Jake's Journal!

i htink everyone needs to stop thinkign to much...including myself...the problem is everyoen wants to think so hard on shit...fuck it! were 16! or 17! or any other age that you are...just lvie life...stop worrying about finding the love of your life or w/e..most likely the minute you stop looking is the minute it finds you,


yeh. i suffer from depression, i have to, if people thought like me, then half the teenage population would be dead, yeh i completely LOVE this girl, and id do anything in my power for her, but in all honesty, were not ready for the type of relationship that we want, were to young and immature, so just for everyoen whos against us, fuck off, we know what we feel, we know what we need to do, and thats the bottom line....


but anyway....im doing ok..not like anyone immedialtely cares about it, but just in case you were thinkin bout me..

lately ive been feelign liek shit...i do feel better now...but its basically only a matter of time...my parents and my sister hate my hair..oh well...i did it for me...i like it...but yeh...just letting everybody know im still alive....

well here are my answers for the song thingy i did the other day...


1)Saosin - I Can Tell

2)Senses Fail - Bloody Romance

3)Brand New - Jude Law and a Semester Abroad

4)Tsunami Bomb - Take the Reins

5)The Used - A Box Full of Sharp Objects

6)Alkaline Trio - Private Eye

7)Silverstein - Smashed Into Pieces

8)Circa Survive - Act Appaled

9)Saosin - Bury Your Head

10)Armor For Sleep - Car Underwater

11)Taking Back Sunday - This Photograph is Proof

12)Funeral For A Friend - Rookie of the Year

13)My Chemical Romance - Im Not Okay

14)Matchbook Romance - Shadows Like Statues

15)The Used - Take It Away


gracias and kudos for those who tryed...

-I am a university student.
-I am a cuddler.
-I am an okay dancer.
-I am a huge fan of lists.
-I am a morning person.
-I am a perfectionist.
-I am obsessed with a band
-I am a Republican.
-I am allergic to something deadly.
-I am an only child.
-I am Catholic.
-I am content as of this moment.
-I am currently in my pajamas.
-I am currently pregnant.
-I am currently single.
-I am currently suffering from a breaking heart.i wouldnt call it, broken, id call it, worn down?               -I am embarrassed to be seen with my mother or father.
-I am okay at styling other people's hair.
-I am left handed.
-I am married.
-I am obsessed with my LJ.
-I am online 24/7, even as an away message.no thats my sister
-I am procrastinating by filling out this list.
-I am resentful that I have to grow up.
-I am very shy around the opposite sex.like the first time i meet you
-I am, or was, pigeon-toed.
-I bite my nails.
-I can be paranoid at times.
-I carry a weapon with me everywhere I go.
-I collect picture frames.
-I consider myself to be a 'nerd'.
-I currently have a crush on someone.
-I currently regret something that I have done // am doing.
-I curse frequently.
-I do not believe people are inherently good or evil.
-I don't hate anyone.
-I enjoy country music.
-I enjoy jazz music.
-I enjoy smoothies.
-I enjoy talking on the phone.
-I have a car.
-I have a mobile phone.
-I have a hard time paying attention at school.
-I have a hidden talent.
-I have a hobby.
-I have a lot to learn.
-I have a pet.
-I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
-I have a tendency to fall for the "wrong" girl/guy.
-I have all my (real) grandparents, none of them have died.
-I have at least one brother and/or sister.
-I have avoided work to play with my livejournal.
-I have been in a real relationship.
-I have been in a threesome.
-I have been rejected by someone.
-I have been the "psycho ex" in a past relationship.
-I have been to an anime convention.
-I have been to another country.
-I have been to Europe.
-I have been to Las Vegas.
-I have been told that I am very smart.
-I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
-I have broken a bone.
-I have Caller I.D. on my phone.
-I have changed a diaper.
-I have changed a lot over the past year.
-I have cheated on a significant other.
-I have counted down the days until the summer.
-I have dated my best friend's ex.i wouldnt call it dating, id call it messing around...
-I have done something illegal.
-I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
-I have gone scuba diving // snorkling.
-I have had major surgery.
-I have had my hair cut within the last week.
-I have had sex with someone I was not in a relationship with.
-I have had the cops called on me.
-I have snogged someone I knew I shouldn't.whats snogging?
-I have snogged someone of the same sex.whats snogging?
-I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
-I have mood swings.
-I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
-I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months.
-I have rejected someone before.
-I have seen The Lord of the Rings trilogy.
-I have seen the television show The O.C.
-I have swum in the ocean.
-I have tried a drug that is illegal.
-I have tried sushi.
-I have watched Sex and the City.
-I have watched a porn movie.
-I have watched the television show Spongebob Squarepants.
-I know how to shoot a gun.you pull the fuckign trigger!
-I like being the center of attention.
-I like eating Ramen noodles.
-I like my handwriting.
-I like Shakespeare.
-I like the taste of blood.
-I like to cook.
-I like to sing.
-I like to vacuum.
-I love learning foreign languages.
-I love Michael Jackson.
-I love my friends.
-I love olives.
-I love rain.
-I love sleeping.
-I love to play computer games.
-I love to shop.
-I miss someone right now.
-I own 100 CDs or more.
-I own a home.
-I own and use a library card.
-I play a musical instrument.
-I practice a religion that is not considered mainstream.
-I read books for pleasure.
-I shave my legs.used too!
-I sleep a lot during the day.
-I strongly dislike math.
-I think Britney Spears is pretty.
-I think long strings of html code look cool.lol
-I think that Pizza Hut makes the best pizza.
-I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
-I was born in a country other than the USA.
-I watch more TV this year than last year.
-I watch MTV on a daily basis.
-I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
-I wear glasses or contact lenses.
-I will try anything once.
-I work at a job that I enjoy.
-I would classify myself as ghetto.
-I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
-I like orange kool aid.
-I can name all 7 of the dwarfs from 'Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs'.
-I like being at school.
-I always love wearing sweaters.
-I love water polo.
-I am currently wearing socks.
-I am being nostalgic right now.
-I hate summer.the fuckign temperatures...
-I am tired.very fuckign tired...
-I love to paint // draw // sketch // sculpt

