Welcome to my Fractured Fairytale!

Obama!!!! Hellz yea mannn!

But for all u haters that voted yes on prop 8!...FUCKIN SUCK ONE! They're fucking people too, not goddamn animals!

I just dont understand.

3 years.

Fuck my life.

Ive been keeping in the dark lately about something that eats away at me quite often and maybe itll be better to get it out.

A while back my dad went to the dr and they discovered a heart murmer(sp?)...his heart is oversized because one of his arteries pumps blood in but not out. He has had tests but they say they can post pone the surgery for the mean time.

I dont like the surgery idea nor the post poning of it. Either sounds tragic, scary, and more. I do want him to have it now cuz i wanna know my daddys ok.

Before i moved out he started to get this bump on the side of his forehead, and i told him to get it checked out.
Now here we are 3 years later. He got it checked out the other day and it is skin cancer. He says he isnt worrying about it til he gets the test results, but how can i not?!?

Everyone that knows me, knows im daddys little girl. I cant imagine life w out him and i dont want to.

I pray that he will be ok cuz he is a soldier and he can overcome.

Im getting all teary eyed now so ill leave it at this.

Ugh i hate being fuckin sick. I swear since ive been workin at SFO ive gotten sick twice as much as i normally would. Thats fuckin pretty disgusting!

Exotic Erotic is right around the corner. Im sooo disapointed in myself for not workin out everyday n e more! Gotta start again asap for the ball. I woulda been sooo proud of my body if i kept w it! Stupid shit jus had to happen n get me outta my mode. Isnt that how it always works tho?!?

N e whooo...im goin to the ball as a vampire from 30 days n 30 nights. Well a lingerie type vampire! haha hey its erotic DUH!

Work is extremely boring right now. All i wanna do is sneak out n have a smoke break. Id have a drink if i didnt feel soo fuckin sick. blahhhhhhh

I have sat here at work patiently excepting the way of these Jehova Witness's i work w...listening to all their religous talk, n how only they will be goin to Heaven and the rest of us are goin to Hell. (umm ok?) So today this one chick is talkin bout this Italian place her n her friends went to in the city and how it was sooo busy they had to put them in a special back room. Well i guess this was a Catholic themed room with the Pope in the middle of the table and a Pope chair, n all that good stuff. So she procedes to start tellin us how her n her friends were like "Eww i dont wanna look at this." and put menus up covering it all. And how her friend got mad cuz he had to sit in the Pope chair.

Ok soo im not Catholic...in fact im Agnostic...but all my family is..and i couldnt help but take all the shit she was sayin to offense. Ive listened to them go on and on bout their shit and not ONCE criticized on how fuckin irritating n whach they are. Soo who the fuck do u think u are goin around WORK sayin that. Bitch how u know im not Catholic?!?! Ughhh

Lawsuit?! LoL
 

Exotic Erotic is right around the corner! YeEeEe soooo excited! Im broke n it prob isnt the best idea to buy them expensive tix but u kno wut?!? I DESERVE IT!

Gettin my raise when my boss comes back from Italy! YaYah! haha

I cease to amaze myself every goddamn time. Where does my "Loked out" mentality come from??!! Im evil as hell sometimes and i dont know what to do! LoL wtf.

Issues Jenni...ISSUES!
 

 i thought for sure everything would jus get better...but i guess everyone thinks that momentarily when everyhing is well at the time.

money is the biggest issue in my life...more than id ever imagine at age 22. taking a huge tole on mine n darrens relationship. i hate everyone who jus gets everything handed to them...i mean i always have...but the more n more broke i get the MORE i wanna break ppls necks whos mommy daddy or who the fck ever pay for their phones, cars, rent, n all the other bullshit in life.

asked for a raise...get my answer on tuesday. lookin for a 2nd job AGAIN. tired of Darren calling me a loser and a piece of shit.

i have also recently quit takin meds. i dont want my life controlled by anti-deprssnts n anti-anxty pills n e longer. i DO feel the difference tho. Very irritable, highs and low, confidence has gone down even lower, but i know its something that i had to do. better now than later i suppose.

i wish i had fuckin money

I havent gotten to c The Dark Knight yet n its makin me angryyyy. haha n like u all care n e way.

Comedy Jam Aug 23rd...im soo xcited! I know...that u know...that Katt Williams is the shieeet! O yesss good ol shits n giggles. Blunts all night on the lawn @ Shoreline. Thats wat im talkin bout! Yeeeeeee

Camping in Camanche in a few weeks again w Darrens co-workers.  I mean i cant complain cuz we get free food and a boat but i really wanna jus go w some friends n chill the fck out. I need to tan again. yeeeup. 

Thanks for comin over on Tue before my whole ordeal Morissa! It helped a lot and kept my mind cool. haha n u had me crackin up w that Mario party! LoL  much needed!


So its done w...life goes on. Me n Darren are strong. We know how to survive through it all now.