Best week in a while- * managed to sell 6 pairs of shoes and 2 handbags * finally got my return to work credit through - yay for moneys! * live at leeds this weekend * quiz last night * sunshine * pretty boys in the sunshine
Also just generally in an ace mood, if a little worried by the lack of sleeping, but hey, it means I can get even more done whilst in super-productive mode.
Now if I can just convince the government to stop giving me benefit i'm no longer entitled to, then everything will be sorted
I managed to burn my hand on the oven on unday. and altho it doesn't hurt (Top Tip: fix burns by going to the cinema and holding a slushy drink on them for about an hour) it's annoying me - the skin is all weird, and i'd like it to either heal properly or give me an interesting scar. I think it's just going to piss about doing nothing for a week or so tho.
In other news I just weirded myself out by reading my journal entries from 2-3 years ago. I find it very strange that for someone who's so self-analytical I didn't notice i was getting ill for so long.
So - teh weekend Friday: Stopped in and watched navy cop dad (NCIS) with my sister... was meant to be going out, but after a stressfull couple of days being let down by the post, i just couldn't be bothered. It's amazing how important the mail is to me. If anyone ever wants to do me a big favour, send me something in the post. Saturday: Went to York- shopping with my sister. I didn't buy anything, but it was a nice day out and i enjoyed "paying" for our lunch - i used some of the luncheon vouchers i get for doing surveys. Helen treats me so often that's it's nice to do it for her, even if it's not real money. York is confusing though, i swear we must have walked in some kind of clover leaf pattern, we kept ending up back at the minster from different directions. In the evening we got chinese, then brought Sena over for wine, cheesecake and green wing... i really like the kind of socialising that involes a sofa. Sunday: Lazy day with Jamie, eating food and watching bad tv. Then we went to the cinema to see The Golden Compass - i enjoyed it, although was annoyed at them missing a chunk at the end. A pretty good weekend, i'm feeling quite a bit saner than the other day, so all is good.
At the moment i'm feeling really weird - over the summer i pulled quite a long way out of my depression, then i had a major dip and have come back up again. But if feels almost like i've come up too quickly... I'm having major mood swings, i can go from calmly optimist to tears to ecstatic to complete blankness and back again several times a day. I think a lot of it is due to the fact i'm not really sleeping - it gets to bedtime and i'm still wide awake and have a million plans i for things i need to do... but it's too late to start anything. So i plan all the things i'll do the next day - but then when i wake up i have no energy until the afternoon, and by then something else to do always seems to come up, and then it's the middle of the night and i'm fizzing with energy again- and yet somehow nothing seems to get done. Don't get me wrong, i know i'm a lot better than i was, but this up and down worries me- the medical professionals have previously considered assessing me for bipolar disorder, but considered it was more important to deal with the depression. I know it's likely that if i were bipolar i would have had a manic episode by now, so it's probably me worrying over nothing. Bah - shall stop blathering now.
Bah, these short days do nothing for my mental health, and neither doe crappy xmas post holding up parcels. On the plus side, my sister is ace, she left nik naks in the kitchen for me!
So, long time, no post... Mostly right now I'm not sleeping well and being poor. Other than that things are not too bad. Feeling oddly optimistic right now about nothing in particular
