gravelyhis

buying a house is crazy business. but i enjoyed the butterflies i got after we made our first offer, even though we know that its going to be rejected, we are prepared to fight for this house.

2009.
ok cool. time to bust ass.


i need to make changes and im going to.

starting tomorrow.
well, today too. but tomorrow first.



i am a renegade.



people have too much negative. im done with negative.

why is my world crashing down?
at least its not my marriage. thank god.

none of my friends that i had before weston came to the wedding.


how comforting.


wait wait wait, let me edit this....

anthony and brittany antunez came. and i was only close to him for one year.

so freaking close.

i almost lost morticia today. shes my snake. i havent even had her 24 hours. but she got scared and scurried away and snapped at me, and i thought she went into the heater, but she was under a pillow against the wall. shes back in her tank now.

i finished the wedding music today.

23 days.
im ready for this to be over with.

soooo.... nothing new really. school starts next week and im totally freaking out/not ready. im currently 11 days late. and for some reason, im freaking... and the first time ever, hes not. so its weird. even though i wouldnt mind it.

wedding is getting closer... we are sending out the invitations in 10 days.

um.............. thats all i can think of.

life is way too short.
its weird... ive never really known anyone to get killed. and hell, i didnt even know him that well. but still, i did see him on a regular basis for about a month. and we did have our fair share of inside jokes. and every time i close my eyes right now, i can see him. i cant believe how upset this is making me feel. i keep tearing up. weston held me as i cried. its just so unfair sometimes. the people that dont deserve to die are the people that do. he was a wonderful guy. hilarious. caring. always smiling. and now he is gone. i think the weirdest thing is i saw him sunday. and i thought i should really go up to him and say hello, see how he was doing. i wish i did now. but you know, you never think that someone is going to die two days later after you see them. he would have been 24 on july 20th. and heres the fucked up thing, his best friend of 13 years shot him. wtf? that makes no sense at all. none. but i know he is in a better place now. and so is lori. my prayers go out to both of their families.

in other good news.
kara maurakis starts school august 26th, and im excited.

three and a half months. fuck october is rapidly approaching.

im going to be married.

wtffffff never thought this would happen.

this is the life.



i love that dog so much. me and westons little baby.