Jimmy

Sorry for what seems like I've dissapeared which is the farthest thing from what I wanted to happen. Just been avoiding busy with some other stuff

I've had some interviews with some colleges. It was pretty nice..
Basketball season is over and to be quite honest I'm kind of relieved. I feel like a huge boulder has been lifted off of my shoulders. Don't get me wrong I love basketball, it will always be my passion but with the scouts coming to just about every game, having to live up to a certain standard that you set for yourself last game, it just got tiring.
I spent way too much time at the gym, practicing and lifting weights, trying to improve my stamina.
But I am happy to report the Degrassi Panthers basketball team finished the season off strong with a 17-2 record. Thanks for all the support, guys.

Along with college interviews and vists has been my dad getting more involved with my life. It's well.. different. I'm still not sure what to make of it.. part of me wants to believe that he cares and wants to be there because he cares.. but another part of me thinks he's there only because he has to be. Or, not to sound like I'm that good, but if I blow up and get drafted from college, I'll have to thank him in some way. I don't know.. maybe I should just trust him? It's hard to when I feel like I'm another thing on his poriority list, and at that.. I'm probably number 298927582 on that list.

My bad for drifting apart from everyone. I just well, I can't explain it. I felt like I had to get my own stuff organized before I tried helpin' people out with their problems, or burdening them with my problems. I never thought I'd say it but I've grown kind of distant from Ash.. yeah pretty crazy.. she stopped responding to my texts and it's just hard to catch up with each other. I'd like to change that.
Spin, let's hang out tonight.. and if you're workin' I'm goin by The Dot and talkin' to you when you're not serving people.
Marco, you too man, haven't seen you in ages.
Manny.. I'm glad you're back, or atleast lettin us know you're alive.. so hit me up, we need to catch up.
Ellie you know we need to hang out.
Same for anyone else I forgot. Just IM me and I'll be up for a chat, or hangin out.

Well, I'm gonna jump in the shower.
- Jimmy

I'm in a good mood, which is suprisingly different than usual.
I know it's randomly 3 am but I can't sleep. I'm finally getting over the flu. And it's like, as I'm getting over the flu, I'm getting over everything else and everything is falling into place.

Came home early from school today, wasn't feelin too well, which means I missed practice. Armstrong said it was cool though, so it works out.
Didn't do much, but sleep and chill. I signed on AIM around 7 and Craig IMed me. It was kind of random, he apologized for everything and I told him the same thing I told Ash, that he'd have to work his way back up to my trust.
I was kind of hesistant to forgive him but dude seemed like he really meant it. He came over for a bit, owned me in Grand Theft Auto and he had to get goin home.
Kind of cool chillin with him again, reminded me of old times.

After he left Ash voulenteered to stop by. We didn't do much, chilled, watched Eurotrip and cuddled. It may seem like all I do is talk about hanging out with her, but we really hadn't spoken since the cabin. It was some much needed time together.
I finally feel like me and Ash are back to where we before and I don't want to go backwards anymore. I don't want us to have to apologize to each other for something stupid, but hurt a lot. I'm just happy that we're doin good.
Things are fallin into place in the life of Jimmy Brooks. Got one of my closest friends back, and it feels like I got my girl back too.

This is the result of being un-able to sleep, because you've slept all day, realizing in less than 24 hours it'll be our one month anniversary.
So Ash, here's one of your presents:

Wow.
That's the word that comes to mind when I think of this weekend.

Friday was tight. School passed by slowly, but I was textin Spin a lot. We next to each other in Ms. H's class but we were still textin haha, the joy of havin a cell phone.
We decided we're gonna enter the Battle Of The Bands contest, it's gonna be me, Spin and Marco. It's gonna be off the chain! We're gonna blow any other band out of the water.
Haven't exactly thought of a name yet, but it's cool, we got this!

After school, I went to go pick up Ash so we could spend our romantic night at the cabin. Let's just say the night at the cabin was much needed. I love spendin time with her, just chillin being retarded.
We told each other corny pick up lines that we knew, caught each other up on whats goin down in each others lives right now and most importantly we talked about us. I'd like to say we're back to where we use to be, cause we almost are.. it's just everytime I see him I want to hit him for what he did. Or everytime they hang out I'm afraid. Like I've been sayin it's something I'm gonna have to get over and I'm tryin, I really am.
I love her, and thats all that matters.

Saturday we woke up pretty late. Considerin we didn't go to bed til like 8 am. Haha, I took her home bout 5 and chilled the rest of the day at my house.
My moms was home yesterday night, I was suppossed to go to Ash's party but nobody ever called or sent a text so I just chilled with her.
We watched Eurotrip together.. I didn't think she was gonna like it but she did. I told her bout whats been goin' on lately and she supported me with the decision on stayin with Ash.
After our talk I went to sleep, I was damn tired.

