Waiting for everything to fall

awe who remembers when everyone used to make each other signs.. awe!

anyone still read these?

so it happened...im officially 26.. yuck! haha. i cant believe that. and here i am at the same job for over two and half years. with the same guy for over three years. with the same roommate for almost three years. hmm seems to me three years ago my life officially started...doing a job on the side that i love more then anything and that people seem to actually like my work.. april wants me to shoot her and tal in love photos.. stoked for that i love those people.
my birthday started out amazing.. i didn't notice it turn midnight after going to the movie premiere and robby grabbed my face super sweetly and said happy birthday and kissed me. then took me to my gift.. a pink and white beach cruiser! its amazing i love it. my first bike thats ever just been mine. then we hung out with some of his roommates.. got sung to by ruthie and danny. then went to bed woke up and rode my bike to get jamba. then off to bowling when people showed up it was fun. i love love love my friends. i love all these people ive gotten to know the past two years and amazed at the distance they'd go for me. the letters burning boys and girls drove over an hour to come see me thats blows my mind. i ended up having a great birthday thank goodness my bestie was out of the hospital..
my life isn't where i thought itd be at 26 but after my last relationship i knew not to ever plan my future again and i havnt. i live day to day.. or maybe month to month.. i do have to plan shoots and whatnot haha. gina once told me i have the mind set of someone whos been divorced haha. i dont mind it. im ok not knowing what the future is going to hold. not knowing if ill ever move in with robby or if ill be at this job forever.
all i know is my life is going pretty decent and i wouldn't change it for anything in the world. other then have my dad closer to me.. sucks he lives in the bay and how i dont really care about going to the bay anymore.

life is going.. im alive.
still living with maryann.. been in this apt for almost a year with her for almost three years. still have my fatty love.. almost three years with her. heh.. cutest bunny ever still!
but ive also become mama to cholebear robbys cat. she loves my jacket heh.
still with robby.. over three years now and i couldnt be happier.. we're going to the bay in feb. he got us tickets to see wicked! yay!
i get to see my dad and laura i dunno who else ill get to see sadly.. but at least those two!
having great friends down here now.
working at volvo still..

thats it..
o and im more of a photographer now.. i actually get paid now for my skill heh!

yay robby is not going to be in another country on my birthday! :)
i got my fatty a new toy and man does she love it.
shes playing with it right now.. and falling into it.. shes so cute. she makes me smile.
steve albert took me home today.. his gf was like "you take her home alot :(" i mean really.. no way.. hes not robby.. and im not her. we dont look at eachother like that. we're just friends.. shes the one who cheated on him. shes knows i have a boyfriend. blag! seriously blag!
joey cape shows coming up.
im happy. "knocks on wood" really happy.
i love watching shows with my love and laughing at the tv and making bad jokes and getting into tickle wars.
i miss my dad.. i hate living so far from him. i wont lie. i dont think ill ever get used to it.

robby might be on tour for my birthday. kinda bums me out oh well.. i guess thats what i get for dating a guy in a band huh? haha

love justin long.. hes just not that into you its a cute movie..
i borrowed nick and nora to watch with robby soon :)
had a shoot today.. went well i think ... our apt can be a studio.. who knew?! haha

according to gina im sexy but i choose to be cute instead of sexy haha.

my sister is telling my dad we talk alot more than we do.. and that i dont have any pictures of my dad on myspace.. lies!

june is going to be interesting.. saying goodbye to my grandma and seeing my sisters.. weeeeird. kinda wish robby would come but i know its just for family.. so he cant.

we're going to miami in march :) im excited we havnt been for two years! seeing drew. jon. and his mom.

so i was going through something today and icall my dad as per usual. .my dad and i are freakishly close. hes like my loriele girlmore haha.. and i guess he called my oldest sister monica and was talking to her and she was saying how she really regrets not being a better big sister to me. or a big sister to me at all. we never bonded.. i dont know if we ever will.. im not opposed to the idea. kary and i are myspace friends. its hard to try and figure out what to say to kary since shes the harder of the two sister but still.
my aunt and cousin were telling my dad how they dont think robby worships the ground i walk on.. i dont freakin' want that. my dad stuck up for him good daddy.. my dad likes robby alot and says he sees nothing but respect from us. and that is true. .i hated asking him point blank the question today.. hes never taken that tone with me. i felt horrible. i knew it wasnt true the moment he said "WHAT?!" today sucked.. im reaady for it to be over.. i couldnt eat all day.. i was shaking and i felt sick.

today robby offically became my longest relationship :)
i love him more everyday.
like my tattoo says "love like you've never been hurt before"

my dad is coming im excited.. i miss him. i hate being so far away from him.. yes im a daddys girl what can i say i wont deny it. after all this stress from work im looking forward to my dad.. he wants a red beer while hes here. .haha damn you robby <3...

went out to lunch with patrick yesterday. dinner with bethy and lunch with arman today .. woulda gone to dinner with nat if i wasnt doing laundry. haha i felt like miss popular :)..

photoshoots are coming its awesome. i love taking pictures and i wanna use my new camera dang it!!

I've become one of those girls :O/. I don't sleep well if he's not near me.
I havnt been sleeping that great the past week then last night I passed out with my head on his chest and our legs intertined.
I woke up and he stopped the movie for another night.
Cute thing he did though was he went and got his glasses out of the car so he could lay in bed with me while he played his game so I could sleep. He noticed I sleep better too I think. He's cute. I can't believe how much I still have butterflies.

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new years was alright..
i worked new years eve like i always do (work that is) got to robbys around 630ish. we just hung out there for awhile.. ryan came over with beers for everyone and hugs. hes such a happy kid..his gf.. a lil odd. but anywho.. we were going to go to my fav mexican food but it was closed. he was trying to cheer me up since im so dead tried from working all the time and the stress is eating me alive. so we went to my place got my laundry to do at his house and got chipotle which i never have. then we went back to his place and watched carnivale. i like that show. its different sad its off the air. then tim called so we went over there and did our yearly spending new years with tim and jamie.. which is cool. jamies gonna do my hair on the 18th since the roots are coming out. its not that noticeable but it is.

my dad is coming next weekend since he can tell i need a distraction and it sucks because robby and i dont have the same days off.. and now the dolphins are in the playoffs so hes busy every sunday. haha yes my boyfriend loves his football its cute. he says he was glad i wasnt there this past weekend because he was kinda embarressed how much into the game he was.

we're at two years. and still going strong. :)

even with the bumps its ok. he doesnt seem to be hurting that much over eudora anymore.. but then again he wont talk about it. i still dont agree with what they do or how they did it. but i dont dislike the guys they are good guys.. they just made a bad choice. they were shady. but this other band i guess is pretty big which is good. hes probably going to asia with them in the summer :(

well nothing new else.. just working and taking pictures.. got my new camera a canon digital rebel xsi. :)