 

look at my last entry and do that too i guess...hope you enjoyed....bitches...

I LOVE JENNIFER ALICE! BATHROOMS ARE THE BEST!! (seei told you id put your name in big letters)

do this PLEASSSSSE if you know the song that is...

1) On your current playlist, hit shuffle and pick the first fifteen songs.
2) Write down one line of the song. Try to avoid putting the song title in the line.
3) Have your friends comment and see if they know the songs. NO CHEATING! NO GOOGLE!
4) When someone guesses correctly, score through it and list the correct name of the song next to it. (Don't score the line until the song's ARTIST and NAME have both been guessed correctly!)

1)"If you keep asking me I'll melt away in the summer air."

2)"You saw me bleeding on the bathroom floor.
   This time in silence, this time I win.
   Now you will feel my pain. Forget my name."

3)"So tell all the English boys you meet, about the American boy back in the states."

4)"We struggle on and on in nightmares but we're still marching,handcuffed to life again."

5)"Today I fell and felt better."

6)"New Year's Eve was as boring as heaven
     I watched flies fuck on channel 11
     There was no one to kiss, there was nothing to drink
     Except some old rotten milk someone left in the sink"

7)"Maybe when you find out that I'm dead,
you'll realize what you did to me."

8)"To pull them in, make it seem like you're in trouble, make a sound, faking it well, what         made you so scared, maybe your mistaken for someone who cares."

9)"They went back on us
      Until his eyes rolled back couldn't step it up
      I could know when to come on to it"

10)"Believe the news, I'm gone, for good. Call off the search, no one will know that im down here."

11)" Well I'll wait to you listen, I wont say a word. To follow your instincts which just never worked for me. You are silent but strong you're out playing that card and your noticing nothnig again."

12)"THANK YOU for making me
      WORTHLESS in your eyes
      In hope and desperation
      I'll find my only light
      In your white wedding dress"

13)"But you really need to listen to me
        Because I'm telling you the truth
        I mean this..."

14)"You're so beautiful did you hear a word i said,
        You're so beautiful i guess this is what i get."

15)"I'm a worm with no more chances
        And I've lost all doubt
        In a chemical romance."

 

Some of these are extremely obvious, btu w/e its what im listening too, get over it! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!

 

im just glad to be out of school, FUCK school, thank you!

i doubt anybody but like, two or three will actually see this but HEY!



the last two weeks for me, besides a saturday and sunday have been hell for me, honestly, like, ive been miserable...and as much as i try and fight it, it gets better, slower and slower, and as soon as im doen going through all the trouble, of cleanign up, its just gets dirty again, in a matter of minutes, i was gettign happy, then ina day, in a 10 minute span, i was back down again, even farther, and i had to climb out, and now that im starting to see light again, im waiting, for someone to say or do something liek they always do to fuck it all up, at least school is almost over...



saturday and sunday were the shit, i must admit, it really was the shit, got to know some cool new people, and all, and spend some time with someone extra close to me...you know, all the shti that can make you feel good....



i need to find this band somewhere, theyre called Tiger and the Duke and i heard there cd at hot topic and its amazing, its liek screamo prog metal, its great, but i cant find it to dl ANYWHERE...



SUMMERS HERE BITCHES!!!!



fuck off...

i kidna do wish i was sleeping now, but w/e...ummm...honestly, i just dotn feel liek writing anymore, lookign back, all i do is complain in these things, and then by doing that it forces people to say shti like im sorry, but i still love you! and stupid shit liek that lol but that was off topic, anyway, i just dotn want to write and let people know how crappy my life is, im not gonna write anymore...so just take me off your list or something, and if i do write, ittl be for me only i guess...sorry for everytime you had to read about me lol im serious lol i feel like a douche bag, but anyway, yeh, im done, thanx for everything for those who read it....

ok, first off, theres people right now, hoo probably dotn even know they fucked up but they did, i mean shit, ive been though alot of shit the last two weeks some more than me, but it was basically all for NOTHING! i did not have to go through any of the shit that happened, and it was all because of someones bullshit, im sorry, i love that perosn to death, but it was still an assanine group of events, like, i look back on it, and it just makes me mad, if yo udotn know hoo you are, then w/e....but if you do, dont apologize, dont even worry about it, cause its over....


anyway!

my good day is kinda ruined, idk, i dont feel that great anymore, but w/e...i dont give a shit! and i know you dotn either or else i wouldnt feel this way now would i?

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHESSIE!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS AND RICKY!!!!!!!!! WOOOO!!!!