metal - static-x - stomp

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Boom, that's it. 2.40 hours of overtime and proof of concept has been given. The Foundry switch at the side of my desk has been configured into the management VLAN of the office and I've got the apple airport express reaching through it, to the border router and out to the internet.

This confirms is that base level of configs that I need, everything else is just window dressing. Proper name servers, logging of events, access control lists, control of what commands can be performed at what level. I'll sort that out as the night goes on. The PDF has already proven to be searchable on the different terms that make up the things I need for ntp, sntp in it's case.

Scott and Erica told me that they pretty much configure just like a Cisco. Nope, that description doesn't pan out the way that I first thought. It doesn't mean, per se, that they use the same commandset as Cisco's. In fact not at all, the commands are reliably something different. I think what they were saying, instead, was that once you figure out Cisco commands nothing else is all that difficult to wrap your head around.

The thing is, I may have been the Adtran go-to guy for the spazz install team, but that didn't mean I knew what the commands I was inputting into the devices meant, rather that I was very good at understanding what to do with the commands that the spazz cpe design team had written a script to spit out.

Now, back to going through the Cisco install commands that we use line-by-fucking-line and translating them over to Foundry.
xy - leo

rant

How Project Gotham Racing fails


I sucked at racing games for a long time, seriously *sucked*. Then I got into this gig where I was game testing games on the xbox 360 console as it was in development. Work sucked and I needed a way to make the bills get paid. Temp work, industrial work, short assignments, long ones, it didn't matter.

So it was my *job* to play games. That made it hella interesting when the only games I was interested in playing in my spare time are roll playing games (Dragon Warrior, Ultima, Final Fantasy, Chrono Trigger, classics). Now I'm on this fucking box with a controller staring down the barrel of random shit. I mean *shiiiiit*. Azurik, Rise of Perathia? check. Bloodsport? Yup, games I could play. But Rallisport? Fucking weird shit man. Halo as well, but everyone wanted to play the first person shooter that made fps's actually playable by the masses, so I never got into that because all the copies were being played by the other fuckers in the lab.

Damn, Rallisport. Project Gotham Racing. They're well designed games, random kudos system, ability to change the type of fucking tires your racer is on, 17", 19", dirt tires, mud tires, snow tires, beauty system. I sucked at playing them.

So this was a challenge before me. and if there's anything I really like, it's the ability to try my shit and come out the next side of the trial able to pull out more, the next I need to. Man, I tried every track they had, fucked with the cars *hardcore*, with no idea of what I was doing, just *fucking* up the car I was trying to race. In the end it was the snow track that taught me what I was doing. I put on snow tires, turned on time trial and ran the race backwards for hours, learning the handling of the car. Hell I'm actually a better driver because of it, though I'm not sure if there will ever be a road that I need to drive quite like that on. The snow tracks made sense. I grew up making midnight runs to Snoqualmie pass with whoever had the gas to do doughnuts in the skiers parking lot. Dings on the frame bumping into snowbanks, getting stuck and having some weird plough dude push my friend Dustin's car out of the drift with the blade of his huge industrial snow plough, you name it. Shit went down.

So I figured out the similarities between real life driving and the game. Made it all work. Got really into it. Years later when I had an x-box of my own, I bought the games I played and rocked them. Project Gotham Racing has been a part of my repertoire the entire time.

Which brings me to the fucking bitch. The x-box, see, was the first system to have a fucking hard drive in it. Beauty idea, only 12 gigs from what I understand, but who the fuck needs that space to save a god damn video game? That's right, no one.

So the racing games started playing with the idea of the user copying CD tracks to the hard drive. I see this and start using it. I like it, hell with some of the snowboarding games, they included music that really ruled that you could copy off of the disc onto the drive.

All this is good, it starts opening up a whole new way of playing games. I figure *fuck* the days that I've spent listening to soft jazz and weather channel knock offs while I play a side scroller and defeat evil, right? (fuck you Symphony of the Night!!!) Now the gods of metal can include themselves on the scene and I'll be able to hear my dude kick the ass of everything to the tune of it.

