new lyrics... Designated Elephant.

Drowned in absinthe late one night,
I had just left a party after a huge fight,
A flying behemoth soared overhead,
And I thought that I would soon be dead,
It landed before me with a sigh,
And I looked at it, not rising above it's thigh.

And I said,

Oh elephant, elephant, how can you fly,
When one of your toes is bigger than my thigh,
Oh elephant, elephant, why can't you see,
Your defiance of gravity just cannot be,
Your defiance of gravity mystifies me..

He waggled his trunk with queer look in his eye,
Trying to hide himself as a car passed by,
He waved me over to him and I slowly advanced,
Then I suddenly realized that I had no pants,
He whispered in my ear "Don't you know?"
"I'm the Designated Elephant, here to take you home."

And I said,

Oh elephant, elephant, how can you fly,
When one of your toes is bigger than my thigh,
Oh elephant, elephant, why can't you see,
Your defiance of gravity just cannot be,
Your defiance of gravity mystifies me..

I climbed on his back and we soared up high,
Over the city, up into the sky,
I looked down upon the people stubling along the street,
Their personal elephants resting their feet,
We neared my home and he flew down low,
Landing softly so my neighbors wouldn't know.

And I said,

Oh elephant, elephant, I see how you fly,
Even though your toe is bigger than my thigh,
Oh elephant, elephant, now I can see,
Your defiance of gravity can be,
Your defiance of gravity no longer mystifies me....

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My latest song... As you can see, it's called "The Designated Elephant"... Thinking of a band name something like "13th Fret" or something... peace homies..
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*points to his post titled "WTF?!?" made on Nov. 13th* I have felt that way in an ever-increasing amount since that day... Someone help... And don't ask how to help, I have no effing clue..

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Post this in your journal and turn off the comment feature (and don't list who you yanked this from) if there's someone who makes you happy just thinking about them.
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Meh... I guess no one reads this anymore... Ah well! I'M COMING BACK TO WENATCHEE!!! I'm gonna be there from Fri. the 26th until Sun. the 28th! Well, I guess I'll see you guys then!!

BTW: I haven't forgotten about you ally, I'm gonna be coming down there soonish as well!

WTF?!?

What the hell is going on?!? What am I doing with my life? What am I accomplishing? What is the purpose of my life? Why the hell... I DON'T FUCKING KNOW ANYMORE!! I have goals and dreams, but do I really care? When do I get to start living life for myself? When do I get to stop living life a certain way just to please certain people? Everyone has demands on me I just can't possibly meet right now.. I just can't do this anymore... Please, if you care.. Help! I've been walking around in a cloud since I moved here, and now the cloud has lifted and I know what's real, and I hate it. I wish I could just move out somewhere in the middle of nowhere to a cabin by a lake with one person I really care deeply about and just live life the way it's meant to be lived... Will I ever get that? I doubt it.. Will I ever get what my soul truely desires? I doubt it... FUCK!!! I can't keep living life like this!! I want so much to be my own person, but every waking moment I find I'm forced to be something else for someone else... I just want to be me, dammit!!! I want to move back to Wenatchee and have things the way the were before I screwed everything up and sent everything down the fucking drain... Why do I have to feel this way? Why am I still madly in love with the one woman I'll never again be with? WHY?!?!?!? I'm so alone... someone help!


**EDIT**
I feel so empty, so dead, so alone... There are and never will be words to express how alone I truely am... help... please....
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Well, I'm leaving today to go to the coast until monday. I'm really glad that I get to get away from all the drama and shit going on in my life at the moment and sit on the beach and think things out.. Well, I'll let you all know when I get back home.

Until then,
Farewell.

Farewell, my friends...

I have screwed up everyone's lives that I really cared about, and I have no-one to blame but myself... I have come to the conclusion that you all would be much better off without me. So, as of this moment, I'm fading out of everyone's lives... everyone on here, anyway. I should never have done what I did, and I have no idea why I did it, or if I'll do it again, so this is my final goodbye to you few that used to care... Remember, Amanda, I will allways love you...

Fade Away

I ripped your soul apart,
Like a usless rag doll,
I hate myself for what I did to you,
Maybe I should just fade away,
Fade into nothingness,
Fade into black,
Fade into the forgiving arms of Death.

But I'd never do that,
Not to you,
Not to anyone,
That I can make a lifelong promise about.

You should never forgive me,
Never forget,
You're too good for me,
The best I'll never get.

I love you with my whole heart,
That of which is left,
I will do anything to fix what I did,
Just tell me what to do..

Tell me what to do.
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