Sara

"You are seeking an affectionate relationship, offering fulfillment and happiness. You are capable of powerful emotional enthusiasm. Deep down, you are a kind loving person, always helpful and willing to adapt yourself if necessary to realize the bond of affection that you desire. But you need the same consideration and understanding from others and it is this need that will sometimes hold you back... so let go, trust and you may pleasantly surprised at what happens.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone."

Too true.
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I'm still alive. But so many bad things have happened (of course some good as well) since I last wrote that it would be impossible for me to list them all and still be slightly happy for the rest of the day.
I wanna lose 25 pounds. Anyone wanna pay for some lipo?

Yes I did get a flat tire yesterday after waking up at 6 am because Rich has insomnia and couldnt stand to be up by himself anymore and then I had to work from 10 till 5:30 in the Biology Lab writing in the smallest print on the smallest .5 ml tubes random stuff.
And yes, I do have a physics test next week that I am completely not ready for, nor do I believe I will be ready for by the time it comes.
And yes, I am exhausted and on campus for no reason whatsoever except to wait for Rich to get out of class so he can go with me to get a new tire.
I am the epitome of Grumpy.

jewXcore!


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Today was my first day working at the Bio lab. I got to pipette....for an entire hour. I am so afraid of making an idiot of myself. I work with a technician from Canada and she is very sweet and quiet. The rest of my classes are what I expected them to be. I detest physics. My feet hurt.

Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
My class is over. I got a 98 on the first exam and an A on the paper so unless I managed to get a 0 on the final, I think I am gonna get an A in the class.
I also got my lab position, I get to work on DNA microcomputers. I AM SO LUCKY and COOL and SMART and PRETTY....and WONDERFUL. SEe now no one needs to comment and tell me those things cuz I did it myself.

I've written my paper and everything! I read Turn of the Screw too, an awesome ghost, psychology, sexual filled story that is considered the first ghost story ever to which almost all ghost stories have been somewhat based on.
I have 4 more days of class.....and 6 days before the semester starts! woooooooo

Moby Dick is a long book, matey.

Next time I write, I will be back in Binghamton.
Thank goodness.

Don't know how many of you new and/or remembered how Rachel and I kept journals in high school together. Out of boredom I read them all tonight. Man, there was so much of high school I didn't even remember, or things that happened that I haven't thought about in a long time. I was such an idiot back then, lovable, naive, and desperate for someone to like me.
I think I fell in love with every boy in high school.........twice. I also think that I should have probably been on some crazy pills at some point.
It also made me miss a lootttttttttttttttt of people I barely talk to anymore. I'm barely close to anyone anymore. I know I've closed up a lot about my life, no longer is everything an open book with me. I don't know how its happened, but it has. But yea I do miss all the people that made me laugh and cared about me.