Wrong. This system with external music and video games is so poorly thought out that it makes Winamp .09 look as complicated as a Linux 2.6 kernel. seriously. I mean, I know Winamp was still in it's development stages before 1.0, hell oldversion.com has 0.1 and that's so limited, it's hilarious. I think it only plays a single mp3 and then just stops. no queue, no playing an album, just here's the fucking track, our code can actually play something!

Copying mp3's to your hard drive? It's there. Making play-lists? Sure. applying it to games ... really fucking shitty all around.

See, you can play these fucking tracks, and there are true music tracks now in video games, but the application of them to what you're doing was assigned to a rabid howler monkey with add. The tracks only play during certain segments of the game. You finish a race? Track terminated. The select screen between races? Weather channel shit again. Play another race? Sure you can listen to your music, but, see, no fucking race has ever lasted the full length of a song, and why would it. That would be one hella long god damn race.

So you're left listening to something that, audibly, resembles the track list of a RealAudio intro freebies in 2001. ... fuck you people, did anyone actually try to do this and think it was good? When the fuck was the last time your car stopped playing a track when you got to the fucking stop sign? Or start up a whole new track after you turned a corner. Oh shit, I'd love to get off the free way to turn onto hwy 2 to go to the ski slopes, but STAIRWAY TO HEAVEN IS ONLY HALF OVER. OH SHIT, I CAN'T STOP IT FROM FUCKING UP MY GROOVE. I'M GOING TO HAVE TO FUCKING DRIVE 5 MORE EXITS UNTIL THE END OF THE TRACK, MAKE A U TURN AND THEN GO BACK TO THE HWY 2 TURNOFF. YEA, THAT'S THE SOLUTION.

What the fuck? Who the fuck designed this shit, and what's his address? I'm going to need it so I can go throw a rock through his fucking window. the next time I want to listen to music that short, I'll go back to eastern european punk and load up that weird-ass band I found that didn't have a single song over 2 minutes. Sure the band gets a pass, I've read Hardcore Zen and that guy nearly *lectures* about how a song over 30 seconds wasn't even in their repertoire. I fucking love his comments that the song was over so quickly that the bar couldn't decide if it was an auditory vomit stain blowing past them, or that it sucked and they need to throw beer bottles at the band like that scene in the blues brothers.

So, yea, Microsoft gaming division of music playing and video game integration must be run by a whole shit-ton of seriously mother fucking HARDCORE punkers. Or they're just fucking stupid beyond belief, and yanno I'm inclined to believe the latter because I've met punkers some hardcore, some not, some with a lot of other influences, and yanno what? They're not that stupid. They'd have respected the scene of music as a whole as to not inflict this idiocy upon us.

... fucking cracktards. Get off your ass and go re-develop that shit. No one is turning their fucking x-box into a fucking media center, it can't control all the other fucking devices hooked up to my tv, the twisted path you'd have to cable to your center controller and then upload all your mp3's to the damn thing is just so fucking inconvenient that no one with any sense of cool will ever use that shit. Yea, you can say that people do use, and enjoy it for that, but you know what? They're a bunch of bloody lame wankers. We've all met that sort of video game system user that turns the fucking thing on at a party, and tries to tell us that it's cool because it's got some stupid ass system of drawing pixels that responds to the music. Who the fuck has a party where everyone gathers around and enjoys a few bouncing lines that seem to nearly come close to matching one of the beat lines of the fucking song.

No body, that's who, and the user-group that does isn't going to just *appear* out of nowhere. This system is doing just one thing only. It's illuminating the faction of your friends that suck. Thanks Microsoft, now I know! I'll avoid anyone that uses this lame shit heap that you've sold. A GOLD STAR to you, I never was able to weed out these useless wastes of skin before you pulled this piece of dog-shit out of the fucking field, branded it, and sold it out to us in all it's fetid, rancid glory.
xy - leo

translation from rei's pretentious marketing speak (they're in italics)

Nylon/spandex blend fabric provides a compression fit that supports major muscle groups to increase performance
TIGHT AS FUCK
Fabric is moisture wicking and quick drying
SHIT'S NOT GONNA ABSORB SHIT
Fabric provides UPF 50+ sun protection, shielding skin from harmful ultraviolet rays
SHIT'S FABRIC. IT DOES THINGS THAT ANY FABRIC DOES. BLOCK SHIT OUT FROM THE AIR. LIKE SUNLIGHT, AND ... AIR?
Flatlock seams maximize motion and minimize abrasion
WE USE FANCY SEWING MACHINES, PAY US MORE, BITCHZ
Closeout
WE TRIED TO CHARGE YOU $150 FOR THIS SHIT WHEN YOU CAN GO DOWN TO THE SALVATION ARMY AND PICK UP A 3 SHIRTS FOR 5 BUCKS AND FAILED. PLZ PAY US 40? WE PROMISE TO NEVER SELL IT AGAIN IF YOU DO!!!!!!
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fucking Seattle Public Library.

