.it is only human nature to eat meat.
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Ground beef mingles with the sweet scent of decaying flesh.
[[friends only]]; ask to be added
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Ground beef mingles with the sweet scent of decaying flesh.
[[friends only]]; ask to be added
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.the crime of the century.
.
"..When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you
All I have to do is dream..."
jesus christ! have you heard?! ahh!
well let me tell u about it. and i'll be brief:
This one girl breanna... she committed the crime of the century!........... she..she stole my heart!!!
yes yes its true.... quite a difficult feat [which no living being has ever even been close to accomlishing]... but she actually did it. she stole my red, blood-pumping heart!!
and u ask, how? well nobody knows for sure.... i mean, it could have been one of many things... her charm, her beauty, her intelligence, her sensitivity, her sweetness, her gorgeous eyes, her captivating smile, her person, her attraction.....wow.... it wasnt one of many things. it was all that and more of many things.
yes, shes the girl who came out of my dreams and made me cry tears of happiness. she is the girl i love.
[i'll show u pictures of my love (and maybe me) most likely by the bext post]
143 my heart beats for her, and only her.
.
"..When I want you in my arms
When I want you and all your charms
Whenever I want you
All I have to do is dream..."
jesus christ! have you heard?! ahh!
well let me tell u about it. and i'll be brief:
This one girl breanna... she committed the crime of the century!........... she..she stole my heart!!!
yes yes its true.... quite a difficult feat [which no living being has ever even been close to accomlishing]... but she actually did it. she stole my red, blood-pumping heart!!
and u ask, how? well nobody knows for sure.... i mean, it could have been one of many things... her charm, her beauty, her intelligence, her sensitivity, her sweetness, her gorgeous eyes, her captivating smile, her person, her attraction.....wow.... it wasnt one of many things. it was all that and more of many things.
yes, shes the girl who came out of my dreams and made me cry tears of happiness. she is the girl i love.
[i'll show u pictures of my love (and maybe me) most likely by the bext post]
143 my heart beats for her, and only her.
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.read it...answer it...copy it...post on ur journal.
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YOU BETTER NOT FU*KIN STEAL THIS WITHOUT ANSWERING TO THIS ONE FIRST!!!! OR I WILL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO STAB U WITH.. SOMETHING VERY SHARP xD
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
:WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manerisms:
Family:
:WOULD YOU:
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
.
YOU BETTER NOT FU*KIN STEAL THIS WITHOUT ANSWERING TO THIS ONE FIRST!!!! OR I WILL HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO STAB U WITH.. SOMETHING VERY SHARP xD
WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF:
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
:WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT MY:
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Manerisms:
Family:
:WOULD YOU:
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
.
.wouldnt have this any other way. xD
.and if u care.. .
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someone help me get my sisters cam programs correctly installed into this piece of machinery! its not workin.
but blah.. i think i should actually just save money for a digital camera. yea, thats what i'll do.
then i'll show u my pretty life. interesting people. damn, i wish i just had the cam at those times..
well yea, digital camera: soon.
.
eee
its been two years and still nothing.. i wonder when the sequel to "Kung-Pow: enter the fist" will come out...... just cant wait!.
.
my early years:
they separated the gerber bottles..
They gave THEM the fruit ones, and they gave ME the vegetable ones! [eww.... but i had no choice...... dont ask why]
[hahaha. thats right]
damn xD
.
someone help me get my sisters cam programs correctly installed into this piece of machinery! its not workin.
but blah.. i think i should actually just save money for a digital camera. yea, thats what i'll do.
then i'll show u my pretty life. interesting people. damn, i wish i just had the cam at those times..
well yea, digital camera: soon.
.
eee
its been two years and still nothing.. i wonder when the sequel to "Kung-Pow: enter the fist" will come out...... just cant wait!.
.
my early years:
they separated the gerber bottles..
They gave THEM the fruit ones, and they gave ME the vegetable ones! [eww.... but i had no choice...... dont ask why]
[hahaha. thats right]
damn xD
.
.lungs caught in the garbage disposal.
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oh dear mommy..
u told me i couldnt join the army, become a fireman, become a famous rockstar, or any of the other possible future careers i might choose . and why? because u said i was a fucking idiot.
well guess what? u never said i couldnt be secret agent (a spy).
hahaha
mission:
objectives:
weapons:
hahaha
a cross between a spy game and a war game.
well... videogames can be quite something if u twist them around and actually learn something from them. (ive been playing just too much these past few days).
well, many can play this game.
my game.
