hello dear LJ friends.... http://www.formspring.me/haruko22c… i'm posting this beast EVERYWHERE because i like talking about things.... any thing at ALL...
you can ask me whatever you want... anything you've wanted to ask me or any person for that matter. it can be totally anonymous, totally ridiculous.... actually, the more ridiculous the better.... http://www.formspring.me/haruko22c…
i want to ignore 2PM drama right now D: cheer me up, f-list?
i just hope i didn't lose all my files (and whoever fixes it doesn't look too much into anything... "that is TOTALLY not a Japanese gay porn folder and OF COURSE i don't have upwards of 10 unfinished naughty fanfic!"). that, and i hope it's still under warranty otherwise it's apparently gonna cost $350 to fix D:
i'm starting to really get annoyed at everything and everyone.....
is it WEIRD that i like to be alone so much because i'm kind of just afraid i'll end up blowing up at someone?
i like to do things myself... i don't really like to rely on other people that much... it usually just makes me disappointed, as cynical as that is...
blah whatever... i should be ranting about more things but there's just so much and it's all really stupid and not worth wasting the time to read it or write it...
how goes everyone else's existence? i haven't posted in a long while-i make a bad blogger, i know :/
is it immature of me to get mad/jealous about going on facebook and seeing a girl who's a year younger than me have pictures of herself partying ridiculously with my 25 year old sister?
that this girl who is not, oh i dunno, even related to her at all gets to see her more than i ever do because she lies about her age and has been getting drunk since she was probably 13?
so the html on here is kicking my ass lately. i've never had a problem with it before, but now all the things that used to work, no longer do and it's pissing me off.
so pretty much ignore this post completely unless it amuses you to watch me fail in the form of random text and gibberish that's most likely supposed to be my html....
this be bolded bitch i kinda think i'll cry if these don't work
i use this one a lot cuz i'm a loser so i miss it the most no seriously, i'm a loser
Jaejoong is sexy
So is Tabi, and i want to watch more IRIS damn it
thooooose were really the only ones i've ever used actually, minus video and picture posting but those i can do just fine on an entry.... it's in my comments where i really help....
gargh!
EDIT</> YAY! it all worked.... hmm, what the hell was a i doing this past month-ish that made nothing work?.... was my only problem the comments? maybe i just need more practice? why am i projecting this internal monologue on you?
i'm supposed to be having a photoshoot tomorrow with a photographer from the Twin Cities. SHE contacted ME saying she'd love to work with me since she's going to be in Menomonie for the weekend. I told her Sunday would work and asked her for all the details...
It's been two days and I got nothin. She never responded to that email and I've texted her today about an hour ago and still: nothing.
I'd kind of like to know, seeing as how it's supposed to be TOMORROW and all, of a time and set location other than just "Menomonie" since I don't know the town well enough for her to just send me the location that day. I'm going to need to Mapquest it since it is also a 2+ hour drive on my part. I'd like to know what I need to bring. Am I doing my own hair and makeup? Then I need to bring all that stuff and have some kind of idea of what I want this all to look like. That being said, do I need to supply the wardrobe? What is the theme here? Should I bring metallic leggings and leather or a cocktail dress? Am I even going to HAVE the stuff she wants for the shots?
I want to just say screw it but her work is really nice, seriously great post editing, but I think she read in my email that I'm only doing TF right now and thus can't pay her and said "screw that!"
She could've at least dropped me an email saying it wouldn't work either way so I wasn't sitting her every hour checking my Model Mayhem account and/or phone.
I HATE COMPUTER VIRUSES (VIRII? MY BRAIN IS TOO ANGRY TO CARE!)
I CAN'T GO ON MSN. I KEEP SENDING SPAM MESSAGES ABOUT SOME WEBSITE I'VE NEVER BEEN TO IN MY ENTIRE HOTMAIL ADDRESS BOOK AND I'M GETTING 20 POPUPS AT A TIME WHEN I'M NOT EVEN ON THE INTERNET.
-i got charged an extra $46 at the gas pump because i was in a hurry to get to work on time and used my card at said pump and didn't bother with a receipt, since, honestly, i don't use them and just keep track of my checking account online. having done so before i left, i knew i couldn't go above $15 at the pump so i didn't and then got a call from my bank the next morning telling me i overdrafted. i told them it was impossible and then went on to check my bank account online to see that it was indeed possible when the douche filling up before me doesn't pay and just drives off thus billing MY card for HIS $46 of gas that i DIDN'T get as well as the $15 i DID causing an overdraft. and of course, since i didn't ask for a receipt in my hurry, i had no proof that i didn't get that gas and so i had no way to fight the overdraft. so after going 2 1/2 years on that card without a single overdraft, i got charged $46 dollars plus the extra $50 for the overdraft fee.
-my purse got stolen at walmart when i set it down in the Halloween section to try on wigs and masks of various varieties. fortunately for me, it was stolen by either the worst or the most guilty feeling criminals in history since they returned it to the service desk claiming they "found it." having not known at the time that they had actually STOLEN it, i thanked them profusely, which i now wish i could take back hardcore, and then proceeded to check that my debit card, license and social security card were still there since they were my main concerns. the couple booked it out of there and of course by the time they were long gone and i had finished a more thorough look at my purse, i realized that they had taken all cash from my purse and my iPod and since we had no type on ID on either of two who returned it, i'm basically never getting those back...
-my job at Halloween Express is almost over, and i still have yet to secure one for afterwards...
-i don't have a car which makes the whole job thing even more difficult.
-i have to start paying back student loans for the bullshit year of education i "received"... basically i'm out $6000 so i can kiss all the money i saved up for Japan goodbye
-it's snowing.... in October
-my love-life is still 100% nonexistent sans the creepy stalkers around who can't seem to take a hint
-Miyavi's hittin up the US for yet another tour i don't have the means to attend since the Midwest is once again completely absent of suitable venues apparently. Not to mention the poor man got himself injured and I can't imagine how upset he is that he had to postpone the rest of the tour.
-i'm kiiiiind of just miserable all the time, most likely from all of the above, but even when i should be happy
anxious