Thanks SPL thanks a god damn heap. Not only did you rise up, in full re-roy glory putting V'ger from star trek 1 in the middle of god damn Seattle, not just an eyesore, but stuck in the middle of high rises where no one would see it like some god damn Gotham city obscurity, but you also list your books without publication date. In a world where the industry is tapping nano wrimo, blogs, and other online media for faster and faster generation of revenue producing authors, to the point where you're not even gracing us with what fucking *book number* of their series you're churning out in some obscure Brazilian sweat-shop where all the rainforests in the world are dying to produce these copies of books that are so fucking weakly bound they can't survive more than 3 or 4 fucking *speed readings*. YOU CAN'T SEE TO EVEN HELP US FIND OUT WHAT GOD DAMN BOOK IN THE SERIES WE'RE READING IS NEXT? REALLY? WHAT'S NEXT? MEDIA MAILING BOOK TO THE *NEXT THAN NEAREST* LOCATION TO ME? WHY EVEN FUCKING MAKE AN ONLINE CATALOGUE AT ALL? AT LEAST WITH THE CARD CATALOGUES AND MICROFICHE I COULD FUCKING FIND OUT THE NUMBER IN THE MOTHER FUCKING *series* THE FUCKING BOOK IS.

I wish Bill and Ted would show up with a time machine so I could kill you before you started and the KCLS reigned supreme like they always should have. They even obtained books from other county library systems, at least, they did last I lived outside of this hideous blight on the bibliolandscape that is the SPL's disease-ridden footprint. I can't believe the fucktards that run this system have to get degrees to shelve & mail this mouldering mis-categorized mass. What do they get paid for?
  • Current Music
    sisters of mercy - first and last and always
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metal - mosh

Birthday 2011

Beer by the motherfucking Litre

Raven couldn't make the celebration, so we gathered for a beer on the day before the party. In true Raven style, went down to Feierabend. I fucking love that pub. It's clientele tends to be a little pretentious, but being there so early in the day totally set that off. The vibe was chill. I got their darkest beer and since it was my birthday, in full litres as well. Love that shit.

I miss hanging out with that huge bastard every day. It's good to see that we're staying on page. Fucker and I use even the same phrases for shit when we grew into them over 100 miles away from each other. Madness. Duder kept checking his phone and wandering off to the bathroom, but whatever. Good beer and good times. Little did I know the real reason for all this was nigh well constant communication back to the cap hill loc organizin shit.

The supprise

We roll back to the pad in that bizarre element he's got. Magnus and Lilly are on the couch. Chillin a day early because they're in town or some shit. I wasn't too sure what the reason was because 2 litres of beer fuzzes out some damn details. Honestly it was the fucking perfect amount though. I fucking love it. Raven'd come back up asking for me to burn him some cd or another that I'd suggested for him. I rolled into the bedroom and fucking WHAM SUPPRISE BUTTSEKS!

There was a fuck-tonne of people rammed into the bedroom, Dreddgoddess had organized everything for SATURDAY, not Sunday like she'd told me. It was mother-fucking awesome. A whole shit-load of my friends. It's like coming home and finding all of your favorite things just *stocked* up for you and you didn't even know it was coming, even TALI made it. The blast of them yelling at me totally rocked my ass back, it was video'd and watching it was hilarious.

After that I was made to go *search* for my gift, whatever it was that Lish had been reporting back to me over the last 7 months was 'coming along'. I suck at guessing shit. Call it an achilles' heel, but even at Pictionary someone will draw a wallet and I'll think it's a stove. Some business with being too subjectively objective. So I went out about the apartment looking What could it be? Shit, I don't know, why would I? For all I know it could be the hollow horn of a guatemalan cow to drink out of, or an ancient african battle fork. The internet makes all things possible.