.
oh dear mommy..
u told me i couldnt join the army, become a fireman, become a famous rockstar, or any of the other possible future careers i might choose . and why? because u said i was a fucking idiot.
well guess what? u never said i couldnt be secret agent (a spy).
hahaha
mission:
objectives:
weapons:
hahaha
a cross between a spy game and a war game.
well... videogames can be quite something if u twist them around and actually learn something from them. (ive been playing just too much these past few days).
well, many can play this game.
my game.
.
.dry salty apology+meat decay= ?.
.
why?...
i dont know where to start.. this stupid post is just like many of writen before.. but i cant seem to...
although those people will never (ever) read this or even come across this by any chance, i'd still like to apologize to them. .im sorry i pushed u away. yes, i do regret doing so. why did i have to be so stubborn and try to find something that as i know now, has never existed. u all gave me the chance but all i did was push u all away...... and why u ask? no one should know... just my lame self. as always. . i didnt take chances just because i decided to fight for what i believed in. now, i realize that MY beliefs are and were pure bullshit. .they got trampled on... and by who? by myself.
i wasted time. i wasted years. years god dammit. fucking years out of my life!!! years i will no longer be able to go back to. ever.
i was nothing then and i am nothing now.
but again... i apologize. all (which werent that many) but still.... why didnt i go along with it.. just like everyone i know. why!??!!?
hahaha..... i wish it was only as easy as to drill a fucking hole in my head so that i could forget. forget it all. forget about humanity. so that later on, i could forgive everyone.
unfortunately, its not that simple.
i am tired of bits and bits.... little tiny cuts which hurt more than the whole stab itself. i think (and i know) im ready.. to understand this all.
i know i'll stay sane. im pretty sure at least.
haha ha.. now i know that im not alone. there really is others out there. but unlike them, i'll survive.
"When you accept all of your thoughts and feelings, you will be free to release them. Thoughts come before actions. Accepting your thoughts takes away their power to haunt you. Also, your mind is private property."
i read that somewhere. its bullshit i think. and its supossed to help me, bleh. first of all, i cant accept my fucking thoughts and thats why they fucking haunt me. and another thing, my mind is private property?! ahaha... my mind is fucking dead now.
its not over yet, but it will be soon. 'that' which smears my face with horror.
and then... we can all be happy (just for you)...... and maybe... just maybe... angel will open all his doors to u. why not?
once the doors have opened.. take whatevers left inside. i wont really care. but then again, im not quite there yet.
i take my seat and brace myself.
.
why?...
i dont know where to start.. this stupid post is just like many of writen before.. but i cant seem to...
although those people will never (ever) read this or even come across this by any chance, i'd still like to apologize to them. .im sorry i pushed u away. yes, i do regret doing so. why did i have to be so stubborn and try to find something that as i know now, has never existed. u all gave me the chance but all i did was push u all away...... and why u ask? no one should know... just my lame self. as always. . i didnt take chances just because i decided to fight for what i believed in. now, i realize that MY beliefs are and were pure bullshit. .they got trampled on... and by who? by myself.
i wasted time. i wasted years. years god dammit. fucking years out of my life!!! years i will no longer be able to go back to. ever.
i was nothing then and i am nothing now.
but again... i apologize. all (which werent that many) but still.... why didnt i go along with it.. just like everyone i know. why!??!!?
hahaha..... i wish it was only as easy as to drill a fucking hole in my head so that i could forget. forget it all. forget about humanity. so that later on, i could forgive everyone.
unfortunately, its not that simple.
i am tired of bits and bits.... little tiny cuts which hurt more than the whole stab itself. i think (and i know) im ready.. to understand this all.
i know i'll stay sane. im pretty sure at least.
haha ha.. now i know that im not alone. there really is others out there. but unlike them, i'll survive.
"When you accept all of your thoughts and feelings, you will be free to release them. Thoughts come before actions. Accepting your thoughts takes away their power to haunt you. Also, your mind is private property."
i read that somewhere. its bullshit i think. and its supossed to help me, bleh. first of all, i cant accept my fucking thoughts and thats why they fucking haunt me. and another thing, my mind is private property?! ahaha... my mind is fucking dead now.
its not over yet, but it will be soon. 'that' which smears my face with horror.
and then... we can all be happy (just for you)...... and maybe... just maybe... angel will open all his doors to u. why not?
once the doors have opened.. take whatevers left inside. i wont really care. but then again, im not quite there yet.
i take my seat and brace myself.
