Yeah… yeah. It’s… it’s just not going to get through to us.
It’s not about “opinions,” it’s “patterns of thinking.”
People who’ve been reading fic since before Ao3’s marvelous tag systep — we think in a way incompatible with anyone’s overwhelming desire to be sheltered. Some have acquired triggers and squicks over the many years of living life and have to put, a little or a lot of, caution into their Ao3 navigation. But even accounting for that, on the whole, the base attitudes towards encountering a personally unpalatable fic are relatively the same, in the neighborhood of —
- “These words can’t hurt me in a way that matters.”
- “Any fic that freaked me out was, ultimately, just a weird/fun/funny experience.”
- “The experience of browsing other people’s unhinged ids was formative in how it allowed me to sample everything on the menu and learn both kinks I like and kinks I never want to read again!”
- “Some of the fics I was initially shocked to encounter stirred up kinks in me that I enjoy to this day!”
- “I appreciate Ao3 and the way it provides me with reliable and comprehensive tools to curate my reading experience, and I’d never go back to where I was reading fic before, but I’m also very fond of my memories of the untamed internet where every reading experience was an adventure — full of treasure and danger! I never knew which I’d encounter next.”
- “Mmmm… yeah, that was an awful experience. From now on, I’m going to set up my filters, blacklists, and blocks in a way that allows me to stay in my preferred corner of fandom. I don’t want to be taking all these big emotional risks every time I try to relax by reading a fanfic.”
- “Oops, let’s try not to read something like that again! Hahaha!”
We’re not scared of fanfiction.
We recognize fanfic as something which can be managed and are therefore free not to worry that it will manage us.
We’re not scared of ideas. We’re don’t believe in thought crimes. We don’t identify our morals with our libido. We know that there is value in our occasional feelings of disgust. We’re not afraid of disgust. We don’t believe things that disgusts us shouldn’t exist. We’re not scared of “being a bad person” if we just leave someone alone when they’re doing something we don’t agree with.
It’s all a matter of perspective.
If you’re scared of what you’ll find on the internet, you will react with horror at finding it.
If you’re reasonably cautious of what you’ll find on the internet, you will learn to avoid it.
If you’re scared of feeling disgust, you will try to condemn anyone and anything that makes you feel that way. Because of your zero-tolerance “That thing does not deserve to exist bc it’s disgusting,” reaction, you will struggle to learn to be curious and amused about/despite disgust.
- robbing you of opportunities to learn about the world,
- weakening your ability to challenge your own preconceived notions,
- making you an antisocial member of society by making you fear and loathe people who are have disgusted you when they may be merely different in a way that your culture doesn’t account for
If you’re chill about disgust simply meaning, “Whoa, ew, maybe let’s stop/get out of here,” you will slowly grow additional emotional intelligence. To our great benefit, all feelings can be better understood as we age, and disgust is no exception.
When you allow disgust to be another natural part of your life, you can:
- learn to notice the amount of disgust felt and identify which amounts of this sensation are tolerable and unthreatening, and which amounts mean “i gotta get away NOW! ew! i can’t!”
- learn to identify and leave harmless things alone based on an emotional system that’s become well-calibrated to the actual amount of risk involved
- learn how to be curious in the face of instinctive disgust, and find amusement in things that cause you a tolerable amount of disgust. this skill opens you up to exploring the world and the very many people in this world whose differences from you could make you feel unsettled, wary, and even grossed out at first sight, yet are still goodwilled humans just like you. it would be a real shame for you to perceive their differences as a threat to your comfort
No one’s saying to read fic you find gross or traumatizing. The modern internet does not have to be anything like the old internet in that respect. But being irrationally scared of interacting with people who read something that squicks you, of being affected morally by the themes and plot devices you find in fiction, or that even seeing a reference/warning of fictional content that squicks you make you somehow culpable of real-life crimes…
We don’t see that as healthy, and we don’t wish to partake. We also ~generally consider it to be contributing to the global erosion of human rights to self-expression and to indulge in consensual private sexual behaviors without government interference.
We prefer to be appropriately cautious and exercise our autonomy. We do not seek or welcome anyone to come in and micromanage us bc we are perfectly capable of exercising our own discretion when browsing fanfic.
Feel free to learn how to do that (re: “be appropriately cautious and exercise your autonomy”), or for your own well-being, stay out of spaces that were designed to prioritize each fan’s autonomy and to allow each fan to be accountable for, and only for, their own feelings of disgust.
Bottom line — are you responsible enough to go on Ao3 or not?
Can you depend on yourself to learn how Ao3 works (and why) in order to evaluate whether it is an appropriate website for you? Are you loyal enough to your own well-being to either retreat or to sit down and understand once and for all how to filter out “Archive Warnings” and tags?
Are you trustworthy? Can the community you’re trying to forcibly jam yourself into rely on you to not harass or bully anyone, and to overall act in good faith, or will you not care who you hurt so long as you get what you want?
Are you responsible for your actions, or are you expecting that someone else will be responsible and make all the difficult decisions for you?