So I start looking at book cases, fucking around at the walls, totally missing it, of course, but I was on the hunt for something INSIDE of something else. That would totally be all 'sneaky-style' right? Ummmmm NO! She'd hid the god damn thing in plain sight and shit. On the god damn WALL. I only notice it after nearly looking RIGHT AT IT, and then walking away. Out of the corner of my eye... a blackness I've never seen before. By the fucking gods of metal she'd arranged for another piece of ART.

The gift

The true reason for Lilly and Magnus on the couch in the front room is that Lilly makes the most metal/gothic art form possible. White coloring on black paper, shading slowly into existence the picture. It is, quite possibly, one of the most crazy/fantastic things I've ever seen in it's execution alone. I was so taken aback by the critically sweet look of it's initial impact on my eyes that I couldn't even take in the aspect of *what* was put into form until, later, after I'd stared at it from afar for an hour and a half, I'd drank it in long enough to be able to look at each portion of it separately

Love, Sex and Ridiculousness is written in one corner. The other three each contain a picture, chosen by Lish, called from darkness by Lilly's hand, that represent each of these three concepts.

Love is a picture of me wrapped around Lish's thigh. I was torn when I let Lish keep this picture. Grrl has a tendency to find the deepest thing she knows that makes you uncomfortable and just keep nailing it over and over again. It's like a mutant power. The pic is admittedly a fantastic capture of me. I'll be honest that, though it pains me to have such cutesy representations of me floating around, Lish's eye for photography -- which is made up in parts of gritty reality, beauty, and a twisted edge -- is so fine that I find myself acquiescing, more often than not, to the next awesome travesty. Whatever she's just snapped goes to her hard drive for permanent record. I've chosen to path my life through anything that challenges me, and finding a way to be comfortable with what she does is a constant challenge. Now it's taken a step further, with this factor of the art that she's given me.

Sex is a picture from one of our many romps. Something early on in our relationship from, perhaps even, before I even moved in with her. A pic from a day that there was snow and I didn't have to
go to work, if I recall correctly. In this corner is showcased a poignant aspect of Lilly's skill. She took two different images and combined them, in order to acquire a larger picture to draw out of blackness. It's truly well done. Lish's ability to test the comfort zone of those around them again brought out well in that it's a nude, nearly porn, depending on if you wish to look at it as such. A challenge to me in allowing it to be taken. A challenge to those who see it, to find the art in it. A challenge to those who can't to not squirm in there being porn in front of them. The whole corner showcases both Lilly and Lish's talents brought together, melded well.

Ridiculousness is a picture that has two aspects two it, or three, or four. It contains for one: a look of cutesy mischievousness that I'm fairly certain would never have been quite so 'emphaticly' full of mischief, had I never met her. It is a perfect choice of expression that, though you'd never know it unless it was pointed out, includes a bit of Lish in it. For second, my dredds have been tied up in a samurai top-knot. A style I'd explored out of it's cheerleader feel, into a more male representation (through purely in how I *wear* it, in which wearing is how I feel about it brings about how those who see me perceive it). It's ridiculous because unless you see it in person, you'll never *get* how it actually is meant to look. Yet another showcase of how Lish challenges a person. It looks seriously ridiculous. It colors the feel of how you take in the Love corner to bring out the overall ridiculous of someone hugging a thigh (though, again, one might need to ask to know that Lish's thigh is in it). It, also, changes the feel of the nude, in that the expressions resemble each other to a degree, thus highlighting that aspect of how I felt when the nude picture was taken. Sort of a languorous sexy mischief.

There was absolutely no way I could take all that in at a first glance, as well. Only after the rest of the night passed, could I return and absorb the shock of this gift and see how it all worked together for me as a whole. The better part of 2 and a half hours passed staring at it from the far side of the room before I started to feel how each sector affected the others and created an overall equilibrium that truly did represent the title.