.
.together for eternity.
.
i love breanna. need i say more?
xD fuck yea...... but.. u will all hear about it soon.
poems are on their way. i'll let u read in.
[not a poem. just... expression]
love melts the heart
love devours the sky with hope and security
love keeps u safe and warm
love smears a pretty smile on ur face
love makes u appreciate every second spent on this earth
love will bring down the heavens and splinter ur heart with angels
love can can cure ur disease as well as our worries
love is so much more than anything physical
love is what keeps me going through a world so corrupt and so cruel
love......my love, for none other than for you.... always.
some say love dosent exist.... well hahaha we proved them wrong.
.love u breanna
.
i love breanna. need i say more?
xD fuck yea...... but.. u will all hear about it soon.
poems are on their way. i'll let u read in.
[not a poem. just... expression]
love melts the heart
love devours the sky with hope and security
love keeps u safe and warm
love smears a pretty smile on ur face
love makes u appreciate every second spent on this earth
love will bring down the heavens and splinter ur heart with angels
love can can cure ur disease as well as our worries
love is so much more than anything physical
love is what keeps me going through a world so corrupt and so cruel
love......my love, for none other than for you.... always.
some say love dosent exist.... well hahaha we proved them wrong.
.love u breanna
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.inter_view_me.
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stolen from: kelli
SECTION 1 - ABOUT YOURSELF
Known as: Satan
Lives in(on): Long Beach, CA zip code: 90814
Birthday: 10.25.87 (not like it matters)
School: Wilson "classical" (bullshit) high school
Ethnicity: beaner
Shoe size: 9- 9 1/2
Hair color: black (its not brown!)
Eye color: brown
Fears: being buried alive
SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER...
Fallen off the bed? who hasnt?!
Fallen for a relative? eww. fuck no!
Broke someone’s heart? no
Had you heart broken? i could say yes... but no.
Had a dream come true? one..yes..
Done something you regret? yea
Cheated on a test? i cheat on tests 98% of the time
SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...
Wearing? pants
listening to? volvox
Located? in this shitty apartment
Chatting with? breanna
Watching? the comp screen
should REALLY be doing? sleeping i suppose
SECTION 4 - DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yes
+ Like anybody? nah... but i LOVE breanna
+ Have any piercings? 2
+ Drive? not legally (and im no immigrant either haha)
+ Drink? meh
+ Smoke? nah
+ Have a cell phone? cell phones are for preps and pretty people (but i do want one..)
+ Have a pager? uh no
SECTION 5 - FRIENDS...
Who is your best? now: chris, justine, angel (although i need to catch up with others)
Who do I hate? no one
Who is the most shy? me
Who is the most talkative? dulce (but i like it, everyone likes it)
Who is the cutest? i dunno
Who laughs the most? rick
Who have you known the longest? rick
Who do you turn to for personal problems? chris
Do you trust your friends? 2 of em
Are you a good friend? i think so
Can you keep a secret? yes
SECTION 6 - THE LAST PERSON YOU...
Hugged? casper (the puppy)
IMed? the twin
Talked to on the phone? arthur
Yelled at? little brother
Fell in love with? breanna
SECTION 7 - PERSONAL...
What do you want to be when you grow up? i dunno
What has been the best day of your life? the day i met my first love: breanna
What comes first in your life? breanna
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? g/f: breanna
What do you usually think about before you go to bed? breanna (but thats 24/7)
Did you lose someone you really loved? not 'loved' but was really closed to... many times
How many times have you fallen deeply in love? once: now
Love your family? yes. but they dont (fucking hyppos)
Love your friends? lots
SECTION 8 - FAVORITES
+ Movie: schindlers list
+ Song: Speed of Pain, Bi-Polar
+ Group: (band?) VAC
+ Store: anything second hand is always good
+ Relative: none at the moment
+ Sport: fuck sports
+ Ice Cream Flavor: rocky road i guess
+ Fruit: all except melon and watermelon
+ Food: italian
+ Candy: anythin sour
+ Holiday: hoidays are stupid (at least they have been so far)
+ Day of the Week: any day i get to see breanna
+ Time: who gives a fuck
+ Color: teal
+ Name for a Girl: serenity
+ Name for a Boy: vincent
SECTION 9 - DO YOU..