Well, I'm gonna go shoot some hoops, or something.
Anyone wanna chill or just talk text the cell.
- Jimmy

So things have kind of changed since I last updated this thing.
Kind of not? I don't know.

I know I shouldn't be feeling the way I am for what happened.
I feel like I should've been there for her more, or I don't know, paid more attention to her. I feel like I did something wrong to make her kiss him back. For him to kiss her is something but for her to kiss him back, I dunno just feel like it's partially my fault.
I hate feeling like this. I really do. I really am trying to get my mind right and get over it though. Go back to the way things use to be.
The whole thing has been effecting my game so I know thats when I need to start moving on.
Ash means a lot to me, so I can't just let her go.. I'm giving her one more chance.. call me stupid, retard, whatever you want. I'm gonna take this risk because I trust it won't happen again.. but look where I ended up the first time I trusted the both of them.

So 'Battle Of The Bands" is coming up. I'm pretty sure I won't be participating in this one. I'm not even sure if I'm in the band or if I even want to be in the band.
I'll probably just sit back and relax, watch everyone do their thing.
Plus, how you think it's gonna make me feel to be in a band where the lead singer is singing a song he wrote about my girlfriend that he kissed the other day?
Yeah.
It'd be better if I just sat this one out.

As a present for being the excellent son I am or something, my rents finally caved in and bought me a cell phone.
If you want the number just ask, I've been texting off the hook with Ash. Spin sent me a text today, but I didn't get it. Hope the phones not already breakin.
I wanted to get one of those "Sidekick 2" things but after the Escalada the 'rents just decided to get me a regular ol' video phone.
But like I said just ask if you want the number so you can drop me a line sometime.. or something.

Tomorrow is Heathers party, it sounds like it'd be tight. I'm going, tho, fa sho.
Well, my mom just got home and it's kind of odd for her to be home early so I'm gonna go and spend some time with her. ::insert your awws here:: Yes, I'm a mama's boy. She listens to me though when I have stuff going on in my head, and she makes a mean peach cobbler which I'm tryin to convince her to make right now.

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I love you Ash.
- Jimmy

Okay so let me start of by saying this:
He said he loved her and cheated on her, she says she loves me and cheats on me, with HIM. If this is what love is about, then I don't want a thing to do with it.

Because this.. is exactly what I fucking needed.I love feeling backstabbed, betrayed and my eyes getting all watery.
I don't know what to say.. I'm still shocked and pissed off and I want to hit something.
I don't have a person in the world to talk to about this, because my beest friend hates me and I would too if I were him. I suck. I did it all for her, and I'm repayed like this.

"Jimmy we respect you too much, blah blah blah BULLSHIT!" bullshit is all it was.

Ash knows exactly how I feel on this situation, so I'll spare her and I won't blow her up like I'm about to do Craig.

Craig- best friends, eh? You're a fucking prick. I hope you know that. You want what you can't have.. and you're fucking playing with my feelings, man.
"I respect you, Jimmy" "I would never" what the fuck?! I just want to fucking punch your face in, you two faced bitch.

RIGHT when I'm getting use to you two being cool and hanging out you two hit me right when my guard is down.

Spinner- You prolly hate me. I've been the crappiest best friend. You're always sayin' you're makin mistakes but somehow you always know whats gonna happen. You can see thru someone and see their true colors. You warned me about Craig, you warned me and I didn't listen. You deserve more respect than you get.

Boyz II Men is the shit to listen to, when you've been hurt and you have nobody to talk to :-\

I'm out.

I love Ashley Kerwin more and thats all there is to it! Ha, just felt like a quick update.. more later.

Alright, once again I start slacking on things. But you all love me because I'm cool like that.
Just kidding.

I had the most amazing weekend. I can't stop saying that. Saturday morning and afternoon, well all of Saturday.. was perfect. Sunday was pretty good too.
I met up with Ash on Saturday morning, I picked her up in the escalade and she told me to drive. She ended up taking me to this nice cottage her family owns. It was perfect, she had candles everywhere roses.. so hott.
And well, i lost it to her. We made love.. I don't want to say sex, because sex sounds like it's just something that was meaningless and this wasn't meaningless. That's not what the weekend amazing though, don't get me wrong when we made love it was so perfect, but the thing I liked the best way just cuddling by the fireplace, staying up all night talking about nothing at all.. and just, being with her.

When we got back I had a phone call from the NC Scouts, they talked to Armstrong and got a copy of our schedule so they said they'll be stopping by sometime this season, to check me out some more. I'm glad they're still intrested I kind of felt I didn't play my best on Friday.
Hopefully whenever I come I do better, my defense was off on that game.

So tomorrow at Manny's or something.. I'll be going for sure though.
They say it's suppossed to be hotter than my party, I doubt that though, lol. Just kidding girls, you two are going to give me some fierce competition.