The Feast

So raven had to take off after that for some reason or another, we all slammed into two cars and started raging down to feast. No really, to a FEAST. We went to the Marrakesh, a place we love so much. When you have 6 or more people you can simply order them to bring food, and a selection of awesome dishes makes an appearance. our way down there was interrupted by the Seafair Torchlit parade and we had to shift on the fly to find our way around the collection of fools staring at said chicaneries. Eventually we just parked up on 4th and crossed the parade, Lilly trumping *all of us* by simply striding out into the middle of the parade route and getting the matter handled.

Arriving at Marrakesh, we were met by Mecha-Travis. Trav has totally lost a whole bunch of weight and shifted his style from mellow, jovial, background personality to forward 'sly-hot' well dressed Liev Schreiber clone. Either that or Daniel Craig's cousin, I can't tell which. Dinner was fantastic. We were seated in the back room, which I fucking love. It feels more *exclusive*, though I know this is just an illusion. Lilly and Magnus (who's always a quieter type in a group but has a *presence* -- He always manages to do so much more than just *wear* black... it's more like the color *adorns* him) sat on the floor and ordered the vegetarian selection.

Later in the meal the belli dancer came out. Over the years they've had a whole selection of different girls belli dancing at the Marrakesh. The friend who introduced me to it, 3ric, indicates that it is appropriate to put money in their belt, that this is a part of the whole 'culture'. Somehow this feels like an act that cheapens their performance. True, I never asked the belly dancers back in the circus if this was a part of the culture, but they never mentioned it either.

Unfortunately I was called to dance with her. In any other occasion I'd have said *fuck that* but one is required to embarrass one's self on one's birthday, it is a rule. Never again. Good god, even Magnus belly danced better than I. *shudder*

On the whole dinner was, again, fantastic, leftovers, surprisingly, existed and they were MINE. Next I go, however, I must speak more with Lilly and Magnus. They are worthy people and I feel as if they were left out, on some level.

The movie

After we returned to the final act of birthday organization. Movies! This seems to be a Lish-standard. Also is the standard of watching movies she wouldn't touch with a TEN FOOT BATTLE LANCE. This time? Buckaroo Bonzai. I love this god damn film. John Lithgow attaching tiny jumper cables to his tongue, Jeff Goldbloom inexplicably dressing like a cowboy and standing obscenely taller than anyone else in the cast, Christopher Lloyd actually being overshadowed by other performances, Peter Weller, well before his Robocop days and random dredd aliens umping over walls. End to end, it's just beautiful, with just the right amount of absurd, yet plausible through suspended disbelief to go for that oh-so-cult feel that so many films try for and hack.

I MUST HAVE MA OVATHRUSTA. And coffee.
  • Current Music
    Pain Killer - Judas Priest
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I just watched all the external port chips (usb/ps2/isa_slots) on the speakeasy sfo secondary dns server from 1998 die over the course of a month and am revamping a POS I found by the trash to take it's place on the server rack.

R.I.P. you worn out old whore. We gave you a hard life and we love you for grooving with it for so long.
xy - leo

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gorthok i kept hucking myself at the man page like a science teacher with a hotplate and a teflon frying pan attached to a wall tossing eggs.
lishd hahahahahah wtf
lishd wtf
gorthok takes you about a dozen before something fries enough to stick
gorthok mr clegg and i did this once
gorthok best thing about clegger
gorthok if you had an idea, no matter how crazy, he'd foster it.
gorthok he used to call us 'teflon brains'
gorthok in reference to how he'd just keep hucking things at us, until something stuck
gorthok we used to tell ppl they'd 'eaten their brains for breakfast' back when the 'this is your brain on drugs' shit was on air.
gorthok then one day, while i was slamming mt dew and grading his papers, it all sort of melded
gorthok fun after school shit.
xy - leo

rip

as the glass walls of limbo surround me endlessly for the millionth time. i feel the man gone. for an aethist there is nothing more sacred than life. nothing more final than a death. it is in a moment of passing that you are judged. not in dying, not when dead. there is no judgment for those gone. it is in each of our moments that we who remain are judged.

you around me. you and i are found in question. what is it that we bring ourselves. how do we justify each moment? in his legacy peter steele brought much to all, and for the time his ripples pass in the pool of lives, there will be more for his having existed with us.

