As if you cared...

Yesterday at 3:35 pm, I found out that my mother has breast cancer.

The truth, is you could slit my throat and with my one last gasping breath, I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt. ~Taking Back Sunday

Life Is A Bitch

Today has been an okay day I suppose....Blah..

I think that my heart has exploded.

An ounce of pain slides down my wrist.
Bright red and angry when I look in the mirror.
The blade is on the floor.
I hated the things that you said.
I never wanted it to hurt more than it should.

Sorry but uhh...FUCK it.

Kathy..You can go fuck your self now. I hate you. I hate Leslie, Stephen Kyle, you effing boyfriend David. I hate everything you have told me. Would you like to know why? Because they were all lies. Yes. They most certainly were. I hope that you realize that everyone else hates your back stabbing self. You are nothing to me now. NOTHING. You have filled me with so much pain when I saw you yell at my father. There is nothing that could make me cry besides that. And boy did you succeed. Yea. I did cry. Yes. You made me cry. I fucking admit it you whore.

Whoa..I actually got to sleep last nite. I went to bed around 5:30 a.m. but it was worth it. I have so much I have to do when I get home. I have to wash clothes, change the sheets on my bed, dust my room, and vaccuum....argh...

We just got back from the mall and guess what? I got my cartlige pierced and it hurts just a little bit. I am so ummm...I don't really know but when I find out I will let you know. Yea.. That's about how it goes. I am about ready to go to sleep. My legs hurt from walking around the mall. My dad wanted a necklace so we went and got him one. Yes, all of us. Brothers and all. I actually had a fun time. My hair is still in the pigtails and I feel so crummy since I have not taken a bath since Friday morning...EWEWWW! I feel like I am going to fall out of the chair but you know what...?...I don't care. I have had a fun time this weekend and I hope that it is like this every weekend we come over here. I wish I could stay just a little bit longer than tomorrow.

Strawberry Kiss

I am still at my dad's house right now and I am having so much fun!

*sings in fat girl tone* I don't want to grow up I'm a Toys-R-Us kid!

The smoke billows in-between my fingertips.
A look in the eyes and you have slipped off the covers.
All the things, imperfections; all that I try to hide suddenly become un-covered.
Nothing is as it seems.
The flame burns high and the glow lights my face.
You warmth fills my body and you touch my back.
Falling.
Deception.