I'm off though. Gonna go take a small nap, call Ash.. or something.
- Jimmy.

I had the best birthday, ever. Seriously and it wasn't the gifts or the game that made it that way, it was all owed to my friends and Ashley.

I woke up at 5 am today, took a shower anf got ready for school and then my dad took me to the dealership to pick up my brand new Escalade. It was better than I imagined, black, nice rims, leather interior, phat little system. I immediatley fell in love. I drove back to my house in it, and it felt so great.
Grabbed a bite to eat, then went to pick up Ash. She looked amazing, as she always does. After I got Ash I picked up Paige then Spinner. It was nice rollin' into school with a Escalade. Armstrong was even talking to me about it during warm ups.

So the rest of the day was okay, I couldn't get my mind off of the game. Finally the last period came and it was time for basketball. When I suited up and went out to the gym East Central was just arriving.. I knew some kid on East Central's team.. Mike, met him at the basketball camp I went to last summer. Cool kid. Before we started warming up and doing drills I was introduced to the scouts from North Carolina. They were nice, we talked for a few they wished me luck and said to play as if they weren't even there.
I did just that. And yep, Degrassi won!
Final Score:
Degrassi Panthers: 52
East Central Hornets: 47
I scored 19 points, 7 rebounds and 4 assists.. not my best, but it'll do. As I have leaving the gym the NC Scout's congradulated me and said they hope they'd see me in the near future and they'd contact me sometime this week. College is a year away so I'm not really concentrated on that right now.

Anyways, I came home, got everything ready. My parents were pretty cool, they agreed to leave my unattended with beer and whatnot in the home. My dad gave me some speech on how I'm growing up, and with that comes trust and to keep their trust I have to remain responsible.
Not too long after I got home, people started coming.

I had a lot of fun tonight, it was pretty intresting. Ellie your present to me, not the cake, but the other thing with Ash.. yeah, best present ever :-P
I seriously have some of the best friends, and THE best girlfriend. She told me she loved me :D It was unexpected.. well not really, sort of. She said it to me when she was sick but I wasn't sure if she knew she was saying it.
But tonight when she said she loved me I felt like it was the truth. I think that seriously was the best present of the whole night.
Played truth or dare, hadn't played that game in forever. But it was a lot of fun
Thanks to everyone who came.

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So I promised Ash that I would meet her early in the morning for something. So I'm gonna go get some sleep so I don't look horrible when I see her.
Thanks to everyone again.
- Jimmy

So, my birthdays tomorrow. I'm already getting calls from my relatives and whatnot to wish me a good one. Honestly, it doesn't feel any different than 16, minus the fact that I'll be driving an Escalade.
I'll be turning 17 in a matter of hours, and nobody is home right now, just me. As always. What a way to bring in the birthday, eh?

I think I'm more excited about the game tomorrow, excited and nervous. I know scouts will be there, and I want to win, especially on my birthday. That'd make a perfect birthday, that and something else, but we won't go into that.
Armstrong ran practice a little longer today to help us "prepare" for the game. It made no sense to me, but it was cool to do some more drills for a little while longer. We better win against East Central.. and everyone try and make it to the game. For me :-P

So Ash was sick yesterday so I went over to her house, brought her a rose and some chicken noodle soup to cheer her up. It was fun, we cuddled and watched Grease.. she knew like every line to the movie, it was cute. We also decided my future profession, which I won't go into further detail on that LOL. Hope you had fun Ash.. and that I made you feel the least bit better.

We had band practice tonight.. it was alright. Good to play the bass again, because I hadn't in a while. We decided that we're gonna sing "Everythings Dust" when get studio time. I guess it's the best song to go with because it's the song we won the contest with, and we've played the longest.

Oh yeah, before I go jump in the shower, my party is tomorrow after the game. Sometime around 10-ish, everyones invited and bring a friend bring whoever, it's gonna be fun.
So I'm gonna go jump in the shower.
- Jimmy.

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq

• You must tell 5 people about this game.
• Ashley is the one that you love.
• Manny is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Spin.
• Craig is the one who knows you very well.
• Jay is your lucky star.
• My. Brightside is the song that matches with Ashley.
• Aint Nothin Wrong is the song for Manny.
• I'll Make Love to You is the song that tells you most about YOUR mind.
• and Water Runs Dry is the song telling you how you feel about life
Take this quiz

You name three people. I have to pick one to push off a cliff, one to marry, and one to have sex with. You have to copy and paste this into your journal's after I remind you, THIS IS JUST A GAME Dont take answers to the heart. If it's a hard choice I will still have to pick one for each but that doesnt mean I like or care for you any less.

Wow, haha.
Because it's the cool thing to do :-P I'll update later.