48. so early to go, so far to have made it. there've been so many over the length of their space here that did more, but 10 million times more that will do no less than demean the spirit of this life and everyone else's. here passed a man who captured a spirit that thralled a great throng of us, dark and light. we felt more than we were due, and are still inspired beyond where we would have been, without.

sources, references, inspirations... so many quote what sent them where they go. so many define what they're doing, excuse what they feel, with the light from another's eyes. truer to ourselves are we who feel the spirit of many pass through us. who can't define ourselves through trite references to others who are better known to have lived with great stregnth.

we feel deeply the throng of many flowing through us, all with a different shade of one shard of our own core reflecting the facets of our life's glittering moment. it builds our existances a nice little cage. walls shimmering of anger, and a lock burning of rage.

rest well peter. even had it been 100 years from now, your passing couldn't ever be more painful than it is to us now.
  • Current Location
    cap hill pad
xy - leo

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Soon I discovered,
That this rock thing,
Was true
Jerry Lee Lewis, was the devil
Jesus was an architect,
Previous to his career as a phrophet.

All of a sudden;
I found myself in love with the world,
So there was only one thing I could do:
Was ding a ding-lang
my dang-a-ding my dang-long ling-longs

HARC:
Listen get this
Nobody with a good car
Needs to worry about noting
You understand?

Yea,
HARC
I think I do.

Listen, get this:
Nobody, with a good car
Needs to be justified,
And I'll tell you why:
HARC:
And I'll tell you why:

I come a long way
since I believed in anything
an' I come halfway around the world!!!

What are you talking about:
1. where you come frome. is gone
2. where you thought you were going, to,
3. weren't never there
4. where you are, aint't none could until they couldawayfrom it
xy - leo

the first of, possibly 2 public service announcements

<strongbad>all comments to this journal are now screened</strongbad>. It's very unlikely that I will ever unscreen any comment to any entry.


When I first made this thing, back when dawnchylde and tanimaara first showed me the emergence of it's promise. I'd thought to make a place where I could compare thoughts of mine against eachother. A Journal. A place to see the progression of my mind's most esoteric edges, be they on the same side of the "wierdness see-saw" or "plate of equatability" and compare it's new itirations against the quiviring knife of moments ago (etherical moments or real).

But time moved on. And I left comments open. At the start, they were ok, but only did moments emerge where people commented for the consumption of all. Time has passed. I don't think there's a chance in any level of any comparitive work to dante's that any of the original cast of players are around to possibly comment in a forum protected to be only between them and I. But it might be true. Truly a way, a way to present to anyone of this, nau, barren blog-scape, to ressurect the possibility of this forum like bloging idiocy.

If not, I have *many* deadjournals. Some of which I still actually remember the passwords to and update with infrequent screams that are directed to the base pedestal that idea that I'd laid for their groundwork... and somtimes, infact more than *sometimes*, I'm a blithering idiot and post what should be there, here.

There lies the true idiocy. I've a place for everything that appears here. Yet sometimes I don't post there, but here. It's the 8 year dead dream of what once I thought to bring to pass here, periodically resurrectd with my metalhead's headbanging persistance to beat my head aginst the wall like *****chika in the r.a.salvatore. novel that did that thing to stone***** and have what I've always wanted to be real, real. so imatoolfreak's last moment intellecutal ponderings before he graduated gave me hope that a mind might survive the apex of it's schooling learning and become something like i'd dreamed my highschool companions would have followed into. So azrael's and my idea of deep thought expounded joined by my childhood fellow philosipher/ponderer ridgewalker didn't really come to pass. that was the dream of electronically expounding what, aparently, took face to face contact to build the fires that build instead of destroy.

But, ...what inspires a new post? No friend of mine, the ones I wish to have seen what hasnt' come, they're long gone. It, also, seems that communities, of whatever, post too much to see what happens in. What once was, the, now, left over friends of my core. The things that make more of my next moment than all, these seconds of half-validation, they're my lj avatars. That's fucking SAD. I still wish for what I once drempt, half hazzard and unkepmpt though my dreams and (thus my life and inspiring the random collision of true inspiriations I can't control, (those things gestating the spark of all creativity) the life of what it brought... limited or extended as each moment was sentenced, unforgivabably so, at it's inception.


the victim now betrays.

  • Current Music
    tyr- eric the red (the album. don't bother. it describes this thou')