Okay, I'll just confirm it since I know everyone's gonna keep asking. Yes, it's true I'm pregnant.
i can't believe the whole school knows. It was one thing when the glee club knew but the whole school? It's a way different feeling. Everytime I walk down the hall get these stares of pity and judgement. Then there are so people who won't even look at me. This has never happened before people have never avoided eye contact with me.
Even worse. Coach Sylvester knows. I'm going to be kicked off the squad, I knew it'd happen but not this soon. There goes most of life right there.
This gonna get to my parents, I know it. The town's not that big, so kid is going to tell their parents. Then those parents will tell another set of parents. They'll start whispering about it in church when they see me, then my parents will catch wind of it. Then I'll get burned at the stake. Or maybe they'll try to get the priest to perform an exorcism because they'll obviously think I'm devil spawn.
How did that loser gossip even find out about this? He says he has his sources but won't say what they are. Who could of? OH! I'm not entirely certain but I have pretty good guess of who. Why can't he just say out of my life, he's caused enough damage already.
I better go, I need some ice cream and to go shopping for, ugh, maternity clothes.
She can dance with him. That's perfectly fine. She can sing with him. We're in a glee club that's a given. but even after I've made myself clear time and time again she thinks they can be more than just friends who are in the glee club together. She's still pining for him and it's disgusting. Especially since she knows a very big reason why she should give up on him. Ugh!
The worst part is i was starting to like her. Not in a let's be best friends and do each others hair way but enough to consider calling her Rachel. But no she blew it, it's back to manhands and creature for her. I don't care if she got me to come back to glee club, it's pretty clear she only wants me there due to her deranged scheme to get Finn for herself.
I hate this, I've become so parnoid lately. It's never been like this, I always laughed at my friends who were crazy insecure girlfriends. But I've turned into one. This isn't the way things are suppose to be, I'm suppose to be confident. Jealous isn't a good look for me. When you'e jealous you obviously think the person youre jealous of is better than you. Which is obviously not true. So why is it getting to me? It shouldn't he wouldn't. Well maybe he would if he's that desperate but he's not. At least I hope not. Why do i feel so insecure? It must be the h...stress yeah the stress. I mean with Cheerios and glee I'm pretty stressed out.
I told her off today but unlike Finn she can actually fight back pretty well. Not that I care what some creature says to me since it doesn't mater. Not at all. Why would I? Okay maybe some of the stuff she say could possibly end up being true. Like super slim chance of course. Cause that'd never happen to me, Quinn Fabray. It won't, at least I'm not going to believe it's going to happen to me. If I can just hold onto everything for a little bit longer that'd be great. since everything's crashing down and...
I wish everyone would just stop stringing me along. I can feel it, and I'm not that kind of girl. If anyone's gonna be holding the string it's me! Yet somehow the roles are reversed, when did that happen?
Whatever, I'm not about to have a mental breakdown. Just all of you, especially that creature, BACK OFF!
Drizzle? Yes, Drizzle. Finn thinks it's the most poetic word ever. Cause it smells like rain but you don't need an umbrella. Yes he said that during Spanish. Does he even realize how stupid he sounds most of the time? No, he doesn't. Because he's being a moron. He interrupts me during a test just tell me about the word drizzle and the name Apple. He thinks the name Apple is cool because he loves apples so much. Moron. Oh, don't even get me started on Brittany trying to steal my test.
After Spanish we got into a fight. He's mad at me, which he shouldn't be. He told me that he's involved to and that I should consider his opinion in things and it's not all my decision. Well, you know what Finn? It is. And I'm sorry that I have so much on my mind that I don't consider yours every second. It seems like every things being throw at me at light speed lately. For example we're down to three cheerios because the rest of the squad doesn't meet the academic requirement so my grades are twice as important now. I got grades to maintain, a squad to lead, and glee club if that wasn't enough I'm expected to ask my boyfriend his opinion on everything? Yeah right.
He didn't take to kindly my want to keep control of my life to myself. You want to know what he says next? You ready for this. He says "Sometimes I wish you were more like Rachel." No, I am not making this up. He actually had the audacity to say that to me. I thought the drizzle thing was stupid but this is reaching a whole new level of moronicness. How dare he tell me to be more like Rachel. Why does he want me to be like that short annoyance? Because she listen to what he has to say and sticks up for him. Oh wait, not just that but she sticks up for us.
Apparently that geek perv wants to spread a vile story about me and Finn. Rachel found out and did something straight out of Sixteen Candles to stop him. Finn thinks she did it to be a group teammate, I'm not that stupid. I can tell that this just some ploy to impress him and make him thinks she's the bigger person. If it wasn't an attempt to steal my boyfriend I'd be impressed by this level of maniplulation.
It's a shame but I was actually starting to like the freak. Guess it's time I had a little "heart to heart" with her.
But before I go I have to ask; do you lima losers even think? Cause I'm to think you really don't.
