please help...

I need as much information on the following abilify and lamictal.... please help asap... what does this do, is it addictive? what are the side effects? what happened when you went on these drugs or to the person you know taking them????
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Hey, all, completely new here. I am 18, living in California, and suspecting that I MIGHT be dealing with borderline personality disorder. If not that, then just general depression, heh. I'm not sure what I'm looking for here; maybe just a place to vent.
So I might be losing my SO thanks to borderline tendencies of mine. I have difficulty dealing with being alone, and have trouble controlling my anger at times. He tells me he's feeling "tied down" and "trapped." He also tells me I'm too sensitive and too emotional. This basically makes me feel like it's entirely my fault for things going to shit. I mean, I know that I have a tendency to be VERY manipulative and needy. I guess I'm just looking for a good way to stop it. I just wish I hadn't ruined one of the best things in my life because of it, ya know?
Any advice or sympathy would be MUCH appreciated...I'm feeling pretty low right now.
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dealing with it all

Too much going on. My brain is taking a vacation. Not that I want it to. It just is. I'm not coping with the trip to Africa, moving and then attending school. I need help.

I have finally understand how I deal with major events in my life. I sleep. My physical body doesn't need it but my mental body takes all it can get away with and some extra. I don't know how to keep up the daily schedule let alone the need to deal with the big events scheduled. There is so much that I need to do to get ready for each event.

I guess I need to start with lists...a list for Africa. After that maybe I can concentrate on moving...after that I can concentrate on attending school.

Taking each event one at a time won't work. Not only working on Africa, I still have to get the drapes finished before we move and then pack up my sewing room. Before I concentrate on moving I have to find financial aid, set up courses to take and set up housing and insurance at Asbury for school.

I am afraid of leaning just on aefenglommung because he is so stressed with his own schedule for the summer. He really doesn't need a puddle of jello to haul around because I just can't cope.

I need help.

hi

hi everyone.....i'm feeling so very frustrated lately....my best guess is ADD. I can't focus on anything to save my life. I sit and stare at the wall daydreaming when I should be reading and I don't even realize that I'm doing it until half an hour or so in. It is making my classes very difficult. I have a lot of papers this semester and I am finding harder to write them then ever before. I just felt like venting a little bit. Perhaps others here are having similar problems? have a good night all
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HELLO, JUST A REMINDER OF MY CONFESSIONS GROUP... THERE HAS BEEN A LOT OF DEEP CONFESSIONS THAT MAYBE YOU MIGHT HAVE A CONFESSION OR EVEN A COMMENT TO SOMEONE'S CONFESSION... PLEASE TAKE THE TIME TO CHECK IT OUT OR EVEN HELP ME PROMOTE IT... ITS PERSONAL, AND COMPLETELY CONFIDENTAL.. YOU POST ANNONYMOUS... EVERYTHING IS ANNONYMOUS...

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For those of you like me that can't take anti-depressants I have found a great pick-me-up...Chamomile tea. I noticed it a couple of days ago when I took it to work with me. I was feeling great, laughing, talking doing my work well. The problem came around noon when I started feeling beat and wanted to crawl into a bed. So today I took some tea bags with me and made some tea to have with my lunch. Again I felt great. That lasted for the rest of the day. Of course the sun was shining this week. They are predicting rain for the next couple of days. I'll see if it effects my mood with the Chamomile tea. The taste is a little off but maybe I can get used to it or try it over ice with a little sweetener.
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im not sure what to do at this point

i was in my entropersonal dynamics class and the professer was teaching us about natural subcontios reactions that your eyes do when you think. but one of the coments he made was "now if the person cosistantly lets there eyes out of focus...like they are looking but you can tell there not seeing....almost like the eyes glaze over, now thats something else. Thats something called Neg. halusination and that is a whole other set of problems...but lets move on."

I do that all the time. They said it was part of my ADD. I looked it up and i found that people with this problem often live in there own sence of reality. People who have this and are put under and hypnotised can be told that they are not aware of someone and when they wake up they dont see them even when they are standing right there and talking or even hurting them. The do not feel or react to any of it. but if the person is told to remember by that person or uses a key word to bring them back to the way they were. they tend to remember it in full.

it kinda scared me...just the fact that i am actually listening and ubsorbing when i space out but when someone asks me about it i dont remember. That is till something will trigger that memory.

When these people are under they also contously hear this person that to them has disappered in there eyes. How ever if this person speaks to them or tells them to do something, soon after they do it. it doesnt occure to them that anything is wrong and they have a prosable reason why its so or they simply dont think the remember.

i have a habbit of knowing how to do things or information but have no recolection of ever learning it. Scarier yet, im usually right but i cant always tell you why i know.

I found more that in schizophrenic paciants they express Pos. and Neg. Halusination and cognitive something (understanding and comprention) I found that im pretty sure i have and show all these think.

i am being treated for ADD but i think i have schizophrenia in addition or maybe a misdiagnoses.

What do i do?
if i tell my mom im schizophrenic she wont believe me.
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