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solemn silence.
I can feel you,
but I can't say anything.

do you hear me?
are you listening?
I wish I could fix everything.

if its any consolation.
I know what you have done.
It happens to more than one
no matter where its from,
it still hurts.

if it puts it in perspective
they ignor me too
I just wish I could reach out
reach out and hold you
but only if you knew.

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Forbidden is my love outstreched
Too young to long what the heck.
this is stupid, I'm just ranting.
I wish everyone would look to the end
before they start and must mend.

Its too much to bear for a heart so consumed
with everyday fashion, with everyday news
lyrics to songs to be famous one day.
thats all you are but please don't stay,
that way.

prayer

this is bigger than me
can't you see
please help me find a way
to set her free
this morbid bondage will break
her down eventually

lies and secrets
can only be given to those she hates
does she hate me?
why does she hate me?

Help me love enough
show me how to hear
make me want to stop and listen
to the screaming soul
I was never told!

I can't do this on my own
not on the path that i've been shown
please, i'm begging,
don't leave me hanging here alone
you can reach me at home

l words

lost and loathed.
lonely so lost.
leave me, let me,
lend me your life.

a fight for morality
ends in none at all
languish the loser.
living leftovers
of a leaning learner of love.

inspiration is in the best people.

i've come to terms with myself
i don't need the best to get it
i'm not putting life on the shelf
i probably never hit it
big,
but thats ok with me

summer dreary
why so weary
emotions falling
but future's calling
can't you see

i found out that i'm not perfect
i don't need to be or want to be
i found out how to stop hating me

i'll let it all out
i wish i could be happy
i've got to shout
i know i want to all life
long,
drive drive drive

never again alone
all because of him i've shown
seeing two see like me
just as it was meant to be
grow on and go

i know that he's not perfect
i realize that he's trying his best
i know life will take care of the rest

Reactions to Chopin

Story of an Hour (1894) Kate Chopin.

This story feeds on the emotion and surprise around death. Every character in the story was alarmed at one and probably two points in the story. Mrs. Mallard, Richards, Josephine, etc. A train crash is amazing enough but to have someone you know at the top of the death list is another, finally watching that same person come home is alarming enough to give someone a heart attack as we see in the story.

The reader was probably surprised, even in the event that they were warned about the type of story this was. I for one was imagining all the possibilites that the wife would have ended her life or continued on with it. I found her happyness at his death not unusual, but I thought it was the end of the story when she went downstairs, and I never imagined that the man thought to be dead would come home, or give her a heart attack. It is an odd twist of fate. It might be relevent to refer to the scripture that says that a man who takes pleasure in another's misfortune is ...?
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why and guise

impervious to the latest fashion
the youth dreamed of opportunity
lacking the gumption for pop
his eyes fixed on the distance
not sure what he wants
only guided by what to avoid
a novel idea,
very risky for lack of the word
maybe it can be realized
possibly you can imagine
what if everyone had one day
but only you knew.
thats how he feels.

dirt spills over the brim of the heart
no aroma can hold up to the filth
beauty outside but rotten within
the effects of imprisoned sin
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richie: the ONLY reason why mack beat you was that there is a GLITCH in madden 2005 that when the offense repeatedly shifts (mack and his tons of audibles) the defense gets tired - exactly what you were saying.

the only reason to fix this is to remove fatigue but that makes the game less realistic - but thats what you gotta do to stop mack.