+ Like to give hugs? if its not breanna, no
+ Like to walk in the rain? i love it
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Like to travel? yess
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? tummy
+ Think you're attractive? hahaha.. ...hahaha!! fuck no.
+ Have a goldfish? i used to... but he flipped over one day
+ Ever have the falling dream? huh?
+ Have stuffed animals? something like 3 thousand (honestly)
SECTION 10 - WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: NOBODY has the right to take human life
+ Bill Clinton: "i chose not to inhale" hahaha he cool
+ Eating Disorders: i dont understand why people worry so much on their weight... and go to those extremes its just sad
+ Summer: it ok
+ Tattoos: : )
+ Piercings: : )
SECTION 11 - THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? neither
+ Single or taken? taken
+ MTV or BET? neither
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? wtf
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? 50 cent jewelry (it used to be 25... damn)
+ Chocolate or flowers? both
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? black and white
+ M&M's or Skittles? ee! dont make me choose
+ Stay up late or sleep in? haha both
+ Hot or cold? cold
+ Sun or moon? moon
+ Left or Right? left
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? mustard..
+ Spring or Fall? fall
+ Happy or sad? who dosent want to be happy?
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder
+ McDonald's or Burger King? tough one..
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian
+ Lights on or off? off
+ Candy or soda? both
+ Pepsi or Coke? i dont know anymore :'(
.
in other news:
movies i am dying to see: aliens vs predator (of course predators will win) and also, resident evil 2
other stuff: i will start painting again (possibly by next week)
i feel to do so (and for many reasons)... so heh yea, i'll put other things aside and pass my time painting.
more stuff: our industrial band (volvox) has muchos plans for the near future. we plan to build our 'studio' at my friend angels garage and get to work on something there.
if anyone is interested in hearing a demo, just ASK and i'll try my bestest to get u one.
thats it for now
inter_view_over
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stolen from: kelli
SECTION 1 - ABOUT YOURSELF
Known as: Satan
Lives in(on): Long Beach, CA zip code: 90814
Birthday: 10.25.87 (not like it matters)
School: Wilson "classical" (bullshit) high school
Ethnicity: beaner
Shoe size: 9- 9 1/2
Hair color: black (its not brown!)
Eye color: brown
Fears: being buried alive
SECTION 2 - HAVE YOU EVER...
Fallen off the bed? who hasnt?!
Fallen for a relative? eww. fuck no!
Broke someone’s heart? no
Had you heart broken? i could say yes... but no.
Had a dream come true? one..yes..
Done something you regret? yea
Cheated on a test? i cheat on tests 98% of the time
SECTION 3 - CURRENTLY...
Wearing? pants
listening to? volvox
Located? in this shitty apartment
Chatting with? breanna
Watching? the comp screen
should REALLY be doing? sleeping i suppose
SECTION 4 - DO YOU...
+ Brush your teeth? yes
+ Like anybody? nah... but i LOVE breanna
+ Have any piercings? 2
+ Drive? not legally (and im no immigrant either haha)
+ Drink? meh
+ Smoke? nah
+ Have a cell phone? cell phones are for preps and pretty people (but i do want one..)
+ Have a pager? uh no
SECTION 5 - FRIENDS...
Who is your best? now: chris, justine, angel (although i need to catch up with others)
Who do I hate? no one
Who is the most shy? me
Who is the most talkative? dulce (but i like it, everyone likes it)
Who is the cutest? i dunno
Who laughs the most? rick
Who have you known the longest? rick
Who do you turn to for personal problems? chris
Do you trust your friends? 2 of em
Are you a good friend? i think so
Can you keep a secret? yes
SECTION 6 - THE LAST PERSON YOU...
Hugged? casper (the puppy)
IMed? the twin
Talked to on the phone? arthur
Yelled at? little brother
Fell in love with? breanna
SECTION 7 - PERSONAL...
What do you want to be when you grow up? i dunno
What has been the best day of your life? the day i met my first love: breanna
What comes first in your life? breanna
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? g/f: breanna
What do you usually think about before you go to bed? breanna (but thats 24/7)
Did you lose someone you really loved? not 'loved' but was really closed to... many times
How many times have you fallen deeply in love? once: now
Love your family? yes. but they dont (fucking hyppos)
Love your friends? lots
SECTION 8 - FAVORITES
+ Movie: schindlers list
+ Song: Speed of Pain, Bi-Polar
+ Group: (band?) VAC
+ Store: anything second hand is always good
+ Relative: none at the moment
+ Sport: fuck sports
+ Ice Cream Flavor: rocky road i guess
+ Fruit: all except melon and watermelon
+ Food: italian
+ Candy: anythin sour
+ Holiday: hoidays are stupid (at least they have been so far)
+ Day of the Week: any day i get to see breanna
+ Time: who gives a fuck
+ Color: teal
+ Name for a Girl: serenity
+ Name for a Boy: vincent
SECTION 9 - DO YOU..
