Every speed on her knees..

I know that someday you'll be sleeping, Darling, likely dreaming off the pain.

I hope you'll hear me in the streetlight's humming, softly breathing out your name.

I know that even with the seams stitched tightly, darling scars will remain.

I say we scrape them from each other, darling, and let them wash off in the rain.

And when they run into the river, oh no, let the water not complain.

I swear that even with the distance, slowly wearing at your name,

Your hands still catch the light the right way and

Our hearts still beat the same.

He's still not over you
what do I do?
what do I do?

Well take me, take me back to your bed
I love you so much that it hurts my head
Say I don't mind you under my skin
I'll let the bad parts in, the bad parts in
When we were made we were set apart
Life is a test and I get bad marks
Now some saint got the job of writing down my sins
The storm is coming, the storm is coming in

I always fall for these guys
that I like more than they like me
or at least that`s how I perceieve it

James says the relationship is only as happy
as it`s least happy part.

Gahhhh

edit: forgot I love too much. Riiiiiiight.

Starting to feel the beginning of a healthy relationship.
WTF is a healthy relationship?

This thing with James is crazy.
I feel like no one has ever loved me before
and now I'm feeling it for the first time ever.

Every single cliche about love is becoming apparent,
and I don't know what to do about it,

I remember once when I was really young,
reading this book that had two characters in love,
and there being a direct reference to when the male put his hand on the female character
she could feel every one of his fingers on her.
She was so aware of his touch, it wasn't just a hand shaped presence on her,
but something more detailed and clear.

I've tried to do that with every single guy I've been with,
but to no avail.

But
when James
touches me I
can feel every single
one of his fingers in
such sharp detail it's absolutely crazy.

People always told me that you could feel it when someone loved you
and that love showed through actions
and I never believed them
until now.

Jill XOXO

Are you in or are you out
The words are stones in my mouth
Hush little baby don't you cry
Truth comes down
Strikes me in the eye

Turning season within
Brand new nails across my skin
But who am I to imply
That I was found
That I found you in the white

To overcome this
I become one with
The quiet cold of late november
If you don't see
I'll remain unseen
Until there's time to be remembered

So I had a green light
I was lost in city lights
Not so far from a try
This is not our last goodbye

So I found you
Found a way all through
The quiet cold of inner darkness
And now that you're here
It becomes so clear
I have waited for you always

Hello Livejournal,

I'm eating a lindt chocolate rabbit this morning.
Day after Easter, fer sure.

Yesterday was the best Easter ever.
Falling close behind the year my mum got Sean
and I both scooters and I broke my leg a week later.

But seriously it was awesome.

Adrian and I did illicit items
and walked to the lake with Age's friend Justin
and then smoked some illicit items.

And then we watched the tide come in. And it was amazing.

Then I don't really remember. Except for laughing a lot.

Today I have an exam. Boourns.

Goodbye!

 

Hello Livejournal,

You're like the sad friend who always hangs around
even when you're not used in months.
I feel kind of bad for having you...
Like maybe I should write you a Dear John letter
but still come back to you once in a while like an awful boyfriend.

Oh well.

I got a random comment on a random post
and decided to blog again...
probably just this one time,
but... ehhhhh

Today I am playing music for a wedding
and I'm not nearly as nervous as I should be.
Also I still hate my program and don't know how to tell my parents.
Alas.

That's about it.

Goodbye!

 Ian is a silly muffin.
SILLY SILLY MUFFIN.