny. LOL.] and met Woofy, Kevin and Christa? Krista? Kristen? LOL...but they were so nice! I got my board vamped-up with longboard wheels YES FINALLY. And now it's SUCH A SMOOTH RIDE. HAHA IT LOOKS LIKE A BUG b/c the wheels stick out so much they look like arms and legs. We pretty much left after that and we ate dinner with Jason, I went to the gala [aw man it was good but I was kinda sleepy halfway through >~<] then came back and me and Andrew went boarding in PSV to test my board out. It was super unstable at first but I kinda got used to it, I tightened it a little after and it made it a lot better. We went down Young and omg, I hate the feeling of omgomgomgomgscaryyyybutmuststaycalmortot
AND OMG I JUST REALIZED WHY IS ALL MY LJ'S BECOMING BACKGROUNDLESS. Sighhhhh....I hope that person fixes their PB account...I don't want to change my layout AGAIN. I liked my layout before! I would've kept it for a very long time! D:
Friday, December 3
Awww, last DESMA 10 class. I liked the things Professor Huhtamo talked about in our last lecture. Go Dyson! And then...back to the room, packpack, bus! Get to P-dine and meet rina~ We sit around for a bit, then go to the gym to do ab-workouts...MAN. They have 100 lb weights...that's like, me in dumbbell form. O.o And then...dinner, smoothie, Castle, crazy picture-taking :D then bed.
Thursday, December 2
Nicee, for the meeting with Vasa. LOL 5 minutes. And...meeting till super late for DESMA 10 project. Thanks Dorothy and Patrick :D
Wednesday, December 1
Wow. For a day of NO CLASS today was like crazy busy. Sheesh. So, wake up...too lazy to go to Broad so I ended up not uploading my Munsell poster again but whatever because I already have a copy anyway. I just wanted to reprint the new version I had. Anyway, so I slept till like 2...got up, grabbed lunch at 1919 and ate it in BCaf', walked down to the CTO to buy the gala ticket and change my address...they better send my $10 to the right address...then to the housing office to change my contract...then to the room and sit down for like two seconds...meet with group for final project, then movemovemovemovemove...organizeorganize.
CIAO!
Tuesday, November 30
Class, stupid Chris being stupid Chris..., caf' for lunch, more class, back to the room, went to introduce myself to my new roommates who are super nice thank goodness, and that's pretty much it. Nothing much to report on such a dull day. Gotta move out tomorrow...figure out where to put everything...sigh.
Ciao...
Saturday, December 4
Wake up, eat KRAFT MAC N CHEESE OMG I MISS IT. SO GOOD. AHH YUM. :9 And then rushrush, back to the bus stop aww :[ but I met with Andrew in Santa Monica. We FINALLY look at the Camera Obscura [ew spider on the table] and we took pictures of each other of our projections on the table when we were standing outside [?? doesn't make sense...it's a 'you had to be there' moment. LOL] And then we went to CCS [HAHA I almost typed CSS. It's all your fault Danny. LOL.] and met Woofy, Kevin and Christa? Krista? Kristen? LOL...but they were so nice! I got my board vamped-up with longboard wheels YES FINALLY. And now it's SUCH A SMOOTH RIDE. HAHA IT LOOKS LIKE A BUG b/c the wheels stick out so much they look like arms and legs. We pretty much left after that and we ate dinner with Jason, I went to the gala [aw man it was good but I was kinda sleepy halfway through >~<] then came back and me and Andrew went boarding in PSV to test my board out. It was super unstable at first but I kinda got used to it, I tightened it a little after and it made it a lot better. We went down Young and omg, I hate the feeling of omgomgomgomgscaryyyybutmuststaycalmortot
AND OMG I JUST REALIZED WHY IS ALL MY LJ'S BECOMING BACKGROUNDLESS. Sighhhhh....I hope that person fixes their PB account...I don't want to change my layout AGAIN. I liked my layout before! I would've kept it for a very long time! D:
Friday, December 3
Awww, last DESMA 10 class. I liked the things Professor Huhtamo talked about in our last lecture. Go Dyson! And then...back to the room, packpack, bus! Get to P-dine and meet rina~ We sit around for a bit, then go to the gym to do ab-workouts...MAN. They have 100 lb weights...that's like, me in dumbbell form. O.o And then...dinner, smoothie, Castle, crazy picture-taking :D then bed.
Thursday, December 2
Nicee, for the meeting with Vasa. LOL 5 minutes. And...meeting till super late for DESMA 10 project. Thanks Dorothy and Patrick :D
Wednesday, December 1
Wow. For a day of NO CLASS today was like crazy busy. Sheesh. So, wake up...too lazy to go to Broad so I ended up not uploading my Munsell poster again but whatever because I already have a copy anyway. I just wanted to reprint the new version I had. Anyway, so I slept till like 2...got up, grabbed lunch at 1919 and ate it in BCaf', walked down to the CTO to buy the gala ticket and change my address...they better send my $10 to the right address...then to the housing office to change my contract...then to the room and sit down for like two seconds...meet with group for final project, then movemovemovemovemove...organizeorganize.
CIAO!
Tuesday, November 30
Class, stupid Chris being stupid Chris..., caf' for lunch, more class, back to the room, went to introduce myself to my new roommates who are super nice thank goodness, and that's pretty much it. Nothing much to report on such a dull day. Gotta move out tomorrow...figure out where to put everything...sigh.
Ciao...
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