+ Like to give hugs? if its not breanna, no
+ Like to walk in the rain? i love it
+ Prefer black or blue pens? black
+ Like to travel? yess
+ Sleep on your side, tummy or back? tummy
+ Think you're attractive? hahaha.. ...hahaha!! fuck no.
+ Have a goldfish? i used to... but he flipped over one day
+ Ever have the falling dream? huh?
+ Have stuffed animals? something like 3 thousand (honestly)
SECTION 10 - WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT...
+ Abortion: NOBODY has the right to take human life
+ Bill Clinton: "i chose not to inhale" hahaha he cool
+ Eating Disorders: i dont understand why people worry so much on their weight... and go to those extremes its just sad
+ Summer: it ok
+ Tattoos: : )
+ Piercings: : )
SECTION 11 - THIS OR THAT...
+ Pierced nose or tongue? neither
+ Single or taken? taken
+ MTV or BET? neither
+ 7th Heaven or Dawson's Creek? wtf
+ Sugar or salt? sugar
+ Silver or gold? 50 cent jewelry (it used to be 25... damn)
+ Chocolate or flowers? both
+ Color or Black-and-white photos? black and white
+ M&M's or Skittles? ee! dont make me choose
+ Stay up late or sleep in? haha both
+ Hot or cold? cold
+ Sun or moon? moon
+ Left or Right? left
+ 10 Acquaintances or one best friend? best friend
+ Mustard or ketchup? mustard..
+ Spring or Fall? fall
+ Happy or sad? who dosent want to be happy?
+ Wonder or amazement? wonder
+ McDonald's or Burger King? tough one..
+ Mexican or Italian food? italian
+ Lights on or off? off
+ Candy or soda? both
+ Pepsi or Coke? i dont know anymore :'(
.
in other news:
movies i am dying to see: aliens vs predator (of course predators will win) and also, resident evil 2
other stuff: i will start painting again (possibly by next week)
i feel to do so (and for many reasons)... so heh yea, i'll put other things aside and pass my time painting.
more stuff: our industrial band (volvox) has muchos plans for the near future. we plan to build our 'studio' at my friend angels garage and get to work on something there.
if anyone is interested in hearing a demo, just ASK and i'll try my bestest to get u one.
thats it for now
inter_view_over
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.the moon and the sky... which one are you?.
.
update on this week or something like that:
monday: hung out with my amigos
tuesday: was supposed to get drums over here but didnt
wednsday: went over to visit breanna at her mom's. had much fun over there.. although my memory is terrible and i cant always remember everything (damn those cup noodles). saw a few movies... although im not gonna say which ones (lmfao).
thursday: still over at breannas. almost cried (yea..) when we had to say bai bai (although only for a few days). ::sigh::.... i miss her!!!
friday: said hi to my mom and sisters. then later in the day went over to dulces' place with chris and some of her friends (breanna was supposed to be there.... : ( good time, and good food (did u ever find the 3rd rabbit dulce?!.....or was my theory right?! lol). and saw some trippy ass movie.
today and the next few days: blah
i probably forgot to mention a few things, meh.
so there u go, later.
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update on this week or something like that:
monday: hung out with my amigos
tuesday: was supposed to get drums over here but didnt
wednsday: went over to visit breanna at her mom's. had much fun over there.. although my memory is terrible and i cant always remember everything (damn those cup noodles). saw a few movies... although im not gonna say which ones (lmfao).
thursday: still over at breannas. almost cried (yea..) when we had to say bai bai (although only for a few days). ::sigh::.... i miss her!!!
friday: said hi to my mom and sisters. then later in the day went over to dulces' place with chris and some of her friends (breanna was supposed to be there.... : ( good time, and good food (did u ever find the 3rd rabbit dulce?!.....or was my theory right?! lol). and saw some trippy ass movie.
today and the next few days: blah
i probably forgot to mention a few things, meh.
so there u go, later.
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